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(Warning: Not Stephenie Meyer)
"Bella?! Oh, Thank God, Bella!" Alice's voice caused me to wince and I opened my eyes. She was sitting on my bed anxiously. "Bella! Where were you? How did you get home? It's 7:00! Why didn't you call me? Oh, Bella, I was so worried! Is Jake still around? I can't see your future! Why do you smell like dried blood? Bella? Bella what's wrong?" His name had set me off. I couldn't do this anymore. The blank stare was gone and I could feel the emotional pain run though me.
"Bella?? Bella!" Her voice was loud, but I couldn't bring myself to respond. "Bella! What is going on?" I just shook my head. Her voice continued to buzz around me and I refused to look up. I shoved my head deeper into the pillow and screamed in pain as Alice tried to shake me.
Alice's voice faded into the background and was no longer pointed at me. Who was she talking to? Was someone else here? Was it that monster? I shook with fear. Minutes passed of silence. I was content with the quiet. Suddenly the door burst opened and a male voice filled the air. A smooth voice, but I was happy to discover it wasn't the velvety voice I feared.
"Bella? Bella, I need to know that you can hear me. Can you hear what I'm saying?" Carlisle's voice asked worriedly. I nodded into the pillow. "Bella can you tell me what happened?" I shook my head, feeling the tears well in my eyes. "Bella, did someone do this to you?" What was this, twenty questions? I nodded.
"Bella... Was it Jake?" I froze for a moment at his name. I couldn't move. Suddenly I could feel him on top of me again. Holding me down. Breaking every ounce of me. "Bella?" His voice snapped me out of my memory. I nodded again. I heard him curse under his breath. "Bella I'm taking you to the hospital." I shook my head. "Bella, you can't decide this right now. I'm calling Charlie and telling him that you fell and you're at the hospital. Bella, I'm going to pick you up and carry you to the car. Alice? You can follow us in the Porsche." I cringed as Carlisle picked me up. His cold touch was soothing to my sore body.
Carlisle carried me to the car and sat me in the back seat of the Mercedes as he sped into the driver's seat and hurried to the hospital. The building pressure of the car caused me body to ache even more. I moaned constantly. "Shh. We're almost there, Bella." He said calmly.
We arrived at the hospital and Carlisle called a nurse to find a clean room and bring a wheelchair. Within seconds Alice pulled up behind us and came out to meet Carlisle. Carlisle placed me in the wheel chair the nurse had brought out and gently placed me in it. He wheeled me into an immaculately clean room somewhere in the hospital. He handed me a gown and kindly walked out while I got dressed.
I'm sure he tried to start conversation, but I just nodded when I heard him speak. A few moments after I had the paper-like gown on I painfully climbed onto the hospital bed. As I climbed into the bed I shrieked in pain as I felt the blood oozing down my legs again. I felt the tears overtake my face and I was shivering. How could I just let Carlisle see me like this? He had been kind enough to leave a blanket on the table and allowed me to cover up. Soon after I lied down I heard a soft knock at the door and Carlisle walked in. Everything felt blurry and I couldn't think straight. I wasn't myself. I wasn't Bella.
"Bella? Bella, can you hear me? Bella!" Carlisle's voice was serious and urgent. I snapped out of my thoughts and looked up at him and he sighed. "Bella, I need to know what happened. No one can hear us, no one can see us, if that is what you're worried about." I shook my head.
"Why not? Bella, you're less than a week away from being my daughter. I care about you and I really need to know what happened so I can help you heal." I shook my head again. "Is it something you don't want Edward, or any of us, know?" I nodded, feeling the tears escape my eyes again.
"Oh, Bella. Edward loves you, and nothing that happened to you would make him love you any less. And if it's that important to you, I can just block him. I'll have to be on my best guard, but I will be able to do it easily. So with that said, Bella, are you going to tell me what happened?"
I shook my head and he sighed. "Bella, if you won't show me as your father-in-law. I need you to show me as your physician. I took an oath, Bella, many times. I'm obligated to help you. Bella, please, let me help you." His voice was gentle and his eyes filled with a greater sadness. I felt horrible; no one should suffer because of what I did.
I shrugged the blanket down around my lap and showed Carlisle my bruised arms. You can clearly see Jacob's hand prints all across my arms. I lifted up the gown to reveal the purple mess my stomach had become. I pointed out the bloody scratches on my back from the thick concrete and rocks. I showed him my bloody head. I hesitated when I went to move the blanket to show him the bruises and scratches on my leg. Not to mention the blood that still continued to seep down my leg.
"I know you're bleeding, Bella. I need to see everything else." I nodded as a tear slid down my face. I shoved the blanket aside revealing my bruised and battered legs. He noticed the blood immediately. He was in shock as he ran at a nonhuman speed to the side of my bed. He gasped again, "Bella.." He stared into my face and I was crying again, harder. "Bella, Jacob raped you, didn't he?" I choked out a sob and moaned in pain. "Bella?" I nodded.
"Okay, Bella. Does Sam know about this?" He asked. He was pacing slightly.
"He's the one that s-saved me." I whispered. Carlisle looked angrier than I had ever seen him.
"Bella, did he explain how we couldn't possibly begin to get the cops involved in this?" He whispered sadly. I shrugged. That must have been what he said in the car. He cursed under his breath. "Bella, I'm so sorry this happened. I'm still going to do a check up that I would do for any rape case; however, the records will only show the broken bones. I will call it anonymous abuse." I nodded again.
"Okay, Bella. I'm going to give you some pain medication as I check all of your injuries and clean you up, alright?" I nodded. Carlisle inserted an IV into my arm and I cringed and looked away as the needle entered my skin. Soon the pain slipped away and everything felt like a dream, or rather, a nightmare. After what felt like hours, Carlisle stood up and as if it was perfect timing, reality slowly hit me again.
"Would you like to know the specifics?" He asked. I nodded.
He sighed, "Three broken ribs, a sprained wrist, fractured collar bone, two stitches below hairline on back of head, deep cuts along arms and back, massive deep bruising and possible fracture along legs due to impact and, bruises over entire body specifically on upper body." His voice trailed off, "And of course, something not written on the sheet, Severe Vaginal Tearing. That can be fixed from home."
He sighed again, "You are all cleaned up, but I assume you would rather stay here then go back to Charlie's or to Alice?" I nodded. "Well that is just fine. I can keep you here for observation. I need to check on you anyway." I nodded. "Get some rest, Bella." I nodded and rolled onto my side wincing as the brace shifted around my ribs causing them to grind. I moaned. I wasn't sure if he had left, so I maintained as much composure as possible.
After a few moments of staring at the same spot on the bed, trying not to think about the day I heard Carlisle speak from the door frame. "Bella?" He said softly. I hummed a response; I still wasn't ready to talk. "I need you to understand you mean too much to this family for us to let you go over something silly like this. Bella, you are extremely important to us, and we care about you. I won't tell the family about this, but Bella, I really suggest you do. If not Alice and everyone else, please tell Edward. Bella, he would want to know this. He would want to be here for you." I felt the tears pour out. I nodded silently. "He loves you more than you realize." I nodded again. "Okay, Bella, I will let you get your rest. I'm sure Alice will be here when you wake up. Just say my name and I will be here instantly for you." Again, I nodded. I heard the door close and I lost it.
I began sobbing and shaking. I didn't care about the pain. I just wanted to be dead. It didn't matter how much Edward loved me, he wouldn't love me after I let that mutt rape me. I was filthy. Edward wouldn't want me. The Cullens wouldn't want me. Carlisle was being too naive and too nice. I was sick and filthy. I let the darkness enclose around me and shuddered in pain and fear. Couldn't this all be over?
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