Chapter 4

Month One..

Dear Sarah,

I know you can't reply back to me because I can't reveal the location of my training, but I hope this will be enough for you. It's really hard here, it's almost like the army, but tougher. (I reckon anyway!)

How are you? I'm missing you like crazy, I know I've only been here two weeks but it feels like a lifetime, I have made a few 'friends' here though, they're just like me (apart from the intersect of course) just starting out at this spy stuff.

Already I can see them changing though, becoming tougher, emotionless versions of themselves. I swear I won't let that happen to me. I can't wait to get back, tell Ellie I send my love (and Awesome and Morgan, of course).

I can't really tell you much about where I am, but I hope your doing okay. I love you so much that it's unbelievable, Sarah. I can't wait for you to be my wife, I honestly can't. The image of you in a floaty, white dress, swiftly making your way down the aisle to me, is the only thing that keeps me going right now.

I'll write to you when I can,

All my love, Chuck.

Sarah had already been on her mission and back, it was nothing special, nothing she couldn't handle. She was now back in Chuck's apartment, well, it was hers now too. She recognised his hand writing on the front of the letter and, when it came through the letter box that morning her heart leaped.

She rushed over and picked it up, hugging it to her chest, she hoped it was from Chuck and as she slowly tore open the envelope she saw that she was right.

As she read it, tears poured down her face as she savoured each handwritten word. She looked at it a hundred times over, she wished that she could reply to him, or even have a proper conversation with him. Chuck was right about one thing in his letter though, the past two weeks had seemed like a lifetime.

With no missions as of yet, Sarah had all the time in the world to herself, but she didn't like it that way. She wanted to be occupied so that her mind couldn't drift over to the forbidden land of Chuck. But it always did anyway.

But now, she was alone with her thoughts. The television couldn't even take her mind off of things, she let out a heart wrenching sigh. Morgan was at work, but he was almost as down in the dumps as she was.

Sarah decided to go over to Ellie's, she almost knew Ellie's hours off by heart and she was certain that she was home. She hadn't seen her for two weeks, Sarah had only just gotten just back from her mission. She didn't even give a second thought about how she looked, she just walked across and knocked on the door.

Ellie answered, holding her little bump protectively, even though she was only three-and-a-half months pregnant.

"Sa-rah!" Ellie grinned and it faltered a little when she saw how awful Sarah looked. "You look… do you want to come in, honey?"

Sarah tried to stop a sob escaping from her lips, right now she wanted to be Sarah Walker, the rock hard super spy. Not Sarah Walker the sobbing wreck. As she desperately fought with her emotions she managed to stutter, "yes."

Ellie nervously eyed the sad state of a sister-in-law standing before her. Sarah had Chuck's T-shirt on and little pyjama shorts, her hair was in a low ponytail and she hadn't a scrap of make up on.

"I know you miss him honey, but you have to pull yourself together." Ellie said gently. "You have at least another five-and-a-half months of this, so you'll have to make do without him for now. Believe me I know how hard it is, but I have someone else to look out for now." Ellie patted her stomach gently.

Sarah said something so quietly that Ellie didn't hear.

"Sorry, what was that?" She asked, moving closer to her.

"I heard from Chuck today." She squeaked.

"Oh God, did he phone you?" Ellie said, pulling Sarah's head onto her lap.

"No, he sent me a letter, he told me to say hi to you and he sends his love."

Ellie decided not to ask to see the letter as she thought it may have been private. "I bet he misses you like crazy." She smiled.

"I miss him so much, Ellie." Sarah whispered.

Ellie wasn't used to Sarah being so open. She was used to her being quiet and distant, it just proved to Ellie how much love can change a person. Not always for the better though, but in this case, it was.

"I know." She whispered, stroking her golden hair. "Maybe you should do something, maybe have a little project to do while Chuck's away?"

Sarah sat up a little. "What do you mean?"

"You think about it, cup of tea?" Ellie asked, standing up.

"Sure, please." Sarah answered, thinking over Ellie's previous words. Something to keep her busy? She'd have to think about that.

Over the next few hours, Ellie and Sarah swapped stories about the memories and moments they had shared with Chuck. Ellie doing most of the talking of course. It wasn't long before the subject of the wedding came up.

"So have you moved the date back?" Ellie asked.

"Yeah, I don't know when it's going to be now.." Sarah shrugged nonchalantly.

"Oh God, you don't do you?" Ellie gasped.

Sarah was a little taken aback. "..What?"

"You have cold feet, I can tell, I had a spell like that too."

Sarah was shocked by how intuitive Ellie was. But the truth was, ever since Chuck left, Sarah's feelings had changed. She decided that she couldn't let little things get in the way. She didn't know what had happened but she wasn't scared anymore.

She hadn't really acknowledged these feelings until now, the feat she had felt before was beginning to submerge. She felt like she was a butterfly emerging from a cocoon .

"Actually Ellie, I had a spell of that, but I'm over it now, I promise." Sarah smiled.

Suddenly both Ellie and Sarah had an idea. "I thought of it first!" They shouted in unison.

"What was your idea?" Ellie was curious.

"Well, since we have so much time to ourselves, I was thinking.. We could plan a surprise wedding for Chuck, he'd love it!" Sarah exclaimed.

"We are so in sync, we have a few months to plan it, so lets do it!" Ellie was starting to get excited.

Sarah was surprised this idea hadn't come to her before and she was now happy that she had something to work towards, she smiled as her mind drifted to Chuck.

Chuck

The dark figure hit him again.

"Tell me who you work for!" The deep voice shouted.

"No!" Chuck shouted, pain searing through his head.

"Let's see if you know anything if I was to put this in you?" He said, as the burly man emerged from the shadows holding a long silver needle.

"Needle!" Chuck squeaked, recoiling. Be brave, Bartowski. You have to do this, if you fail at torture you'll fail spy school and if you fail spy school they'll keep you here longer! Chuck's more intelligent half pleaded.

The mad smirked, "Are you sure?" He held it up to Chuck's arm.

"I'm sure." He mumbled, looking at the floor.

Before the man could do anything, Chuck's head fell to the side, he had fainted.

A few hours later Chuck woke up to find himself slumped in the corner of the room, he got up and was relieved to find the door open. The only good thing about this was that this situation was only hypothetical and he would be able to escape.

"Agent Bartowski." A tall, slender redhead approached him.

"Hey.. Ca - I mean General Robin."

"You did well in there Chuck, I can tell you've been in a situation like this before." General Robin complimented him.

"But I fainted!" Chuck exclaimed.

"Yes, but you didn't say anything though, did you?"

"I guess not." Chuck smiled.

"You'd better go to bed now, early start tomorrow. A very tough ropes course." Robin turned away until Chuck could no longer hear the clanking of her heals against the concrete.

He went up to his white, windowless room and climbed into his tiny metal bed. He thought about Sarah and wondered if she had gotten his letter. He sure hoped so, he really wanted to hear from her, he missed her so much.

With his muscles aching, he let himself fall asleep and dreamt about going home.

Geez, people have faith in me, my stories always go somewhere good, I promise.

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