Two days. 14 hours. 30 minutes. And no words from Victoria and it was driving Conrad insane because… yes, he was addicted to her. He got used to have her every time he wanted no matter what, sometimes he just pushed her panties aside without bothering to undress her and had his way with her but now almost three days passed without her, without her soft lips, her gorgeous sinful body. He tried to relieve the tension jerking himself off most often than what he was used to but it wasn't the same, he needed her and the abstinence was bringing him to his knees. Was what she wanted by chance? Him crawling at her feet begging? He hated to be so weak, a weakness she used to her advantage because she knew to have such a power on him, she could control him with a wiggle of her hips, oh and her ass… M rated thoughts appeared in his mind about her backside and all the things he'd have liked to do with it. He got hard again and it was the second time that morning, he couldn't live that way! He was ready to go to the South Fork Inn and offered her whatever she wanted to go back to him and to their sex routine, he was ready to humiliate himself he thought lowering his zipper and started pumping himself…


Victoria had a lot to think about during those lonely days. She tried to focus entirely on herself because luckily there were no events to organize, no charities or teas, she didn't have to worry about the kids or to run the house, it was just herself like 25 years before. She kept herself busy going shopping, having lunch out or visiting art galleries but what she enjoyed the most was relaxing in bed until late in the morning without the need of scolding herself.

Conrad's thought seemed not to leave her mind, she missed him, she missed being intimate with him but she knew the separation was necessary, she gave in to him the last time they met when she shouldn't have but he was there angry and sexy as hell looking at her in a way that made her legs buckle. Yes, her husband was sexy but she'd never admit it out loud, he aged well, something she appreciated very much, almost as much as his stamina…

Maybe she was admonishing herself too much, she was his wife after all and sex was part of her wifely duties as he called them, it shouldn't be a big deal but it was because she wanted more and she wasn't sure he could give it to her or even wanted it. Conrad only wanted to have her, to possess her physically and materially as she was some kind of trophy he could flaunt, it was what he did for all those years and wouldn't have stopped now but she didn't want to be appreciated only for her appearance, she wanted to be loved for who she was.

She sighed taking off her sunglasses and entered the hotel's hall, before she could reach the reception a strong hand grabbed her arm

"What…"

"It's me, I needed to see you" he whispered

Victoria's heart skipped a beat, she secretly dreamt of Conrad breaking all the rules and going to her but it was just a fantasy and having him near now was confusing her, his blue eyes, his smell, his touch… she had to leave. Conrad seemed to read her mind and dragged into the restroom locking the door.

"God, you're so beautiful"

His voice made her tremble inside, it was like a sweet sexy caress, goosebumps appeared on her skin.

"I know you want it too Victoria" he panted "It's almost three days… I can't make it anymore"

"You shouldn't be here"

"It's not what your body language is saying"

"Since when are you so attentive?

"Does it matter?"

"If you're so horny just pay one of your endless tramps Conrad"

"I want you, only you and you know that"

"Are you really playing this game?"

"It's not a game damn! Do you think I'd be here humiliating myself if I didn't want you?"

He was right but it wasn't what she wanted to hear and yet the way he craved her was intoxicating, it made her feel dizzy and inebriated. Conrad notice the slight chan ge in her posture and approached her brushing her cheek with his knuckles, his fingers ghosted on her red lips wanting nothing more than devouring them. He cut the distance and kissed her, their tongue dwelled while his hands touched every inch of skin he could reach, he was so painfully hard and just wanted take her, to relieve that tension because she was the only one who could help him. He hoisted her up on the washbowl unbuckling his belt when…

"Stop!" Victoria broke the kiss pushing him away "I told you to stop!"

Conrad froze in spot unable to believe his ears. Did she really tell him to stop? After what Victoria had been through during her childhood he backed away as if she burnt him but instead of seeing relief in her eyes he saw hurt, the same hurt expression mirrored on his face. Victoria was still panting completely lost in Conrad's blue eyes, she was grateful to be on the marble counter otherwise she would have fallen to the floor. She rejected him and she felt so bad, she couldn't bear to see so much regret in his gaze, the way he felt mortified by his actions even if he didn't do anything wrong. Except that he didn't know it.

"I had never wanted to force you. I'm sorry, I… I'm truly sorry"

He headed to the door but she stopped him "Wait"

"Why Victoria? So you can make me feel even worse than how I feel?"

"I…"

"Is this why you left? Is it because of something I did?"

"No, God Conrad!"

"I thought you wanted it too…" his voice was almost a whisper

"And I did, I do!"

"So why?"

Feeling so much pain in his voice was excruciating and it wasn't why she denied him sex but because he thought he unintentionally broke her the way other bastards did in the past and that was killing him.

"It's complicated. It's about me, you never forced me to do anything, I never felt that way"

"Are you sure?"

"I am"

He extended a hand to caress her face but closed it in a fist not sure if he was allowed to do it.

"I should go now"

"Conrad I…"

She didn't want him to go, she'd have liked to tell him that she didn't want to be alone anymore, that she didn't want the heat of a moment and then the cold again, that…

"I shouldn't be here, I should have respected your will"

When she rejected him she thought she had to be strong, she had to resist to another meaningless fuck but truth was she wanted him, she needed him, she needed him to erase all the emptiness she was feeling but she couldn't tell him, he wouldn't understand.

"Maybe you should have but that's not the point"

"And what is it then?"

Victoria didn't know how to reply so she just did what she thought she could do well, she fell on her knees working on his belt but he stopped her wrists…

"Stop Victoria! What are you doing?"

She laughed bitterly "Are you punishing me for before?"

"I don't know what the hell is going on here?! Five minutes ago you pushed me away making me feel as if I was raping you and now you try to give me a blowjob as if nothing happened?"

She looked at him saying nothing.

"Talk to me Victoria!"

"I don't want to talk"

"And what the hell do you want? Because I don't know what to do anymore!"

"I'm tired of being your slut"

"You are not a slut!"

"Really?" she raised an eyebrow "You came to me only for sex, you fuck me and then leave, next time hand me some one-hundred dollar bills. Isn't that the price for luxury escorts, Conrad?"

"Stop it! I never treated you that way!"

"Be honest for once in your life, I'm your wife but I'm nothing more than a prostitute to you"

"That's not true!" he yelled then sighed "What do you want from me, Victoria?"

"Nothing, I don't want nothing"

She unlocked the door and left before he could see tears streaming down her face.