Okay, my first HouseCameron Story. Thanks Kate for the beta-read, you are my hero ;)
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Chapter 4 – Powerless
Time of death 1:37pm." House heard Cuddy saying.
He could not move, he just stared down on Cameron's lifeless body.
What the hell just happened? What
kind of mistake did he do?
It seemed like a bad dream and he
closed his eyes for a second then shook
his head slightly; he
could not just let her go, not yet.
"No, Cameron. You have to fight." He burst out and went back to do CPR.
"House, no." Cuddy reached forward to grab his arm but he pushed it away.
"Charge to 220." He demanded, but then turned around,
"Get out of my way." He grunted and took the
paddles, then shocked her
again.
Then he turned to the EKG
and closed his eyes, and for the first time in
years he
prayed.
He could not just loose her.
All the time he
had refused to let anyone, especially her, near him and now,
he
realized that he already cared too much about her, to just let her
go
now; to let her vanish out of his life.
"Allison,
please, fight . for me." He whispered and tried to swallow
the
tightness that had build up in his throat. This just can't be
the end .
Then suddenly a beep, and another one.
"She's got a sinus rhythm." Cuddy stated totally surprised.
Now
he slowly opened his eyes and saw the constant rhythm on the
monitor,
then he turned and looked down at Cameron, smiling.
She was alive.
Half an hour later, Cameron
was back at the ICU, House had taken seat on a
chair right next to
her. He was alone with her for now.
Reaching out his hand, he
slightly touched her forehead.
You are still here, he
thought and a soft smile appeared on his face.
And yet, she
was still in danger. She had been in critical condition for
almost
20 minutes. She could have brain damage and that would mean she
would
never be like she used to be.
It made him sad, that
she might have lost her intelligence, her incredible
personality
and her stunning self. Was it worth it for being alive and yet
half
dead?
He sighed out loud. Still, he wasn't sure why he felt
all those things
coming up now. Why he was so worried about
loosing her. Worried about what
would happen if she would not get
healthy again.
But just the thought of not seeing her every day
made him sick.
It made him angry.
Slowly he took her hand
into his, warming it, trying to give her more
energy, to fight for
her life.
"Please, stick it out Cameron, we are going to
find out what's wrong with
you," he thought. "I will
find it out. And then everything will be back to
normal, like
before."
But did he want it to be like it used to be?
Those little moments every now
and then between them, the looks,
the little games. Maybe he wanted more;
maybe he was ready to want
more .
"House?"
Someone slightly touched his shoulder, and he opened his eyes.
It was Wilson looking down at him, sympathetically.
"What happened?" Wilson whispered.
House sat up, took his cane
and then went out of the room, followed by his
best friend.
"I
just heard it. Do you know what is wrong with her?" Wilson said
while
House stepped out of the room.
"Yes, I do. She
had a cardiac arrest for over 20 minutes. She is probably
brain
damaged." House yelled and looked at Wilson, his eyes filled
with
anger and also a slight hint of fear.
Wilson just
stared at him, obviously completely surprised by the look on
House's
face.
"Sorry . I just feel like there is nothing I can
do." said and rubbed his
bare hand over his stubble.
"More tests?" Wilson asked carefully.
"Yeah, stick some
more needles into her." House answered dropping his look
to
the ground.
"I see." Wilson sighed and dropped his face too.
They remained in silence for a moment.
"Is
there any ..." Wilson started as he was interrupted by an alarm.
It came
from Cameron's room.
House immediately turned around and ran back into the room.
"Her temperature is up to 105.2." House said to Wilson who responded,
"Another sepsis?"
"Obviously the antibiotics do not work."
House said and turned off the
alarm, then pushed the emergency
button.
"I know it is late for you
kids and almost bedtime, but I beg you, use your
brains."
House was standing in front of the board, looking at two sleepy ducklings.
"Okay, let's go through all the tests again."
Chase sighed and then started,
"Flu-symptoms
including periods of high fever, a sepsis cause by a
bacteraemia,
a cerebrities, which is cured. LB was clear, as was every
other
possible infectious disease test you could think of."
House
sighed out loud, then turned around, looked at the two of them
in
silence,
"Okay." and with that turned, went to his office and grabbed his jacket.
"I think it is time
for the uncle doctor to do a house visit." House said
and
made a grimace.
"You want to go and search Cameron's apartment?" Chase asked shocked.
"Well, no . I
actually wanted to go see Wilson, see if he's got any hookers
to
share." House said, fiddled his keys out of his pocket and left
for
Cameron's apartment.
About an hour
later he was sitting on her couch, thinking. He hadn't found
anything
that could have caused her disease. No toxins or allergy
inhibitor.
His look felt on a golden picture frame on the
table, and he reached out for
it.
It showed Cameron in a
beautiful white dress, and another two men next to
her - her
wedding day.
He stared down at it .
"damaged",
the word echoed through his mind.
They both were damaged
souls.
Suddenly the painful memory of their "date"
came back. How he had told her,
what he thought of her and why she
did this.
He wished he could take back, what he had said that
night, but ...
When his phone rang, he pulled it out of his jacket,
"Talk." He answered short.
"She
is not responding to any treatment, her kidneys have started to
shut
down. And we can not get her temperature down." Foreman
stated on the other
side of the line.
"I am on my way." House said and then went back as fast as he could.
"No toxins, allergies or any
other bug that could have cause this." House
said, when he
entered the conference room a little later.
He turned around,
"Talk to me."
When none of them responded, he sighed and added,
"I know it is in the
middle of the night, but would you just start to work
for your
money?" he almost yelled now.
"There is nothing we
can do. We gave her penicillin, lots of it to be exact.
And yet
the sepsis is not backing down." Foreman said.
"All we can do is wait." Chase added on that.
House took a
deep breath then suddenly punched his fist against the
whiteboard
so it felt backwards, slamming down on the floor.
"No." He said calm.
"We have to do something." He said louder.
Neither Chase nor Foreman said anything; they just
watched him turn around
in silence.
"Do another blood
test, test on any possible genetic disease." House said,
and
then limped over to his office.
"But that will take days." Foreman said before House closed the door.
House sighed, then turned around and yelled,
"Then get your asses down to the lab and get started."
With that he slammed his door shut.
About ten minutes later, Cuddy
entered his office, which was actually no
surprise to House.
He
did not even turn off his game boy.
"House, you can not
force Chase and Foreman to work two days straight,
including
perform a million tests. I know you only want to help Cameron,
but
..."
Now he interrupted her,
"Oh let me finish
that one, would you?" He grimaced and continued with a
higher
voice,
"We all want to help Cameron, but she is actually
not worth it. Am I right
Dr. Cuddy?" he looked up at her,
with furious eyes.
"No, of course not. It's just, you can
not force your employees to do every
test known to men."
She sighed and then continued quietly,
"Did you know she has a DNR?"
"Don't even go there." He answered slowly.
"House, you are a great doctor, but even you can not cure everything."
"I will cure her . I have to.
All I need is more time." He said staring at
the screen of
his game boy, but not paying attention to the game anymore.
"House
... if she goes in v-fib again, you will have to let her go."
She said
and then left the room.
House watched her leave.
'You will have to let her go'
How could
he? How could he just let her die? He had to find out was wrong
with
Cameron.
And he was running out of time.
