A/N - Fourth memory, diary entry, and chapter.

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We Were, We Are

We were thirty-four and they were getting a divorce. Lilly wanted it, because Oliver cheated on her with a twenty-something year old. I hate him now, I didn't even say goodbye to him when he left. He had her, he had Lilly, he had a family, kids, a life, and all with her. How could he throw that away? I would have given anything to have been with her and to have had what they had, not that I had much to give.

I never forgave Oliver, not for that. Not for breaking up the trio, not for marrying Lilly, and especially not for hurting her. I remember Lilly cried so hard, and I remember crying too. How could I not, it broke my already shattered heart to see her in such despair.

I got to see alot more of her though, and the kids. No more nights alone in my run-down apartment. Lilly asked me to move in with her and her two little girls, and it was one of the happiest days of my life to accept.

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Dear diary,

We are both thirty-four and I got a divorce from Oliver. He really did cheat on me, but I also couldn't stand being with anyone other than Miley. I stayed for the kids, and Oliver and I basically lived like friends. We even slept in seperate beds, so I guess I can't blame him for finding what he needed outside our home. But it doesn't make me any less angry. He left anyway to live with that twenty-something year old woman he had on the side, and I don't even care. He didn't ask to see the children anymore, so I took full custody.

I cried so hard that day, not because he left, but because I wasted those years with him when I could have spent them with Miley. And yet, I still can't tell her. I have my daughters to live for, Miley wouldn't want to share them with me. They're not hers.

But I did ask her to move in, and I was so surprised when she accepted. The girls love her, and I think now that she loves them, too. I don't feel so lonely anymore, I'm actually happy again.

Lilly.