Chapter Warnings: Bad words and at end of chapter a rape scene.
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Chapter 4
It was Wednesday the next week and today was the day that Sasuke had to do that recorded interview. Sasuke wasn't happy about it, but he knew he didn't have a choice. This was part of his life now so he had to deal with it. He had spent the last week just resting in bed. Itachi had brought down his prescription that Sasuke really didn't want to take, but the doctor said it would make him better within twenty-four hours so Sasuke was willing to try it. Sure enough he spent three hours in the bathroom throwing up, but afterwards he just slept for a good fourteen hours straight and he felt better. He had spent the rest of the week in bed resting and reading. Itachi had come down every now and then to check in on Sasuke, but they didn't really have much of a conversation. His father and mother kept their distance, but that didn't surprise Sasuke. His parents had always avoided him and disliked him. His own father was an abusive asshole, but Sasuke would always keep that to himself. No one ever believed him so there wasn't a point in ever telling anyone what happened. He knew he could tell Kakashi, but there wasn't anything he could do so there truly wasn't a point.
It was just after nine in the morning and Sasuke was just getting out of the shower. He headed over to his clothes and grabbed out the black pair of trousers he had from the event last week. He put them on just as there was a knock at his door.
"It's open." Sasuke called out.
Sasuke had a feeling it would be Kakashi so he didn't even bother asking who was there. He just continued to go through his clothes to find something to wear for a shirt. He didn't have much clothes that were professional and he knew he would need to go out to get some. He figured maybe Kakashi could go with him to help him out in this area. If not than Kovu, but Sasuke figured that Kakashi would be willing to go. The door to his room opened and Miito walked down the stairs. Sasuke instantly looked confused, because Miito didn't know where he lived.
"You aren't dressed yet? You need to get going so we have time to go over your answers to the questions. You need a shirt let me help you." Miito said with a smile.
"What the hell are you doing here? How do you know where I live?" Sasuke asked on guard.
"Your father told me where you lived the other day when I was at the Tower. He wanted to make sure this interview was set up and the answers were ready. He read them over and approved of them. Now you need a shirt." Miito said as he went to move towards Sasuke's clothing.
"No it's fine I'll pick one out. You can go and wait upstairs." Sasuke said still on guard.
"Nonsense we are both males what's the big deal? Granite you do look much better without a shirt than with one, but I don't think this interview would go over well if you were half dressed." Miito said with a smile.
There was another knock at his door and Sasuke called up once again.
"Come in."
Kakashi opened the door and walked down the stairs. He took in the situation and he was confused, but kept himself on guard. Kakashi knew that Sasuke wouldn't have invited Miito over so he knew that Miito must have found out where Sasuke lived from someone.
"Miito, what are you doing here?" Kakashi asked as he moved over to be by Sasuke.
"I'm here to help Sasuke get ready for this interview. It's my job after all. Now if you would excuse us so I can help Sasuke get dressed and looking appropriate we wouldn't want you to show up looking like some street rat. You have to uphold the Uchiha name after all. Your father said he was going to watch it live and is looking forward to it."
"Sasuke is a big boy he can get dressed himself. He knows how to look professional he did it just last week. You need to go over the questions with Sasuke you can do that upstairs and not here in his bedroom half dressed. So leave and wait upstairs." Kakashi said in a serious voice.
"We are all men hardly inappropriate." Miito said.
"Go upstairs Miito." Sasuke said in a serious voice.
"Kakashi can come as well then. There is no need for someone of his age to be around a sixteen year old half dressed. That is highly more inappropriate than I." Miito said.
"He can stay we have things we need to talk about in private. So get upstairs or you can leave. Take your pick." Sasuke said in a demanding voice.
"Fine, I'll just go upstairs than." Miito said and it was clear that he wasn't happy.
Miito headed upstairs and once the door was closed Kakashi spoke.
"How does he know where you live?" Kakashi asked with anger, but Sasuke knew it wasn't directed towards him.
"He saw my father in the Tower and he told him where we lived." Sasuke answered clearly not happy about it either.
"Why would your father do that?" Kakashi asked angered and annoyed.
"Because he likes Miito. Miito is a suck ass and just wants to be close to the Uchiha name and my father loves a kiss ass. Was anyone up there?"
"No so how did he get in? I know where the spare key is, so did your father tell him?"
"That's just great. He must have, because the door was locked. Great that's what I need Miito coming and going whenever he wants."
"I'll speak to Kovu about it and see what we can do. We can't change the locks, because it's your father's house not yours. For now you still need a shirt, but your injuries have healed up really nicely. You just have some faint bruising now."
"Ya I feel good. That prescription was horrible, but it worked. I was fine the next day after taking it. I've just been sleeping and reading all week."
"Good I'm glad it worked and you are feeling better. I was going to come by and see you, but I thought maybe you would appreciate being alone and the quiet to just rest up and heal."
"I did appreciate it thanks. I do need your help though."
"Anything."
"What the hell do I wear to this thing?" Sasuke said with a small smile.
"I have no idea, but we are not asking the stalker upstairs." Kakashi said lightly with a smile.
Sasuke smiled back and Kakashi spoke again as he went over to the makeshift closet.
"Kovu said it was semi casual so I think just a dress shirt would work. Do you only have these two?" Kakashi asked.
"Ya just what Kovu brought over last week. I really do have to go shopping for more clothes that will work for this side of my job." Sasuke said as he headed over to Kakashi.
"I can go with you if you want." Kakashi offered.
"I was hoping you might." Sasuke said with a smile.
Kakashi grabbed a dark blue dress shirt and handed it to Sasuke.
"I would just wear this and don't worry about a tie, it's semi-casual so you don't need to be dressed up fully."
"Thanks."
Sasuke took the shirt and he went over to the bed. Kakashi was able to see Sasuke's back since he had seen it in the shower just last week. Kakashi couldn't help, but go over to Sasuke and run his hand gently over Sasuke's back. Sasuke stopped what he was doing and just let himself feel Kakashi's hand ghosting over his wounds on his back.
"How bad is it?" Sasuke asked in a whisper.
"They are healing, but they are going to scar. There isn't anything you can do about it. I'm sorry." Kakashi whispered back.
"It's not your fault. You did your job that's all anyone can ask for. Just another scar among many. It's no big deal. The targets don't care about scars unless they are on your face." Sasuke said with a shrug as he moved away to put his shirt on.
"Have you been with anyone that wasn't a target, even something like a date?" Kakashi asked calmly.
"No" Sasuke simply said.
"Why not?"
"And how would that go over? Hi I'm a well-paid whore for the government. At times I disappear and have to be someone completely different and get used and abused by the target until I get the information I need. Ya I'm sure that will go over very well." Sasuke said with a roll of his eyes.
"You are not a whore Sasuke. You do a job and that is it. It's not like you are going to stand out on the street at night to pay your rent. Sasuke what you do is your job it's just that simple. Stop calling yourself a whore. You have so much more to offer that just your body to someone. Don't let a job define you Sasuke." Kakashi said with strength to his voice.
"This job I've been doing since I was three. Thirteen years and five more to go. It's kinda hard not to let it define me when it's all I've been. I remember being five and a target whispering in my ear telling me to stay still or it would hurt worse. I remember that. Other memories are just easier to fool myself into believing are just nightmares and they didn't happen." Sasuke turned to face Kakashi once he was done buttoning up his shirt. "Three years old I've been used for one thing and one thing only. So it's kinda hard to believe I'm anything, but some common street whore when that's all I've been to anyone." Sasuke said honestly and Kakashi could hear the pain and sadness in his voice and see it in his eyes.
Kakashi came over to Sasuke and put his right hand on Sasuke's left cheek as he spoke he looked right into Sasuke's eyes.
"You are not some common whore. I don't care if I have to tell you that every single day. You aren't. You are so much more than what you think you are. Sasuke you have survived everything that this world has thrown at you. You ended a war, whether you believe that or not you did. If you hadn't shown up we wouldn't have won. This is just a job and in five years you won't have to do it anymore. In five years you could retire if you want or move on to something else. I'm not going to let you quit and I am not going to let you believe that you are a whore when you are not. I don't care how long it takes me you will believe it one day."
"This job eats away at you. You shouldn't be here, you're too good to be here and to deal with all of this. It'll destroy you if you're in it for too long. The last operation it was really bad, but they don't get much better. And with my father now being back in my life he could pick any operation that he wants me to be on. They could all be just as bad. I can't let you destroy yourself for me." Sasuke said softly.
"I'm not going to let this destroy me. I can handle it Sasuke. You were three years old and handling this job, there's no reason why I can't as well at my age. We are going to get through this together. I'm not going anywhere I don't care how bad it gets. We're in this together so we are just going to take it one operation at a time, one event at a time. I care about you Sasuke and nothing that I have seen or will see will change that. So let's go and face one of these events that are now apart of your life. Kovu will be there so I will speak to him about how to handle Miito. I will also double check with him, but I don't think you have anything else that needs to be done within the next week before you are back on duty."
"I don't think so."
"I think you should bring a pair of shorts and come over to my place afterwards. We can have some dinner and then go in the hot tub. The hot water will do wonders for your sore body."
"Oh God that does sound good." Sasuke said with a small smile.
"I even have wine." Kakashi said with a smile as he stepped back.
"Oh even better." Sasuke said as he headed over to his dresser to get a pair of shorts out to bring with him.
Sasuke went over to his couch and grabbed his black shoulder bag he figured that he would bring a change of clothes since he was going over to Kakashi's afterwards. So once he grabbed a change of clothes and his notebook he put the bag over his shoulder and looked at Kakashi.
"All set."
"Let's get this over with then." Kakashi said with a smile.
They both headed up the stairs to see Miito standing in the living room waiting for them. He had his arms over his chest and it was clear he wasn't happy that he had to wait upstairs while Kakashi got to be downstairs with Sasuke getting dressed. Once they got upstairs Sasuke was the one that spoke first.
"Where are the answers?" Sasuke asked clearly not happy that he had to do this.
"They are right here. Just memorize what they say and say only this. If you are asked a question that isn't on here just say no comment. We wouldn't want you embarrassing the Uchiha name. I know your father is going to be watching this live and he is looking forward to seeing you represent the Clan. So you can't screw this up or he will be disappointed. Luckily for you, you have me and my answers are perfect for you to represent the Clan." Miito handed Sasuke the paper with the answers written on it.
Sasuke looked it over and he couldn't believe how made up they were. They were all lies and Sasuke didn't know if he could do this. If he could pull it off by being so fake. Sasuke didn't want to be someone else, he just wanted to be himself, but it seemed like being himself just wasn't good enough for anyone. Sasuke handed Kakashi the paper and Kakashi read it over. Kakashi knew that Sasuke wasn't going to be happy with these answers, even Kakashi knew they were complete bullshit, especially the one where it says he was straight. Kakashi knew that people who were at the celebration would already know he was gay. Kakashi didn't see the point in lying about that part, but he knew it would have had something to do with Fugaku and the Clan.
"How long is it?" Sasuke asked clearly not happy at all that he had to do this.
"It's roughly thirty minutes, but we have to get going so we can be there early to get ready." Miito said.
"Fine." Sasuke said as he went over to grab his coat.
Once he had his coat on the three of them headed outside and down the path to head to the village. Sasuke made sure he walked by Kakashi and not near Miito. Kakashi made sure he kept Sasuke away from Miito as they walked down the path. He didn't like Miito nor did he trust him. Kakashi didn't want Miito around Sasuke when he was alone. He didn't know if Miito would ever try anything and he knew that Sasuke would be able to defend himself against Miito, it was more of the fact that he didn't want Sasuke to have to deal with the annoyance of Miito. Kakashi was going to keep a close eye on Sasuke and be there for him no matter what. He meant what he said he was going to make sure that Sasuke got through the next five years. They were gong to do this together and get through this together.
Once they arrived in the village they headed towards the Tower where the interview was going to be. They headed inside the Tower and up to the fifth floor. Once they got on the floor they headed into the room just down the hall and inside there were people everywhere. Miito seemed to know everyone and he went to say hi to a few people once he told Sasuke that he needed to be over with the tech so he could get his small little mic on so the camera would be able to pick up his voice. He also made sure he told Sasuke to go over his answers once again. Sasuke and Kakashi headed over to the tech and Kovu came over to them.
"Hey Sasuke. You look a lot better." Kovu said with a smile.
"Ya the Doc gave me a prescription that fixed me right up. Is this all I have to do for the next week before I go back to duty?" Sasuke asked as the tech put on the small mic on his shirt.
"No you don't have anything. The Director gave you the whole week off." Kovu answered.
"Alright Mr. Uchiha you are all set. You can just sit down and relax until it's time to get started." The tech said with a friendly smile.
"Thank-you." Sasuke said.
The tech left and Sasuke sat down in the chair and turned his attention to the room. The place was full of people that Sasuke didn't even know. He turned his attention back to Kovu.
"I hope you didn't get any heat from my leaving at the event."
"No it was fine. Itachi actually took care of it. He even gave the speech for you. He said you were injured and sick from your last operation and wasn't in any shape to stay the whole night. The Director was fine with it and the Board were speaking to Itachi a lot that night. I'm not sure what he was doing he doesn't tend to do that, but thankfully he did that night, because it kept all of the heat off you and me." Kovu answered.
"I don't know what he's up to. He's barely said five words to me all week, but whatever. Miito knows where I live." Sasuke said clearly not happy about it.
"How the hell did he do that?" Kovu asked annoyed.
"He saw my father the other day and he told him. He showed up just before Kakashi did. He must even know where the spare key is, because he got in today and no one was home but me." Sasuke answered.
"Is there some way we can make it so that Miito can't just come over to Sasuke's whenever he wants?" Kakashi asked.
"Not really. Only Fugaku would have that authority and I don't see that happening. Fugaku likes anyone that is willing to kiss ass with the Clan. No offense." Kovu said that last part to Sasuke.
"Oh I already know that." Sasuke with a smile.
"I can speak to him and let him know that he can only come by when invited. I don't know if that would work. If it gets bad we can go to the Director with it, but it would have to be pretty bad for the Director to go against Fugaku." Kovu said.
"That's just great." Sasuke said clearly not happy that Miito now knew where he lived and he could come and go whenever he wanted.
"Keep track of every time he comes by for no reason. That way if it gets bad we can show the Director." Kovu said.
"Ya alright. Do you know who any of these people are?" Sasuke asked.
"No I don't other than they are here to help set things up. I don't see the reporter though. I'm told she is a red head, but that's all I know about her. Did you get the answers to the questions from Miito?" Kovu asked.
"Oh I got them. Did you know I am straight?" Sasuke asked clearly not happy about this.
"No I didn't and I bet there are people who were at that celebration party that are surprised by that fact. Why would he have that as a response? Couldn't he have said no comment or that it wasn't anyone's business. Why would he say you are straight when people already know you aren't" Kovu asked annoyed.
"I don't know, but I'm not lying about that. I don't care if people know I'm gay or not. It shouldn't be a big deal. I'm not hiding that part of my life." Sasuke said.
"And you shouldn't have to. You don't have to answer it, but if you are going to then just say you are and move on." Kovu said.
"I would answer the questions how you want to Sasuke. Like I said last week answer them, but don't throw oil on the fire." Kakashi said.
Miito came over to them with a smile on his face. It was clear that this was his area and he was loving his time to shine. Miito came right over to Sasuke and stood right next to his chair.
"Are you ready for this? Have you memorized those answers? It's very important you stick to them. Fugaku approved them so you need to just answer the questions just like that so you don't disrespect the Clan and what they stand for. Remember you aren't just a one man show anymore." Miito said with a smile.
"Ya I got that."
A woman came over to them and Sasuke could tell she was nervous about being there.
"Um excuse me Sasuke, I was hoping I could just have a quick word with you." She said calmly.
"Sure" Sasuke said.
"I'm sorry Sasuke is very busy right now. You can speak to myself and maybe we can set something up." Miito said as he guided the woman away from him slightly. "Now what can I help you with?" Miito continued, but the others could still hear him.
"Since when did he become in charge of who talks to you and who doesn't?" Kovu said as he rolled his eyes.
"I thought that was your job." Sasuke said with a smile.
"It is actually." Kovu said with a smile back.
"My name is Merria and I was hoping to speak to Sasuke about this fundraiser I am putting together for the end of next month. It's a benefit concert that people in the public eye are going to be singing and performing in. It's for orphan children. We are trying to raise money to build safe houses in different villages so children can be placed there and taken care of by volunteer parents. It's a wonderful cause and he doesn't even have to sing he could just introduce the acts." The woman said calmly.
"Yes well Sasuke is a very busy man right now. I don't think a concert is what he needs to be associated with." Miito said in a dismissive tone.
Sasuke got up and headed over there and Kakashi and Kovu turned around to see what he was going to do. Sasuke went over to Miito and the woman as he spoke.
"Merria was it?" Sasuke asked politely.
"Yes." The woman said back.
"When is the concert?" Sasuke asked with genuine curiosity.
"It's the end of next month. As I was saying it is a wonderful cause and I know you aren't technically an orphan, but you do have experience with being on your own. It would mean a lot to people to have you there in some form." The woman said quickly.
"I'll do it." Sasuke said easily.
"Really?" Kovu asked surprised. Sasuke doesn't do this type of thing so it was very out of character for Sasuke to agree to be doing this.
"Sasuke, you have a busy schedule within the next few months you also need to remember the image of your Clan. I don't think they would approve of a concert." Miito said.
"It's a good thing I can do what I want then. I'll be happy to do it." Sasuke said with a small smile to Merria.
"That is wonderful. As I was saying you don't even have to sing if you don't want to. You could just introduce the acts if you would prefer."
"No I don't have a problem singing. Is there anything I need to do?" Sasuke said surprising the three of them again.
"If you are able to then tomorrow afternoon we are getting everyone together to get them to sing a solo song just so we can hear everyone and see how they sound. If that doesn't work for you then we can arrange another day for you. I know this is short notice."
"No tomorrow is fine. Can I sing whatever I want or is there something specific you need?"
"No you can sign whatever song you want. There is also a band that will be there to help as background music. You could also play your own instrument if you want. It's completely up to you." Merria said with a smile.
"What time tomorrow?"
"Around one if that is alright."
"That's fine. I'll be there tomorrow afternoon. Kovu is my handler you can just send him everything you need me to know or if there is anything you need me to sign. He will make sure I have it."
"I will get everything together tonight and then tomorrow night after I hear everyone sing I should have a set list ready. Thank-you so much Sasuke this truly means a lot to us and the foundation."
"It's my pleasure. Have a good day and I will see you tomorrow Merria." Sasuke said as he held out his hand. Merria shock it as she spoke.
"Thank-you and I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Have a good day Sir."
"You as well." Sasuke said with a smile as he let Merria's hand go.
She turned to head back out and Sasuke headed back over to the chair and sat down. He could see the shocked looks on the other's faces so he figured he would address it.
"What?" Sasuke asked clearly annoyed at them.
"You don't ever volunteer to do any fundraisers or events. What's with that one?" Kovu asked calmly.
"It's for a good cause and sounded fun. So what?" Sasuke said with a shrug.
"Nothing it's good that you want to help out with it. It's a good cause." Kakashi said supportively. He didn't know why Sasuke wanted to do this, but he was going to be supportive of him.
"This is hardly a cause that the Uchiha name should be under. Sasuke your family will not appreciate you doing this. Not only the cause, but singing. It's a terrible idea and your father will not approve." Miito said.
"I don't care what my father thinks. It's for a good cause and I can do what I want to do." Sasuke said with a snap.
He turned his attention to the room as he saw that someone new entered and was getting a mic on. Sasuke felt his stomach go to his throat when he saw just who it was. Sasuke spoke without taking his eyes off from the woman from the event.
"What is she doing here?" Sasuke asked softly.
The three of them turned to see who Sasuke was looking at. They all saw the red head woman from the event. Kakashi and Kovu instantly went on guard knowing that Sasuke said she couldn't be around him. Miito was oblivious and he was the one that answered.
"Oh that is Sharen she is the reporter. She just arrived last week. She used to run a business as well as do reports for the local paper. She is living here now and she asked to do this interview. She is a fan of yours Sasuke. She is very good, you're very lucky. I am going to go and say hello and make sure she is all set." Miito said with a smile as he left to go over to Sharen.
"She's doing the interview?" Sasuke asked with a slight fear to his voice that he couldn't keep out of his voice no matter how hard he tried.
"I had no idea. I can try and cancel this whole thing if you want, but I don't know how well that would go over with the Director and the Board." Kovu said.
"Sasuke you don't have to do this if you don't want to. I don't know what happened between the two of you, but you don't have to do this." Kakashi said as he turned Sasuke's head by his chin gently so he was looking at Kakashi and not the woman.
"I can't get out of this you know that. If I leave it will look bad on my family and the Agency. I have to do this. I'll be fine." Sasuke said, but it was clear he wasn't sure himself.
"The best we can do is keep her away from you before and after the interview. Once you are done Kakashi can take you out of here. I will inform the Director of this development so that if future interviews happen she is not the one doing the interviews. I'm sorry Sasuke I had no idea she was going to be here." Kovu said.
"Isn't it your job to know all of these things?" Kakashi asked not bothering to hide his anger at the situation.
"I only was just told about this woman last week just like you were. As for knowing everything no it's not my job. My job is to make sure Sasuke goes on his operations and appears to these events and interviews. I'm not told who is going to be there for them." Kovu said back with his own anger.
"Stop it, both of you. Kovu isn't told everything just when and where. This is new to everyone and this isn't something we could have avoided. The interview is going to happen regardless of what anyone says. So let's just get this over with and stop arguing, because it's not helping any." Sasuke said in a flat voice.
Sasuke couldn't do anything right now, so he was going to do what he always did and block it all out. He would play the role and block out all of his emotions until he was finished with this interview. Afterwards he could get out of here and far away from her as possible. Sasuke didn't know about going to Kakashi's afterwards, but he also didn't want to go back home in case she would be there. So he figured at least at Kakashi's he didn't have to hide or be someone else. Kakashi would let him be himself and not push for answers.
"Sasuke, are you ready to go?" The cameraman asked Sasuke.
"I'm ready." Sasuke said with a neutral voice.
Sasuke got up off the chair and headed over to the other chair that he was told to sit in. Sharen came over and sat down in the other chair. She gave Sasuke a devilish smile as she spoke.
"It's good to see you again Sasuke."
"Oh you two know each other?" Miito asked with a smile.
"We do. I've known his father for a long time. I've spent many nights over at the Uchiha home. I always have so much fun there." Sharen said with a smile and Sasuke did his best to smile and hide his disgust as the memories started to come to his mind.
Sasuke pushed them back and told himself that this was an operation and he just had to get through it. Sasuke smiled back and waited for when Sharen was ready to go.
"Alright, are we set?" Sharen asked the cameraman.
"We are good to go Sharen. In 3,2,1, go." The cameraman said.
"Good afternoon, I am Sharen Mintisho and I am here with Uchiha Sasuke. That's right The Uchiha Sasuke and today we are going to get a look into his life and how he is doing since the end of this war. Good afternoon Sasuke, how are you doing?" Sharen asked with a smile.
"I'm doing well thank-you." Sasuke said back with his own smile as he tried to just get himself to play the role.
"Let's talk about what everyone wants to know. How does it feel to be the saviour of the world?"
"I think it's very important for everyone to remember that I'm not the only one who fought in this war. There were hundreds of ninjas from all of the Great Nations that have been fighting in this war even before everyone knew it was there. They all fought the Ataksuki and their members and followers. A strong group of Konoha Ninja who I have known since I was a little boy were the ones to take out most of the Ataksuki members on their own. I was just there at the end and was there to fight Madara while my brother had to rest and recover from his surgery. My brother was also a key player in the planning of this war for our side. He spent almost a decade undercover with them. The war was not won by one individual person, but by a world of ninja and they deserve all of the victory and recognition as much as I do. We should all remember not only the ninja that fought in this war, but those that were lost in this war." Sasuke answered honestly and not what Miito had written down.
"That's not what I wrote. He's supposed to just read my answers." Miito harshly whispered to both Kakashi and Kovu.
"At least his answer was honest and down to earth." Kovu said under his breath, but both Kakashi and Miito heard him.
"That's very humbling of you Sasuke. Most ninja would just take the credit and forget about everyone else."
"I'm not most ninja. I didn't end the war by myself. I'm just the one who fought Madara, one enemy in this war. There were many others that needed to fall before Madara could. I'm not about to take credit for something I only had a hand in, one hand among hundreds."
"Good for you. How are you and your family doing since you all have been reunited?"
"We are doing well with all things considering. It's not easy to go from all being apart to being back together. It's been an adjustment for all of us, but one we are doing well with I believe. My brother and I are still going out on operations and keeping busy."
"And you get along with your family?"
"We get along well. Of course we have had little hick-ups along the way, but I think any family would given our current situation."
"Hick-ups? I would have thought you and your family would have been happy to have everyone back home safe and sound."
"And we are, but keep in mind that we have all been apart. Itachi and I have been raising ourselves for almost a decade and with that we have gotten into our own routines and set in our own ways. It's really about us having to adapt to being back in a family setting. The hick-ups are small and something we have been working on correcting."
"Well that would happen with any family I am sure. How has the relationship with your father been? It's no secret that Itachi has always been his pride and joy. Has he been treating you differently since the war has ended?" Sharen asked with a smile and Sasuke could see in her eyes that she already knew the answer to that question.
"I haven't had much of a chance to truly be with my father. I've been busy with operations and then he has been busy handing matters for the Clan. Everyone has been very busy in this past month." Sasuke said with a tight smile back to Sharen.
"I think our viewers are more interested in the juicy side of your life. It's no secret that a few people have seen you at the celebration party that happened a few weeks ago. You were very involved in your dancing with not one, but two men that were definitely older than you were. Witnesses saw you leaving with them and that you were intoxicated and even high according to some. Let's start with the obvious you are gay correct?" Sharen asked.
"I am gay." Sasuke simply stated.
"A gay Uchiha has never happened before. How does that affect your family and the family name?"
"I don't think being gay affects anything. It's just part of who I am and it doesn't define me. It doesn't change the fact that I am very powerful and very successful in my career. I've been doing this for a very long time and I am very good at my job. Being gay doesn't change that."
"And your family is supportive of this?"
"It's not a conversation we have had."
"You're saying your family hasn't spoken to you about your behaviour, that is if nothing else questionable? Underage drinking, provocative dancing, drug use and possibly promiscuous sex. I would imagine they had a lot to say about it."
"Nothing has been said to me." Sasuke said back.
"So you don't deny the drinking, drug use and the random sex with men who are clearly older than you?"
"I didn't confirm it either. Have I drank, yes. Drugs I have used them in the past for previous operations and my sex life what may or may not be there, is no one's business. Just like yours isn't mine. I'm sixteen I am going to do what every normal sixteen year old does. My family hasn't said anything to me about it and if they have it is between us and not the rest of the world."
"I just can't imagine a man like Fugaku, your father, would have been pleased by what he saw. He comes off as a man that has strong values. I can't imagine he was happy by your activities and the rumours it has brought up."
"I haven't heard of any rumours. As for my father he does have high values and Itachi and I both try our best to live up to his expectations, but like I said I'm just a sixteen year old. I'm going to stumble along the way."
"So this is what you would consider a stumble? Drinking, drugs and sex that's a stumble to you?"
"I think there are thousands of other teenagers my age out in the world doing the exact same thing and no one is questioning them. The only reason anyone is interested is because of my name. It doesn't change that I am still a person and still growing up and learning every day. People should care about my work and not what I do after work. I would appreciate it if people remember that."
"Speaking of your work. I heard you were injured and very sick last week of the event. How have you been feeling since?"
"I'm back to a hundred percent almost now. I return to duty next week."
"So the operation didn't go well. Perhaps you weren't in shape to go out on one so soon."
"No I was fine. It was just one of those operations that took a quick turn for the worst. I was able to complete it with the help of Kakashi."
"Ah yes Hatake Kakashi, you're once Sensei and he is now your body guard. Why the need for one? Can't you defend yourself?" Sharen asked with a joking smile.
"Obviously I can. He is here for the new aspect of my life. The Director felt it was best for me to have someone that could keep an eye out for any threats outside of my operations. He offered the position to Kakashi and he accepted. It's been good having him around again and catching up. He comes out on operations with me to help keep me safe so I can return home to my family. It has been a relief to have him with me. Some operations can get boring and lonely. Having him around helps with it all."
"Well I'm glad that someone is there with you. It would be a shame for you to die out on an operation after everything you have been through."
"It would be, but nothing in life is certain. All I can do is my best on each operation and hope for the best outcome."
"It has been fabulous talking with you today Sasuke. I look forward to catching up with you more later on tonight at your home. I'm looking forward to dinner with your family. It should be a great night to remember I am sure. You heard it here first everyone just how Uchiha Sasuke has been doing since the end of this war. I appreciate the time Sasuke and to everyone listening have a great day and keep an eye out for more interviews with Uchiha Sasuke. Good bye everyone." Sharen said with a smile as she looked at the camera for that last section.
"And we are out." The Cameraman said.
Sasuke let out a sigh as he got up and turned to head back over to Kakashi and Kovu, but Sharen speaking stopped him.
"Tonight should be fun Sasuke. I can't wait to see how your father reacts to this. I don't think he is going to expect the answers you gave. I'll see you later on tonight sexy I can't wait to catch up on lost time. I'm sure your father can't either." Sharen said softly so that only Sasuke could hear her.
Sharen then smiled and headed back over to the other people and started to shake everyone's hand. Sasuke let out a shaky breath before he turned and headed back over to Kakashi, Kovu and to his annoyance Miito. Both Kakashi and Kovu could tell that Sasuke was upset, but Miito didn't even notice as he started on Sasuke.
"I told you to just answer the questions with what I wrote. Your father is going to lose it at me. He'll think I can't control you when you so clearly need to be. I told you to say you were straight and that no comment to anything else. What was all that humble crap about the war? Uchiha are proud ninja they don't share credit when you killing Madara is what stopped the war. I now have to go and explain to your father what just happened here. He is going to be furious." Miito ranted on.
"Miito, shut the hell up and get out of my face before I knock you out." Sasuke said with a deadly voice.
"I am not taking the blame for your actions. You need to smarten up and do as I tell you. Otherwise your family will be made to look like fools. You can't keep acting this way and embarrassing your entire family and what it stands for. You need to stop being selfish. I now have to go and fix it." Miito said angrily and shook his head as he left.
Kakashi turned his attention to Sasuke.
"Sasuke." He started, but Sasuke cut him off.
"Where is the tech to take this off?" Sasuke asked with a blank voice.
"He's actually on his way over right now." Kovu answered as he saw the same tech guy coming over to them.
"Good job Mr. Uchiha. I just need to take that mic back and then you are free to go if you want. The others are going to stay around and have some lunch, you are welcome to join us." The tech said with a friendly smile.
"He would love to, but he has a prior arrangement. It's a busy day for him." Kovu answered, knowing that Sasuke wouldn't be in the mood for anything else.
"I would imagine you have been very busy with all of the press this war has generated. Well I hope you have a good rest of your day and I will see you again sometime." The tech said as he got the mic removed from Sasuke and then headed back to his case to put everything away.
"Let's get the hell out of here." Sasuke said as he looked at Kakashi who already had Sasuke's bag on his shoulder.
"Come on."
Kakashi placed a hand on Sasuke's shoulder and guided him out of the room and down the hallway. Kovu followed behind them and they headed down in the elevator.
"Are you going to Kakashi's or back home?" Kovu asked Sasuke as they were going down in the elevator.
"I'm going to Kakashi's." Sasuke answered.
"What about tonight? Sharen said she was going to be at your place for dinner." Kovu asked with concern.
"Kakashi and I are having dinner at his place." Sasuke answered as they walked off the elevator.
"Good. Let me know if you need anything. If not then I will see you tomorrow at the bar." Kovu said with a small smile.
"See you then." Sasuke said.
"Thanks for everything Kovu. I'll see you tomorrow." Kakashi added before he guided Sasuke down the street.
Kakashi kept his hand on the small of Sasuke's back not even thinking anything of it. Sasuke didn't tell him to move it either. Sasuke let Kakashi guide him down the streets until they reached his house. Once there Kakashi opened the door and guided Sasuke inside.
"I'm gonna go and get changed if that's alright." Sasuke said.
"Of course. Here is your bag and the bathroom is just down the hall right there." Kakashi said as he handed Sasuke his bag.
"Thanks." Sasuke said as he took the bag and headed down the hallway.
Kakashi looked over at the clock and saw that it was almost noon so he headed into the kitchen to look for something to eat for lunch. Kakashi had gotten ground beef to make some burgers tonight. He knew Sasuke still liked them so he figured it was safe. He was also going to make fries. It wasn't often that Kakashi or Sasuke didn't eat fully healthy, but he figured that Sasuke could use the treat and it turned out he was right after that interview. Kakashi wanted to ask Sasuke questions about that woman Sharen, but he knew better than to push. He would just let Sasuke come to him when he was ready and when he felt that he could trust Kakashi with this. After five minutes Sasuke came back out of the bathroom and headed back towards the kitchen to where Kakashi was. Kakashi looked up at Sasuke and he saw that he was in just some plain light blue jeans with a black t-shirt. What caught Kakashi's attention were the simple black, small rectangular glasses on Sasuke's face.
"Since when do you wear glasses?" Kakashi asked not keeping the surprise from his voice.
"Since I was three actually. When I was five my father made me get contacts to wear when I had to be outside or around people. I needed them when I was three, but he refused to let me have them. He didn't want people knowing I couldn't see perfectly. Needing glasses was and is a weakness to my father. Uchiha are supposed to be perfect and glasses isn't perfection." Sasuke said with an emptiness to his voice that had Kakashi concerned.
"How bad is the eye sight?" Kakashi asked.
"It's not that bad. I can see things close up. I just can't see small print or far away. If I took them off I could still see you perfectly fine. I haven't worn my contacts since the event last week. Sometimes they can bother me if I go for a while without wearing them. I figured I could trust you with my dark secret." Sasuke said jokingly.
"Your secret is safe with me and I must say you look very beautiful in them." Kakashi said with a smile.
"Thanks." Sasuke said with a slight blush tinting on his cheeks. No one had ever called him beautiful before.
"Are you hungry?" Kakashi asked with a smile. He liked seeing the blush on Sasuke's cheeks.
"Ya I haven't eaten yet."
"Do you still like grilled cheese?"
"I still love grilled cheese." Sasuke said with a smile.
"I'll make us some." Kakashi said with a smile as he turned to the fridge.
"Anything I can do to help?"
"You can sit your ass down on one of those stools." Kakashi said with a smile.
Sasuke just rolled his eyes and went and sat down on one of the stools that were in front of the island.
"I can help you know." Sasuke said.
"I know, but don't think I haven't noticed that your ribs are still sore. Sit down and relax and I will make us some lunch."
Kakashi started to get the sandwiches ready and Sasuke just sat there watching him. Once Kakashi was finished making the sandwiches he came over to the island and sat down on the opposite side that Sasuke was on. Kakashi had even brought over the ketchup and Sasuke smiled at him as he put some on his plate.
"I can't actually tell you the last time I had a grilled cheese sandwich." Sasuke said.
"Really? Well actually I guess that makes sense. The Sound couldn't have been good for food."
"It was horrible. I don't think I've ever been more exhausted before in my life. It sucked that I was sick last week, but it was good to be able to be in bed all week doing nothing."
"The Sound couldn't have been easy on you. An operation that goes for three years would take a toll on anyone."
"Oh no see just being undercover in the Sound would have sucked, but it would have been fine. It was the fact that while I was in the Sound I still had to go on other undercover operations for the Agency. That is what made it so exhausting."
"You had to do other operations while on your operation? How many?"
"I don't know I lost count. I've been on so many in my life I can't even remember half of them. At one point in the Sound I had been going for like a week straight without sleep at a time. I think it was after the thirteenth operation in a row I couldn't even remember who I was supposed to be. I kept getting them confused and mixed up. At one point I was even hallucinating. It got really bad."
"And the whole time you were all alone and still having to be in the Sound. What did you do when you had to leave and go be undercover elsewhere?"
"It wasn't easy. I had Suigetsu there with me, but we had to act like strangers and he was imprisoned for most of it. Plus he didn't show up until the last year. Most of the time I had to sneak out and if I got caught Orochimaru always thought I was doing something behind his back. I spent a lot of time in his chambers or the hole."
"What is the hole?"
"Just this small little room that Orochimaru liked to use for when he was punishing someone. I hated it down there. It was always better to spend the night in his chambers with him than in the hole. At least in his chambers you knew what to expect. You knew he was going to screw you a bunch of times and it would hurt, but that's all he would do. Then come morning you could leave. In the hole though he could keep you down there for weeks if he wanted. The torture was endless. If he wasn't torturing you it was Kabuto there was literally no breaks. The only way you ever got out was if you begged him enough and made him a deal that was worth his interest. Five times I had to make a deal with him and each time it was worse than the last. When I finally got the go ahead to kill him I actually cried. I knew that at least this part of the operation was over and I could just go back to the normal operations. Then I had to go around and try and help Itachi kill the Ataksuki off. This is the first time I've had any form of a break in over a decade."
"I'm so sorry Sasuke you had to go through so much in your life. I wish there was some way that I could make it so you don't have to do this job anymore. I wish there was something that I could do to make it so you were released from your contract. You should never have had to go through all of this. Your father should have been a real father and kept you safe. Not sell you out to the Agency because he felt like it."
"It doesn't matter. Five more years you and me right?" Sasuke said with a small smile.
"That's right, you and me and we are going to get through it."
"I meant what I said earlier during the interview. I am really glad you are here with me. I wasn't too sure at first and I know that operation was really bad, but I'm glad you were there with me. You make it a little more bearable." Sasuke said honestly.
"I'm glad I can help you. I wish I could stop these men from hurting you, but I can't. I'm just glad that I can be there for you afterwards and help you get through everything. I think I understand now more than I did before why you do the heroin and drink. You're just trying to survive. That's not something I can hold against you. I just hope you won't go off the deep end and get too deep in with the drugs and drinking. I don't want you to hurt yourself when so many other people already are."
"I'll be fine. I haven't done any yet. I think the meth fixed any desires that I had for when the operation was over."
"Might not be a bad thing then. I'm not going anywhere Sasuke, no matter how bad it gets. I'm going to be right here beside you and help you get through the next five years. After that we can figure the rest out."
"Sounds good. So are you gonna show me around or what?" Sasuke asked as they were both done eating.
"I think I could show you around." Kakashi said with a smile.
They both got up and placed their plate in the sink. Kakashi placed his hand on the small of Sasuke's back and guided him through the house. Kakashi showed Sasuke around downstairs and then took him upstairs to show him around. There was a spare bedroom that was already set up and a library that Sasuke thought he could die in. The master bedroom and bathroom was just beautiful and Sasuke wished he could spend some time in here like he read about in some of his novels, but Sasuke knew all of that stuff was just fairy tales and it would never happen to him. Once Kakashi finished showing Sasuke the house he took him outside and Sasuke was amazed at how big the yard was. There was a sitting area, a hot tub with a fireplace next to it, a barbeque and a garden. The house was beautiful and Sasuke hoped that one day he could have a place like this. A place that he could call home and be safe in.
"This place is amazing Kakashi. If I lived here I don't think I would ever leave." Sasuke said with a smile.
"I don't feel like leaving much myself. I'm surprised you haven't had a smoke yet. You haven't had one all day that I know about."
"I haven't had one since the operation ended. I don't tend to when I'm sick and then when I felt better I was way too exhausted to go up and down the stairs for a smoke. I don't need to have one, it's usually when I'm on operations and stressed out."
"That makes sense. What would you like to do today?"
"I was thinking if you still wanted to I could do that Jitsu on your eyes. If that is something you still want to do."
"Do you feel up to it?"
"Ya I feel fine. Do you still think you want to do that?"
"I think it makes sense to do it. It would take care of a few problems. Like I said I'm grateful for my eye, but there have been problems with it. It would be nice to have my full eye sight back. If you think you are up for it."
"Ya I'm up for it. It won't take long and after I do it you will be able to see normally again. You can just use it like every other Uchiha when you want the Sharingan just focus your chakra to your eyes."
"Sounds good, let's do it."
They both headed back inside and into the living room. They both sat down on the couch and Sasuke began the seals while Kakashi removed his forehead protector. He kept his eye closed and just let Sasuke do the hand seals. Sure enough after a good thirty of them Sasuke finally placed his hands over Kakashi's eyes and released his chakra. Kakashi felt a tingling sensation in his eyes before it went away and so did Sasuke's hands.
"Ok that's it open your eye." Sasuke said.
Sasuke had never done this before, but he was confident that it would work and sure enough when Kakashi opened his eye it was back to normal.
"It worked." Kakashi said slightly surprised that it would even work.
"I told you it would. Do you feel any pain at all?"
"No nothing. I can't believe it worked." Kakashi said with a smile.
"Try using your Sharingan." Sasuke suggested.
Kakashi focused his chakra to his eyes and sure enough he could feel the change happening and he was able to call upon his Sharingan just like any other Uchiha could.
"This is great Sasuke. I can't believe you even knew how to do this."
"I memorized it after I got my Sharingan just in case. I'm glad it worked, I've never done it before."
Kakashi turned his eyes back to normal and smiled at Sasuke. "Thank-you for offering to do this. I really appreciate it."
"No problem now you don't have to worry about hiding your eye."
They had spent the next few hours just hanging around talking about little things. When it was time to get dinner ready they both headed into the kitchen and once again Kakashi wouldn't let Sasuke help so Sasuke sat up on the island and watched as Kakashi got the meat and fries out.
"I figured we could do burgers and fries. I know you don't tend to eat junk food, but I figured it might be nice."
"I actually have a new found love for junk food." Sasuke said with a smile.
"Really? You? The thirteen year old who ate salads and stir fries over chips."
"I know, but in the Sound I developed a love for junk food and chocolate. Chocolate is fabulous especially when you have the munchies." Sasuke said with a smile.
"Ah yes the munchies. I guess salad or an apple wouldn't fix them eh?"
"It might, but there is just something really good about junk food. Plus I don't tend to gain weight which makes it all the more enjoyable. I love cheese cake and dark chocolate."
"So burgers and fries are fine then." Kakashi said with a chuckle.
"Definitely, but I can help you know."
"I know you can, but I don't want you to. Just sit and relax."
Kakashi went about getting dinner ready and Sasuke sat there talking to Kakashi and keeping him company. Once dinner was done and they had both eaten they decided to head into the hot tub with some wine. They both got changed and Sasuke took off his glasses so they wouldn't fog up from the steam. They both headed into the hot tub. Kakashi had poured them both a glass of red wine and as Sasuke got into the hot water he groaned at how good it felt against his sore muscles. They sat next to each other, but they were both turned so they could still face each other. Sasuke took a drink of his wine before he spoke.
"So I was thinking maybe once my back is fully healed that maybe I would design a tattoo to cover it up. What do you think?"
"I think that would be a good idea. If the scars bother you then why not hide them with something you design. Do you draw?"
"I do draw. I've been doing it since I was about eight."
"Does that mean you sing?" Kakashi asked with a smile.
"I guess you'll have to wait until tomorrow to find out." Sasuke said with his own smile back.
"I guess I will. I thought Kovu was going to fall over when you agreed to it."
Sasuke let out a small laugh before he spoke. "So did I. I don't like doing the events and all the fancy crap, but it sounded fun and it's for a good cause. Why not?"
"No hey, if you want to do it then all the power to you. I think you should, like you said it is a good cause and I think you could have fun doing it. I'm also looking forward to hearing you sing." Kakashi said with a smile.
"I'm sure my father won't be happy about it or about the interview. I just couldn't sit there and lie. Was I wrong?" Sasuke asked softly.
"No you weren't wrong Sasuke. I think you handled it very well with all things considering. You didn't even have to go through with it. When you saw who it was that would be interviewing you, you could have left, but you didn't. You stuck it out and you handled yourself very well. You answered honestly, but you didn't throw any oil on the fire. I think your responses were very mature and I know Kovu approved of them as well. I'm proud of you today. I think today you truly showed that you could handle being in the spot light and dealing with this new aspect of your life. I'm not going to push you about the woman, but if you want to talk about it I'll always be here to listen to you."
"I'm just not ready to talk about it. I don't know if I ever will be, but I appreciate it."
"I'm here for you whenever you need it, even if it is just a safe place to sleep at night. How are you feeling with the hot water? Is it helping?"
"It feels good." Sasuke said as he grabbed his glass from the side and took a drink as Kakashi did the same. Sasuke put his glass back down and Kakashi heard the groan as Sasuke moved his shoulder the wrong way.
"You ok?"
"Ya just my shoulders are still sore from being tied back so much." Sasuke said as he rolled his shoulders to try and ease the tension in them.
"Come here." Kakashi said as he gently grabbed Sasuke's hand and brought him over to him.
Kakashi turned Sasuke so his back was against his chest. Kakashi brought his hands up to Sasuke's shoulders and started to massage them. Sasuke could help, but let out a moan as Kakashi worked his sore and stiff muscles. Sasuke relaxed into Kakashi's touch and just enjoyed the feel of Kakashi's hands on him. Every now and then Sasuke let out a moan and Kakashi didn't know how much longer he could hear those sounds coming from Sasuke's mouth before he did something. Kakashi didn't know what it was about Sasuke, but there was just something about him that drove Kakashi crazy. He wanted Sasuke and he knew it was wrong. Sasuke was going through a lot of horrible things and had been through a lot of horrible things. The last thing he needed was for Kakashi to add to the confusion. Kakashi didn't want Sasuke to feel like he was like everyone else, because he wasn't. Kakashi cared about Sasuke and he just wanted to be there for him, because his family wasn't.
After fifteen minutes Kakashi felt all of the tension was removed from Sasuke so he moved his hands away from Sasuke's shoulders, but he wrapped them around Sasuke's torso. Sasuke just leaned back against Kakashi and just enjoyed the night sky.
"Thank-you for tonight. You always know how to make me feel like a normal person." Sasuke said softly in the quiet night.
"You are a normal person. I'm just glad I can be here for you and help you through this. You've been dealing with this on your own for too long. You don't have to do that anymore. We're gonna do this together."
"I'm glad you are here. I don't think I could have gone for much longer if I had to do it alone."
"You don't have to do this alone anymore. I'm here for you."
"The same goes for you. I'm here for you if you ever need to talk. You never did tell me what happened when you left with Ricco."
"I'll tell you another day. Tonight let's just enjoy the stars and the hot water."
"Ok"
Sasuke curled into Kakashi's chest and put his head back against his shoulder. Kakashi wrapped his arms tighter around Sasuke and let himself enjoy the feeling of just holding Sasuke. An hour later he could feel Sasuke falling asleep so they got out of the hot tub and dried off. They both headed upstairs and Kakashi brought Sasuke into his own bedroom. They both put on a pair of boxers before they got into the bed. Kakashi pulled Sasuke against his chest and Sasuke laid down with his head on Kakashi's chest. Kakashi wrapped his arms around Sasuke and stroked his hair until Sasuke was asleep. Kakashi closed his eyes and fell asleep with Sasuke curled up on his chest.
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It was just before one the next afternoon and Kakashi and Sasuke were heading to the bar to meet up with Merria. They had spent the last couple of hours going for lunch and going shopping for some professional clothes. Both Kakashi and Sasuke had gotten a few things and just had them sealed away for later. Kakashi had been very helpful to Sasuke for picking out professional clothes. Sasuke wasn't happy about buying them, but he knew he had to in order to continue with his job properly. Sasuke also got a wardrobe so he could put all of his new clothes in, because he didn't have a closet in his room. Everything was sealed away so when he got home later he could go through it and set everything up. Sasuke also wanted to work on painting his room this week while he was off, before the paint wouldn't be good anymore. Sasuke had a great morning and a great night last night. He didn't even have any nightmares last night and that was a first for Sasuke in a long time. Even when he had spent the week in bed after the event he had still woken up every two hours from a nightmare. Last night he didn't even wake up once and Sasuke was feeling very good and awake for the day. Sasuke was excited for this meeting and he was looking forward to this concert. This was one event that Sasuke wasn't going to pass up.
Both Kakashi and Sasuke walked into the closed bar and they saw that Kovu was there already speaking with Merria. Both Merria and Kovu smiled at Sasuke and Kakashi. They headed over to Merria and Kovu as Merria spoke.
"Sasuke, it is so good to see you and to have you apart of this." Merria said with a smile.
"I'm honored that you asked me to be a part of this. I'm looking forward to it." Sasuke said back with a smile.
"I have all of the paperwork for you Sasuke and we were just going over dates that you would need to be here so I can coordinate with the Director and any other events that might come up between now and the concert." Kovu said.
"Thank-you." Sasuke said.
"Sasuke you are the first one here. I have the band here if you want to just sing now instead of waiting." Merria said.
"Sure sounds good, but I don't need the band. I was just going to play a song on the piano if that is alright with you." Sasuke said.
"It's perfectly fine by me. When you are ready you can go ahead." Merria said with a smile.
Sasuke just headed over to the stage and up onto the stage and over to the piano. Sasuke took off his jacket before he sat down at the piano. Kakashi and Kovu headed over to each other and they both looked at each other just waiting to see how this was going to play out. They both didn't know that Sasuke could even play the piano so this was all new to them. After a moment Sasuke began to play a song and sing.
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face I would hold you in my arms There's nothing I wouldn't do Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit Would you tell me I was wrong? There's nothing I wouldn't do Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do If I had just one more day Oh, it's dangerous I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh ooh
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes.
To hear your voice again.
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh, whoa
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
And I've hurt myself, oh, oh, oh.
I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Once Sasuke finished his last note on the piano the room was dead silent. They couldn't believe that Sasuke could sound like that. He sounded amazing and Kakashi had no idea Sasuke was this talented outside of the ninja world. It blew his mind. After a moment they started to clap and Merria was smiling from ear to ear.
"Sasuke that was amazing. I am so relieved I was afraid you wouldn't be very good and I would have to try and tell you that it wouldn't work out, but you are amazing. Your voice is just beautiful. Did you write that song?" Merria asked with enthusiasm.
"Um ya I did." Sasuke said slightly awkwardly as he got up from the piano and off the stage.
"Sasuke that was unbelievable." Kakashi said with a smile.
"Thanks." Sasuke said with a small smile.
"Well now that we have taken care of that it certainly opens all sorts of possibilities. Are you maybe willing to sing some of your own original songs for the concert?" Merria asked.
"Um ya I could if you wish."
"It's up to you, but that song was beautiful Sasuke. If you have more songs that you feel comfortable with singing I would love for you to." Merria said.
"I can go through them and see what ones are even finished." Sasuke said.
"Perfect. I have a set list of some songs you can go through it and just let me know which ones you might be interested in singing. Maybe in a week we can get back together or you can just give Kovu the list back so I have an idea for each person. Kovu has all of the rehearsal dates already. I know you are busy so I will coordinate with Kovu as much as I can so you don't have to take out too much time from your schedule to speak to me directly Sasuke."
"I appreciate that and I am looking forward to working with you on this concert. It should be fun." Sasuke said with a smile.
"Yes I hope it will be. Dealing with the preparations have been slightly challenging, but I am hoping the end result will be worth it. I won't keep you any longer, unless you have any questions for me?"
"No I think I'm good. Kovu are you set?" Sasuke asked.
"We're good. I'll speak to the Director when we leave so I know what is going on within the next month and I can make sure you are free for the dates that you will be needed." Kovu answered.
"Then we are all set. I appreciate your time and letting me in on this." Sasuke said to Merria.
"Thank-you for agreeing. Have a good day and I will see you in two weeks."
Sasuke took the set list and headed out of the bar with Kakashi and Kovu behind him. Once outside Kovu turned to Sasuke.
"Ok where the hell did that come from?" Kovu asked with a smile.
"What?" Sasuke said with his own smile.
"Don't what me. Since when have you been able to sing like that and you write your own songs? Since when?" Kovu asked.
"Since I was like five. It's not a big deal."
"How come the Director doesn't know you can do that?"
"Because I don't want him to know. I get that he is going to find out next month, but I don't want this in my file. This isn't for everyone else this is something that I do for me. It's the one thing I have that is mine that I don't have to share with everyone. It's the one thing that I have a pleasant memory with and I don't want to taint that by having to do it on an operation. Please Kovu just let me have this one thing." Sasuke said hoping to get Kovu to understand how important it was for him to have this as just his own thing and not something he would have to taint one day.
"Hey, I get it. Everyone is entitled to have their own outlet and their own peace of mind. I can make sure the Director keeps this out of your file so you won't have to do it on an operation." Kovu said in a serious voice.
"I appreciate it thank-you."
"It's my job. I have to get going and meet with the Director before he gets too busy for me and I can't get a hold of him until tomorrow. If I don't see you in the next week I will see you next Friday at the Tower for three. The Director already has an operation in the works for you I believe and he wants to meet you both then."
"Ok" Sasuke said.
"Enjoy the rest of your time off and I will see you both around." Kovu said.
"See you Kovu." Sasuke said.
"Have a good day Kovu." Kakashi said.
"You were amazing Sasuke. I had no idea you could sing like that." Kakashi said to Sasuke once they were alone.
"It's something I have kept quiet. It's something just for me to do, but this is a good cause so I figured why the hell not."
"You should be sharing that with the world. It was amazing, you were amazing and so comfortable on stage. I can see now why you are excited for this concert. It should be very good and fun."
"Ya I hope so. I'm gonna head home and get these things put away and maybe even paint my room. What are you gonna do today?"
"I'm not sure. I might summon Pakun and see how he has been and maybe take him and go exploring."
"Good you should. He'll enjoy that. Just don't get lost." Sasuke joked with a smile.
"I'll try not to. It shouldn't be too bad. I figured if I am going to live here for the next five years I might as well know the place. Do you want me to walk you home?"
"No I'll be fine. Go explore with Pakun and your hounds. I'll see you around."
"I'll come by and see you in a few days. I'll let you get your room finished and set up. If you want to go for lunch or just hang out come by anytime Sasuke."
"I will. Go have fun with your hounds." Sasuke said with a smile as he walked backwards as he faced Kakashi.
"I'll see you later." Kakashi said back with his own smile.
"Bye." Sasuke said as he turned around and started to head towards the forest so he could take the path back to his place.
Kakashi headed back to his house so he could put his clothes away before he would summon Pakun and go explore the area. Sasuke headed back to his place and once there he headed downstairs. It didn't surprise him that no one was home, that was usually the case. He headed downstairs and released the seal for his clothes and for the wardrobe. He spent the next hour putting it together and putting his clothes away. Sasuke was just about to get changed into some old clothes to start painting when the door to his room slammed opened and his father came down the stairs. Sasuke knew he would be mad about the interview and missing dinner last night, but there was no way Sasuke was going to be here last night with that woman. Sure enough Fugaku came right over to Sasuke and punched him with everything in him across his face. Sasuke landed on the ground and his father started to yell as he continued to punch and kick Sasuke as he yelled at him.
"You ungrateful piece of shit. You go on an interview and broadcast to the world that you are gay. That an Uchiha enjoys getting fucked by other men. You make it seem like being gay and doing drugs is nothing. You should have stuck to what Miito wrote and not went off and ran your mouth. Do you have any idea how many looks I have received since your little stunt? How many times I had to pretend that there was nothing wrong with my family? I am sick of your antics and I will not tolerate it any longer. You will do as I tell you and you will not fight me against it ever again. You are going to go on whatever operations I place you on and you will keep your mouth shut. Do you understand me?" Fugaku yelled as he kicked Sasuke with everything in him and Sasuke heard the snap of his rib.
Sasuke bit his lip to keep from screaming out, he knew from past experiences that it only angered his father more. Fugaku finally stopped his assault on Sasuke, but he didn't leave him alone. He bent down and he performed a few hand seals before he placed them on Sasuke's left shoulder blade. Sasuke felt the painful burn as his father's chakra went through his shoulder and Sasuke knew that his father was placing some kind of seal on him. After a moment Fugaku removed his hands and spoke.
"That seal will make it so that you can't fight against me. That you will obey me when I tell you to do something. I am sick of your bullshit. You like being fucked by guys huh? You like being a whore, then you will be just that a filthy whore."
Fugaku pulled Sasuke's pants down and Sasuke tried to fight him, but all it took was one word from his father and he couldn't fight anymore.
"Stay" Fugaku ordered and Sasuke found himself unable to fight against him.
Fugaku tore off Sasuke's pants and boxers before he pulled down his own. He was going to show Sasuke just what his actions were going to get him. Fugaku didn't even waste a moment he just shoved into Sasuke as hard and as roughly as he could. He was relentless against Sasuke and continued to pound into him despite the blood that was starting to appear. Sasuke bit his lip to keep from screaming out in pain. This wasn't the first time he had been through this with others or with his father. He knew he just had to close his eyes and wait for this to be over. All he could do was hope that it would be over with soon.
"Moan like the whore you are." Fugaku ordered and Sasuke found himself unable to stop himself from moaning in time with his father's thrusts.
Sasuke felt the tingle in his eyes and fought to keep the tears at bay he wouldn't cry in front of his father. He just had to block this out and then after he could get drunk and high and everything would be alright. After an agonizing fifteen minutes Fugaku was finally cumming deep inside Sasuke's abused hole. He pulled out not even bothered by the blood that was coming out of Sasuke. He pulled his pants back up and did them up as he spoke.
"Let this be a lesson to you. Being gay will only cause you pain. You will learn to like women and you will learn how to be a proper Uchiha or you will never leave this room unless it is for an operation again. You are nothing but a pathetic whore and a disgrace." Fugaku said with disgust as he left Sasuke there bleeding on the floor.
Sasuke heard his bedroom door slam shut and he let the tears come. He curled into a ball as much as he body let him and he just cried. His father had beaten him before since being back home, but this was the first time his father had raped him since he had left for the Sound. This time around just like before Sasuke couldn't defend himself against his father, but this time his father had made sure he didn't get a choice. The seal burned and it kept him in his place. He was at the mercy of his father once again and Sasuke found that that had hurt more than anything else. Sasuke spent ten minutes crying on the floor curled up before he pushed himself up off the floor and headed into his bathroom and turned the shower on as hot as it could go. Once he got his clothes off he got under the steaming hot water and began to scrub at his skin. He just wanted his father off from him and he scrubbed until his skin was red and raw. Even then he continued to scrub until spots of his skin were bleeding from being so raw. Sasuke stood under the water until it ran cold before he got out. Sasuke immediately got dressed in clean clothes and headed over to his bar and poured himself a glass of whiskey. He drank half of it in one go before he set it down and went over to his dresser. Inside he had kept an ounce of heroin and clean needles in his drawer. Sasuke took it out and went over to the couch and prepared a needle. Once he was ready he took the whole amount and injected it into his vein. Sasuke had thought he was going to be okay now that Kakashi was back in his life and he wasn't alone anymore, but this just proved to him that there was no point in even trying. This was his life and he was done fighting it. He was just going to get high and drunk for the next week and do whatever he wanted before he had to go back to duty.
Song: Hurt by Christina Aguilera.
