Chapter 4

EPOV

Bella looked up at me with shock and gratitude, she really wasn't a bad looking girl; actually she was rather attractive. In a clumsy eccentric kind of way, Bella was sexy. "Careful Bella, you could really hurt yourself," I half chuckled.

Her cheeks were stained a very appealing color of pink as she gained her footing. "Thanks," she replied shyly.

I released her when she no longer stumbled, "See you tomorrow." I wonder why I never noticed her before.

I was still waiting on a response from Marie; hopefully I would hear from her soon. Something about her has fully caught my attention. We have only been talking a week and I can't get my mind off of her which I'm thankful for because it stops me from thinking of Tanya.

Tanya was my first love, my only love. I may have a playboy persona but I'm really nothing like that. I never had a girlfriend before Tanya; in the beginning I really thought I loved her. After two years I started to see that I didn't, if I ever did I didn't anymore. I knew she felt the same way, we never spent time together and we didn't really connect when we did. We both knew it was over before it ended.

I caught Tanya in bed with an old friend of mine, James. We were really good friends all through middle school and up until that day. I'll never forget it.


I left school early on this day, something was really bothering me and I didn't know what it was until I got to my girlfriend Tanya's. She had left before gym complaining of cramps and that she'd see me at her place after school. I didn't think anything of it because she had said two days ago she just started her monthly cycle. So I went on with my day.

I stopped by the 7-11 on the corner of her street and grabbed a fairly fresh rose from the guy standing outside. She loved getting flowers; I made sure she was stocked often. When her house came into view, I noticed James' car parked across the street. We were all friends, so again I didn't think anything of it.

I parked in the drive and went through the back door which was only around the corner from her room. When I shut the door I heard scrambling coming from her room. The door was open and I stepped inside expecting the surprised look she always gave me when I came in with flowers. She had a look of shock all right, but not as bad as mine was.

She was clutching her sheet in front of her, covering her bare chest and middle. James, my childhood best friend was standing next to the bed stark naked holding his boxers wadded up into a ball in front of his package. I couldn't even say anything; I just looked at Tanya for a few minutes, turned then walked out the way I came.

"Eddy," she called after me. I hated when she called me that, I never told her because she was the only one that did it so I let her get away with it. I loved her when she started it and I couldn't bring myself to tell her; she had a very strong mental hold on me. She could get whatever she wanted with a look or one word it was that strong.

I didn't look back and I didn't stop walking until I got to my Volvo waiting outside. I was feeling multiple emotions all at once and my mind couldn't and wouldn't sort through them. Tanya was just sleeping with my best friend; James was just sleeping with my girlfriend. What was I supposed to do with that?

I drove straight home without looking at the speedometer. I always got such a thrill driving at high unknown speeds. Even if it wasn't high, it felt like it was and that was all that mattered. When I arrived home I didn't get out of my car. My family would have so many questions for me, they would be able to tell something was wrong the moment I enter any room they are occupying. I wasn't ready to talk about it; I was still processing the information.

After about 20 silent minutes I saw the reflection from a pair of headlight in my rear view mirror and heard the crunching of gravel under tires as a car approached. I couldn't tell what kind of car it was until the lights went. Of course it would be Tanya, the last person I wanted to see.

I watched her as she stepped out of her car, her perfect feet in heels touching the ground delicately as she stood and swung the door shut. She walked towards my car in her usual runway walk and stopped when she came to my door. I hesitantly turned the key to the on position and languidly pushed the button to roll down the window. I stayed reclined in my chair and didn't look at her as I turned the key back off.

She leaned down, her manicured fingers dripping the window of my car, "Eddy."

"Do not fucking call me that," I sneered.

"Okay..." She acted like I was over reacting. "I don't really know what to say."

"There isn't anything you need to say, you should everything." I was not holding back my anger and hurt that I was feeling in that moment. She completely betrayed my trust, I knew it was over but I didn't go out and screw her best friend Irene. She could have at least waited until we were officially broken up.

"Edward, I don't want to leave it like this. We have so much history together, every memory I have for the last three years has you in it." She was crying and expecting me to comfort her. "Please believe me when I say and am so sorry from the bottom of my heart."

"Please Tanya; get the fuck away from my car." I had nothing to say to her, I had enough. I was done in the most literal sense of the word. I was done with her arrogance, done with her lies, and done with her manipulative ways. "I don't want to see you again."

I shoved my door open, pushing her aside, and slammed it. I stood there looking down at her, straight in her eye, letting lose all the pain I felt from her spontaneous actions. I knew she felt it, I could see it in her expression as it changed.


When she moved it made it easier to let her go. I haven't been interested in a girl since. All the girls around here that ever show any interest are only in it for one thing: To get in the sack with "Edward freaking Cullen". Marie actually has a brain, she has interests and dreams that we both share. I'll be graduating this year and I have been accepted on an early admission to WSU in Sea Tac. I want someone to go through that journey with me.

I have always been the romantic type and Tanya was the exact opposite. She was all about physical touching in public. I am all for kissing and showing affection but grinding and getting all theatrical is not for me. That's what the privacy of your own bedroom is for.

My parents met when they were in high school and went to college together; they got married half way through their terms and shared a dorm together. That to me is a life worth living, being with the person you love and the person you were meant to spend your life with. That sounds like a good plan to me.

Marie finally got back to me and we talked about whatever. It was like we have known each other forever and we didn't even know it. We very well could, she hasn't told me where she lives, I've been trying like hell to get it out of her but she was not budging. If I know her, I want to get it over with and maybe start a relationship.

That's what I like about online chat; you really get to know what someone is like on the inside. Most people do it because they are too afraid to show people what they have to offer because they think it isn't good enough. I do it because no girl from my town was going to hold any interest to me; at least that's what I thought until today.

Isabella Swan, well, Bella I guess; I've never really given her much thought. She's always been a shy girl, always sticking by herself. I remember this one time we were partnered up to do a Romeo and Juliet scene. She stumbled over her words and forgot her lines. She also blushed a faint red color that went beautifully with her fair complexion. She never talked to me much, not like today. I guess I never really talked to her either.

I noticed Marie's birthday was coming up and I wanted to get her something. I didn't have many choices, being I couldn't give it to her or send it to her because she won't tell me where she lives. I could make her something, but that is a little on the corny side.

We talked until we both had to go to dinner and when I was done I sent her an IM wishing her a goodnight and to have sweet dreams.

While I laid in bed thinking about Marie a melody came to me like I have known it my whole life. It was smooth and light and it had a beauty to it I never thought possible. I jolted from my bed and made my way to the desk in my room. I had a few extra sheets of paper laying around her e somewhere.

When I found them after ruffling through all the papers scattered across my desk I started to write down the melody; I didn't want to lose it. I was banking on the fact that Marie like's classical music, this was going to be the best gift I could give her considering the circumstances.

The next day at school I was looking forward to seeing Bella again, to see if she was everything my mind made her up to be last night. I wanted to be with my Marie, but there was a chance I would never get the chance to meet her. This was my best option, not that Bella would be second best; I just feel I would have a better chance if I got to know her better.

Today was the start of a string of question Bella would have to endure during out study session. If I wanted to see about pursuing a relationship with her then I might as well start now. Angela walked in first and Bella followed after her clutching her books and watching where she was stepping. I know she is clumsy, that much I remember about her. Just so happened yesterday I was behind her and caught her before she fell.

"Hello Bella," I greeted when she came close enough to me. Her eyes shot up from the floor and she looked startled.

"Hi Edward." She took her seat across from me and laid out her books. It seemed like every movement she made was well thought out. I chuckled, thinking about what was going on in her head. "Don't smash your finger when you set the books down, don't knock the books off the table when you reach into your bag to get a pencil and don't rip the page when you turn to the right chapter".

"What's so funny?" She asked looking up at me from her book.

"Oh nothing, you just seem like you have to concentrate not to knock anything over or trip when you walk." I chuckled again.

"Oh," the color or her cheeks changed quickly and it almost made me blush myself just seeing it. "I can't help that I'm off balance with the rest of the world."

"So that is your excuse, the rest of the world spins on a different axle than yourself?"

"Yes, that's it," she giggled. I'd never heard her laugh before. It was soft and thought out, like she was controlling the way she laughed, acted really, in front of other people. Why she would keep herself so hidden when she is interesting is beyond me. Maybe it's just me but she is beautiful, inside and out.

She started the session and we studied all through until the bell rang. I wanted to start my questions today so I decided to ask at least one.

"So Bella, what are you doing this weekend?" I figured that would be an easy one to answer.

"Oh, well it's actually my birthday on Saturday, so I'll be hanging out with my parents."

"Really, a friend of mine's birthday is this weekend too.

"I'll see you in Bio," she said as she grabbed her things and exited the library. She seemed so disinterested in me but sometimes, when I caught her looking at me she looked like she was. Girls were so hard to understand sometimes.

I messaged Marie, hoping her lunch was around the same time as mine.

Badassvamp360: Is it your lunch time? I hope I'm not interrupting anything…

Vamplvr1987: Yeah, it just started and no you're not interrupting anything. I'm just standing in line waiting to get my fruit cup and water.

Badassvamp360: That's all you get for lunch? I don't think that's good, you should eat more.

Vamplvr1987: Have you tried the food at public schools lately, it's revolting….I can wait until I get home LOL

Badassvamp360: Yeah, you're right it is pretty raunchy.

Vamplvr1987: How has your day been treating you?

Badassvamp360: Good so far, how's yours?

Vamplvr1987: Strange actually, things have gotten really strange around my school…the people, one person, really are starting to treat me differently for some reason.

Badassvamp360: How so? In a good or bad way…I won't put up with people being rude to you my Marie.

Vamplvr1987: Well I can't really tell if it's good or bad. People like to play pranks and I'm not sure if this person is serious or kidding.

Badassvamp360: I have to go for class; I'll IM you when school lets out. Don't let people bother you or bring you down. You're a beautiful person on the inside and I'm sure that shows on the outside.

She seemed so self conscious; I hoped she wouldn't let the person she was talking about get to her. I will pumble whoever it is if I ever have the chance or reason to.

All week I tried to get more from Bella, to see if there was anything there. I was always the one that talked; she listened and answered but never asked her own questions; not even to ask why I was asking. I also talked to my Marie everyday during lunch and I even started sending her good morning IM's. I really like her and was beginning to feel bad for also trying to pursue Isabella Swan. Really, what was I supposed to do? Every time I bring up us meeting she threw it out the window and pulled out one of her conversation change moves.

I was sick of feeling alone, I wanted someone to hold in my arms and tell them I love them and mean it and for them to say it back. I may sound like a mushy romantic but I don't care; that's just how it is.

Friday came and went and I had finally finished Marie's birthday gift that night. Her birthday is tomorrow and now I have something to give her. It might not be much about hopefully she would feel the emotions behind it. At some point while I was writing it Bella popped into my thoughts as she has a lot during the last week. A new kind of tune came to me and I put it in with my Maries. I felt bad, in a way, thinking of another girl while writing this song for another. It went together smoothly like it was meant to be and I couldn't pass it by.


So this was just an extra chapter for y'all so you can see into Edward's head during all of this....they meet after next chapter..so stay tuned

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