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Chapter 4: Here's To The Past

[There's no turning back from here
I've got to get away from everyone who's left
Everyone who's left
I'll tell the saddest story
Of how we made it through this past year]

Josh rubbed his head and laid in the soft green grass. It was quite nice, actually it was refreshing. From the year that he had just came out of, Westchester was in a big drought. Lawns were brown, water was scarce, and showers were short. The only way you could have a pool was if you were super rich and could pay a very high price for water to supply the pool. He was picking the mud off of himself but he wasn't doing a very good job at it.

He picked up the volleyball and traced his fingers over the white material. A sad smile came to his face and he held onto the ball closely. He had missed these days so much. He tossed the ball up and down.

"Josh."

Josh looked up and found his mother standing behind him. She was holding a stack of envelopes. She sighed and looked at him as he was covered in mud, she gave him the look of dissaproval.

"Your covered in mud? Why?" She asked crossing her arms over her chest, the evelopes still in her arms. Josh looked at himself, he had no explanation for why he was covered in mud. He wasn't about to try and explain to his mom why he was actually in the mud, she might just look at him like he was the definition of crazy or something. His mom looked a lot younger, few wrinkles and she had that bubbly smile on her face. He didn't see that to often when he went out west to visit her. Ever since she married that Bill guy.

Josh smiled, he could change that too. His mom wanted his opinion and he told her yes that she should. At the time he though Bill Lancings was this nice and wonderful guy who could support his mom unlike his dad. But instead after they got married, Bill made his mom move out west, abandon everything in Westchester and he ruled her life. That was the part that made Josh the angriest.

"Uhhh. I really don't know." Josh answered. He got up off of the grass and set the volleyball back in the grass.

Ms. Hotz looked at her son and sighed. He sure did like to procrastinate. "Are you ever going to fill one out? I mean you keep putting it off, its March Josh, you have 3 months til you graduate and yet you haven't even bothered to apply to college. Your not living in my house for the rest of your life."

"Yeah and your not living in your house for the rest of your life either." Josh muttered to himself. It was true, she was going to move out west with Bill... unless he did something about it.

"What?" Ms. Hotz glared at her son.

Josh got up off the grass and hopped up. When he stood up, he felt so lively. His flexed his arms over his shoulders, he had so much energy and he could move a lot easier. And he was about 40 pounds lighter than he was. He gained some weight when he got older, but he wasn't fat, but he wasn't as built as he had been when he was a teenager.

"Nothing, but i'll think about what i'm going to do and i'll let you know. I'm going to go get a shower." Josh walked by his mom and took the college applications out of her hands and ran into the house. He hadn't felt this alive since he was well 18.

He swung the glass door to the side with other glass door and stepped inside. He slid off his muddy shoes and tossed them into the lawn and began to walk around the kitchen. His house it felt so distance and way to long ago. The kitchen was the same as he remembered, the fridge was by the sink and the dishwasher. The stove was surrounded by oak couberts and the island and the counters had the same marble countertop.

As he was walked down the hallway, he glanced and looked at every picture on the wall. Some were of his family at reunions, others were his school fall pictures, there was his senior picture, and the one that caught his eye, was the one that he wanted but Kristen said he couldn't have it. It was of him and all of his friends, they were all covered in mud and the girls were on the guys backs. Alicia was on Chris's back, Dylan was on Kemp's, and Massie was on his back. He smiled widely, oh he had forgotten about this picture.

A frown came to his face, why hadn't he just told Kristen what was up, then things in his life would be simpler and stress free, well a hell of a lot less stress anyways. He tore his attention away from the pictures and walked up the wooden stairs to his room.

"Wow." Josh managed to say when he had walked into his room. It was a disaster and it contained his youth in. His seemed like his youth was sucked out of him when he had devolped a relationship with Kristen Gregory.

He grabbed a pair of his favorite Adidas shorts and a black and red Tomahawk soccer tee-shirt. The word soccer came into his mind, he loved everything about it. Well almost, he couldn't stand playing with Derrick Harrington. Derrick thought he was so good because he was a goalie, well luckily the Tomahawks had a damn good defense and their egos weren't as high as a kite, because if that happened, then they would have lost every game possible.

He walked into the bathroom and took off his shirt in the process of walking into the bathroom. He closed the wooden door behind him and took a look at himself in the mirror, his mouth instantly dropped. He quickly closed it, he was grossed out by seeing a lot of his tonsils.

"I can't believe i've changed this much." Josh said out loud. His hair wasn't all neat and tidy, it was messy and shaggy. Just the way he liked it, he had his side-burns but no beard and minimal facial hair. He had his 6-pack still, thanks to all year around soccer work outs.

"Definitely going to agree that I like myself this way a lot better." And with that Josh climbed into the shower after he finished undressing himself.

Josh washed his hair and his body with Ax body wash and his hair with Head and Shoulders shampoo and conditioner. He loved his hair soft and his body smelling good. He washed all of the soap out and stepped out of the shower. He wrapped a towel around his lower half of his body and walked out of the bathroom, he left his clothes in the bathroom like he always use to do. His mom would get them, it was nice not having to clean up after himself again.

When he got into his room, he put on his clothes that he had laid out. "Oh my favorite American Eagle boxers, i've missed you." Josh practically squealed like a girl as he put them on.

He looked around his room, pictures of he and his friends were placed everywhere around his room. "Where did all of these go?" Josh asked himself. He remembered having all of the pictures for awhile, but once he moved into the house he never knew where they went. Maybe they were in the attic? Maybe Kristen got rid of them?

Josh picked up a picture that was in a frame sitting on his desk, he smiled as he held in his hands. He loved his picture, it was his absolute favorite.

A loud vibrating noise came from his desk. Josh put the picture back onto the wooden desk and noticed a phone was sitting there. "My phone, a working phone. My voyager?" Josh picked it up and answered the call. "Hello."

"Dude you coming over? My mom is making home-made macaroni and cheese. Josh instantly smiled, he loved Chris's moms home-made macaroni and cheese. She definitely made the best out of any one he has ever known.

"Yeah i'll be right over." Josh said as he clicked end on his phone. His stomach was growling, so perfect timing. He was eager to go see what Chris and his house looked like. He didn't remember that much of it, so it was exciting to see somethig new.

"Mom. I'm going to Chris's house to go eat mac and cheese." Josh said to his mom who was typing away at her laptop while she was sitting at the kitchen table by herself drinking a cup or coffee.

Ms. Hotz looked up at her son and nodded her head, "Okay be safe. Don't be gone to late."

Josh nodded his head, he was out as late as he wanted to be, his mom never cared. She always said don't be out to late. And what was late anyways? Josh considered that to be about 3 or 4 in the morning.

[When life gives you lemons make apple juice]

"Why didn't you drive here?" Chris asked as he swung the front door to find his best friend Josh standing there, a bit out of breath. Josh sighed and gave out a small laugh. "Err well you see, I felt like I needed to burn some energy." Josh looked his friend up and down, Chris had braces and his hair was curly and brown with blond highlights. His body was still built the same and his smile didn't change. He looked just about the exact same.

"Wow epic fail." Chris welcomed Josh into the house. Josh's eyes wandered all over the house, it was all coming back to him. He was surprised he was able to find Chris's house. He went down a few wrong streets, but twenty minutes later he was able to find it. After all he could use the run anyways.

Josh laughed and pushed Chirs, "at least I got exercise."

Chris rolled his crystal blue eyes and kept on walking to the kitchen. Once Josh stepped into the kitchen, he saw Alicia sitting beside Chris's parents, chatting away with them. Josh gave her a smile, she was still pretty as she was 8 years later. Her hair didn't change one bit, neither did her body. She just looked older. Chris's family always loved Alicia as their own kid. She and Chris had been dating for quite some time now. He couldn't even remember when they had started to date.

"Josh are you alright? You look confused." Mrs. Plovert was laughing at Josh's facial expressions. He looked like he was lost or really confused.

Josh shook his head and stopped zoning out, "Oh yeah. I am just zoning out today."

Mr. Plovert gave Josh a wiered look, "Thats odd your normally alert."

Josh laughed and got himself a plate of macaroni and cheese. The smell filled his nostrils, he just wanted to shove it all down his throat right then and there. "Oh yeah I know, must be one of those days. But this looks great, thanks for having me over."

Alicia, Chris, Mr. and Mrs. Plovert all looked at Josh like he was crazy. Since when did he say thank you for the food, he like lived at Chris's house. It was pretty much his second home. "You okay?" Chris asked him.

"Uh oh yeah." Josh smiled and sat down in a chair next to Mr. Plovert, he began eating like he was never going to get another meal in his life. Everyone couldn't help but stare and wonder what was wrong with him.

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Alrighty, so here is chapter 4. How did ya like it? I know its a shorter chapter, but I can't do much with fillers though. Not much happening, yes I know. Just a lame filler, but there will be more excitement in the next chapters to come, I promise. Please read and review? Pretty please, and review if you love me as well. haha.

Love, kailin.