Chapter 4

Sonny had been talking to Will from the time he saw him at the coffee house until he had gotten Will to his house. All of the rooms in Sonny's house were not small but Sonny wanted Will to have his room which was the biggest of the four bedrooms because it was easier on Will to use his wheelchair in and because his bathroom was bigger and had better access for the wheelchair. He left Will to rest and stepped into the room next to where Will was trying to rest but he knew that Will was still in allot of pain and although it had been hours since Will had came into the coffee shop Will still was cold to the touch and that worried Sonny but Will said that he was fine and Sonny did not press the issue.

Sonny knew that Will was in no shape at the moment to really press any issue. Sonny has never in his life saw anyone who's spirit was so broken and who had no life and Sonny knew that he was not going to allow Will of all people to just exist and be without hope. Sonny also knew that he could not just jump in and act like Wills dad of be the one who tried to fix Will because Will had to do it for himself.

That was one thing that Will had always told Sonny you can not fix someone who is broken you can only be there when they ask for your help but they are the one who has to do the work.

Sonny said I think that I know how to start helping Will but I need to make a call.

Sonny called his uncle and told him about Will and Victor was absolutely astonished but he was also at the same time filled with an ache in his heart for Will because he knew that Will has been through so much and to even get Will in the right mindset to work is going to take a very long time because Will has been alone and on the street for so long that he does not expect that Will is going to have a very easy time adjusting to a full healthy life once more and he asked Sonny if he really was prepared for everything that Will has gone through and the true effects of the trauma not only from the fire but being on the street for so long.

Uncle Vic I can not just turn my back on him he has been through so much he needs to know that someone believes in him and has complete faith that even if Will and he never are anything more than friends that its OK because Will never one time abandoned me once if I needed someone Will

was the one person who I could count on to be there and had faith in me.

Will was so gentle kind and devoted to allow me to find out who the real man I am.

I am the man that I am today because of Will and Sonny said Uncle Vic I was taught by Will that if given a chance and the proper tools to understand that he could do anything and Sonny said uncle Vic It is because of Wills influence that he was able to become the owner of a business and to deal with anything that comes my way with the understanding that the answer was within me the hole time so

tell me that you would turn your back on the man who forged you into the man that you have became?

Sonny you were so young when the fire happened and Will is no longer that same person he was when he was that teen age young man who had that wisdom and who was so strong and Sonny owe him nothing.

Uncle Vic you do not realize the impact that he really had in my life. Uncle Vic I am not trying to fix him I am trying to show him that he has that same grit and the same tenacity that he always had that Will is going to have to reach down and do the work himself. I can not do it for him.

I am only going to be there for him to give him support and prove to him that he can do it. Uncle Vic do you realize Will would explain the facts and asked me to tell him what I did wrong and that he expected me to find the answers because he was not going to do it for me and treat me as if I was stupid. Uncle Vic Will is extremely intelligent I am a year older than he is but I wish that you could see his scholastic record and he did that on his own. Uncle Vic he graduated high school at 15 years old in the burn unit of the hospital..

Uncle Vic he molded me into a strong person and yes I love him so much and it kills me to realize just how much hell that he has gone through and is still going through but I can not do it for him he is the one who has to be able to find himself again I will only help with getting the tools but he is the one who is going to have to figure out for himself how to use them to rise above the ashes.

Sonny you have a heart of gold just be careful and do not expect metrical to happened. Once Will gets to the point to where he is able to really work I will consider looking to see if he would be a benefit to my company or not Victor said but until then he needs to concentrate on nothing else except rising from those ashes and find himself. Sonny I will help you help Will but please promise me that you are not going to allow your emotions to get invested into a relationship with him until he gets to the point when he can handle that and right now we both know that Will is no where near ready to make that commitment to anyone because he is at his lowest point in his life and he needs to figure out who he is before he can handle trying to deal with an emotional connection with you or anyone else.

Sonny does he need any specialized equipment right now?

Uncle Vic I understand what you are saying and I am not going to pressure him into a relationship.

Uncle Vic at this point now I am getting him a special adjustable bed but he does need like a lift chair and a special wheelchair that will not cause him to have so much pain. I am making him an appointment for the pain center and a really good therapist because that is what he needs more than anything at the moment. Baby steps you know.

Sonny I will help you do what we can but it is up to him to use the tools that are offered to him.

Sonny I will pay for his medical treatments but that is all I am going to do I am going to get him private specialist because you have your own business to run and he is going to have to have allot of attention but you need to keep your focus on your job and not become his daddy.

I know uncle Vic. I am not stupid but for a couple of weeks I am going to be here for him and help get the house ready for him. If I need to work from home for a little while then it is not going to hurt anything I cab leave Angie in charge and I can come in a couple of times a week and take care of things at the coffee house but I just can't leave him stranded until he at least has his physical strength up a bit.

That sounds like a good thing but remember that he has to do the work himself no mater how much pain he is going to have coming his way because it will not be easy on either of you but you just be there and do not let your emotions run wild..Keep your heart in check Sonny and don't allow yourself to get hurt by expecting too much. Let him know that you are there for him but that you are not going to get into a romantic relationship until he is at a point to where he really is ready for one because he has to physically heal and he has to emotionally heal. Tell him that right now he has allot of hard work a head not to rush in to romance with you or anyone else.

Sonny I am not saying that you can't care or help him what I am saying is that you know yourself that

he has a very long road ahead but you can have to use common sense if he is ever going to find himself.

Uncle Vic I love you so much and you have not told me anything that I have not told myself a zillion times. I have made it clear to him that He has to do the work even if we are only friends.

I just can not sit back and watch him so defeated and as broken as he is right now.

Sonny make sure that you keep that brain and heart in check because you could very easily destroy your business if you get too wrapped up in him emotionally that is the point that I am making.

I love you Sonny ant I promise that I will help out too but as you know you need to really watch yourself.

Uncle Vic thank you for helping out Will and try not to worry as I have said I believe that no need to be warned... Uncle Vic he told me when he first came in that he was even unable to accept care because

he doesn't have the capabilities to even give the same quality of care back to them.

Sonny asked his uncle… Would you help him to understand that he is trying to care for people and so he has the capabilities of caring but it is whether he knows it but he is caring about others by trying to protect them.

If you would please put a softer determiner on so he will not revert into his shell.

Right now he is fragile and we can not treat him like china but we can not be harsh at the same time.

Sonny you know that I know he was there for you when you were struggling and coming to terms being gay he never pressured you. He always answered your questions honestly and openly. Sonny so you remember the feelings of being confused and worrying about how others would feel about you as a gay man? He is more than likely having the same fears as that Victor said right now he just needs his own William Horton.

Uncle Vic I am no longer Sonny call me William because I am going to be there for him in the every same way. Uncle Vic Will always lived his own truth and his family always knew who he is and so did he.

and he is going to get some of that same self confidence and acceptance.

I love you uncle Vic and if you can check into those things I know that it would be such a help for him.