Oh my gawd its been so long...

IM SO SORRY

I DIDNT MEAN TO LEAVE Y'ALL HANGING

*hides and throws cookies*

BUT I FINALLY FINISHED THIS STORY

IM NEVER WRITING MORE THAN A ONESHOT EVER AGAIN

OKAY?

OKAY

NOW OKAY, HERE IS THE CHAPTER

ENJOY MAH SEXEH ENCHILADAS

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"Hurry up!" Jasper said, giggling as he ran onto the train, holding his skirt up so he wouldn't trip.

Sebastian laughed and boarded the train after his mate and love. "I'm coming, slow down!"

"But it's a TRAIN!" Jasper said excitedly. "A real TRAIN!"

Sebastian caught up with his mate and hugged him from behind. "Yes Jasper, A real train." He chucked as Jasper jumped slightly.

"You scared me, Sebby!" Jasper said, snuggling into his chest.

"You're adorable." Sebastian said, smiling. He picked Jasper up and walked to First Class, setting the blonde demon down in their own little cabin. Jasper looked out the train in awe at the other trains. He looked as excited as a kid in a candy store.

"Jasper, sit down, the train's about to move." Sebastian said, sitting down himself. Jasper did the same just as the train started moving. He grinned out the window of the moving train, his eyes lit up with excitement. Sebastian smiled and watched him contentedly, glad that his mate was happy.

"Sebby-Chan, it moves so fast!" the younger demon said in amazement.

Sebastian chuckled. "I know~"

Jasper climbed into the raven demon's lap and extended his cat ears. "this dress is heavy, do I HAVE to wear it...?"
Sebastian nodded and put his hand on the noticeable baby bump that Jasper had at the moment.

"demons are the only species that have males who can bear children, the humans here will cause a scene if they see you dressed regularly with your bump." he said, nuzzling the cat demon's neck lovingly. "and besides, you look quite adorable in this dress~"

Jasper blushed. "thanks..."

"of course, Koneko~" ((A\N: "koneko means "kitten" in Japanese))

Jasper's stomach growled quite loudly, causing the cat demon to blush deeper.

"hungry?" Sebastian asked. Jasper nodded.

"can you go get me something sweet to eat?"

"of course." Sebastian said, gently nudging the cat off of his lap. "I'll be right back."

"I'll be waiting~!"

Sebastian smiled and walked to the snack cart. In the middle of ordering some sweet pastries when he heard an ear-splitting scream. It was jasper's scream. He left the food cart and ran back to his cart, where a figure in black was just exciting, putting a bloody knife away in their coat. Sebastian entered to see jasper laying on the floor, blood flowing out of the wound in his chest.

"JASPER!" Sebastian screamed, kneeling down next to his mate.

"s...sebastian..." jasper mumbled weakly, smiling slightly at the older demon frantically trying to stop the bleeding. "sebby... I... I'm dying... I can feel it..."

"No Jasper…. Please… You'll be okay… It'll be okay…" Sebastian murmured to his drying mate. He struggled not to cry in front of him. "Y-You'll be okay…"

"Sebastian…?" Jasper weakly lifted his hand up to the older demon's cheek, Sebastian held it there tightly.

"Yes..?"

"Will you.. Sing me one last song..?"

Sebastian nodded, took a deep breath to keep from bursting into tears and started to sing.

"I can't win, I can't reign

I will never win this game

Without you

without you

I am lost, I am vain,

I will never be the same

Without you

without you
I won't run, I won't fly

I will never make it by

Without you

without you

I can't rest, I can't fight

All I need is you and I

Without you
Without you

Without you
Can't erase, so I'll take blame

But I can't accept that we're estranged

Without you

without you

I can't quit now, this can't be right

I can't take one more sleepless night

Without you

without you
I won't soar, I won't climb

If you're not here, I'm paralyzed

Without you

without you

I can't look,

I'm so blind

I lost my heart, I lost my mind

Without you
Without you
I am lost, I am vain,

I will never be the same

Without you

without you

Without you….."

Jasper smiled softly. "Thank you.. I love you Sebby-chan.. I'm sorry I had to go so soon.."

"No! Jasper, you're gonna be okay! Jasper!" Sebastian yelled as the light left Jasper's eyes and a small breath of air escaped his lips. Now, all Sebastian was cradling was the empty body of his lover.

"No, No, No… Jasper, wake up!" Sebastian screamed, tears dripping down his cheeks. "No! Jasper! Please!"

"Sir are-" A man on the train asked, putting a hand on Sebastian's shoulder. Sebastian jerked away and jumped out the moving train window, still carrying Jasper's body. Tears poured down his cheeks as he looked down at the limp body. Just a few minutes ago, he had been full of laughter, happiness and love. Now it was nothing more than an empty shell.. An empty shell with another inside it, the baby would certainly not survive in this body..

Once far enough away from everything, Sebastian stopped running, although that didn't stop the tears pouring down his cheeks. He gently put Jasper's body down and sank to his knees beside it, shaking with sobs.

"Jasper… Please… Wake up… You can't be dead.. You can't be.." He sobbed and sobbed like this for hours.

"This is all my fault! I took you on this trip, if I hadn't, you would still be here! I'm sorry.. I'm so so sorry Jasper….!" He sobbed and told the body.

The next day, still sobbing, he dug an elaborate grave for the dead demon and placed him inside its, laying in a newly-made coffin. Sebastian placed dirt upon that and put rocks all around the grave, also making a headstone. It read

"Jasper Michaelis.

Died on May 4th, 1860

I can't run..

I can't fly..

I will never make it by..

Without you."

Sebastian let a few more tears drip down his face and then wiped it.

"Jasper.. I know that you would of wanted me to continue living 'happily'…" He said. "I don't know if it's possible for me to be happy without you.. But I'll try to at least continue living for you.. I'll visit you here whenever I can, alright?" He blinked back new tears and gave the grave a small smile. "I love you, Jaz…."

******END FLASHBACK THINGY, BACK TO THE TIME WITH CIEL*******

"…." Ciel sat there, quite stunned at all the pain the butler had been hiding. "So that's why you've been so out of it today.. It's May 4th, the day that you… lost him, right?"

Sebastian closed his eyes to hold back tears and nodded.

"B-" He cleared his throat of the oncoming tears and tried again.

"Bochan, may I have today off…? There's… something I have to do.." The demon said. Ciel nodded and waved his hand.
"Go ahead, do whatever.." He said. Sebastian gave him a small smile, ducked his head and quickly walked out the door and out of the manor, heading to the woods.

Well… that explains why he likes cats so much… Ciel thought. I had no idea that he had such a terrible past.. like mine… He pushed the thoughts of his own past away. There was no point in brooding on things that happened in the past. But he's so good at hiding it..

Ciel decided to follow Sebastian to see where he was heading. He got up and followed where he had saw the butler go, taking a small path through the woods.

"Hey Jaz.." He heard Sebastian's voice through the forest as the butler came into view. He was putting yellow daffodils on a stone headstone in a small clearing. Ciel hid behind a tree, not wanting to intrude.

"It's been a few years I guess.." Sebastian looked down at the headstone and re-read the inscription. "Jasper.. I-I miss you.. I need you here.." He let a few tears run down his cheeks. "I'm sorry.. I broke my promise to protect you.. I-I didn't mean to.." Sebastian started crying harder, then full out sobbing. Ciel was astounded, he had never, ever seen his butler act like this.. Sebastian was always so strong and cocky, never weak like this..

"Can't erase… So I'll take blame…" The butler choked out. "I will never be the same.. without you.." He fell to his knees and put his head in his hands.

Ciel decided to go over and comfort the demon. He hated seeing Sebastian so weak. The boy walked over and put a hand on the butler's shoulder.

"Sebastian…?"

Sebastian immediately stiffened and held in his tears. When he lifted his head up, there was no trace that he had been crying, except for that deep look of sadness in the demon's red eyes.

"Bochan..?"

"Hey.. it's okay to cry.. You don't have to hold it in.." Ciel said, unsure how to comfort him.

Sebastian ducked his head and shook his head. "It's… undignified for a Phantomhive Butler to cry.."

"Nobody's here but me, Sebastian, and I don't care if you cry. It's better to cry than to have the tears bottled up inside you." Ciel said, thinking how he would never follow the advice he was giving. Sebastian was silent for a while. Then, quietly, he let a few tears drip down, then more and more… until he was sobbing yet again. Ciel hugged the demon and rocked him, letting him sob onto his shoulder until Ciel's shirt was soaked through and Sebastian had no more tears left to shed.

"I'm sorry…" He murmured. Ciel wasn't sure who he was talking to so he just nodded.

"Bochan.. I got your clothes all wet.." Sebastian said, standing up suddenly. "I should change you into a different outfit because of that." He flipped open his pocketwatch and checked the time. "And it's about time for me to make dinner."
Ciel stared at the sudden change of moods his butler had just shown. Sebastian had never been very bipolar (at least from when Ciel had known him), and that was a bipolar mood change big enough to rival Ciel's boyfriend. ((*cough*Alois*cough*))

"Jasper…" Sebastian said quietly to the grave, barely loud enough for Ciel to hear. "I love you, okay? I'll be back soon, Koneko..~"

"Sebastian?"

"Yes, Bochan?"

"Are you sure you're done? That was a sudden mood change… Kinda like the ones Alois usually has, maybe even worse."
"Bochan, can you promise me something? Well three things actually."

"What are they?"
"Never come here if I say not to, especially if I'm not with you."

Ciel nodded his promise.

"Don't tell anyone about this. I don't want anyone to come here and trash it."

Ciel nodded again.

"And thirdly; take care and be good to Alois. You never know when he might be taken from you. Make every second you have with him count."

Ciel paused for a second, surprised at what Sebastian had said. "Take.. care and be good to him..? That's really what you want me to do?"

Sebastian nodded. "Please."

"Alright." Ciel agreed.

"Thank you." Sebastian picked Ciel up and started walking back to the Manor.

"Bye Jasper.." They both called to the grave. A wind rustled in the trees and then everything was still and silent.


*cries* IM SORRRRRRRRYYYYY!

But I had to kill him off because there is no Jasper in the anime or manga..

Did I make sebby too sad? I sowwy if i did

But his weak moments are adorable XD

IM SORRY I HAD TO PUT YOU THROUGH THAT SEBBY

PLEASE LEARN TO LOVE AGAIN

AND LOVE GRELL WHEN YOU DO

;-;

Did I make you cry?

I really wanna know, cuz if I did, that means that I developed Jasper's character well enough i guess XD

I JUST WANNA KNOW IF I MADE SEXEH ENCHILADAS CRY OKAY

Okay I'm talking wayyyyy too much on here

*hits head against wall* THIS. ISN'T. INSTAGRAM. YOU. DUMBASS.

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