CHAPTER FOUR: THE RIDDLE OF THE FULL MOON
"Hey Lily." He stood in a dark doorway with shadows across his face, when he stood into the light I realized it was James Potter. "I've never seen you before" He said and it was an odd thing to say. "Yes you have! Im Lily Evans!" I said angrily, why was he preteding not to know me? "I don't know a Lily Evans." he said moving closer towards me but his face was once agian lost in shadow. "You have to know me." I said sensing him coming closer with ever breath I took and I felt his lips close to mine...we kissed for what seemed like an eternity. "I love you Lily." he whisperd and we kissed agian and I never wanted it to end. And then, he was there no more. I lay in the darkness of my dorm my eyes flew open but he wasn't there, nor had he ever been. It was a dream.
"You did not dream that!" Lo said shocked. "I did!" I insisted as Lo, Bernadette and I talked in Divination, and we didn't even get in trouble for discussing it, since we were doing dream interpritations. "Thats the weirdest dream I have ever heard." Bernadette said furrowing her eye brows. "Maybe its not, maybe she is secretly inlove with James?" Lo asked sharply. "No, I am not secretly inlove with anyone." I insisted. "So explain your dream? Why James Potter?" Bernadette said lowering her voice. "I have no idea." I said simply. "Well these books don't know shit anyways I'm not looking to them for answers." Lo said shutting her dream oracle. "Maybe you should go on a date with him, you owe the poor bloke a favor, and it would sure as hell make his day." Lo said. "Your the one who told me never to date him." I pointed out. "True and I stand by that desicion, but ONE date is completely differnt then dating." Lo said "I guess your right....But I'm gonna have to think about it....I just don't know." I felt more confused then I had ever been before. I wasn't sure whether or not I had feelings for James or if he really liked me and didn't just want to go out with me because he just wanted a girl friend or somthing stupid. Even when you attend a school where you learn potions and spells, you have the same hormones and feelings as normal teenagers. "I can't decide." I said frustrated. "When your ready to date him, you will know, so if you can't decide then don't" Bernadette advised. Lo paused then said "She's right, sorry for pushing you, you'll know when you want to." "Thanks, I just wish I did know." I sighed and leaned back in my chair with my eyes shut tryng to block out the room, and trying to contemplate about James Potter. "Ms. Evans you miss undertood the assingment, you are not to dream IN my class you are to iterprate the dreams you have already had". teacher shouted scandelized, since it was the end of class I didn't bother trying to interprate any more instead I packed my bag ready and waiting for the day to end.
"Remus is gone? For one, maybe two days? why? I demand explanation!?" Lo screamed at James and Sirius in the common room that night. "Calm down, don't wet yourself." Sirius said lazily, obviously in no hurry to explain. "He has to take care of his mom for a day or so, she is sick. He never told you?" James said in the same lazy disconcerned voice. "No, he never me! Do...Do you two have him locked up in a closet somewhere?" Lo yelled. Sirius and James Burst into laughter. "Oh you caught us!" Sirius said. "Yeah thats what we do when Remus pisses us off, we shuve him in a closet and lock the door. James said still laughing. "Well you never know!" Lo shouted back, blushing. "I'm sure Remus is fine, Lo." I said soothingly. "I can check a few closets if you like." Bernadette offerd unable to hide her smile. Lo shook her head, "No I don't think they have him in a closet...but a cabinet is a differnt issue completely" she joked. We laughed and went to bed. The next week had a highly charged atmosphere because of one reason, the first quiddich game of the season Gryffindor VS. Slytherin. James was the center of everything and he loved it. "Hey James! I'll be watching." said Lyris Esther, the Ravenclaw prefect I had met on the train. She wasn't the first girl to wish him luck, nor was she the last. James didn't mind all the attention he messed up his hair so it looked as though he had just got off his precious broomstick and he nicked a snitch from the team practice and would realease in the hallway and catch it just before it escaped him. This was often followed by applause and Peter Pettigrew was known to jump up and down at times. Remus also came back and after assurig Lo, that his mother was sick and he had not spent a his time in a closet or cabinet Lo apoligized for accusing James and Sirius. The night of the match was unsually quiet in the common room, James was sitting with Sirius, Remus and Peter (What a suprise) and instead of being loud and cheerful James seemed oddly subdued...was he nervous?
"I give you the GRYFFINDOR TEAM!" The announcer, Lyle Jordan shouted over the thundering applause from the scarlet and gold end of the staduim. It was true, too that most of the Hufflepuff and Ravenclaws were cheering too. "Justin Wood! Keeper and Captain!" Lyle yelled as Justin stopped in the middle of the feild redy to face his oppentiants. "Alezander Johnson as a chaser!" Alexander Johnson a very cute african boy stood on Wood's right side. "Nixie Olive chaser number two!" He called as a short blonde 2cd year walked tentatvily onto the feild, even from a disrance it wa clear that the poor girl was shaking. "The third Chaser is Acantha Primrose!" He yelled as another girl, this one in 6th year, walked to stand with her team. "Our Gryffindor beathers are Killian Burl, 4th year and Laidley Oakes (Sounds a bit like a cearel no?) also in 4th year." He paused so people could show their support for the first six members of the team. "AND THE BEST SEEKER GRYFFINDOR, NO THE ENTIRE SCHOOL HAS SEEN FOR A GOOD MANY YEARS, JAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMES POTTER!" Lyle yelled and James, of course, go the loudest applause yet. "Now, please welcome the oppsing Slytherin team." Lyle said. "Lets introduce our seeker and captian Charles Flint. Our two beaters Devlin Welford and Doyle Nott. The keeper Rudophulus Lestrange, and the chasers Jarvis Cooper, Samuel Roe and Gerry Cone." His voice was notebaly less enthusiastic as he announced the Slytherin team who were now facing the Gryffindors. Wood and Flint shook (And it seemed as though rather forecfully) hands and the whistle was blown, the match had begun. James did a few laps and a couple of impressive manuavers while the rest of the game was heated and brutal. Nixie Olive was kncoked off her broom when Devlin Welford, a slytherin beater, whacked a bludger at her head when she didn't even have the quaffle. In retaliation the Gyrffindor beater "Dropped" his club on the slytherin seekers head. After an hour of playing the score was Gryffindor 130 and Slytherin 90. James had stopped doing tricks and wa intently focused on finding the snitch. His eyes always scanning the feild, ever watchful....god he was cute when he was serious, if quiddich was the only thing that he cared about, than quiddich games would be the only time I cared about him...oh and I had a sticker on my hand that james had given me just before the game it read "My heart belongs to a sexy, daring, wonderful keeper:AKA James Potter" I don't owe him any more favors now,(Thank you merlin!) and no one had noticed, execpt for Haven, Lark, Bernadette, and Lo who promised to tease me forever. All of a sudden James's eyes lit up and he speed down ward from around 70 feet in the air the slytherin seeker Charles Flint was hurling behind him. I saw James extend his hand for a glittering gold ball, as the staduim held its breath and cheers exploded from the Gyrffindors as his Fingers closed around the snitch making the score Gryffinfors 280 and Slytherin 90.
"Party!" was the first word James said as he got off his broom and was carried, CARRIED like a fucking hero( and I dont even swear!) into the Gryffindor common room. He is a good seeker, granted but he is not, IS NOT A HERO OR A GOD! Although he did have his fans, the biggest James Potter fan, was James Potter himself, without a doubt. and somewhere on the now empty windy quiddich staduim lay a sticker with a smeared message as it had been stepped on so many times, it landed in the dirt near the locker room and it had been thrown to the ground when Acantha Primrose kissed James Potter after the game. If James didn't like me anymore fine. I wasn't going to even consider liking him. But if I never liked him anyway why was I hurting so much? James and Acantha had there own private corner in the common room while Sirius was throwing small objects at them, they were so busy they hardly noticed. Gods it hurt. "Listen, he likes you he is just...a guy and guys want to be...er loved and you wont...um give him any love and so he ound another....um...er...another love giver." Bernadette said trying to make me feel better, it wasnt working. "Oh you didn't even like him Lily, stop being such a party recker." Haven said leaving us to make out with Justin. "I hate him he is so arrogent he doesn't understand anything." I said angrily. "What exactly doesn't he understand?" Lo asked puzzeled. "That I like him!" I said louder than I meant to, and went up to the dormatory, James must have seen me go because I heard his voice. "Get off me Acantha! Lily, hey! Hey Evans! Evans wait! Listen!" I didn't pause on the stairs but slammed the door in my room and flung my self on the bed drawing the curtains. I heard Lo and Bernadette come in and fling away my bed hangings staring at me in astonishment. "You do like him." Lo said disbelieving. "No." I sniffed, "I DID like him."
"I'm sorry." Said James we were together in the locker room. It was cold, I shiverd. He put his arm around me and kissed my cheek. "I love you." I said crying and he was crying too. "I'm looking at you through ice" He said and magically a sheet of ice came between us, it was thick and cold and his face was clouded by it. "James?" I said "James? JAMES? JAMES?" I yelled pouding helplessly on the ice that seperated us. Then I felt some one shaking me. "James?" I asked lowering my voice agian.
"No, honey its Bernadette." I opened my eyes and Bernadette was holding me looking at me with an odd expression on her face. "The ice? he is,or was..."I mumbled embarressed. "Don't worry only I heard you. Everyone else is awake and downstairs already it's ten thirty." she said. "What did I say?" I asked dreading the answer. "James....You said James, a lot. and It sounded PRETTY wrong if you ask me, but lets hope it was a PG dream." she said winking. "Oh gods." I mumbled burying my face in my hands. "Don't worry its not a big deal." Bernadette said handing me my robes and pushing me in the bathroom to get ready. I explained the dream to her while brushing my hair and getting dressed. "Ahh so I was mistaken, it wasn't a sex dream." she said as we walked into the common room. "Hi Lily." said James he looked awkward. I didn't say anything. "Listen um I don't like Acantha, we are just, friends..." He explained. "OF course you are Potter." I said shrewdly. "No I mean I like you, but I just, I didn't think it matterd to you, I didn't think you liked me at all..." he said "I don't like you, it does't matter." I said,my voice a little shakey...I never was able to tell a lie. "Yes, you do!" he said grinning "I don't." I said furiosly. "And you obviously have more in your mind then just me anyways." I stormed out fo the common room Bernadette following me along with James and Sirius. "Lily!" James yelled urgenecy in his voice. "Whatever there was, its over!" I called back. "There wasn't anything!" Sirius said to me. "Yes there was, but if it was nothing, there isn't even that left, he disgusts me! thinking he can just make out with anyone with anyone because he is some goddamed quiddich champoin, thinking he is jsut great and everyone should execpt whatever he does...." I turned around and yelled "GOOD-BYE JAMES!"
And so Halloween came and went. October faded into November and I hadn't spoken to James for almost a month. He was busy with Acantha anyways. Sirius told me in transfiguration one day that I was an idiot and James was dating Acantha to make me jealous. I didn't belive him, I just fumed about being called an idiot. I never planned to speak to James agian, but you see I had too. Remus went away agian. "Potter, "I said making sure to keep my voice cold and harsh. "Where is Remus!" Lo said glaring. "Don't give me that bullshit about-" Lo began "He is visting his sick mom okay?" James said and looked at me. "Hogsmeade visit before the term ends. Acantha and I didn;t work out so well. She got mad and dumped me because I kinda had "L.E" scribbled on some spare parchment, and she guessed that LE stood for, Lily Evans. Evans I don't know what it is about you, but I can't get you out of my head." at the mention of head he messed up his hair. "Will you go with me to hogsmeade?" he asked. "Maybe I'll see you there." I said my voice not as cold. "Great." he grinned "WE'RE NOT THROUGH WITH YOU! Where is Remus?" Lo shrieked. "LOCKED IN A CLOSET!" Sirius yelled sarcastically and a fuming Lo stompped up to the dorm. "He isn't really?" Bernadette asked. "No." Sirius grinned "But it sure did get rid of Lo." he said and began conversing in low voices with Peter and James. "Hey!" Bernadette said pointing towards the sky "Its a full moon." she said staring at it. and sure enough a bright slivery orb hung silhoutted agiasnt the black sky. "Its beautiful." Bernadette sighed. "It is." I agreed. "Ha." James said loudly "Its beautiful al right, actaully its my favorite night of the month, and same for Sirius and Peter, not sure about Remus though." James said. "Oh he loves it." Sirius said sarcastically. "Why wouldn't he?" I asked curiosly. "NO reason." Siurs said stifling a laugha nd went back to his conversation with Peter and James. "You dont think Remus's mom is a werewolf?" I asked nervously "It would make sense." Bernadette said "Thats why he would have to go home every month to look after her...but does he always go home on the full moon?" she said thoughtfully. "We can check the lunar chart next month." I sighed "Wait though, why would James and Sirius and Peter LOVE the full moon if Remus was sent home to care for his mom?" Bernadette said suddenly. "Maybe Remus is the werewolf?" I asked wearily. "Why would they love that?" she asked. "Good point, lets not mention our werewolf theories to Lo, I think she might blame us." I said. "Yeah James and Sirius might love this time of the month, but they dont have to deal with Lo." Bernadette said giggling. "Too true." I added as we went into our dorms for bed.
"Justin was saying-" Haven went on at breakfast, she an Justin had gone on a midnight stroll. It was funny she thought we cared. "Will you shut up already Haven? God." Lo said. "Oh I'm sorry someone is mad because they boyfriend is a momma's boy and has to go home." Haven spat back at her, sometimes I wish I didn't know Haven. "Shut up Haven I'm warning you!" Lo stood her wand raised, just as Remus came into the great hal, it looked as though he had been ill, not his mother, dark circles were beneath his eyes and he looked thinner than usual. Lo practically dropped her wand as she ran up to see her boyfriend. "Were you sick?" I heard her ask, curios myself to know the answer. "No my mother was maybe, I caught a bit of it" he said. Lo seemed happy with the answer but there was something in his voice told me he was lying. "Well come on girls, Thursday you know what that means-" Bernadette said rising form the table.
"Transfiguration class today you will be vanishing humming birds. You may begin." Professor McGonagall instructed, "All right lets get down to buisness as usual then." Sirius said holding the bird still for me. "Is Remus a werewolf?" I asked. he was so suprised he dropped thr hummingbird which Professor McGonagall returned to us with a reproving look on her face. "No. What gave you that idea?" Sirius said regaining his composer. "That he vanishes for a day or so, just as the full moon comes around, he does it every month and there is no proof he visits his mother." "There is no proof he doesn.'t Sirius said rasing one eyebrow. "Well is he a werewofl?" I asked agian not satasfied. "No he isn't." "Then why does he not like the full moon, you let that slip last night in the common room." I argued. "Do you have a problem with werewolves?" Sirius asked sharply. "No, I just want to know the truth." I said staring into his eyes wiht mine. "Yes he is a werewolf, but you will tell NO ONE. Not Lo, not Bernadette, understand?" he said. I nodded. It wasn't my favorite transfiguration class ever.
"I think Remus is a werewolf." Lo told me and Bernadette at lunch, looking at us carefully to observe our reactions. "I don't think that matters at all." I said plainly. "My uncle is a werewolf, and we had already suspected that." Berndette said and Lo looked relieved and went on "Actaully I KNOW he is a werewolf he told me in transfiguration, and I told him at least you get to turn into a wolf every month and not a troll or some other gross creature, he laughed." she smiled. "I knew you guys would understand but Im NEVER telling Haven or Lark. Argh, imagine how happy Haven would be to have aother reason to put me down." Lo said annoyed. "Well I suppose its all for the best that we know. I mean we have found out the answer to the riddle of the full moon." I said happily.
"Lily, come to me" James Potter yelled tome from across ther lake, his refelctiopn was all I could see. "I can't its too far to swim!" I called back to him but the wind carried my voice away and I knew he hadn't heard me. "Come to me!" He told me agian. "I can't" I said, he heard me this time and snaped his fingers he jumped on a broom and soared acros the lake. Grabbing my hand I was pulled onto the broom with him and we flew away over the trees. "He is coming Lily." He said his voice serous and frightened. "Who is coming?" I asked feeling cold sweep over me. "Voldemort." James whisperd. "Take Harry and go." he said "I'll hold him off." he was saying these things that made no sense. "Who is Harry?" I said bewilderd. "Its happened he is here." He said and James swerved on the broom throwing us both to the ground. I woke up just as the ground rushing up towards me was about to be my final resting place. Shivering I wrapped my blankte tighter around me. The dream left me wiht a scary feeling and I personally liked my other James dreams a lot more.
AN: ahh another chappy finished, in another day. I think its coming along well. Hre is another little tid bit on my insight to the nmes I've chosen :ACANTHA: means Sharp, pointed, thorned, and PRIMROSE means First rose! so you put it together its "Thorned first rose" hehe clever huh? anyways I know I have been updating a lot lately but I cant promise my next update will be son bc I have weekend plans so expect Chapter 5 sometimes around next Monday or Tuesday. I REALLY want to get this fic finished before august 26th (My frist day of school) bc If it isn't finished by then It wonot be finished til prolly mid to late November.READ AND REVIEW SO I WILL KNOW WHETHR OR NOT TO POST CHAPTERS-April
"Hey Lily." He stood in a dark doorway with shadows across his face, when he stood into the light I realized it was James Potter. "I've never seen you before" He said and it was an odd thing to say. "Yes you have! Im Lily Evans!" I said angrily, why was he preteding not to know me? "I don't know a Lily Evans." he said moving closer towards me but his face was once agian lost in shadow. "You have to know me." I said sensing him coming closer with ever breath I took and I felt his lips close to mine...we kissed for what seemed like an eternity. "I love you Lily." he whisperd and we kissed agian and I never wanted it to end. And then, he was there no more. I lay in the darkness of my dorm my eyes flew open but he wasn't there, nor had he ever been. It was a dream.
"You did not dream that!" Lo said shocked. "I did!" I insisted as Lo, Bernadette and I talked in Divination, and we didn't even get in trouble for discussing it, since we were doing dream interpritations. "Thats the weirdest dream I have ever heard." Bernadette said furrowing her eye brows. "Maybe its not, maybe she is secretly inlove with James?" Lo asked sharply. "No, I am not secretly inlove with anyone." I insisted. "So explain your dream? Why James Potter?" Bernadette said lowering her voice. "I have no idea." I said simply. "Well these books don't know shit anyways I'm not looking to them for answers." Lo said shutting her dream oracle. "Maybe you should go on a date with him, you owe the poor bloke a favor, and it would sure as hell make his day." Lo said. "Your the one who told me never to date him." I pointed out. "True and I stand by that desicion, but ONE date is completely differnt then dating." Lo said "I guess your right....But I'm gonna have to think about it....I just don't know." I felt more confused then I had ever been before. I wasn't sure whether or not I had feelings for James or if he really liked me and didn't just want to go out with me because he just wanted a girl friend or somthing stupid. Even when you attend a school where you learn potions and spells, you have the same hormones and feelings as normal teenagers. "I can't decide." I said frustrated. "When your ready to date him, you will know, so if you can't decide then don't" Bernadette advised. Lo paused then said "She's right, sorry for pushing you, you'll know when you want to." "Thanks, I just wish I did know." I sighed and leaned back in my chair with my eyes shut tryng to block out the room, and trying to contemplate about James Potter. "Ms. Evans you miss undertood the assingment, you are not to dream IN my class you are to iterprate the dreams you have already had". teacher shouted scandelized, since it was the end of class I didn't bother trying to interprate any more instead I packed my bag ready and waiting for the day to end.
"Remus is gone? For one, maybe two days? why? I demand explanation!?" Lo screamed at James and Sirius in the common room that night. "Calm down, don't wet yourself." Sirius said lazily, obviously in no hurry to explain. "He has to take care of his mom for a day or so, she is sick. He never told you?" James said in the same lazy disconcerned voice. "No, he never me! Do...Do you two have him locked up in a closet somewhere?" Lo yelled. Sirius and James Burst into laughter. "Oh you caught us!" Sirius said. "Yeah thats what we do when Remus pisses us off, we shuve him in a closet and lock the door. James said still laughing. "Well you never know!" Lo shouted back, blushing. "I'm sure Remus is fine, Lo." I said soothingly. "I can check a few closets if you like." Bernadette offerd unable to hide her smile. Lo shook her head, "No I don't think they have him in a closet...but a cabinet is a differnt issue completely" she joked. We laughed and went to bed. The next week had a highly charged atmosphere because of one reason, the first quiddich game of the season Gryffindor VS. Slytherin. James was the center of everything and he loved it. "Hey James! I'll be watching." said Lyris Esther, the Ravenclaw prefect I had met on the train. She wasn't the first girl to wish him luck, nor was she the last. James didn't mind all the attention he messed up his hair so it looked as though he had just got off his precious broomstick and he nicked a snitch from the team practice and would realease in the hallway and catch it just before it escaped him. This was often followed by applause and Peter Pettigrew was known to jump up and down at times. Remus also came back and after assurig Lo, that his mother was sick and he had not spent a his time in a closet or cabinet Lo apoligized for accusing James and Sirius. The night of the match was unsually quiet in the common room, James was sitting with Sirius, Remus and Peter (What a suprise) and instead of being loud and cheerful James seemed oddly subdued...was he nervous?
"I give you the GRYFFINDOR TEAM!" The announcer, Lyle Jordan shouted over the thundering applause from the scarlet and gold end of the staduim. It was true, too that most of the Hufflepuff and Ravenclaws were cheering too. "Justin Wood! Keeper and Captain!" Lyle yelled as Justin stopped in the middle of the feild redy to face his oppentiants. "Alezander Johnson as a chaser!" Alexander Johnson a very cute african boy stood on Wood's right side. "Nixie Olive chaser number two!" He called as a short blonde 2cd year walked tentatvily onto the feild, even from a disrance it wa clear that the poor girl was shaking. "The third Chaser is Acantha Primrose!" He yelled as another girl, this one in 6th year, walked to stand with her team. "Our Gryffindor beathers are Killian Burl, 4th year and Laidley Oakes (Sounds a bit like a cearel no?) also in 4th year." He paused so people could show their support for the first six members of the team. "AND THE BEST SEEKER GRYFFINDOR, NO THE ENTIRE SCHOOL HAS SEEN FOR A GOOD MANY YEARS, JAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMES POTTER!" Lyle yelled and James, of course, go the loudest applause yet. "Now, please welcome the oppsing Slytherin team." Lyle said. "Lets introduce our seeker and captian Charles Flint. Our two beaters Devlin Welford and Doyle Nott. The keeper Rudophulus Lestrange, and the chasers Jarvis Cooper, Samuel Roe and Gerry Cone." His voice was notebaly less enthusiastic as he announced the Slytherin team who were now facing the Gryffindors. Wood and Flint shook (And it seemed as though rather forecfully) hands and the whistle was blown, the match had begun. James did a few laps and a couple of impressive manuavers while the rest of the game was heated and brutal. Nixie Olive was kncoked off her broom when Devlin Welford, a slytherin beater, whacked a bludger at her head when she didn't even have the quaffle. In retaliation the Gyrffindor beater "Dropped" his club on the slytherin seekers head. After an hour of playing the score was Gryffindor 130 and Slytherin 90. James had stopped doing tricks and wa intently focused on finding the snitch. His eyes always scanning the feild, ever watchful....god he was cute when he was serious, if quiddich was the only thing that he cared about, than quiddich games would be the only time I cared about him...oh and I had a sticker on my hand that james had given me just before the game it read "My heart belongs to a sexy, daring, wonderful keeper:AKA James Potter" I don't owe him any more favors now,(Thank you merlin!) and no one had noticed, execpt for Haven, Lark, Bernadette, and Lo who promised to tease me forever. All of a sudden James's eyes lit up and he speed down ward from around 70 feet in the air the slytherin seeker Charles Flint was hurling behind him. I saw James extend his hand for a glittering gold ball, as the staduim held its breath and cheers exploded from the Gyrffindors as his Fingers closed around the snitch making the score Gryffinfors 280 and Slytherin 90.
"Party!" was the first word James said as he got off his broom and was carried, CARRIED like a fucking hero( and I dont even swear!) into the Gryffindor common room. He is a good seeker, granted but he is not, IS NOT A HERO OR A GOD! Although he did have his fans, the biggest James Potter fan, was James Potter himself, without a doubt. and somewhere on the now empty windy quiddich staduim lay a sticker with a smeared message as it had been stepped on so many times, it landed in the dirt near the locker room and it had been thrown to the ground when Acantha Primrose kissed James Potter after the game. If James didn't like me anymore fine. I wasn't going to even consider liking him. But if I never liked him anyway why was I hurting so much? James and Acantha had there own private corner in the common room while Sirius was throwing small objects at them, they were so busy they hardly noticed. Gods it hurt. "Listen, he likes you he is just...a guy and guys want to be...er loved and you wont...um give him any love and so he ound another....um...er...another love giver." Bernadette said trying to make me feel better, it wasnt working. "Oh you didn't even like him Lily, stop being such a party recker." Haven said leaving us to make out with Justin. "I hate him he is so arrogent he doesn't understand anything." I said angrily. "What exactly doesn't he understand?" Lo asked puzzeled. "That I like him!" I said louder than I meant to, and went up to the dormatory, James must have seen me go because I heard his voice. "Get off me Acantha! Lily, hey! Hey Evans! Evans wait! Listen!" I didn't pause on the stairs but slammed the door in my room and flung my self on the bed drawing the curtains. I heard Lo and Bernadette come in and fling away my bed hangings staring at me in astonishment. "You do like him." Lo said disbelieving. "No." I sniffed, "I DID like him."
"I'm sorry." Said James we were together in the locker room. It was cold, I shiverd. He put his arm around me and kissed my cheek. "I love you." I said crying and he was crying too. "I'm looking at you through ice" He said and magically a sheet of ice came between us, it was thick and cold and his face was clouded by it. "James?" I said "James? JAMES? JAMES?" I yelled pouding helplessly on the ice that seperated us. Then I felt some one shaking me. "James?" I asked lowering my voice agian.
"No, honey its Bernadette." I opened my eyes and Bernadette was holding me looking at me with an odd expression on her face. "The ice? he is,or was..."I mumbled embarressed. "Don't worry only I heard you. Everyone else is awake and downstairs already it's ten thirty." she said. "What did I say?" I asked dreading the answer. "James....You said James, a lot. and It sounded PRETTY wrong if you ask me, but lets hope it was a PG dream." she said winking. "Oh gods." I mumbled burying my face in my hands. "Don't worry its not a big deal." Bernadette said handing me my robes and pushing me in the bathroom to get ready. I explained the dream to her while brushing my hair and getting dressed. "Ahh so I was mistaken, it wasn't a sex dream." she said as we walked into the common room. "Hi Lily." said James he looked awkward. I didn't say anything. "Listen um I don't like Acantha, we are just, friends..." He explained. "OF course you are Potter." I said shrewdly. "No I mean I like you, but I just, I didn't think it matterd to you, I didn't think you liked me at all..." he said "I don't like you, it does't matter." I said,my voice a little shakey...I never was able to tell a lie. "Yes, you do!" he said grinning "I don't." I said furiosly. "And you obviously have more in your mind then just me anyways." I stormed out fo the common room Bernadette following me along with James and Sirius. "Lily!" James yelled urgenecy in his voice. "Whatever there was, its over!" I called back. "There wasn't anything!" Sirius said to me. "Yes there was, but if it was nothing, there isn't even that left, he disgusts me! thinking he can just make out with anyone with anyone because he is some goddamed quiddich champoin, thinking he is jsut great and everyone should execpt whatever he does...." I turned around and yelled "GOOD-BYE JAMES!"
And so Halloween came and went. October faded into November and I hadn't spoken to James for almost a month. He was busy with Acantha anyways. Sirius told me in transfiguration one day that I was an idiot and James was dating Acantha to make me jealous. I didn't belive him, I just fumed about being called an idiot. I never planned to speak to James agian, but you see I had too. Remus went away agian. "Potter, "I said making sure to keep my voice cold and harsh. "Where is Remus!" Lo said glaring. "Don't give me that bullshit about-" Lo began "He is visting his sick mom okay?" James said and looked at me. "Hogsmeade visit before the term ends. Acantha and I didn;t work out so well. She got mad and dumped me because I kinda had "L.E" scribbled on some spare parchment, and she guessed that LE stood for, Lily Evans. Evans I don't know what it is about you, but I can't get you out of my head." at the mention of head he messed up his hair. "Will you go with me to hogsmeade?" he asked. "Maybe I'll see you there." I said my voice not as cold. "Great." he grinned "WE'RE NOT THROUGH WITH YOU! Where is Remus?" Lo shrieked. "LOCKED IN A CLOSET!" Sirius yelled sarcastically and a fuming Lo stompped up to the dorm. "He isn't really?" Bernadette asked. "No." Sirius grinned "But it sure did get rid of Lo." he said and began conversing in low voices with Peter and James. "Hey!" Bernadette said pointing towards the sky "Its a full moon." she said staring at it. and sure enough a bright slivery orb hung silhoutted agiasnt the black sky. "Its beautiful." Bernadette sighed. "It is." I agreed. "Ha." James said loudly "Its beautiful al right, actaully its my favorite night of the month, and same for Sirius and Peter, not sure about Remus though." James said. "Oh he loves it." Sirius said sarcastically. "Why wouldn't he?" I asked curiosly. "NO reason." Siurs said stifling a laugha nd went back to his conversation with Peter and James. "You dont think Remus's mom is a werewolf?" I asked nervously "It would make sense." Bernadette said "Thats why he would have to go home every month to look after her...but does he always go home on the full moon?" she said thoughtfully. "We can check the lunar chart next month." I sighed "Wait though, why would James and Sirius and Peter LOVE the full moon if Remus was sent home to care for his mom?" Bernadette said suddenly. "Maybe Remus is the werewolf?" I asked wearily. "Why would they love that?" she asked. "Good point, lets not mention our werewolf theories to Lo, I think she might blame us." I said. "Yeah James and Sirius might love this time of the month, but they dont have to deal with Lo." Bernadette said giggling. "Too true." I added as we went into our dorms for bed.
"Justin was saying-" Haven went on at breakfast, she an Justin had gone on a midnight stroll. It was funny she thought we cared. "Will you shut up already Haven? God." Lo said. "Oh I'm sorry someone is mad because they boyfriend is a momma's boy and has to go home." Haven spat back at her, sometimes I wish I didn't know Haven. "Shut up Haven I'm warning you!" Lo stood her wand raised, just as Remus came into the great hal, it looked as though he had been ill, not his mother, dark circles were beneath his eyes and he looked thinner than usual. Lo practically dropped her wand as she ran up to see her boyfriend. "Were you sick?" I heard her ask, curios myself to know the answer. "No my mother was maybe, I caught a bit of it" he said. Lo seemed happy with the answer but there was something in his voice told me he was lying. "Well come on girls, Thursday you know what that means-" Bernadette said rising form the table.
"Transfiguration class today you will be vanishing humming birds. You may begin." Professor McGonagall instructed, "All right lets get down to buisness as usual then." Sirius said holding the bird still for me. "Is Remus a werewolf?" I asked. he was so suprised he dropped thr hummingbird which Professor McGonagall returned to us with a reproving look on her face. "No. What gave you that idea?" Sirius said regaining his composer. "That he vanishes for a day or so, just as the full moon comes around, he does it every month and there is no proof he visits his mother." "There is no proof he doesn.'t Sirius said rasing one eyebrow. "Well is he a werewofl?" I asked agian not satasfied. "No he isn't." "Then why does he not like the full moon, you let that slip last night in the common room." I argued. "Do you have a problem with werewolves?" Sirius asked sharply. "No, I just want to know the truth." I said staring into his eyes wiht mine. "Yes he is a werewolf, but you will tell NO ONE. Not Lo, not Bernadette, understand?" he said. I nodded. It wasn't my favorite transfiguration class ever.
"I think Remus is a werewolf." Lo told me and Bernadette at lunch, looking at us carefully to observe our reactions. "I don't think that matters at all." I said plainly. "My uncle is a werewolf, and we had already suspected that." Berndette said and Lo looked relieved and went on "Actaully I KNOW he is a werewolf he told me in transfiguration, and I told him at least you get to turn into a wolf every month and not a troll or some other gross creature, he laughed." she smiled. "I knew you guys would understand but Im NEVER telling Haven or Lark. Argh, imagine how happy Haven would be to have aother reason to put me down." Lo said annoyed. "Well I suppose its all for the best that we know. I mean we have found out the answer to the riddle of the full moon." I said happily.
"Lily, come to me" James Potter yelled tome from across ther lake, his refelctiopn was all I could see. "I can't its too far to swim!" I called back to him but the wind carried my voice away and I knew he hadn't heard me. "Come to me!" He told me agian. "I can't" I said, he heard me this time and snaped his fingers he jumped on a broom and soared acros the lake. Grabbing my hand I was pulled onto the broom with him and we flew away over the trees. "He is coming Lily." He said his voice serous and frightened. "Who is coming?" I asked feeling cold sweep over me. "Voldemort." James whisperd. "Take Harry and go." he said "I'll hold him off." he was saying these things that made no sense. "Who is Harry?" I said bewilderd. "Its happened he is here." He said and James swerved on the broom throwing us both to the ground. I woke up just as the ground rushing up towards me was about to be my final resting place. Shivering I wrapped my blankte tighter around me. The dream left me wiht a scary feeling and I personally liked my other James dreams a lot more.
AN: ahh another chappy finished, in another day. I think its coming along well. Hre is another little tid bit on my insight to the nmes I've chosen :ACANTHA: means Sharp, pointed, thorned, and PRIMROSE means First rose! so you put it together its "Thorned first rose" hehe clever huh? anyways I know I have been updating a lot lately but I cant promise my next update will be son bc I have weekend plans so expect Chapter 5 sometimes around next Monday or Tuesday. I REALLY want to get this fic finished before august 26th (My frist day of school) bc If it isn't finished by then It wonot be finished til prolly mid to late November.READ AND REVIEW SO I WILL KNOW WHETHR OR NOT TO POST CHAPTERS-April
