Chapter four is done!

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(A/N) The words inside ( "..." ) are conversations. The words inside ( '...' ) are thoughts.


~NATSUME'S POV~


I was awakened by the alarm clock on my bedside. It's already 10 o'clock in the morning yet i'm too lazy to get up. I don't remember when and how i fell asleep but i can clearly remember who was i thinking about last night.

Before, i don't understand why i acted that way in the sakura tree and the cafeteria but now i think i already know the reason why..

I can still remember my conversation with ruka yesterday. He followed me on my room after i left the cafeteria.


*Flashback*


I was lying on my bed recalling what had happened earlier when i heard someone knocking on my door, it was ruka. I want to be alone but having someone to talk to might help this time so i opened the door and gestured him to come in.

We both sat on my couch, his holding his rabbit. i didn't start the talking, or rather i don't what to talk about or how to talk about it. There was silence for a while, until ruka decided to break it.

"natsume.." ruka crooned while fondling his rabbit. "it was the first time i saw you acted that way." he muttered.

I slightly turned my head to him and curved my brow with confusion.

"what do you mean 'that' ruka?!" i emphasized the word "that" to clear out what he's refering to.

"what i mean to say is, that is the first time i saw you get jealous."

I was stunned with what he said.

'Did i heard it right?! He said the word "jealous"?! I am jealous!? And with whom? With that shadow freak bastard?! There's no freakin' way i'll get jealous!' i thought.

"you don't have to deny it natsume.. Not from me.. i'm your bestfriend and i know you more than anyone else." ruka was staring into my eyes, so i know that he's serious.

I leaned on the couch and stared at the ceiling, my hands on my neck. I gave out a sigh.

"tell me ruka.." i uttered. "why did you chose to ask hotaru instead of mikan to be your date?"

Ruka paused for a while and leaned on the couch too, still holding his rabbit. He was smiling and i'm wondering what is that smile for 'cause it's kinda irritating me.

"i know you'll ask that." he chuckled and it made me more confused.

'what the hell's funny with my question?!' i thought. I might have burned him to crisp if he wasn't my bestfriend.

"i did that on purpose natsume." he turned his head to gaze and smiled at me then shifted his gaze to his rabbit.

"what purpose?!" i asked.

"well.. As what i've said before, i'm your bestfriend and i know you above anyone else."

"just go straight to the point ruka." i'm starting to get annoyed.

"the way you look at her is different from the other girls.." he paused. "i saw everything natsume.. I saw gentleness behind those fierce eyes when you look at her.. The gentleness in your eyes is for hers only. You care for her more than anyone else does but you just don't admit it to yourself.. You're denying the fact that you like her.. love her.." ruka stated.

I was bewildered. Just what is he talking about?! Is that the reason why he said i'm jealous?! Because he thought that i like polka? And he chose hotaru to give way for my so called feelings for her?! This is insane! Ruka's driving me crazy!

But come to think of it.. I myself really doesn't know why i was acting that way either! All i know is that i feel light when she's around, her sweet scent, the faint blush on her porcelain cheeks, the sweet noises she makes, her cute expression when i'm teasing her and calling her names like "polka" or "pigtails" or "strawberry fields" or whatever i could think of, everything about her makes me want to just stay beside her, and i hate it! This is so not like me!

Yes, i barely know myself anymore.. For she changed me.. The feeling i get when she's with that bastard tsubasa, when he made her blush, when he gasped her hand and kissed it, when he told her he likes her and hold her like she's his.. It sends shivers down my spine making me wanna kill that bastard redundantly! So i guess ruka might be right, 'cause if this isn't love then i have no any other idea what this is.

After a long silence and thinking. I now know the reason why.. It's just simply because.. I like her.. I love her.. I'm inlove with her.. I'm inlove with polka.. And i'm happy to know that.. I wan't to give ruka a big smile and thank him for making me realize how i really feel but, that is way way out of my character so i decided to tease him instead.

"that doesn't answer my question ruka." ruka flustered.

"your question?" he asked me in confusion.

"Yes, my question about you choosing imai as your date." i smirked seeing ruka blush that way.

"oh.. T-that.. A-ahmm." he's now stammering.

"you said you did that on purpose so what "purpose" is that?" i sat straight facing him and seeing that kind of expression tells me that ruka's hiding something.

"w-well.."

"well? Well what?" i said. Urging him to continue.

"alright." he sighed heavily before clearing out his throat.

'this looks serious.' i thought.

"that's because i.." he paused and cleared his throat again. "the truth is i.. i like hotaru!" ruka whimpered.

I blinked. Once. Twice. Thrice.

If it's not for the serious yet embarrased look on his face, i would've gone cracking. But since he helped me and pointed out my crazy feelings for polka earlier, i tried my best not to laugh and congratulated him instead.


*End Of Flashback*


I jumped off my bed, prepared myself and went out to look for mikan. Maybe it wouldn't hurt if i swallow my pride just this once and apologize to her.

I don't when or how i started adoring her.. Maybe it's been for years now, even before she confessed to me that day.. it's just i'm too stubborn to notice and accept the fact that this 'Natsume Hyuuga' had finally.. fell inlove with his polka.

I have no time to waste. I have to ask for her forgiveness and if ever she allows me to, I want to take very good of her.

Good thing we don't have class today and everyone is busy preparing themselves for tonight's ball.

I looked for her at her dorm but she wasn't there, i also went to our classroom but she's not there either. I tried to search for every possible place but i can't find her.

'where the hell are you polka!'

Even permy and the others doesn't know where she is. I'm starting to get worried, really damn worried! Where else could she be?! Is she alone?! Or with some- ..wait! Could it be possible the she's with that jerk tsubasa?! Hell! Better not be it!


~MIKAN'S POV~

My mobile phone rang. I searched for my bedside table alarm clock. It's almost 10 in the morning already but i don't have any plan to get up. Not yet. My body is too heavy for me to carry today.

I took my phone under my pillow then pushed the answer button. I'm too lazy to check who it was.

"hello?" i muttered with my eyes still shut.

"good morning beautiful!" a very cheerful voice answered.

"t-tsubasa senpai? Is that you?" i opened my eyes slightly.

I almost forgot that i left tsubasa senpai yesterday after what happened at the cafeteria.

"who else?" he uttered. "did i wake you up?"

"no, don't worry i'm already awake. Anyway, why'd you called?" i said while brushing my left eye.

"well.. I was worried about you last night and.. oh yeah right! I know you had a bad day yesterday because of you-know-who.." he chuckled a bit. "that's why i decided to lighten up your day a bit.. So i prepared a special breakfast just for you." he said sweetly.

"breakfast? Where?"

"it's a surprise so you better get ready now okay? I'll pick you up outside your dorm after 15 minutes. Bye!"

"tsubasa senpai wait-"

'He hanged up? I didn't even get the chance to say sorry about yesterday.. Oh well.. I'll do that later, for now i have to prepare myself.'

I went to my bathroom and took a quick bath. I can't decide what to wear so i ended up with my knee length yellow V-neck sleeveless dress. It's plain so no worries about being over dressed. I let my hair down, applied a little powder and lipgloss and i'm ready to go.

I heard my phone ringing, i took it out of my purse, it was tsubasa senpai so i answered it.

"hello gorgeous!" he muttered sweetly that made me chuckle.

'How can he be so sweet all the time?' i thought 'if only natsume is half as sweet as he is then.. Wait! What am i thinking?! There's no way natsume will be like tsubasa senpai! No, no, no!' i shook my head to wash away my stupid thoughts.

"mikan?! Are you still there?"

"yes i'm here." i didn't realize that i was spacing out, stupid me.

"thank goodness i thought you fainted or something.. So.. Are you ready?!"

"sorry tsubasa senpai.. Yes, i'll be out right away..


*End of Chapter Four*

I'm sorry guys! I'm not good at cliffhangers so bare with me please T_T

I tried my best to keep natsume's dark image as much as possible 'cause if not then it doesn't sound like natsume anymore! and i love his dark character sooo much. Do you agree with me?


*sneaky peeky*

~Want to see natsume get drunk on the next chapter?!

"i hate it! I hate how you got over me for just a day polka! i hate you for that!.."

*ohoh~ so that's where the title "I'll Never Get Over You Getting Over Me" goes without saying. Haha :))