Here you go my darlings the next chapter awaits you, I hope you enjoy it it's a little dark and really not my favorite chapter but hopefully you will like it better than me. And to the people who asked my opinion on last nights episode Left Behind, I know people don't like Juliet but her going off on Kate was kind of deserved everything she said was basically the truth and Kate needs to realize she broke Jack's heart and now it seems she still goes back to Sawyer which I'm not sure what's worse. Kate thinking she doesn't deserve Jack or sawyer being dumb enough to believe Kate wants him for real….this is why I like my little AU world hehe I try to cut down on the stupidity. Also if I was Juliet and that close to freedom only to have it blow up in front of me I'd be bitchy too.
CHAPTER 4
Kate woke up slowly and stretched like a cat and smiled as she felt the weight of arms holding her close. She smiled because she knew without a doubt those arms belonged to Jack. She rolled over gently and quietly so as to not disturb him and she watched him sleep. He was such an enigma to her, at times he seemed so cold and aloof and other times he was fiery and passionate. And at times like these with his eyes closed, his lips slightly parted and his tan skin contrasting with the stark white of the pillow he looked so young and boyish as if he had never seen the things he had in his life. She couldn't explain much about this man or her feelings for him. They had only known each other for such a short time and here she was feeling her heart leap in her chest at just the mere sight of him. She knew without a doubt she felt something strong for him possibly even love, and that scared the living hell out of her. Not of her own feelings but even though she had seen the softer and gentler side to Jack she knew he was still that hard man and she knew if she went off telling him she loved him, especially after such an impossible amount of time to fall in love, he would bolt. She knew he would tear her heart out like a trapped animal and he would go for her jugular doing everything he possibly could to hurt her and drive her away. She didn't want that, so she would hide her feelings and just take what he offered until she thought they were in a more comfortable stage together.
She decided to let him rest and to take a shower and maybe see if she could rustle up some breakfast for them, she was starving and all the extraneous activities they had partook in only made her hungrier. She scooted from the bed and out from under his arms and went into the bathroom closing the door behind her. She couldn't help wipe the smile from her face though, even though things were pretty bad she couldn't help but feel calm and totally at ease. She knew it all had to do with the man lying in the bed on the other side of the door. She showered and hummed quietly to herself and when she was done she wrapped a towel around her and started to open the door when she heard male voices. She froze for a second but she quickly recognized Jack's voice and after a few seconds realized the other belonged to John. She glanced down at herself and blushed, though she had no problem parading around in nothing but a towel for Jack, John was a whole different story. She rolled her eyes; yeah she would have made a lousy whore. She started to close the door when she couldn't help but hear her name and she found herself listening in.
Jack had awoke to the sound of knocking on the door and his eyes had flown open and the first thing he had reached for was his gun. The second thing he noticed was Kate was gone. He leapt from the bed quickly pulling on his pants, he then realized he heard the shower running from the bathroom and he quickly and quietly made his way to the door where he opened it a crack and saw the steam filled bathroom and to his amusement heard Kate softly singing to her self. He quietly closed the door and made his way to the front when there was another knock.
"Mr. McDonald? It's John Locke the manager. Sir we have a mail delivery for you and the luggage the airport lost was sent over" Jack smirked as he heard Locke calling through the door. Jack looked out the peephole and convinced it was safe, flipped the locks and opened the door, staying behind it though so he couldn't be seen from the outside. Locke entered the room and Jack closed it quickly behind him flipping all the locks back in place. He then turned to see his old friend giving him an amused smirk, and Jack realized he must look pretty ridiculous with his gun in hand and his pants on but not even buttoned up. He shot Locke a dirty look and set the gun down and finished dressing properly. When he had his shirt on he sat down and looked at Locke.
"I got you some new clothes for both you and the lovely Miss Austen, they are in the suitcase. Also here is the paperwork you wanted." When Jack had gone in to see Locke, he had given him a quick rundown of what he needed and Locke knew exactly where to go to get it. Jack took the manila envelope from him and opened it up to see the contents.
"I had Sayid do all the documents and he managed to hack into the US DMV system where he got the picture of Miss Austen, he used it for her passport." Jack held the passport in his hand and inspected it carefully it looked legitimate and perfect. He knew Kate would have no problems using it. "I also got travel vouchers that can be cashed in at the airport since you didn't have a destination as of yesterday." Jack nodded and then he frowned when he saw something else in the envelope.
"What's this?" he asked holding up the object and when opening it scowled. "I didn't tell you to make me a passport, just Kate." He said warily.
"I know but I was thinking you would realize that staying here would be counterproductive and that you might go with Miss. Austen." Locke said sounding nonchalant but Jack didn't buy it.
"I'm not leaving with Kate and Said making a passport for a man and woman is the kind of red flag I don't need. Marco is looking for a couple that's why I only wanted one passport, one travel voucher and only Kate leaving the country." Jack said frustrated as he got up and began to pace.
"Jack, it may be none of my business but why exactly are you staying here? You know that if you do Marco will eventually hunt you down and kill you." Locke paused as he spoke and he gave a slight nod of understanding as it dawned on him. "That's what you want isn't it? You want Marco to kill you, this death wish you've carried around since you've arrived is still weighing you down isn't it? Jesus Jack, look around things aren't so bad. You have Kate now and…" he was interrupted quickly by Jack.
"Don't you bring her into this" he spat out angrily. "I'm getting her out of here what the hell else do you want from me? She is going back to her life and I'm going back to mine and they don't really mesh together all that well." Jack said coldly. He couldn't allow whatever feelings he may or may not have for Kate get in the way, he had to finish this and if he allowed emotions to interfere it could jeopardize Kate's life. Emotions and feelings made people sloppy and he couldn't afford that right now. He had allowed himself a few moments of peace with her last night in bed, that was all there was going to be, end of story.
"You have an opportunity to start over somewhere new Jack, maybe with Kate maybe without her but don't be stupid, chances like this don't come along often." Locke said quietly, hoping he could get through to Jack.
Kate stood on the other side of the bathroom door and she felt like someone had just gutted her alive. Jack wasn't coming with her; he had never planned on coming with her? She felt the hot tears well in her eyes and she felt her heart break. Perhaps she was underestimating her feelings when she had thought she could love Jack, by the pain in her chest it seems she already did love him. She closed the door quietly and paced around the bathroom, this couldn't be happening he had to come with her. She knew this wasn't a fairy tale and that by the two of them just running away together things weren't going to magically fall into place. She knew that, she knew almost nothing about him and the same for him. Hell they could be at each others throats in just a few days hating each other, but Kate wanted, no she needed, to know what kind of life they could have. She needed the opportunity to find out what they could have. In the short time they had know each other he had awakened parts of her she thought were dead. In the few hours they had known each other she felt more for him than she ever had for Sawyer and they had been together for years.
She waited nervously in the bathroom trying to figure something out when she heard the front door close. She took a deep breath and let it out slowly. Here goes nothing she thought to herself as she let herself out of the bathroom and put on a show that she hoped wouldn't backfire in her face. She walked out confidently the towel tied tightly around her. He was standing on the other side of the bed looking out the window.
"Good morning" Kate said cheerfully and she noticed Jack didn't budge from his spot. So he was going to try to piss her off, probably even be cruel with her in order to drive her away, well she was just going to have to beat him to the punch.
"So I don't know about you, but I'm starving, who knew sex could make someone so hungry?" She said with an exasperated sigh. She could be just as aloof and carefree of their affair as him.
Jack couldn't help stiffen slightly as he heard her refer to their night in bed as sex. It was stupid he knew but earlier she had insisted it was love making and now it was just sex. He shook his head at his insane thought process. He really did need a cigarette soon he was beginning to become delusional. His plan was to be aloof and cold with her so much that when he told her he wasn't going with her he wanted her to be relieved.
He turned to see her sorting through the suitcase Locke had dropped off. Jack had opened it up and placed it on the bed so she could find something to wear. He felt slight awestruck as he watched her hunched over the luggage wearing nothing but a towel. Her hair was wet and was slowing curling into its natural shape. She looked absolutely stunning and Jack felt a bittersweet wave move through him, bitter that he was going to have to let her go, sweet because for even just a moment he had found heaven in her arms.
Kate knew he was watching her and she felt her defenses slipping she so badly wanted to launch herself into his arms and tell him she knows of his plan so there was no need to be harsh with her. She wanted to plead with him to come with her anything to make him stay with her. She knew she couldn't hold out for two long so she decided to go for the jugular first.
She picked up a matching set of panties and bra that were a light powder blue. Paying no attention to his presence she dropped the towel and put the lingerie on. "Locke has good taste in women's underwear" Kate said admiring herself in the mirror she couldn't help but notice the hickey he had left on her. She flipped her hair back as to make sure he saw it as well. She then looked at him with a funny expression. "Then again maybe I don't want to know why that is" she said with a chuckle about Locke's taste in women's underwear.
Go time she thought nervously and she continued on without missing a beat. "I've always liked pretty lingerie, never wore it much with Sawyer though. Mostly cause there was no need he was too busy trying to get my clothes off half the time underwear became too much of a nuisance. Actually that's what I wanted to talk to you about, I know I said I wanted to go to New Orleans but I think it would be best if I went to Tennessee. I need to see Sawyer again. I can't explain it, maybe because he and I have been together so long but I realized last night that I forgave him for everything. I'm not saying I want to get back together with him, I mean maybe I will maybe I won't but I know I need to see him again." Kate said nonchalantly.
Jack felt the fiery anger boil through him starting in his stomach and working its way up to his chest and then head. What the fuck was she talking about going back with Sawyer? That son of a bitch had sold her into slavery and she was considering getting back together with him? Worst of all she was telling him of her plans. He was beyond livid he knew he should just say that was fine send her to Tennessee and be done with her but his anger stopped him from doing so. Before he knew it he was across the room and had grabbed her arm and whipped her around to face him.
"What the fuck are you going on about?" he growled through clenched teeth. He found himself getting angrier as Kate showed no emotion over his obvious anger.
"We were together a long time Jack, I need to see him before I just throw all that history away." Kate said as if what she said made perfect sense. She could feel the anger rolling off Jack in waves and she felt her control snap.
"He sold you into slavery and left you behind" Jack bit out.
Kate looked at him and bared her soul. "Yeah he did and you saved me from it but you still plan on leaving me behind as well" she said her voice matter of fact. Jack sat back from her slightly shocked at her admission, before he could say anything she continued on.
"Isn't that the plan Jack? We get to the airport and then you just give me a smile and wave and send me off alone? So what right do you have to dictate who I go see and who I decide I want to be with?" she asked and before she knew it he had her pinned tight against his body.
"What right do I have?" he asked his voice coming out in a growl. He spun her around centered her in front of the mirror. He moved her hair to the side reveling her neck.
"See that mark" he angrily bit out. "I marked you, that means you are mine, you belong to me and there is no way in fucking hell I'm going to let you go back with that asshole." He spun her around to face her again. His body was shaking as he tried to control a rage he didn't even realize he had. His breathing was shallow as he tried to make sense of everything, the one thing he wanted was for Kate to go on her own and now that she's ok with it he was acting like some barbaric caveman giving her orders and treating her property. Seriously how fucked up was that.
Kate felt chills run through her body as Jack made his verbal claim on her. Her plan was working he was admitting he wanted her and wanted to posses her. She tried to bite back a smile as she figured anyone who heard this conversation would have thought Kate was sending the Woman's rights movement back a hundred years, Kate smirked because she knew she was the one in charge, she was the one making Jack come to his senses. She felt his body shake in anger and when she looked into his eyes she saw, anger, lust and her breath caught slightly as a look passed through so quickly it was almost undetectable, had it been love? Tired of this she reached up and pressed her mouth against his engaging him in a deep kiss. He responded roughly which she suspected by his behavior. She wrapped her arms around him and allowed him to plunder her mouth with his tongue. He moved her back to lie on the bed and she went willingly pulling him down on top of her. Jack was having no foreplay or sweet words this was purely animalistic. He reached down and moved the crotch of her panties to the side while unbuttoning his jeans and releasing himself from the denim confines. Before Kate knew it he was pushing deep inside of her and it took Kate a second to adjust she hadn't been particularly wet at the time so his entry was slightly painful but Kate would have it no other way. Soon enough her body caught up with him and his entry became more comfortable.
Jack took a shallow breath as he sank deep in her. He felt her tense slightly and he froze realizing she wasn't ready for him and he was probably hurting her. He looked down at her but she had her eyes closed and her mouth was parted slightly as she let out tiny whimpers. Jack felt her grow relaxed and wet around him and realized she was getting aroused. He bit out. "Am I hurting you?" he asked.
Kate opened her eyes and shook her head wrapping her legs tight around him. "The only way you could hurt me is to send me off by myself, I , ohh" she moaned as Jack thrust deep and hard within her. She wouldn't let him distract her this way she was bound and determined to say what she need to. So as he pounded her she spoke shakily through gasps and moans.
"I'm not leaving without you…oh god that feels good. I mean it if you stay, ahhh I ugh if you stay so do I, oh god oh god please" she pleaded. He was taking her harder than she had ever been. The bed was squeaking as his thrusts literally were causing the bed to rock back and forth. She listed as she heard him letting out grunts and moans as he thrust in her and Kate shivered. She wanted him so bad as he hammered into her practically lifting her off the bed with each thrust.
"Fuck, fuck fuck" he bit out as he thrust in and out. "God dammit Kate" he swore bitterly hearing her words and believing them, knowing she would stay if he did. He was frustrated and angry and so damn close to coming he felt like he brain was going numb. Kate was screaming now practically howling as he fucked her hard. He felt her body tense and she came with loud and hard. He tensed slightly and he felt her sink her teeth hard into his shoulder and the pain and pleasure rushed through him. That along with her release brought him over with her and he came hard with a shout and emptied himself within her. The collapsed on the bed gasping for breath shaking with the exhaustion of it all. Before Jack could realize what was happening. Kate managed to somehow throw her weight and flip them over so she was on top of him. She was staring at him darkly as her eyes roamed his body. Her eyes fixed on the bloody bite mark she left on him and she pointed to it.
"I marked you, you bastard that means you are mine and mine to do with what I please." She bit out, her angst over his wanting to leave her turning into rage and anger of her own.
Jack was still trying to regain his breath and by the look in her eye he knew best not to anger her further. His angel and turned wrathful and her body shook with emotion. To his shock she reached down and grabbed his cock and began to move her and up and down him stroking him.
"Kate" Jack moaned he wasn't sure if she was trying to kill him or not.
"Mine" Kate said raising her eyebrow telling him he had no room to argue. "This is mine and right now I'm going to make you come, got it? I'm going to jack you off and you will not argue with me" she said and through her tough veneer Jack could see a bit of vulnerability she was taking control and being dominant but he could read her clearly in that she wasn't sure of what she was doing. That was what kept Jack from flipping her over and regaining control. He chose to allow her the domination and for the first time in his life he allowed her full control of him. "Mine, Jack, you are mine and you are not leaving me behind" she said as she gripped and stroked him harder happy with her results and he grew and hardened in her hand. "You think you can suck on my neck mark me and not expect to allow me the same control of you? Think again Jack, were equals in this and you need to get over this tough I don't give a shit attitude cause it's not working on me. You forget I've seen your face when your in me, your expressions your softness in your caress. Be an ass, say mean things to me, try to drive me away, but it won't matter because its all bullshit do you got it?" he voice shook and her hand began to slow as tears flooded her eyes. She was shaking and Jack sat up careful not to jostle her much and he took her in his arms. He held her tight as she cried into his shoulder.
"How dare you try to leave me" she wept he and pulled her tight. He rocked her slightly and made the decision then that he would go with her wherever she wanted, maybe this sorry excuse of a human being that he was deserved the chance of happiness. Happiness with her. He smiled amused as he felt her still clutching him tight in her hand still lightly stroking him.
He pulled back to look her in the eye. "Ok baby I'll go with you, wherever you want. We can try to make a go of it alright?" he stroked her hair gently. She smiled and nodded and he chuckled. "First things first though you are mine and I am yours no questions asked ok? However I'm gonna ask you to finish what you started before you kill me" he gave her a charming smile and she realized what he was taking about. She giggled and stroked him hard and fast while Jack held her close to him their mouths pressed together in long and sensuous kisses. Jack felt his control snap and he came hard in her talented hands. He groaned and Kate kissed his jaw whispering words of encouragement to him. He watched as she brought her hand to her mouth and licked away his release never breaking eye contact with him.
When she was done she wrapped her arms around him and he held her tight. "So New Orleans huh?" he asked with a smirk.
Kate nodded as she climbed off of him and went to the suitcase to grab a couple things she need to clean up in the bathroom once again.
"New Orleans is a very sexy place just imagine how good it would feel to make love in the French Quarter on white linen sheets with the humidity in the air" she called out over her shoulder as she went into the other room closing the door behind her.
Jack watched her and let out a groan damn this woman was going to be the death of him.
OK so I know it wasn't great but hopefully you'll forgive me, so let me know what you think and please hit the little button and review
