Author's Note: Yes, I switched the name of the story. Simply because what I had in mind when I started the story, isn't what I have in my mind now. So now it's Show Me Love and not When Two Becomes One. You might want to know that in the end of this chapter it is Ed who's having a flashback. Anyways. Here you go. Chapter four!
Chapter Four: Hearts and Minds
Roy drifted from consciousness to unconsciousness. He fought for his life. He'd lost too much blood. But the doctors knew what they were doing. He trusted them.
He missed Ed. He wanted so badly to see those golden eyes, instead of that white light. He wanted to feel the touch of Ed's hands and not the doctor's. He hoped Ed was okay. He drifted off to unconsciousness. And once again blond bangs haunted his dreams.
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"General, sir, you have a visitor," Riza said dutifully. Roy immediately looked up from his work and saw a blonde standing in the doorway.
You look into my eyes, I go out of my mind. I can't see anything; Cause this love's got me blind. I can't help myself, I can't break the spell. I can't even try. I'm in over my head. You got under my skin. I got no strength at all, in the state that I'm in.
"Take a seat, FullMetal," Mustang said, and pointed at the chair standing in front of his desk. The boy nodded and silently sank down in the chair in front of the Generals desk. The boy were the one to break the silence. "I want permission to leave the city," the boy began, and Roy's mind and jaw dropped. "There's a lead which I don't want to miss," he said and moved his head slowly around to look at the others who was busy doing their work. He leaned over the desk a little, and whispered in the Generals ear, "I'm sorry that I can't give you a properly goodbye, but they're here, and well, I have to be at the railway station in an hour," he sighed.
And my knees are weak. And my mouth can't speak. Fell too far this time. Well you whispered to me and I shiver inside. You undo me and move me in ways undefined. Edward, why are you doing this to me?
"Permission granted, FullMetal," Mustang announced. "But before you leave, I have to show you something," he smirked and shove his chair backwards. Golden eyes widened and the Ed allowed himself a small grin. The General showed way and they ended up outside of an old closet. He looked around him; no one else in the hallway. He then opened the door to the closet, turned on the light and pushed Edward inside.
When the door was closed and both alchemist were inside, a pair of golden eyes met black ones. It was nothing between them, only lust, passion, and a great desire to touch and feel the warmth of their lover's body. A hand raised, and touched a warm and blushed cheek.
"I'm terrible sorry we can't stay here too long. But at least it'll give me the chance to give you a goodbye kiss," the older alchemist said. "I'm going to miss you, Edward," he said, pushing the boy's head towards his own.
Lips met, and a sensual battle of tongues started. Hands pushed their bodies together. Seconds filled with lust, passion, and desire. The need to feel their lover's touch. A hand travelled under a jacket and shirt, the need to feel his lovers warm body.
"The others … will wonder … where we … are," Edward said between the moans the General caused him. The General looked up at his young lover, smiled and shook his head.
"I don't care, love, I'm too lost in you to let you go," he said and kissed Edwards temple. "I got needs, and so do you. So let's finish what we started."
I'm too lost in you. Caught in you. Lost in everything about you. So deep, I can't sleep, I can't think. I just think about the things that you do. Edward, I'm so lost in you.
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With his pants around his ankles, shirt tails hanging over his bare ass, and his body on the top of Edward Elric's, he said something that would haunt the blond teen forever. He dug his head in the neck that belonged to Ed, and whispered. "Ed, I wanna know what love is. I wanna feel what love is. And I want you to show me. I know you can show me."
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Still he had heard nothing. Not a doctor had stopped and told him which state his lover was in. No one had bothered. Although he asked, no one told him. It made Ed sad. The fact that he didn't even know if his boyfriend were alive or not. He couldn't even cry. He really wanted to now, but he was empty inside. He was so afraid that his lover would die, or if he was dead already.
I don't want to say goodbye!
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Edward sat on the train. Thinking. Watching the landscape roll by. Thinking about what a certain General had told him before he left. It made him dizzy. All the thinking. But then a picture of the General passed through his mind and he didn't feel so dizzy after all.
Ed yawned and stretched out his arms a bit. Two more hours and he'd be back in Central. Back in the General's office. The General. Roy Mustang. The Mustang. The love of his life.
Oh yes, the love of his life.
After those words had reached Roy's mouth Ed had allowed and accepted the feelings he had for the General. He did not push them away. With outstretched arms he welcomed them. The feeling of love. The feeling of being in love.
The only bad thing about their relationship now was the fact that they were both males. The society didn't allow a homosexual relationship. People would look down at you. You would be pushed to the ground. Love or not it was not usual. It was not common that two males, or two females for that matter, lived together, or had a life together. If you wanted a homosexual relationship you had to hide it. Which would be hard. Ed wouldn't get the ability that other couples have. For instants, he wouldn't get the opportunity to snuggle against Roy while they're in the park and reading the newspaper. They couldn't hold hands. They couldn't kiss in front of other people. Oh yes, life sucks.
Edward made faces. And his little brother had noticed that. "Brother, is something on your mind?"
"Nothing important," he sighed. Glancing at the armor who sat across him. Giving him a slight smile. Scratching his left leg as he did so. "Why?" Al asked. "Why do you lie to me? I can see that something is bothering you. I will listen, Brother. I will listen if you tell me."
"Al, is not that easy."
"Is it something about the General?" Edward's jaw dropped. Al knew? Al knew! "Oh, don't get that look, Brother. It wasn't hard to figure out, really. Don't you think I have seen the looks you have given each other lately? You two are not good at hiding things."
"Al… Look…"
"No. Listen to me Brother," Al demanded. "If you love the General - which I think you do - you should tell him. I mean it Brother. Tell him."
"Al, it's not that. Don't you understand? We're both males, and if this relationship of ours get any more serious than it already is, I don't know what to do. We can't do anything in public together! Not kiss, not hold hands, not those things that couples do! It's hard, Al. To be like this. To love the same gender. It's so fucking hard! I love him like I have never loved anyone. And the fact that that we can't show people … it's so hard. We can never have a normal relationship because we have to hide it. I don't know what to do, Al. I really don't." Edward hid his face in his hands and started to cry. Tears streaming down his face. Making a pit of salty water in his hands.
"Brother, if it's a straight or homosexual relationship doesn't matter. Love is love."
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"Edward Elric?" Ed was being woken up by a good looking nurse who smiled sadly at him. "Yeah?"
To be continued...
