Chapter 4

It had been silent for almost an entire minute, but for Monica it felt like a lifetime. How could she be pregnant? Her pregnancy test surely said negative, and she didn't really notice many symptoms. The doctor immediately broke the silence.

"You didn't know?" He said.

Monica just looked at him, her mouth slightly open in shock. "Monica?" She could faintly hear

Chandler's voice through the phone, but she couldn't move a muscle to pick it up.

"Well I'm going to give you a minute, and when you're ready, come out to the front desk. We'll schedule you an ultrasound." The doctor walked out of the room, closing the door.

Monica blinked back to reality, picking up her phone.

"Monica, are you still there?" Chandler asked.

"Hey." She managed to get out.

"You're pregnant?"

"I guess so. Can we talk about this when I get home, Chandler? I've got to go." She immediately hung up before he could give her a reply.

She grabbed her black leather handbag and walked out, walking out to the front desk. "Can I make an appointment for next week?" She mumbled, without really looking at the nurse receptionist.

"Of course. We'll see you on the 18th at 2pm, Miss Geller!" Monica just nodded and walked out of the office, getting into a cab almost immediately.

How could this be happening? Well, of course she knew how it happened, but she was still in shock. Of course, she loved Chandler, and was excited to start this new relationship with him, but they had just decided to get together. She knew she could handle this, but she was nervous for his sake more than anything.

Chandler heard the door open and close and jumped up, hoping it was Monica.

"Are you ever not here anymore?" Rachel blurted out as she threw her grey purse on the table.

Chandler turned from the couch. "I'm just waiting for Monica to get home. I have a work party tonight that we're going to."

Rachel could tell that he seemed uneasy and had a nervous look on his face. "Honey, are you okay?" she said from the kitchen, shuffling through the mail, but giving him a concerned look.

"I'm fine.. it's just…" He swallowed. "Monica is pregnant."

Rachel dropped the mail. "What? I thought the test said it was negative?"

Chandler just realized he told the biggest gossip in the group and instantly regretted blurting it out, but he just sighed. "She went to the doctor today, and found out that she was. I guess it was a false negative or something."

"And you're okay with this?" Rachel walked over to sit with him on the couch.

"I have to be, don't I?" He licked his lips and grabbed his knees, clearly stressed. "I love Monica so much, and I know this is something she really wants. I just don't know if I'm ready."

"Hey guys, what's up?" Phoebe walked in, interrupting their conversation.

"Monica is pregnant!" Rachel blurted out. Chandler buried his face, shaking his head. He should have known she wasn't going to be able to hold that one in for too long.

"I knew something huge was going on! My fingernails grew so much yesterday!" Phoebe came over to join them in the living room. Chandler, rolling his eyes at Phoebe's comment.

The door opened again, Ross and Joey coming in with a pizza.

"Great, everyone's here!" Chandler said sarcastically.

"What's his problem?" Joey said, grabbing a slice of pizza.

"Monica's pregnant!" Phoebe shouted.

The door opened again.

Monica.

Everyone turned to Monica saying nothing, just looking at her. Monica had a slight look of concern on her face.

"What's going on? Why are you all acting weird?" She let out a little nervous laughter.

"They know you're pregnant." Chandler didn't make eye contact with her, he knew she would be mad that everyone ended up finding out.

"Guys, can I talk to Chandler please?'

Everyone nodded, not moving.

"Alone."

Everyone then got up and walked out.

"Mon, I'm sorry. I didn't mean for everyone to find out."

Monica walked over from the kitchen and sat next to him on the couch. "Chandler, I'm not mad. Of course, it probably should have come from me, but it's fine." She grabbed his hand.

"So, you're really pregnant, huh." Chandler mumbled.

"Yeah. When I first got into the cab, I was pretty shocked, but now I'm excited. Of course this isn't how planned on having a baby, but this something I've always wanted."

"And it's really mine?" Chandler ignored her, continuing.

Monica let out a little laugh. "Yes, Chandler. 100%. Are you okay?"

"I'm just—I'm not ready to be a Dad, Mon. You know I'm awful in relationships and change and huge things like this."

"What are you trying to say?" Monica put her hand on his thigh.

"I don't know. This is my child and it deserves my love, but I'm weird and awkward and don't know how to handle this."

"Chandler, we're in this together. You know that."

"I could just be having one of my Chandler freak-out moments, but I just don't know if I should be raising a baby." He swallowed, not looking at Monica.

"Chandler, we're doing this together." He could hear her holding back tears in her voice.

"Mon…" He whispered.

She was crying now. "Chandler, I can't do this alone. I can't raise a baby by myself. Not without you."

Chandler hated seeing Monica cry. He wanted this relationship so bad. He loved her and just wanted to hold her in his arms. But his fears of commitment and moving extremely fast were getting to him. Why was he letting this get to him?

"I need to take a walk. I'll call you later." He broke himself from her embrace on his leg and got up, walking out and over to his apartment.

Monica felt numb as she wiped the tears from her eyes. Deep down she had a feeling that he would come around, but this was Chandler. She honestly had no idea what was happening from here.