Title: Angel
Author: Saiya-Jin Girl
Disclaimer: Not My Characters

PART FOUR


He hit the button on the screen to turn it on and he dragged his chair out so he could sit. The computer loaded and he immediately connected to the wizard network. In his inbox, there were several wi-mails. They were all junk mails. He cursed silently. She hadn't replied to the wi-mail. However, a part of him was relieved as he leaned back in the chair with a sigh. After he had sent the message he had been in turmoil, wondering why he had sent it and why he was digging up memories of the past. He heard shuffling behind him and saw Tonks. He smiled at her.

"Online already?" she asked waving her hand; a kettle began to boil on the stovetop. He logged out and went over to the fridge. They had decided to place their computer into the kitchen until they could find a better spot for it somewhere else.

"Just checking my wi-mail," he said pulling out some juice. She nodded.

"Waiting for anything special?" she asked narrowing her eyes. He shrugged.

"Not really," he said getting a glass. He poured the juice in the glass and had a sip. "Would you like some?" he asked. She shook her head and yawned.

"No thanks, making some coffee, and then off to work for me," she said. He nodded.

"I think I'll go take a shower," he said draining the glass. He went over to her and kissed her on the cheek. "If I'm not done by the time you're gone, I'll see you later," he said. She nodded and watched him as he made his way upstairs. She sighed. He had forgotten the bottle of juice on the table.


Hermione sat in her office, staring off into space, at nothing in particular. She had papers on her desk which could use some organizing, but at this moment, she couldn't think straight, all she could think about was what she had just done. A knock on her door broke her out of her reverie and she jumped, at the door was her assistant, she nodded her in.

"Hermione, do you want me to help you with those papers? I just wanted to remind you that you have a meeting at noon with Mr. Smellwick," Hermione nodded.

"Claire, it's alright, I'll fix the papers," she finally replied. The young witch nodded and with a smile made her way out of the office. Hermione sighed. She was creating a mess of things. She had half a heart to send another message to cancel the meeting, but she couldn't, the desire to find out what he had been doing for the past few years was too great. She had plans for dinner tomorrow evening.


Ron was used to Hermione staying late from work from time to time. She usually called him and let him know, but she tried not to do it too often. However, when work piled up, she stayed for hours. He looked at the clock, it was 8 already and she hadn't called. Suddenly the phone rang.

"Hello?" he answered.

"Ronnie," came Hermione's voice on the other end. He smiled.

"Late night?" he asked.

"Yes, I have some things I need to get done, so I'll be home in a few hours, don't wait up for me, oh and I made some pumpkin juice and left some food in the refrigerator, eat up!" she said.

"Alright, love, thanks, I'll see you later, I love you,"

"I love you too, Ron," she said. They disconnected.

Hermione felt small pangs of guilt at the sleeping draught she put in the pumpkin juice, but she knew it was the only way to ensure he wouldn't try to apparate to her office and surprise her as he had done before. She looked at the clock; she had told Remus that she would meet him in a small restaurant downtown. She was modestly dressed, still in her work clothing, to her this was just a meeting of friends. Or so she hoped.


Remus stood nervously outside of the restaurant he had chosen. It was a small, Italian restaurant which was out of the way. He had told Tonks that he would be in late, that he simply had some things to do. She hadn't said much, but he could tell she was confused, and maybe even a little angry. Tonks didn't like the cold weather and she would prefer to stay inside. He sighed and looked at his watch, where was she?

"Sorry I'm late," came a voice. He looked up, it was Hermione. He smiled.

"It's quite alright, would you like to go inside?" he asked gesturing to the restaurant. She nodded.

"It's getting cold," she said rubbing her hands together. He nodded.

A few moments later, they were seated at a table, viewing the menu. After they ordered, they sat together, in silence for a few minutes.

"So, why?" she asked. He sipped his water.

"I wanted to see you," he responded. She looked down.

"But you saw me at the party," she said. He sighed.

"I know, but I wanted to really see you, and, talk to you," he said. There was a pause. "I wanted to know…"

She looked up.

"Know what?" she asked somewhat anxiously. The waiter suddenly appeared with their food. She smiled at the young man and looked at her plate, her dish suddenly looked unappetizing.

He picked up his fork and picked at his food.

"Hermione, I wanted to ask you something," he said quietly, putting down his fork. She gripped hers tighter.

"Do you…remember?" he began. She felt a wealth of emotion escape from her heart, a dry sob escaped her lips, and she felt weak. She saw his face falter.

"Yes, yes I do," she said softly.

"You do?" he asked. She nodded and pulled a napkin out of the holder. She pulled off her glasses and wiped the tear that leaked out of her eye.

"I'm sorry for being such a mess," she said apologetically. He shook his head.

"It's alright," he said. She sighed and looked at her food.

"I came out here tonight, with the intention, of finding out what you remember, Remus," she said. He nodded.

"The same," he said. She looked up at him. "How are things with you and Ron?" he asked. She sighed.

"In the beginning, it was nice, new, but now its just a routine, in a way," she admitted.

"I thought you liked stability?" he shot at her. She shrugged.

"I do, I'm not saying I don't like it…it's just…."

"You said that to me in the cave you know," he said. She looked at him. "You told me, that you were already used to Ron," he said. She sighed.

"I can't do anything about it," she replied.

"Your happiness should be important to you, Hermione,"

"Yes, but…Ron was so…I couldn't leave him in the state he was in after the war," she said shaking her head and finally taking a jab at her food.

"I understand," he said simply. Did he really understand? She wondered. He began eating his food.

"And what about you, and Tonks?" she asked. He looked at her.

"What about her?" he asked. She shrugged.

"Are you both seriously dating, or what?" she asked. He nodded.

"Yes, yes we are,"

"That's…good…" she said. They both looked up at each other for a moment and then looked away.

The conversation jumped from topic to topic as they ate. When they finished eating, and they paid for their meal, they got their coats and they made their way outside, into the cold. Hermione was looking for something in her purse, and Remus stared at her. Nothing had changed really, she was still beautiful. She looked up and caught him staring, but he did not lower his gaze.

"Is everything alright?" she asked. He said nothing but took a step toward her, and without warning, leaned over and kissed her on the lips. She was shocked for a second, but soon those feelings disappeared and she kissed him back hungrily. He wrapped his arms around her body, holding her close to him and he kissed her. He inhaled her scent, whatever she was wearing drove him insane. She pulled away from him and looked into his eyes.

"Why?" she asked. He looked at her and shook his head.

"I…I don't know…" he said softly. He still had his arms wrapped around her. She let her head rest against his chest.

"I feel right, Remus, I feel as though everything is right when I'm here," she said. He felt a pang in his heart.

"It ate me for a long time afterward, Hermione; it hurt me that I didn't get to love you, that I didn't get a chance to be with you," He felt tears come into his eyes. The tears he had held back for so long. She looked up at him.

"I know, Remus, I know, I couldn't…think of anything else. I don't know what exactly happened between us that night, but…something did, and I couldn't let go of it for a long time. I thought I did, at one point…but….when I saw you the other night, it all came back to me," she said sadly.

"It makes you think, doesn't it?" he said.

"About what?" she asked.

"About love, about life, when I began dating Tonks, I thought to myself, that I could finally…be with someone,"

"Remus, we can't let ourselves be fooled by this…" she said pulling away from him. She felt cold.

"Fooled?" he asked. She nodded.

"You're in a relationship, and so am I, we should just bury those memories and…let them…be…" she said. He looked at her, wiping away the tears that had fallen from his eyes.

"I don't think I can…" he said. She sighed.

"Sorry, Remus, I should go," she said turning away. He looked at the ground.

"Hermione, please," he said. She looked at him. "I'm sorry for kissing you," he said to her. She stopped and looked at him.

"No…you're not," she said softly. And with a crack, she was gone.


A/N: Hey folks, firstly, thanks for the reviews. I really do appreciate it. I apologize for the depressing chapter. I was listening to Damien Rice while writing and look what happened...LOL...but yeah, I'm not gonna tell you what will happen, but believe me, something exciting will happen. I felt like Remus was a bit OOC at the end, but I guess, desperation changes us….

OK, so I have class soon and its FREEZING cold outside. Hope you enjoyed the chapter !!

Love, Saiya-Jin-Girl