I didn't even bother to text her back, I knew she wouldn't tell me anything to begin with. Though to make sure she knows I got her text, I responded with,

[Kk]

I had then texted Shane to ask him to excuse Amy and I for the morning. Penelope will understand, we're some of her favorites. Plus, if we say it's a family emergency, we'll be fine. As long as Penelope doesn't catch on because we've used that excuse quite a few times already. Shit! It's already seven o'clock! I'm typically at Amy's by seven-thirty. Looks like I really will be using the because at this rate, I wouldn't be catching the bus! Or a shower!

Twenty minutes later and I'm heading out the door. I'd say that's a record! "I'm running late! Taking the car!" I shout and grab the keys. I hear no response so I leave. I arrive to Amy's and she's already outside. I pull up, but she doesn't move. I turn off the car and walk up to her. "Is everything alright?"

"Yeah..." She says quietly and gets up. "Can we go to the Cafe?"

"Yeah." I nod. *Oh man, I'm real worried now. I can't imagine what Amy has to say* We walk to the car and take off. It's pretty silent the whole ride there. "Whats going on?" I ask before getting out.

"I'll explain when we sit." She gets out and heads in.

*Oh my God! What is the deal? I've never seen Amy act like this. I'm kind of scared to know what she's going to say.* I get out and follow her to the counter. We order our drinks, sit down, and again full of silence. "Amy." My voice cracks. "Please. Tell me what is on you mind."

"Us." She says. "We need to find a way to announce our break up." She clears her throat.

"Amy, there's more than that. You were silent the whole time. Is it because of my response?" I ask sympathetically. She doesn't answer, just looks down at her coffee. "Amy?"

"Karma." She swallows hard. "I love you. I know you know, but I needed to actually say it. I know and understand that you don't, but please." She starts to cry. "Please don't leave me. I know I should have told you the moment I knew, but if I told you then, I wouldn't have got to have the best relationship. A relationship with my best friend. But now I've fallen for you hard. It drives me nuts to know our relationship is done, but it kills me to think you'd leave me. Please keep our friendship above waters."

"Oh Ams!" I take her hands. "I would NEVER end our friendship for such a reason! Matter of fact I would never EVER end it. You're the best thing to happen to me! Even more than when Liam and I-" I stop myself before I say anymore. I cannot let Amy know what happened.

She shoots me a look. "When you and Liam what?"

Shit!

"Karma! What did you do!?" Amy's voice raises.

"Nothing Amy! Like I told you yesterday, nothing went on." I try to cover myself.

"Yeah, nothing went on that day, but what did on the other occurrence?" She removes her hands from mine. "Karma!" She demands.

"No." I say slowly shaking my head as tears start to fall from my eyes. "It's nothing."

"Bullshit!" She stands up. Luckily we happen to be the only ones here because we would have the whole Cafe looking at us. "If it were nothing you wouldn't be this emotional!"

"Amy..." I whisper.

"Karma! Tell me now!"

I cry more. "We uh." I swallow. "Had oral." All the tears in my body pour down my face. "Amy please."

"I can't." She takes her drink and leaves.

"Amy..." I once again whisper. I put my head down and let the rest of the tears come out. There's no way I can go to school today. I am now a mess and I can't take the pain. As I get ready to left my head I feel a hand on my shoulder.

"Hey." The voice says softly. I lift my head to see Liam sitting down. "You OK?" He asks.

"No." I say wiping my face. "Amy found out about what happened last week..."

"Karma," Liam grabs my hand. "I am sorry. I know I should have respected you being in a relationship."

"It's not your fault. I'm the one who should have respected myself. And Amy." I pause and mumble, "Even if it's fake." But he didn't seem to hear. I take a sip of my coffee. "What was it you tried telling me yesterday?" I ask changing the topic.

He clears his throat. "Promise not to tell?" I nod. "NOT even Amy?" I nod once more. "Only Shane, knows."

*It's got to be! ONLY Shane knows, and I can't tell anybody? Not even Amy?*

"I found out that one of my exes is pregnant. With my child." He looks away.

*What!? That's the total opposite!* "Oh. Why do things have to change between us?"

"Well, I don't think they necessarily have to. I was told just minutes before you came to the art room, I was still just stirred up and a little frightened it was going to happen again."

"Liam." I smile. "It's OK."

He smiles back. "I guess it wasn't that hard. " He chuckles. "Now what did you mumble before changing the topic to me?"

*Fuck!* I feel as if I turned white as a ghost. "What? I didn't mumble anything?" I try to play it cool.

"Yeah you did. It was right after you said that it wasn't my fault. You were the one who should have respected yourself and Amy. It sounds like you said something was fake." His face becomes concern.

"I don't recall." I breath slowly.

"Karma, don't mess with me. What did you say?"

"It doesn't matter." I look down.

"Well obviously it does if you mumbled it!" His voice gets a tad louder, just like Amy's...

*No, no, no! This cannot be happening twice in a day! IN AN HOUR!* I sigh, and more tears form in my eyes. "I said even if it's fake." The tears once again fall.

"If what's fake?" He takes his hand away.

"M-mine and Amy's relationship. But it doesn't matter anymore because she just walked out on me!" I say directing my eyes and arm to the door.

"You faked the relationship!?" Liam is now furious. "You mean to tell me that you're not even lesbian? You've faked who you are to me!? I hope to God that it wasn't just to SLEEP with me!" I look down at my lap. "My God! I cannot believe you! We are done! Don't EVER bother talking to me. I want you out of my life. I loved you Karma..." He storms out leaving his drink.

"No!" I shout and pound my fist against the table. I take my drink and leave. I'm home in record time. As I run to my room I tell my parents to leave me alone for the next few days. They took that as an invite to come to my room, but thankfully they trusted me with a lock, so they are unable to enter.

"Karma." My mom knocks.

"No! I need to be left by myself!" I shout. After that I heard no response. Just footsteps down the stairs. I fall onto my bed and cry out my heart. I cannot believe I lost the two most important things. I know I am able to lose Liam, though it hurts, but Amy? My sweet poor Amy. She has to come around, she cannot leave me for this. I know she will come back. She cannot give up on us that easily, I know her, and she's a fighter. For someone who was helping me get with the guy I want, she seems upset that I got halfway there. Oh wait, that's right. She loves me. Oh this has got to be killing her! I want to go to her, but I know she isn't home. Her mother would ground her more. And even if I tried, her mother would ask me why she isn't in school, and I can't lie to Farrah. Not in the situation I am in. I'd cry as soon as I start to explain, and then I'd have to explain the whole fake relationship and that Amy really does love me-it's just too much. I know she isn't home. Farrah is already unhappy with mine and Amy's relationship. I send a text to Amy,

[Amy, I know it hurts. Trust me, I know your pain. Liam came to me after you felt and I came clean about our fake relationship. He was more pissed at me than you were/are. He wasn't nothing to do with me...]

I wait 20 minutes and still no response.

[Amy please. I'm not asking for forgiveness. I'm asking for you just to say something. Anything. Just a sign that things are not done.]

An hour passed and in between I sent five texts.

[Don't hurt me more. Please! I know how you feel, and it hurts more than a knife to the chest. I cannot take this pain of losing you.]

[Please stop ignoring me! I understand if you don't want to talk, but I need a sign.]

[Please?]

[Some sort of sign? Like, "We'll talk later."?]

[Or not...]

I decided it was quits and fell asleep. It seemed like I was asleep two hours but in reality it was almost twelve hours, it was nearly 10:30pm. *How did I sleep so long?* I check my phone, one text from Amy!

[Things sure aren't the hell OK! But they aren't done either. I'll talk when I'm ready.]-Monday 7:36pm

Damn it! How could I let things get so bad? What is happening? Things were going in all aspects of life, and now? Now it's all falling apart. My best friend is disappearing, and Liam is no longer speaking to me. I try to go back asleep but I'm up for hours thinking, *What's going on?*