DISCLAIMER: I make no money whatsoever from this fic...and unfortunately I own no characters except in my head...but you know A/N : This is my first proper fic so try to critisise me in a nice way...oh and if I had my way, Draco would be played by Jeremy Dufour, and if Remus is ever in this, he would be played by Mathius Lauridsen. See I got it all worked out.
The L Worrd
"You could have any girl you want, but you chose him, a guy for fucks sake."
"Pansy for once I wanted someone who likes me for me, not for Death Eaters son Draco Malfoy. I wanted them to see me as more than that. And that's exactly what Blaise did, I know his families full of Death Eaters as well, but he doesn't want to be like them, just like me." He stopped for air before he began ranting again.
"And Pansy, I swear to god if you mess it up for me in any way, I will not be responsible for my actions. How I feel about him is nobody else's business but mine and his, and I will never talk to you again if you ruin this for me.
He is the one good thing in my life; he's the best thing at the moment. I want to have a family with him, I want to spend the rest of my life with him and I want us to grow old together, and if it's possible I want you to be there for us when we need you and we need all the support we can get right now.
But just know this, I will never walk out on him or cheat on him, cos it'll break my heart to see him hurt. " after saying all of that Draco was beyond exhausted.
"I mean I love my family to bits, as does Blaise but he doesn't want to get caught up in that shit. He doesn't want people to know him as a Death Eater. And the both of us are going to do all it takes to not get the mark.
Just get it into your fucking head I don't want you, anyway Blaise is like your brother, you should be happy for us."
"Shit your right, I've treated so badly and just cos of my own selfish needs, I need to go make it up with him, I don't want to lose him like the rest of them."
"You're not going to, and anyway I'm sure he'll forgive you and anyway you still got me, I'd never leave you. You're like the sister I never had Pans."
"Thanks, anyway I wouldn't hurt you either or Blaise for that matter."
"Anyway he sees me for who I am, not just for my body unlike you, as much as I love you ickle sis it still creeps me out."
"And I am not afraid to say that I love him, yes I love him. OH MY GOD, I LOVE HIM!"
Suddenly Blaise came out of the corner, surprised but what Draco had just said.
"What did you just say…?"
Well Draco was in for it now, he might as well just tell him now.
"Well, I think I just said that I love you, and I don't really wanna take it back, unless you don't feel the same way?"
"Um…well I... uh don't know what to say, I need to think about it."
Pansy just stood there in utter shock in what she had just heard.
"Pans, can you leave us alone for a bit, I meet you back at my dormitory later."
"You know what Draco; I may regret this in the morning. I've thought about it, and I'll give it a go, but if it doesn't work out can we promise to stay friends at the very least. Well life is all about taking chances, even if they aren't always the right ones, but I guess you end up learning from them. "
"Yeah, sure whatever you want, so do you want us to come out of the closet or stay a secret?"
"Well, I'm not ashamed to say that I may be the guy for you so why keep it a secret."
"I guess I always knew, how you felt about me, I had an inkling."
"It was either you don't like girls or you were gay, but I picked the third option, me."
"You vain obnoxious prick!"
"What so you don't like me anymore, and you and big words just don't go?"
"Nooo, I do, forget I just said that."
"O...kay, so where do we go from here?"
"Well, I guess this might help."
Just then Draco leaned in for a kiss, one of many to come. It was short but sweet, and you just knew that there relationship was taking a new step.
When they stopped, Blaise was in shock, he didn't know what to do. Draco and he had just kissed; his best mate had just kissed him for Merlin's sake. They couldn't just carry on being best friends; he wouldn't be able to look him in the eye anymore without thinking about the kiss. Its not that he didn't enjoy it, he did, it was just that it was Draco. His best friend for fucks sake.
But he guessed that's what happens when you end up going out with your best mate, at least it wasn't Ron – Ewww. But he had to admit, Draco was a fine kisser much better than his previous ones, well Harry wasn't all that bad. Blaise and Draco both knew that.
"What didn't you like it?"
"Well I dunno Draco, I have just kissed my best mate, who I should remind you, is a guy."
"Wait, does that mean your gay, cos I'm not."
"What do you mean, just cos we kissed that doesn't make us gay"
"Well, I don't like any other guy just you, but I don't like any girls at the moment"
"You know what, I can't deal with this shit, and right now I need time to think"
"Fine, just don't take too long"
"Um… okay" just as he was walking away, Draco stopped him.
"What do you want now?"
"Just know that I'll be here waiting for you"
"Fine then" and with that he carried on walking, not daring to look back, in case he had an urge to make out with Draco, cos then it would be really awkward.
"Actually Draco um...
Draco the thing is that, I love you and everything but it's so easy to fall out of love with someone, than it is to fall in love with someone. I mean I hope that it will never happen to us, but we have to think of it as a possibility, I don't want to live my life as a life, and I don't want you to either. But if it does, for any reason happens, then I want to walk away with dignity and hope that we may even be able to become friends again, maybe lovers even. I just want to take things slowly and steadily and most of all I want to take what ever life throws at us, together. So yeah, just know that what you're asking of me is a very full on, immense commitment, not just from me, but from your self as well. I want to be able to trust you as well and know that you will be as committed to me as I am to you.
And god help me, but I've known you since we were this high, and I guess I have automatically become accustomed to you. You are practically my brother, and you have been for, like forever and don't you think it would be morally wrong for anything to happen between us. Besides what we feel for each other, how do you think our parents are going to react? They are probably going to be distraught, and ashamed of us. And I really don't think that I can disappoint my parents like that, I'd rather ask for their permission before anything happens between us. Draco I know you in and out, I have been with you through thick and thin, as you have been for me, and I would like nothing more than to me with you but are we actually ready for something as big as this? To tell you the truth, I am actually scared to death and I don't think that I would be able to handle it if we aren't able to be together. But still as much as it would kill me not to be with you, I still want to put my feelings aside and think about us, together as one."
He would have to face him sooner or later, they were sort of going out.
R&R pweety pweeze...somehow the only reviews I have are from the same person...who just happens to be my friend and beta
