Not mine. R&R.
So, back to Edward. I really don't like him and it isn't because he's done anything wrong; he hasn't. That may be exactly why. I can please a man a million different ways but when they ask me for something I can't give them, what am I supposed to do? Edward didn't come here for the same things as everybody else. He came to marry me.
You may ask yourself, why would he want to marry a girl like her? Don't worry, I'm asking myself the same thing. Lots of men tell me I'm beautiful and in the heat of the moment they sometimes ask me to marry them but none of them mean it. Edward meant business when he asked me. And that would never be something I could do for anyone. I'm not worthy of marriage to anyone.
Edward just will not give up though. He continues to come back day after day and it must be costing him thousands of dollars but he never misses a day. I really wish he would just leave me alone so I won't have to worry about breaking down and actually saying yes. He would never be happy with me anyway. I wasn't the pretty little virgin wife he needed and I never could be.
One day he came and talked to me once again and I had a feeling that if I didn't say yes this time, he wouldn't come back ever again. So, I said no. And for a while he did stay away at least until the day James found out.
He stormed into my room asking me about these ridiculous marriage proposals I was receiving. I told him that no matter what happened I would say no. Problem was, he didn't believe me. So he taught me a lesson to make sure I would always say no. He beat me to within an inch of my death and I wished I had already died.
The next day Edward showed up again, snuck into my room, saw the way I looked, and carried me out of there. I know now that I never should have gone back.
