Chapter 4
*Edwards POV*
What had I done? I hadn't meant to break up with Alice just yet. I was going to wait. Wait till Bella and I were together. And then explain to her nicely. But I hadn't waited. I'd just broke her heart. I knew why though. I was talking to Bella. When she got out of the car. I held out my hand to her, I helped her out of the car. She was going to say something; she was going to ask me something. And because of Alice I would never know what she was going to ask me. Part of the reason I broke up with Alice, as she grabbed my hand, I'd realised how wrong it felt in mine. After feeling Bella's hand in mine. I hated it. I wanted to throw her hand with her far away and I braced myself to end it. I's explained how I felt. I'd told her I needed space. I wondered if she would hate Bella. If Bella would even think of me. I prayed that Alice just wouldn't care. A memory of the tears pouring down her soft cheeks reminded me that she had cared. She had cared a lot.
As I walked to form I realised the intentions of one of the guys in my class. Mike Newton. He was in Bella's form. He was going to ask her out. I heard girls gossiping about it on the corners of the school. Because of Alice, he was going to have that opportunity. I could have walked her to form. I could have gave her a kiss on the cheek before walking away, leaving her confused, wanting to find the reason for the kiss. She wouldn't have said yes then. She would have said no. She would have needed to know why before going out with anyone else. Justin met me in our usual meeting place. We talked for a minute, but my mind never really left Bella. He asked me about Alice and I'd told him what I'd done. He called me an idiot and laughed. He then asked me in all seriousness if it was okay if he asked her out. I nodded to him. I didn't care who Alice dated. She could date Jasper for all I care.
I remembered the first year of high school, when Emmet was a senior. He told me just how to ask someone out. I'd followed his advice. And so far not one girl had turned me down. I was sad, I missed my elder brother. We had been really close. I didn't realise how close until he left for college. We hadn't parted on good terms, I shook the awful memory of shouting from my mind, when Emmet got so wound up, and I could hear his icy words echoing in my mind- That was the year everything went bad. When the school decided they loved me, when I forgot about my other brother for Justin. I was everything everyone wanted. But me, I didn't want the group of girls that followed me round. Not really. I just wanted Bella. Thinking now, I didn't realise just how wrong I was, how much I hated my life until now, until I had Bella. Today, I would ask her to be my girlfriend. As I thought this nerves wracked my whole body. If she wasn't already with Mike Newton. Justin was muttering something to me and I answered him, I didn't know what he said and I didn't know what I answered but for some bizarre reason he understood what I said. I passed E2 Bella's form room. I had an idea. I called Justin out.
"Justin!" I called to my friend who was just about out of hearing zone. "Come back."
He came back obediently I told him the plan. And he nodded to me in understanding. My heart stopped as I heard Bella's laugh as Justin opened the door.
"Excuse me sir, Mr Edwards" I laughed as he used my first name as the teacher that wanted her, "would like a word with Bella."
"Very well, off you go Swan." I heard her form tutor say. And then I saw her walk out the door confused. For the first time I saw what she was wearing. She was wearing a black vest that hugged her perfect figure tightly and a short denim skirt, with black leggings and a red shirt. I took in a breath of air. She was beautiful. Her confused face was slightly pink; I braced myself to ask her the question. But I couldn't, I feared rejection of the all too perfect girl in front of me.
"Mr Edwards I guess?" she laughed softly, her delicate frame shaking.
"Yep." I answered, popping the little p at the end.
"You wanted to speak to me, sir!" she laughed at the end.
"Yes, Yes I did." I sighed. "Will you go" I stopped, "Will you be my lap partner?" I asked her. I felt like kicking myself. I wouldn't get an opportunity like this again. Justin was far down the hall. And the rest of the school was in lessons.
"Err sure," she answered, her usually creamy cheeks were a light pink. I wanted to kiss her on the cheek like I had planned. But I couldn't. I couldn't even bring myself to ask her out. And now I was stood here like a fish staring at her. After asking her to be my lap partner. Right Smooth! I thought to myself. Ugh why was I such a spineless shrimp? "Well I'll see you later then." I told her. I leaned in about to kiss her, my lips edged closer getting ready for contact with her cheek. The bell rang and I jumped. She looked at me startled. I sighed. "Cya Later Bella." I muttered before walking away completely and utterly hating myself. "Oh wait!" I turned, she turned. "What were you going to ask me before?" I asked her remembering her face as Alice had pulled me from her.
"The exact same thing." She answered, "Is that all now?" She asked.
"Yeah," I lied. I pushed my hands through my messy hair as I walked away.
The day went so slowly, each lesson felt like 4. Finally the fourth bell rang, it was lunch at last. Not that I was specifically hungry. I just needed to see Bella. I needed to see she was safe. I'd spent the whole of the morning worrying about her. Praying that she was okay. And then came the fears of rejection. Would she be sitting with Mike at lunch time? Would she sit with me if I asked? I liked to think yes, but I had no idea what she would do. I walked to the canteen with Justin. He spoke to me and like this morning I answered him without thinking. I joined the lunch queue and saw Bella. She was at the front. I waved to her, she turned and smiled. She came over with her empty tray. "Hey!" She greeted me. I smiled at her.
"Hey," I answered, she started swaying; I looked at her in shock. She wasn't breathing. "Bella. Breath" I told her like I had this morning.
"I'm so sorry, I don't know why I do that." She apologised, her eyes were glistening.
"Don't be sorry," I answered and impulsely took her into my arms. I was shocked at my sudden action. But she didn't seem to care; she nestled into my chest and breathed in. I remembered Justin who was stood at my side.
"Bella, this is Justin, Justin Bella." Bella smiled at him and Justin held out his hand. She shook it and then took her tray. They started talking to each other, before I could invite Bella to sit with us Justin had. Ugh I really was going to have to get quicker.
"Sure, I'll tell Jasper." Justin snarled. He hated Jasper with a vengeance. "Is there a problem?" She asked. I shook my head.
"No, tell Jasper to come sit with us too." I answered her. So what if Justin hated him. He was my brother and he was Bella's friend. I watched as she skipped over to where Jasper was sitting with Alice. Alice. Oh yeah, I guess Jasper will be sitting with her today. Bella came back.
"He's staying over there. I don't think Alice wants to come either." She declared. I nodded at her as I reached the front of the queue.
"What are you having?" the dinner lady asked, I pointed to a jacket potatoe and made my way to the salad counter. I picked out some peppers, cucumber, coleslaw and tuna mayonnaise. I went to sit at our usually table where the others were waiting for us.
"Hey Edward." Someone called out. I waved in his direction as I collected the cutlery. I sat down and for some strange reason Mike was sat at our table. Oh well. The more the merrier. Ha. Bella came up behind me; I heard her laughing at something Justin had said. I would have to explain to him that Bella Swan was mine.
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