Disclaimer: Nope don't own Inuyasha!

A/N: Im sorry the last chapter was so short, I had Mid-terms this week and I have a lot of sewing to do! I am going to Ushicon! Im going as Kikyo one day and Rin the other. So please forgive me.

Chapter 4

How Much Can a Heart Take

Sesshomaru trudged out of sight, leaving a tearless Rin kneeling on the ground. Kagome came off the porch slowly. She knelt by the girl, grasping her shoulders and offering silent comfort. Rin shrugged her hands off quickly grabbing the staff and pulling herself from the ground. She stumbled forward, just as Inutaisho came out of the shadows. Rin Stumbled again, this time passing out. Before Inuyasha or the others could even think to move Inutaisho had saved her from hitting the ground. Inuyasha drew his sword in a large sweeping ark. "Who are you!" he demanded at the white haired demon holding Rin.

"Well I suppose you wouldn't know me would you..." Inutaisho sighed, Carrying Rin towards the waiting group. "I am your father Inuyasha..." he said with a smile.

"Why should I believe you?..." Inuyasha said suspiciously Raising his sword a bit more. .

"I'll explain later lets get this poor child in bed first." he said.

Kagome nodded and led Inutaisho into the house past a dumbstruck Inuaysha. Miroku turned to him. "I can't find anything bad in his aura...lets give this a try..." he said clapping a hand on Inuyasha's shoulder. He walked into the house as Inuyasha followed. Kagome made everyone some tea as Inutaisho launched into his story.

"So you died and your soul got caught in the Moonstone?" Miroku asked taking a sip of his tea.

"Yes" Inutaisho said. "And I have seen everything about everything since then..."

Inuyasha rubbed his temple vigorously, "So you're my father..." he said.

Inutaisho nodded. "Inuyasha I apologize for-"

"This is my mate ' Kagome'..." Inuyasha said quickly cutting him off.

"Ahhh so you did fall in love with her..." Inutaisho said with a grin.

"I thought you said you saw everything?" Miroku asked.

"Ah, well only what I needed to see, unfortunately Since the Moonstone was in Sesshomaru's possession, I could only see what was going on in your life, when he was near you...So it was hard to keep up." Inutaisho paused a second and looked around the room as if trying to locate something particular. " I don't by any chance have any...Grandchildren?" he asked hopefully.

Inuyasha left his place quickly and shot into another room. Moments later he returned with Iryzoi half awake in his arms. Iryzoi surveyed the room and laid eyes on the strange man before her. Her eye's lit up. "Uncle Sesshomaru!" she cried.

"No this is your grandpa sweetheart." Kagome said.

Iryzoi struggled in her childish way to get to the floor. Inuyasha released her and she walked straight up to the man who was smiling as if he had possession of the Shikon no Tama. "My name is Iryzoi!" she said throwing her small arms around his neck. Tears came to his eyes as he hugged her tightly.

Miroku's eye's widened. "How could someone so loving, father something so unaffectionate..." he said.

"Hey!" Inuyasha cried.

"Not you! Your brother!" Kagome and Miroku said simultaneously, As Inuyasha crossed his arms and sulked. After a few minutes of watching his father and his daughter, without looking away he asked "So what are we going to do?"

"About what?" Kagome said turning her face in his direction.

"About Rin..." he said.

"Well the best we can do is make sure she has a healthy baby, and make sure she doesn't go into depression."

Inuyasha nodded and got up from his place, I'll go and get the box of baby things from your mothers.

Meanwhile...

Sesshomaru reached the base camp on the outskirts of his lands by midday. Looking like a stray (no pun intended) that had just come out of one of the dark alleys in a nearby village. Suka a well known and respected fire demon warrior, looked up from a bowl of miso soup he was eating. "Where have you been? And what happened?" he asked casually.

Sesshomaru stalked past him, and the other demon soldiers, taking no acknowledgment of their stares.

He pulled up one of the many trap doors, hidden in the damp earth. As he disappeared beneath it, Suka narrowed his eyes. "I smell a human girl on him."

Down below Sesshomaru set about lighting the torches in the small cavern that served as temporary living quarters. Jaken appeared out of the shadows in the corner, holding Tokijin, new armor, and a fresh set of clothes. "Lord Sesshomaru...may I inquire what-"

"Raped!" he barked sitting down harshly on the edge of his futon, and covering his eyes and forehead with one hand. "Rin...was raped..." he whispered.

Jaken lay the items on the futon next to him. "Beaten?" Jaken asked smelling the blood.

"And pregnant..." Sesshomaru said.

Jaken bowed his head, fingering the fine fabric of the garments. "There is a wash basin in the corner..." he said quietly.

Sesshomaru nodded silently, taking his hand away from his face. "Jaken."

"Yes, my lord?"

"Go and see her...maybe one of your pointless quarrels with her will brighten her mood...and...today is her birthday, here." Sesshomaru said rummaging through a small satchel by the futon. He threw Jaken a purse full of gold. "Buy her anything a young girl could desire..."

Jaken looked at the purse in his hands and smirked.

" Miss Higurashi! Are you home?" Inuyasha called as he made his way through the front door of the Higurashi home.

"Ah my favorite son in law!" Miss Higurashi cried running out of the kitchen with an apron on and flour all over the right side of her face.

"Im your only son in law..." Inuyasha said smiling and embracing the woman. " Do you know where you put Iryzoi's baby things at?"

Miss Higurashi widened her eyes in surprise. Inuyasha quickly raised his hands in front of himself. "Oh no, not yet! It's for someone else...but don't worry there'll be more for you to spoil soon!"

"Get busy!" she said playfully smacking him in the shoulder with an oven mit. Inuyasha blushed all the way up to his ears.

"There in the top of Kagome's old closet."

"Rin, come on sweetheart, you have to eat, your gonna have a baby... isn't that wonderful!"

Rin turned her face into her pillow and started to sob. Miroku looked down at her and shook his head. "You think I should get Sango? Maybe having more women in the house will comfort her...Especially

on her birthday." he muttered. "Which puzzles me why did you summon me in the first place."

"Well when we thought she was out cold I didn't want her going into and unbreakable sleep, but before I could tell you she woke."

"Ah, I see, I'll go and get Sango before the twins drive her insane." Miroku said walking from the room.

"I didn't know today was your birthday Rin...we can have a small celebration if you want...Inuyasha went to get you some things for your baby..." Kagome said trying to make small talk.

"I don't want it! I don't want the child!" Rin screamed into the pillow, pounding her fists into the futon.

At that moment Inuyasha appeared in the door way with the box. "I got it, and your mother sent...some...cooki...what's wrong?"

Kagome pulled herself from the floor and grabbed the box from him setting it on the floor. She ushered him out the door and closed it. Outside she told him what Rin had said. "How could she say a thing like that?" Inuyasha asked.

"I feel so helpless...how is she going to love a baby that looks like someone she hates..." Kagome said shaking her head.

Inside the room Rin felt ashamed, she carefully pulled herself into sitting position, and looked down at her stomach. It had grown just a little bigger already since that night. She guessed it was because it was hanyou. She looked at the box intrigued by the soft pink fabric peeking out of the top. It felt really soft as she touched it with her fingers. She was so caught up in what she was doing, that she hadn't noticed Kagome watching her through a crack in the door.

"You'll be needing those..." Kagome said coming through the door.

Rin looked as though she'd got caught with her hand in the cookie jar. Kagome knelt by the box smiling. She opened the top fully exposing a pink blanket, and a small assortment of baby clothes and toys. She started taking items out and setting them in Rin's lap.

"They're so tiny..." Rin whispered.

"Won't seem so when it's coming out of you..." Kagome said laughing at the look on Rin's face.

After a few minutes of watching Kagome fold clothes an discard broken toys. Rin looked at her, "I lied Kagome...I do...I do want a baby...I just wish it could have been done right...like the way you and Inuyasha made Iryzoi..."

Kagome looked at Rin sadly. "Im sure you'll find someone who'll sweep you off your feet..."

"Who's going to want a used woman and her bastard child Kagome!" Rin snapped.

Tears came to Kagome's eyes; normally she would have been angry at Rin's remark, but deep in her heart she new the young girl was right. "Im sorry Rin..." she whispered and left the floor leaving the room quietly.

Hours passed and Rin stayed in the same place same position staring at the door. A loud knock sounded throughout the house suddenly making her jump out of her trance. Jaken's high pitched voice made it's way to her ears. Kagome opened her door moments later with a big smile on her face. Someone is here to see you and he's got a mighty big surprise for you!"

Rin turned away and buried her face into her pillow. Jaken pushed past Kagome with a blue silk Kimono on that was obviously for Rin, and a fan with cranes imprinted on it with real feathers. "Happy birthday Rin!" Jaken said.

Rin slowly turned her face in his direction. Jaken put the fan in front of his face and batted his eyes daintily. "Happy Birthday!" he tried again. "This Jaken has brought Rin gifts!"

His face fell disappointed when she turned her head the other way and did not respond. After a few moments of thinking in he let out a sigh. "Alright! When you have the baby I'll take you to see him..."

A long sought smile crossed Rin's face as she practically tackled him with a bone crushing hug. "OK...gasp...this...Jaken...gasp...needs air..."

She let him go quickly. "Thank you Jaken!"

Jaken shook his head. "Now come and see what this Jaken has brought you from Lord Sesshomaru!"

"Wait! Here Rin put this on" Kagome said throwing Rin a long white cotton dress which laced up the front.

Jaken left the room, as Kagome helped her into it and laced it up. "What about my shoulders?"

"What about them?" Kagome asked, straightening the back of the dress carefully over Rin's bandages.

"They're not covered, these straps don't cover anything..."

"A kimono would aggravate your injuries..." Kagome said linking arms with her and helping her out of the door.

When they made it to the front porch Rin nearly lost her balance at the sight before her. Ah and Un was pulling a rickshaw full of silk kimonos, boxes of ribbons and combs for her hair, beautiful jade jewelry, packets of flower seeds, fans, and slippers embroidered with precious stones and rich pictures of cranes and flowers.

"Jaken..." Rin breathed as Kagome helped her up to the cart.

Jaken beamed proudly. "Happy birthday! Lord Sesshomaru sends his utmost apologies...oh and this is from Jaken" he said handing Rin a package from behind his back.

Rin took it from him, gently pulling the ribbon and letting the thin paper fall to the ground. She unfolded a white silk baby blanket with gold embroidery along the edges. "Thank you Jaken...say the same to Lord Sesshomaru for me..."

"Why are you still sad Rin?" Jaken asked looking from her to the cart.

"Jaken these things...are for a princess...a youkai princess..." She said looking down at the ground.

Jaken jumped down into Sesshomaru's hideout. He was so furious he was shaking from head to toe.

"Lord Sesshomaru!" he cried throwing his hands in the air.

"What is it Jaken..." Sesshomaru said more than asked.

"It's Rin..." Jaken said relaxing and losing his anger like air out of a balloon.

Sesshomaru jerked his head in Jaken's direction. "What's wrong with her!" he demanded.

Jaken sighed heavily. "Lord Sesshomaru...She thanks you immensely for the gifts, but she still feels worthless..."

"Sigh...What else do you want me to do!" Sesshomaru said through gritted teeth staring at the floor.

"I don't know My Lord! A warm embrace might do her some good instead of the horrible bruises you inflicted on her neck! I could smell you all over them!" Jaken said angrily.

Sesshomaru's head snapped up. "I hurt her..." he whispered.

Three months passed and the bigger Rin got the more depressed she became. It was a hard task to get her to come out of her room, and an even harder one getting her to eat. Once Inuyasha had to hold her down while Kagome force fed her. The rainy season was coming in and more and more days were filled with heavy rain with thunderstorms at night. One particular night Everyone in the house went to bed early. Kagome had asked Rin if she would mind Iryzoi sleeping in her room and Inutaisho had disappeared mysteriously four days earlier. Rin lay on her back rubbing her belly listening to the sounds of Iryzoi breathing next to her. Amongst the wind blowing through the open window, a slight thump made its way to her ears, then another, and another, and then the muffled cries of Inuyasha's name.

Realizing what was going on, she blushed. Quickly turning over she pulled the blanket up to her neck and let the tears flow. The next morning Rin decided she would go for a walk. She was the first one up and somehow managed to get out the door without Inuyasha hearing her. She brought a small knife with her, just in case Kai showed up unexpected. Tiptoeing until she got to the lake, she sat near the tree where it had all happened. She sighed and started to draw pictures in the dirt with a stick.

"Rin..." A familiar voice said from above.

As she snapped her head up he dropped down in front of her.

"Lord s-" she choked.

"Rin! Haven't you learned by now that in order to be safe you have to stay where it is safe!"

"But, I-"

"Move!" he yelled pointing his clawed finger in the direction she came.

"I just wanted to see you!" she shouted running back towards the trail.

He stared coldly at the spot she had been for a few moments before it hit him. "Rin! Don't run!"

As he quickly turned in her direction, her head had snapped back in response to his call, not watching where she was going her foot caught on a loose root and her body hit the ground with a sickening thud.

He jumped by her side, quickly but gently flipping her over. She lay unconscious, as a pool of fluid and blood soaked her clothes and the dust around her. He gathered her up and shot towards Inuyasha's house.

"Kagome!" he shouted as he burst through the door.

Kagome came running out of her bedroom door covered only in a sheet. "What's all the...Inuyasha! Go and get Sango and Miroku!" cried running back in to the bedroom pulling a robe on. As she was coming back out Inuyasha cruised out the front door.

"Put her here!" Kagome said pulling Sesshomaru into Rin's bedroom and pointing to the futon. As he set her gently down the pristine white sheets turned a frighteningly crimson. On the outside he remained as calm and seemingly uncaring as ever, but inside he was falling apart, because he already knew.

Rin awoke with a blood curdling scream, that made Inuyasha flatten his ears against his head as he came in to the room with Sango and Miroku at his heals.

"Inuyasha take the children in the next room." Kagome said. "Sango Go and boil me some water, Miroku find me lots of clean towels and my medicine kit. Sesshomaru...hold her hand..."

Sesshomaru glanced down at her shaking form, he could smell blood, pain, and fear. He grasped her hand, as she squeezed it tightly. "Hold on Rin, just hold on your gonna have a beautiful baby in a few minutes" Kagome soothed, as Rin let out another cry of pain. "Just listen for its cry, when you here its cry everything will be all over..."

Sango came in with the boiling water followed by Miroku with the towels and medicine kit. Amidst the steaming room, Rin's weak cries of pain, and the sounds of Miroku's prayers and blessings, Kagome encouraged her to push. Kagome knew that the end was near, except for one thing, the baby's feet were coming first. She nearly panicked, slowly and patiently she worked most of the child out, finally Rin felt a final jolt of pain as the baby separated from her womb. Sesshomaru, quiet through the whole ordeal, looked down at Rin who passed out in one gentle motion.

When she awoke four hours later, She groggily looked at her surroundings, she was clean, newly dressed, and no one was to be seen.

"Kagome?" She called hoarsely. Kagome came bursting in. "Oh...your awake."

Rin became excited. "Is it a boy or a girl! Does it look like me! Can I hold it!"

"Rin..." Kagome said tears threatening to fall.

Rin's face fell. "Kagome...where's my baby?..."

"Im so sorry Rin...Im so sorry..."

"no...no...no" She breathed over and over.

"Sesshomaru took him and will have him b...buried in your garden."

"No...no...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"