~Authors note~

[Sorry about the long wait…..my word starter is fucked up and I just found wordpad...seriously I didnt know it existed until a friend told me about it..so yeah….]

~end authors note~

!DISCLAIMER!: I don't own JTHM or SQUEE or any of Jhonen Vasquez's works mentioned in this fic. I do however own Alice H. and those affiliated with her

CHAPTER FOUR:

Saturday…..

"Alice Hunter, the doctor will see you now"

"of course he will….." Alice murmured to herself as she walked past the overly happy receptionist, she walked through the familiar oak door, down the hall, and into a room

Inside the room seemed as stuffy and restricting as the last time she visited, the oddly shaped maroon couch sat under the window, the doctor's desk on the other side of the room shaded in gloom, a chair beside the couch, and the doctor sitting in said chair, clipboard in hand.

"hello Alice good to see ya'! please sit down here and we can get started" he said gesturing to the couch

Alice made her way to the couch and sat as told "hey Doc….whats up?"

The Doctor smiled "oh the usual…..spoilt ass kids want more electronics, and the wife's a bitch…"

"oh, heh….so Dr. Brown what's todays discussion about?" Alice said crossing her arms and cocking her head to the right

"Alice Im going to ask you a series of queries and I want you to answer them to the best of your capability, Okay?" Dr. Brown asked, and as an answer he got a curt nod from Alice

"good, okay…..how have you been sleeping lately Alice?"

"horrible…..the nightmares are worse than before…" Alice said laying back on the sofa

"you know you can stop them...if you'd just let m-.." the doctor wasn't allowed a finish to his statement

"you know how I feel about that Doc….I don't want sleeping pills…or any pills actually, I sure as hell wouldn't take them if they were prescribed….I don't trust them" Alice said bluntly as she folded her arms over her chest

"Alright I wont argue Alice….Im to tired..anyway, whats school been like? If its an environment where its stressful then that could be an attributing factor to your nightmares" the doctor said scribbling notes down on his clipboard

Alice sighed, her head throbbing around the wound, it wasn't really there anymore but it had a habit of throbbing and causing her to have terrible headaches. She had visited a doctor and explained that, while on her babysitting job, she had fell and hit her head hard, the doctor had said that there was no damage but to keep an eye on it….Alice didn't really know why she had protected Johnny, she just knew that he wasn't all killing and insanity, something else was there, whenever he had killed the gang she saw guilt in his eyes along with a terrifying bloodlust…..maybe even boredom, or a deep depression…she really didn't know but over the past week Alice had grown curiouser and curiouser still about his nature and why he did what he did, maybe that's why she was so looking forward to seeing him, so he could provide some answers to her questions….the problem was she didn't know if she could find the right wording for them

(way off topic…)

"Alice are you okay?" Dr. Brown asked a slightly worried tone etching its way into his voice

Alice hadn't realized it but she had gotten lost in thought "yes Im fine….just thinking.."

"about?" the doctor asked

"stuff….its unimportant really…and to answer your question, Yes school's stressful but I've had nightmares LONG before I started college and you know that Doc…." Alice said slightly rubbing the place where her wound was and growling in agitation 'damnit why does this hurt so much?...maybe Johnny cracked my skull and I got brain damage..or maybe it's a tumor..or maybe its just my body remembering the pain or something…' she thought

"hmmm okay….how's work? You still work at the 24/7 mart on Westbury right?" Dr. Brown asked

"actually no….I quit the day it was robbed…with my luck I would end up dead in a situation like that, so, I quit…..would hate to get shot in a fuckin' 24/7…." Alice said flatly

"so what have you been doing for money?" the doctor asked

"you know my brother Michel right? You know that he's in that band and crap…..he sends me a check every….I don't know month maybe..cause I write some of their music.." Alice said fidgeting on the couch

"oh really? I never knew you were the….artsy type, how nice" Dr. Brown said scribbling down more notes on his clipboard

"yeah…hey listen Doc its been real nice but if I don't leave now I'll be late…." Alice said, standing and moving toward the door

"ah, Alice ever punctual….I expect to see you back in two weeks on a Thursday…"

"Alright bye Doc…" Alice said walking out

She shoved her hands in her hoodie pockets and walked out of the psychiatrist's office humming a tune only familiar to her, she contemplated hailing a cab or riding the bus but she only had enough money for food for her and Todd, seeing as his parents probably hadn't feed him yet and she had no money to spare.

A cold breeze blew past her and she shivered slightly, hunching her shoulders in an attempt to stay warm. Even though it was early spring it still felt like winter still had a grip on the area, but there was a sort of warmth about the air showing signs that warmer temperatures were coming

"aw crap Im gunna be late….oh..where am I?...779 arsons street right? I'd know it if I saw it but…..I don't even know where I am…god..Todd's gunna think I bailed…" Alice thought weaving her way through a crowd of people who had gathered to watch A couple of teens fight over some slutty chick who was hitting on the men in the crowd, Alice rolled her eyes and continued on her way

"Its 5:30….Im supposed to be there at…6:00..FUCK MY ENTIRE MISERABLE EXISTANCE!" Alice thought as she broke into a run "30 minutes…..there's no way…"


"You're late…." Mr.

Casil said as he opened the door

"I know Im really sorry, I got turned around and-." Alice was cut short by the glowering man standing before her

"I don't give a fuck about why you're late just get in here and watch the kid…..next time we won't wait on you" he growled, shoved past her and made his way to the idle car out front, closely followed by the wife

"KID'S UPSTAIRS IF YOU CARE!" he shouted before peeling out of the drive way and down the road

Alice was angry…no angry wasn't even the word she was fuming "fucking bitch-ass motherfucking piece o-of….of…SOMETHING DISGUSTING!"

She slammed the door and plopped down on the couch, she shut her eyes in an attempt to slow her heart rate and calm down "Alice think about Todd….how freaked he'd be if he saw you full on flip the coffee table or something…Mr. Casil's just and ungrateful piece of ass-douche…."

Alice smirked at her thoughts "heh…Ass-douche..."

"Alice?" a small voice pulled her from her half angered half amused stupor

"oh hi Todd….whats up?" Alice said turning to face him

"nothing…just heard screaming and a door slam…so.." the small boy moved from his place and sat on the couch next to Alice "I have some questions I wanna ask if that's okay…"

"sure go right ahead" Alice said smiling at the timid boy

"uhh well….Nny told me about the theater robbery…." Todd said, this brought a surprised look from Alice

"You….he told you about how…he killed people?" Alice almost couldn't believe it "maybe that's why he's so traumatized….Johnny goes and describes fucking homicide to him…"

"yeah…and I wanted to know…well are you two friends now? Cause he saved you and stuff…." Todd said twiddling his thumbs

"well….that depends…" Alice said, a shallow breath came from behind her and made her jump slightly "Depends? On what?"

Alice gasped and jumped away from the foreign voice, and when she saw it was only Johnny she scowled at him "how the hell did you get in without me hearing you?"

The man in question grinned and twirled a knife if his right hand "how do you know I wasn't already here?

"that's creepy….on many, many levels…" Alice said

Johnny chuckled lightly "I know it is…." He then turned and sat on the coffee table, legs crossed "so….what does it depend on?" he said

"well….I guess we could be friends or whatever….but you just…I'd like to know my safety is secure…." Alice said folding her arms

Johnny laughed "Really now? You're asking a KILLER to guarantee your safety?"

Alice felt her cheeks grow warm "well I mean….I'd like to know that I'm not going to die at your hands….I don't want a friend killing me…"

Todd wrung his hands thinking of how Johnny had promised not to harm Alice and how he had been told that Nny had saved Alice's life a few nights ago…of course he understood where Alice was coming from but…Nny had saved and spared her, he even told her himself that he promised not to harm her, so, why was she so uneasy, even Todd wasn't that scared of Johnny anymore….

Johnny smirked and Alice understood what he was doing "he's messing with me….trying to get me flustered and angry….its working…dammit.."

"alright I see your point…I could just..oh I don't know slit your throat and be done with it, why keep dangerous company I understand, I don't really care what you think about me….I just know that we are going to see a lot of each other over the time that you'll babysit Squee here, so I thought being friends or whatever, as you put it, would make the time we all spend together a bit more….tolerable" Johnny said folding his hands in his lap

"I see your point…" Alice said looking at the floor "tolerable….okay we can try to make this a little more tolerable"

Johnny nodded and stood with his arms folded across his chest, pouting a little in thought "well hmm...what could we do?"

Alice sat for a moment contemplating this "well...er..last time me and Todd played board games...we could do that.."

Johnny nodded and walked to the closet, he pulled out the games from last time, candyland and Monopoly, and set them on the table

"how 'bout we play Monopoly first?" he said sitting down

"Im not sure I wanna see you rage...again" Alice said

Johnny frowned and Alice sighed "alright...I'll play.."

Yay! I got off my ass and wrote!

er hopefully the next chapter will be a bit more eventful...but we found out here that Alice has to see a psychiatrist...and stuff..sorry if NNY's a bit OOC...

sorry if this one sucks period..