Author's note: I wrote this story to the music "Don't give UP" by Peter Gabriel and Kate Bush. This was done quickly and will probably need a rewrite. If you want to fix it up, be my guest. )
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It has been several weeks now and Bartowski still has not come to me asking about Sarah. I have been trying to track her down but it has been very difficult.
It was easier to track down Bryce than it is to catch up with Walker. I had managed to track him to Portland. I flew there and had a "Heart to Heart" with him.
I left him mostly intact, but he will be pissing blood for a few weeks. A little reminder of how much I appreciate him trying to put the moves on Walker.
Bryce had given me some places to look and a bit of background on what to look for. It wasn't much but I am not know for quitting.
I hate to admit it but the information that Bryce provided helped. I was able to find where Sarah had been a few weeks ago. She had been in Louisville for a few days, then checked out.
She has fallen off the grid again, but I have refined my search pattern now. It was just a matter of time before I found her. I just hope it is not too late.
It is still is hard for me to understand how I let him under my skin, but then again I had thought there were no more genuine people left in the world. If anything Chuck was genuine and always putting others before himself.
Chuck has been flip flopping between focused and depressed. It is like watching a rubber ball from day to day. He has become dysfunctional for the intersect and the higher ups are not pleased at all.
Their original idea of reassigning an Agent if they fell for an asset was proving very wrong. It was now clear that the attachment was beneficial to the team. It was becoming clear that Chuck was useless for anyone in this state.
Beckman and Graham had given Casey full control over what to do about the entire situation. Casey had convinced them that he had a plan, but it would take time. They had even agreed to a real relationship between Chuck and Sarah, after witnessing what had happened to the intersect.
Big Mike has also noticed and is at the end of his rope with Chuck. It looks like he may put someone else in charge of the Nerd Herders.
It is a late night again and finally Chuck has fallen asleep. I want to help him, but his pride or something is holding him back.
He must come to me before I can help him. It has to be his decision to ask for my help. Any other way could cause this whole thing to blow up.
That reminds me, I need to get a case of Eagles Rare tomorrow. This is really cutting into my budget. I guess we will see if it was worth it in the long run.
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Chuck is tossing and turning in his bed. Suddenly he bolts straight up and looks at his packed bags as if they were taunting him again.
He reaches up and grabs his hair, wanting to pull on it till answers came out of his head. He is no closer to finding Sarah than he was several weeks ago.
At first, he was going to ask for Casey's help. After waking up the next morning several weeks back, he had decided that Casey may try and stop him from finding Sarah.
Chuck had decided to find her on his own. Surly she would leave some kind of tracks or at least her car would. After all, how may black Porsche could there be out there? To his amazement, a lot more than he had thought possible.
Searching the internet for any type of tell tell signs of Sarah, there were a lot of hits for information. There was so much data to go over, but Chuck was using every bit of information that he could remember to refine his search for her.
Chuck had actually build an advance spider search engine. It was combing hotel records, DMV records, airline ticketing systems, as well as a hundred other types of sites.
The complexity was enormous, but he was driven to build it as there was no other tool to use. It was a work of art; as it uses a little known technique to get around cgi scripts and thereby to get to the lower levels of hidden data.
It was simple to create actually. All you need to do was go to some of the phracking sites and pull down already provided programs and modify them. The hard part was already done usually.
His thoughts turned to Elle and how she was starting to show signs of recovery. She was cooking a few days a week now. Elle would even sit with him and watch a movie or two on occasion.
Chuck knew there was still a long ways to go for her, but at least Elle was coping now. There is still a great sadness there, but her zest for life was not broken. That brought him back to Sarah.
Wondering if Sarah's eyes held the same sparkle for someone else now or if she was thinking of him. Chuck could only hope the she wanted to see him again.
If not, it would be all his fault. He had taken his insecurity about Bryce and let it blind him.
Still, it hurt to know that Bryce could get Sarah to drop everything when he called.
Chuck pushed that thought from his mind, otherwise it would drive him into a deep depression that there would be no escape from this time.
Time was running out and Chuck knew he would not be able to hold together much longer. Right then Chuck promised himself, if he could not find anything solid in the next two weeks, he would go to Casey, no matter what may happen.
With a conclusive decision made, a calming effect came over him. Chuck laid back down and began to sleep soundly for the first time in months.
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It had been months now since Sarah had left Team Bartowski and she had never felt so depressed in all her life.
She had felt that getting away would help her distance herself from the pain, but it had not. If anything, she felt like a large part of her was missing.
Even the many different growls from Casey were stuck in her head. Every time she would do something that she knew Casey hated, she would mentally put a growl to the deed.
Sarah had finally just left one day without telling the CIA where she was going. She dropped off the grid about two months after leaving Team Chuck.
She was tired of it all and wanted nothing more to do with anyone or anything, especially the CIA.
One day Sarah was walking down the street in Louisville and spotted a tall man with curly brown hair across the street from her. She did a double take and then started running after him.
Two blocks later, she spotted him enter a Starbucks coffee shop. Not wanting to lose him, Sarah entered and grabbed the man's arm.
He turned around to face her and it was not her Chuck. "Excuse me, I though you were someone else," Sarah sadly stated, before she turned and walked back out the door.
That day she went back to her hotel, packed all of her things and just left. Not even knowing where she was going to go. She just got into her car and drove down the highway.
Hours later she stopped at a bed and breakfast for the night. Sarah was not even sure where she was, but she was too tired to care.
Going straight to her room, Sarah was a bit nervous to go to sleep. She knew that the same dream would come to her as it had for the last several months.
What she would give to just see Chuck and stare into his eyes. It hurt to think of him and what a single simple mistake can do to a persons life.
All her instincts are telling her to forget her pride and go back to LA. But Sarah's mind tells her to just forget it and take the loss. There was nothing to be gained by going back there any more.
Tomorrow would be another day. Maybe she would be able to put this all behind her, but she knew deep down there was no chance of that.
Chuck was better off without her. Maybe she would call Casey just to check up on him. Maybe she would, but she would have to see how the night goes.
Maybe was better than not at all, but she was so tired of working so hard to forget.
Love has a way of sneaking into the mirrors of the eyes and all she wanted to do was look into Chuck's eyes. Just to see if the light and the heat was still in his eyes for her.
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