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Authors' note- I will be cutting a lot of the episode out to focus on parts with Tara and Jax together and to get thru this episode since we all know the end result. I hope you don't mind. Please Read and Review Thanks!

Chapter 4

Tara was sitting in the living room when her phone rang "Can you hold him Lyla?" She nodded and took Abel. When Tara looked at the caller ID she was surprised to see Unser calling her. "Hi chief, is everything ok?" He was quick to answer "I guess doc listen Gemma wants to talk with you hold on" Tara wondered why Gemma was with Unser "Tara baby listen, you need to go get Jax and make him stop what he is doing. I can't tell you what but he might listen to you please go." Tara shook her head "Gemma what are you talking about. Where are you?" Gemma continued "I tried to turn myself in but all the murder charges have been dropped but DON'T tell Clay or any of the club, just go stop Jax please!"

"Lyla I need to go to the clubhouse Neeta will be here any second to help you but can you please watch Abel for me?" Lyla nodded "Of course will. Can I do anything else for you? " "No I just need to talk with Jax and see what's going on, thanks"

When Tara got to the clubhouse the clubs attorney was outside by the picnic tables. She was glad when Jax pulled in a few minutes later. She started to walk toward him but Opie was closing in on him so she hung back. Opie walked away and Tara grabbed Jax's arm" I need a minute" Jax put his arm on hers and stopped.

"Where's Abel?"

"Lyla and Neeta are with him at the house" He nodded so she continued "your mothers in jail; the homicide charges have been dropped. She doesn't want Clay to know; she terrified. What's going on Jax?" He didn't answer "Please you can tell me" He was actually going to fill her in on some of the plan but Chucky interrupted showing a box full of fake $20 bills.

"Baby I will explain later but this very important I got to get this into the club, please don't be mad" She shook her head "Ok but you're ok right? Your mom made it seem like you were in trouble" He kissed her "I am fine just go back to Abel and I will fill you in later. I love you" She nodded "Ok I love you too"

Jax told the club about the money but since they had to front load it with real cash he had to go talk with Stahl while the boys got stuff ready. After setting stuff up with her he knew the club needed to change their plans a little so he brainstormed the whole way back. After filling in the boys with everything everyone agreed they would have to take Jimmy from the van to a different car.

"Jax I know you won't like this son but we need Tara to help" Clay looked unhappy about saying it and was braced for Jax's reaction. "Hell no! Clay this might get real bloody and she is pregnant." None of the guys looked happy about it either but no one else had any other ideas. Clay soften his voice "Son I know all of that but she is the only one of our old lady's out of jail and we can't use any other woman it has to someone we trust completely. We need Tara Jax" Jax hung his head then nodded "Ok but she stays back and goes back a different way than us and we send prospects back with her ok" Clay shook his head. Jax still wasn't happy but went to make the call. As Tara answered he heard all the kids laughing behind her "Hey babe what are you having a party and forgot to invite me" he hoped joking would make him feel a little better, but when she laughed that was all it took. "You're funny Teller! No party just a bunch of the girls and kids are over here, strength in numbers and all that. What's up?" He took a deep breath "We need your help. I need you to leave Abel with Neeta and the girls and come to the clubhouse "she didn't ask questions just simply replied "Ok be right there".

Jax stayed outside for a while which is where Opie found him. "Hey brother" Jax nodded "Hey man" they sat like that for a little while before Jax approached something he had been thinking about "Opie I need your help while I am inside" Opie looked at him "Whatever you need man" Jax nodded "I need you to watch over Tara, help her. I mean fuck I am leaving her with a 9month old and with a baby on the way. I feel worthless man I just… If you are watching her I can feel a little better while I'm inside" Opie looked at Jax "Brother I would do anything for you and Tara you don't even have to ask plus Chibbs, my dad even Kozik will be here. She will be covered I promise man" they hugged and Jax turned to go back in "I love you Opie I am real glad you didn't get busted in this crap too. I am going to go write Tara a letter explaining shit or she will kill me"

After Jax had everything already he went back to where everyone was getting set. He really started to get worried for Tara when the bullet proof vests were being handed around and seeing the club ready to battle.

"Clay are you sure we can't spare one of the prospects?" He knew they couldn't but he still didn't like the idea of involving her. About that time Happy let them know that she was there, he knew Opie would be filling her in on her job so he waited a minute before going out to her. Clay looked at him "We will keep her safe" Jax intended to make sure of that himself.

Jax saw her and Opie leaned over the car looking at the map. "She set man" he nodded to Opie and looked at Tara "Are you sure you want to do this?" She wasn't sure she did but she was an old lady she needed to do it "I'm the only one who can do it" seeing how tense he was she decided to try and get a smile "Admit it you need me" He smirked knowing what she was doing "I guess I do. I need you to wear this" He was putting a bullet proof vest on her, Ok now she was really scared but Jax looked worried enough for both of them so she smiled "fancy" He put his hands on either side of her face like he was memorizing it; which worried her more. "Promise me you will tell me everything"

Jax felt horrible He knew this would be their last peaceful moment before he went inside so he studied everything he could "I promise you will know everything soon enough babe" She smiled and he kissed her, man this would be a lot rougher than last time he thought to himself. She drove away to get to the rendezvous spot in plenty of time. Jax said goodbye to the guys who were going to get ready for Stahl and Jimmy and he went to go lie to the Russians and see how well their planning worked out.

Lucky for SAMCRO for once everything went as planned. As the final step in the plan was closing in on them Jax led Stahl into the clubhouse parking lot. He saw everyone was here, the boys, Gemma, Tara and even their attorney. Here we go he thought to himself and backed his bike in. When Stahl let it known he was the rat the boys played it perfect. Seeing the looks on Tara and his moms face were heartbreaking but he had to stick to the plan.

Tara couldn't believe what she was hearing Jax would never Rat, what was going on? When she saw Clay turn on him her heart sank oh my god what had just happened. She heard Clay backed by all of them telling Jax he was dead. She couldn't believe this was happening he tried to save everyone and it was going to cost him his life. When he told Stahl she signed his death warrant everything hit her at once and tears threatened to come out but she knew she had to be strong. As they started to lead him away she ran after him, after all this was probably the last time she would see him alive. She ran and threw her arms around his neck and he was able to put one arm around her and squeezed her. Then ATF took him away and it took everything she had to not go to pieces but she couldn't do that to him.

When Jax saw his mom in tears and Tara close to it he knew their plan had worked maybe a little too well. He felt her arms go around him and he forced the ATF guy to stop and he hugged her back breathing in her scent. He kept his eyes on her until he couldn't anymore. That was his Tara strong till the end, she was even holding up better than his mom. He sure hoped Opie and Chibbs could finish this plan or all this pain was for nothing.

Tara watched the ATF van pull away, watched her life fall apart. She couldn't be strong anymore she sank to her knees; sobs making her body shake. She couldn't stop once she started and after a few minutes she felt someone pull her to her feet and wrap her in a hug. She looked up to see Gemma with tears in her eyes holding her. "Oh Gemma what am I going to do" She could only shake her head "I don't know baby" just then the attorney came up "Gemma your house arrest starts in a half hour we got to go." As she left I felt another little piece of her heart break. She didn't know how she was supposed to be the strong one but she knew she had to find a way. Lyla was now beside her with her arm around her. "Lyla can you drive my car and me home please?" She nodded her agreement. Tara just sat staring out the window the whole way home trying to wrap her head around what just happened.

After they got home Tara got Abel from Neeta and went into the bedroom with him and laid on the bed. After about an hour Tara got up and found Lyla sitting in the living room. "Hey Lyla, you didn't have to stay but thanks for getting rid of everyone" she shrugged "I wanted to make sure you were ok and I knew you wouldn't want a bunch of people here" Tara nodded "Since you are here do you mind doing me a favor?" Lyla nodded "Anything you need" Tara smiled thinking all she needed was Jax but she couldn't do that so she went on "I was going to take Abel to Gemma. I have a feeling she needs him as much as I did, but I don't really want to go out either I just want to stay here. You mind taking him over and bringing him back since she can't leave?" Lyla nodded "No problem, Neeta has our kids so I am free"

After Lyla left Tara decided moping around wasn't any good so she decided to do laundry. She went to the nursery to clean out Jax's bag from Belfast. She was overwhelmed by his scent and she started to tear up again. When she got to his hat she was surprised to find a stack of envelopes curled up in it. She read the note, oh my god these were his father's letters. She picked out the last one sent and began reading it.

Jax was sick with himself and was getting anxious to hear to prospect's horns. He hated the looks from his brother's, even if he did know they were fake, he had never felt more alone. He thought about Tara, Abel and his unborn son. He hated that he wouldn't be around to see Abel's first steps, first words and the birth of the baby. He dropped his head thinking about the look on Tara's face after their last hug and just as he thought of that he heard to prospects start honking. He looked at Clay to make sure he hadn't been hearing things but sure enough it was their sign and that meant that the final step was complete. He began to laugh it had all worked all the planning was worth it. Now all he had to do was make it thru 14 months at least it's better than 3-15 years.

Tara couldn't believe what she had just read; John Teller thought Clay and Gemma would have killed him. What would Jax think when he read these letters, if he survives that is. Just then a knock sounded on the door. She was surprised to find the clubs prospects (she wasn't sure of their names) standing there. "Can I help you guys?" The big guy answered "Jax wanted us to deliver this to you and tell you to burn it when you finished." Tara just nodded and the smaller one added "If you need anything just call us we will take care of it" She gave a small smile "Thank you guys". She went to the couch and began pulling out papers, one was a letter and the rest were legal documents. One document gave her legal guardianship over Abel; the others gave her rights to everything else of Jax's. She realized he knew this was going to happen and planned for it so she began reading the letter…

Tara if you are reading this that means Stahl and Jimmy are dead and the club will be doing short time. I really wanted to tell you but we decided to not make anyone else an accessory and especially not you because you have to take care of Abel and our future son. I want you to know how sorry I am for putting you through all this stress and fear but my life was never in jeopardy from the club. This was our plan all along. I will be back with you and our family in 14 months. I would never rat on my club and never risk my family. We needed Stahl to give us a deal to shorten our time and get my mom out of trouble so we made it seem like I flipped but there is no longer any record of that. I have made sure to have everything taken care of the best I can. You are Abel's Legal Guardian and have access to all my bank accounts if you need it.

If you need help with anything let Opie know. He has promised to be there for you and of course Chibbs, Piney, Kozik and the prospects are going to be around as well. Please don't feel alone SAMCRO will still be there for you even if I can't be. I hope you will be able to forgive me for keeping you in the dark and will come to visit me whenever we have visitations.

Tara I don't know what I would do without you; you are my everything! I have no worries about Abel because I know you will have everything under control. I Love You baby and am thrilled about the newest addition to our family, I'm just sorry I will have to miss his entrance. I love you more than you will ever know, please take care of my family until I return.

Love Jax