Used again chap 4
Waking up the next morning feeling another body on his TJ looks down to see blonde hair spread out on his chest he suddenly forgot the pounding headache he had and his heart sped up to a million miles, he moves his hand to Nattie's soft cheek and moves her hair away from her face so he could see her face she had gotten more beautiful TJ was shocked that was even possible he softly lies a kiss on her head watching as her have formed into a frown her eyes flutter open revealing her amazing brown eyes as confusion filled them, she looks up at TJ and gulps heavy.
"What have I done?" she sits up quickly putting her head in her hands. TJ sighs and sits next to her removing her hands seeing tears. It was then he realised the hurt he put her through.
"Nat, I am so sorry" he whispers wiping her eyes. Just as she was about to say something the front door opens.
"NATALIE NEIDHART GET HERE NOW!" Came the voice of her best friend Nattie pushes TJ into the closet.
"Stay here" she throws his clothes in with him and gets her dressing gown on and walks out to see Beth with her eyebrows raised shaking her head. Nattie realised what happened she let him get to her. Again. She runs to Beth and cries softly.
"I can't stay away from him" she sobs softly as Beth holds her close. "I love him Beth and I can't help it he makes me feel happy and like I'm worth something" she says as Beth leads her to the sofa.
Beth strokes her back softly "Do what you think is best for you and Stuart. Do you think he will stay in the long run? Or will he get bored and leave you again?" she says soothingly not knowing TJ could hear what she was saying thinking of these questions over in his head.
Nattie looks at Beth and nods "I think he will" she says not fully sure.
Beth bites her lip "Thinking and knowing are 2 very different things Nat" she says softly "I know you love him. I always have I'm your best friend I saw the look you gave him when you saw him that first time and I saw the way you was with him last night. But now you need to think of Stuart and if he will always be there. He has missed 4years of his life and Stuart has now seen his daddy and wants him in his life but what if you do make a happy family and he suddenly gets a call saying he's made it to the big time and he gets up and leaves?"
Nattie nods softly "I know and I don't think he will for some reason I think he will stay. Even if it's for Stuart I'm not gonna let him hurt me Beth. I don't think I could go through that pain again I'm glad I had Stuart there with me. I won't let him hurt Stuart definitely not. But he deserves to know his daddy even if its risking a lot he was talking about him the whole way home when he first met him." she rambles and looks to her room knowing TJ could hear her "Is it stupid that I can't stop loving him?" she asks her best friend softly.
Beth shakes her head "No it's not just be careful okay" she kisses her head and hugs her "I'm always here for you"
Nattie smiles softly and nods "I'm glad you have Phil he makes you happy I can see that" she bites her lip "I'm gonna take a shower and pick Stuart up I'll talk later" she smiles she promised Stuart to take him FCW tonight.
"Definitely. I'll see you later" she hugs Nattie softly and gets her bag and leaves Nattie closes her eyes softly and sees TJ walk out the room his eyes on her.
"Did you mean that?" he asks softly looking into her eyes softly gulping.
Nattie nods "But I don't think we should. If I get hurt I'll live but if Stuart ever gets hurt I could never accept it. If anything happens between us and then we split it will hurt him he has always wanted his daddy and I'm just gonna give him his daddy and that's all" she says tearfully seeing the hurt in TJ's eyes.
"B..but you just said-" he tries to say his heart breaking.
Nattie wipes her eyes "Stuart comes first before anything" she kisses his cheek softly as he holds her close.
"Please Nat" he whispers into her hair. She pulls away softly knowing she had to do it for Stuart.
"Let's just start out as friends again. We will see what happens from there but i need to trust you not just with my heart but Stuart as well I hope you understand that."
TJ nods softly seeing she wasn't going to budge "Okay" he whispers. Nattie Smiles and wraps her arms around his waist.
"Who knows something may happen in the future" she smiles "Do you want to pick Stuart up with me?" she asks softly knowing Stuart would be made when he sees TJ.
Nodding softly TJ smiles knowing he was lucky to even be friends with her.
"I just need to get my things" he says softly and kisses head and gets his clothes on from the night before "I'll be 20 minutes top" he smiles and runs out to get ready.
Nattie sighs softly no matter how much it hurt her she knew she had done the right thing not just for her but Stuart as well.
After changing into a plain t-shirt and demin shorts that showed off her long toned legs she puts her converse on and grabs her bag walking out into the warm Florida sun seeing TJ walk up her garden path she smiles softly.
"Lets walk there there's a Starbucks on the way and I could kill for a strawberry and creme frap" she smiles walking up the road with him.
TJ smiles nodding he couldn't help but stare at her amazed by her.
"Thankyou" he says softly smiling at her.
Nattie smiles radiantly up at him "you don't need to keep thanking me" she says softly linking her arm into his "I have missed you I just never wanted to be hurt like that again" she tells him in a quiet voice.
TJ nods softly and strokes her hand "It will never happen again. If I could go back I would kick myself hard and change"
Nattie smiles sweetly "Well unfortunately there's no going back but mistakes can be corrected" she smiles as they walk into Starbucks and orders there drinks which TJ had paid for making Nattie smile.
"Lets sit down for a bit" she pulls him to a table sitting down opposite him she tries to look anywhere but his face.
"So how have you been?' she asks him softly playing with the straw making TJ smile at her nervousness.
"I've not been too bad. Just kept my head down." he says softly "You?"
Nattie looks up biting her lip "I've been good. Just raising Stuart and training" she smiles "He can't stop talking about you" she tells him making his heart beat speed up.
"What does he say?" he asks gently unable to contain the smile on his face.
Nattie sees the happiness in his eyes "He mentioned how you look big and strong so that you can scare the monsters from under his bed and play soccer with him and build him a tree house cause grampy told him mummy is bad at building things" she giggles softly. TJ beams at her as she smiles back blushing softly she takes in a deep breath and looks away thinking about the future she could imagine TJ and Stuart in the garden all day building that tree house Stuart had wanted oh so badly she shakes her head and looks at TJ "Do you remember when we was little and Teddy dared you to throw eggs at your neighbour's cat?" she giggles at the memory.
TJ laughed "I do after all I was the one that received the slaps behind the head for it!" he bites his tongue remembering Teddy's dares. "Remember that time when I kissed you and I said Teddy dared me?" he looks at her as she nodded smiling.
"It wasn't a dare was it" she stated grinning seeing his cheeks go red "That was my first kiss" she smiled seeing his reaction.
"Really?" he asked stunned at the fact he was her first kiss…. But then again he was her first of a lot of things.
Nattie laughs "TJ I was 10! I hadn't had a boyfriend before that!" she smiles softly "We should go get Stuart" she says standing up cleaning the table before walking back out into the Florida sunshine.
"Do you think your dad will kill me?" he asks softly his hands in his pockets walking beside her feeling slightly nervous at the fact he was going too see the family that had made him who he was yet he let down so badly.
Nattie thinks for a second seeing how worried he looks she takes his hand in hers "Not in front of Stuart" she stops him just as they reached the top of her parents street "You can stay here if you want?" she offers sweetly stroking the back of his hand.
TJ shakes his head looking at her "No no I have to man up right face my punishment" he says his voice shaking.
"I won't let him hurt you" she smiles making TJ shake his head,
"He will but it's fine, I deserve it after what I have done to them, you and Stuart" he squeezes her hand and they walk down to Jim and Ellie's house seeing the door open.
"MOMMMMMYYYYYYYY!" a small TJ lookalike ran out the door his arms wide as he flung himself into Nattie's arms holding her tightly. TJ couldn't help but smile at the reunion but felt slightly misplaced he could tell the closeness that Nattie and Stuart had.
Nattie looks at Stuart and kisses his head "Hey munchkin have you been good?" Stuart nods rapidly and looks at TJ his eyes widening and the smile grew even wider if it was possible that is.
"You brought Daddy!" he beams and opens his arms out for TJ to hug him. TJ smiles and takes the small boy into his arms it then hit him, this was the first hug he had off his son and the first time he had ever held him so close, this made TJ hold tighter he felt the tears in his eyes he finally had him here in his arms secure and he was never going to let him go again.
Jim Neidhart runs to the door hearing Stuart say 'Daddy' and looks at him in HIS arms and seeing Nattie's face angry at the fact she wasn't doing anything about it he storms out at pulls Stuart out of his arms feeling Stuart jump and seeing Nattie tense. His main focus however was on the boy who broke his daughters heart, who almost destroyed her life and most importantly left her when she needed him the most.
TJ looks at Jim and gulps it was a fight or flight situation he had himself in. He knew running was not an option he faced Jim and looks him in the eyes he could feel the hate and anger radiate off him.
"How dare you!" Jim snarls, Nattie tries to pull Stuart away but he wouldn't let go of his daddy. "You hurt her! And you think you can come back?" TJ see's his fist clenching in the corner of his eye. Jim wouldn't hit him would he? Not in front of Stuart surely.
"I was stupid Jim you don't think I regret it? I have regretted it ever since I found out and let her down! I have gone every single minute of every day thinking about them wondering if I had a son or a daughter, I don't feel sorry for myself at all I deserve everything you throw at me but if you think you are going to stop me from seeing my child you have another thing coming!" he says looking directly into his eyes telling the complete truth. Jim shook his head and turned on Nattie.
"You aren't this stupid are you? He will let you down again you know that right?" he says glaring at her.
"STOP IT!" a little voice shouted from behind TJ "I want my daddy and he pwomised!" little Stuart tells Jim his face determined and a small pout in his face as his eyebrows furrowed.
Jim looks at him and then TJ knowing if he did anything to him he would possibly not only have Nattie mad but his Grandson would despise him. "If you ever hurt them again I will make sure you are 6ft under I don't want to see you around here and I will never ever think different of you" he kisses Stuart's head and storms into the house.
TJ looks over at Nattie who had a frown upon her face he takes her hand in his and picks up Stuart feeling him wrap his little arms around his neck. "Why don't we get started on that tree house?" he smiles at Stuart who grins and nods.
"YES YES YES YES!" he giggles looking at Nattie "Are you helping mommy?" he asks sweetly.
Nattie shakes her head "No baby Mommy is gonna cook your tea then we are going to FCW" she smiles as they walk home. Nattie smiles as they walk into the house TJ puts Stuart down and smiles at Nattie.
"Do you want any help?" he asks feeling comfortable with them both there acting like a family yet he knew the sad reality. He royally screwed up those years ago.
"No it's okay" she smiles as Stuart comes running in and pulling TJ's arms wanting to build his tree house.
Nattie watches out of the kitchen window as she makes their dinner she couldn't help but want to be with him but should she risk everything?
ITS FINALLY UP! :O
I am so sorry for the delay I have been stressed out with College, revision, exams and work, also a friend of mine was in a serious motorbike accident so its been a rough few months and I have had no time for anything. But its here! And to be honest I have been writing this chapter since March now. So I finally finished it!
Review yes?
