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J POV

I needed sleep but I just couldn't rest. My mind was racing with everything that has happened today. How in the hell are we going to survive another crying kid? I mean Aidan is three and he cries at the drop of a hat, now we're going to add a screaming baby that cries just 'cause it feels like it. It's good that we have five months before it actually gets here.

Of course in that time I have to take care of the issue with Jason and Stefan. The issue of him not asking me clearly shows he doesn't respect me, and places Jason in a dangerous situation. If Stefan doesn't respect me he won't allow Jason to stay close to his family after he moves out. I wouldn't care if he just didn't respect me, but the fact that my son is in danger pisses me off. I'll have to talk to Sam first thing in the morning.

Edward's stirring brought me back to the moment. I can't believe I have this beautiful man in my arms. I've done so many things to screw this up, but he's still here with me.

On our first date I lost my temper temporarily and scared him so bad he ran home and wouldn't speak to me for a week. Emmett wanted to beat the crap out me; of course I deserved it so I didn't fight him. I turned up on the Cullen's doorstep with a huge black eye because of it. Thankfully, Carlisle wasn't home, just Esme and Edward. "Can I please see Edward? I'd like to apologize." I told her politely. She looked like she was going to say no, but instead she motioned for me to come in.

"Please wait in the living room," then she went upstairs to find Edward. I could hear them upstairs talking. He wanted to talk to me, but he was scared. Esme was telling him he should at least talk to me and to remember she would be in the next room in case he needed her. They both walked down the stairs, Edward's eyes cast down. He sat in the chair farthest from me, while Esme continued on to the kitchen after asking if I would like something to eat, I declined.

"Can I please explain what happened the other night?" I asked tentatively.

"Please." He looked up at me.

"I don't even know how to, actually. I guess I'll start with the basics. A shape shifter's temper can get out of hand very easily. I'm still dealing with trying to control it. We are known for being aggressive. I'm sorry that I scared you."

"I don't even see why you got mad. I understand that you have a nasty temper, but I don't know what set you off." He whispered.

"At the theater I wasn't even thinking when I growled. As the dominant in this relationship it is my responsibility to support you and take care of you. To some, they measure your strength or worth by how well you take care of your mate. When you tried to pay, I guess unconsciously it hurt my pride. Then walking home, when you didn't just drop the subject like I expected you to, my temper flared up. I couldn't help it, you're not supposed to under mind me like that."

"I wasn't under minding you. I just wanted you to know I would be there for you when you wanted to talk about it." He was gaining his confidence back, I could tell by the way he started looking me in the eye and raising his voice above a whisper. It kind of turned me on, until he growled at me for that thought.

"Don't growl at me for wanting you." I stated.

"Stop telling me what to do."

"Edward this isn't helping."

"I don't care, stop acting like you're the boss and I can't think anything but what you want me to think." I was shaking with every word he said. "Stop shaking, if you phase in here and destroy the couch Esme will have your hide."

"That's it." I grabbed his hand and pulled him outside and deep into the woods. "You have to stop doing that!"

"Doing what, speaking my mind?"

"Yes, at least for now! When you argue with me it just sets off my temper. You have to understand the way I was raised. Yes, you being my sub makes you my mate, but I was raised to believe you aren't… on my level, I am dominant and you are just supposed to go with whatever I say or do. Don't…" I clapped my hand over his mouth when he tried to talk, "I just want to get this out so maybe you will understand more. I don't want to act the way most of my ancestors have acted. I don't want to look down at you; I want to look over at you, on the same level. Well at least mentally, face it you're way to short to look at me at the same height," I couldn't help but add a little humor. "Do you understand?"

"Sort of," he whispered. "Are you saying it's in your genes to be an ass?"

"Yeah, kind of." I laughed. "Please, I want to be with you. I've imprinted on you and can't live without you." I said more seriously.

"So, what now?" He asked.

"I would like for us to date and along the way I'll get my temper under control." I said as I wrapped my arms around him. Relaxing, he reached up and wrapped his arms lightly around my neck. "Thank you." I whispered as my lips brushed his. I was expecting him to recoil but he didn't, he let me kiss him and have control.

"I'll try to be as patient as I can and I'll try not to set off your temper, but I don't promise anything."

"Thank you and I understand that." I sighed.

Weeks went by and we continued to further our relationship. I was thankful that Edward was now comfortable around me, but Carlisle wouldn't relax and lay off. Carlisle wanted him to stop seeing me until I could guarantee my temper was under control, but being a werewolf I can never promise that. Every time I would go to the Cullen house Carlisle would give me a long speech about being responsible and staying calm, of course that just got me pissed off to start with.

On one particular night he had given an especially long speech because Edward wasn't quite ready to go yet. I tried to tell Carlisle I was doing better and I would never intentionally hurt Edward. He retorted by telling me it didn't matter if it's intentionally or not, the not is what he was worried about. "I'm ready." Edward announced walking in.

"Good." I mumbled and pulled him out of the house. I was pissed from the conversation I just had, and the horrible fight I had with Sam earlier that day.

"Are you okay? He's just being a father." Edward tried to calm my nerves but it wasn't working. I had planned on going to the movies, but I didn't think I could sit through one.

"Just get in the car." I sighed.

"Where are we going?"

"Where ever I drive." We sat in silence for awhile until I decided where to go. I took him out to the cliffs where we usually go cliff diving. I sat down where I had a good view of the moon and pulled Edward down onto my lap. For awhile I just sat there breathing in his scent, until something just took over my instincts and I started kissing Edward possessively and rough. I pushed him onto the ground and ravished him. Kissing and stroking any where I could get to. I could feel him trying to push me off, but my strength is greater than his. I ripped his pants off and palmed him through his boxers.

"Stop Jacob please." He whimpered, but I ignored his pleads and continued. I was thrusting my hips trying to create friction for myself. "Please Jacob don't do this." **SMACK** I don't think I was even thinking at the moment, but unfortunately I remembered every part of it now. I can't believe I smacked him like that.

"Don't deny me." I snarled harshly. Suddenly he found enough strength to push me off. I quickly found my footing and captured him once again. Without thinking I smacked him again and pushed him to the ground.

"Jacob…" He whimpered once again. My heart ached at hearing him, it was like I was awoken from a dream and saw Edward lying on the ground shaking.

"Edward?" I whispered as I hurriedly backed away from him, because somehow I knew I did that to him.

"Jake, do you even know what you just did?" He looked up at me. At the moment I couldn't remember a thing of what I just did.

"The last thing I remember is holding you." I answered.

"Jake, you almost raped me."

"No, I would never do that." I protested.

"I think it was your inner wolf that took over. All of your instincts and 'breeding' were coming through." He told me.

"Oh God!" I howled. "I'm sorry Edward; you can't imagine how sorry I am! I understand if you never want to see me again." I turned away from him so he wouldn't see me fighting my tears. Not only did I just loose my mind, but I hurt the man I swore to protect.

"Jacob, listen to me. I can tell by your thoughts that you didn't know what you were doing. I can read that you still don't know what you did and you're telling me the truth." I felt his arms wrap around my waist. "I forgive you." He added. "Despite what has happened, I'm falling in love with you."

"I love you Edward." I turned and kissed him passionately. "I love you now and forever. Please forgive for what I have done and anything I do in the future. I'm trying to control myself, but it's my nature. I love you."

"I remember that night." Edward whispered.

"How long have you been awake? I thought you were exhausted?"

"I am, but I can feel your tension." He sighed laying his head on my chest. "Relax, and stop thinking of what happened back then. You're in control of yourself now."

"I know, but I'll regret what I did to you forever. Even though I want to forget I can't."

"Go to sleep baby." He kissed me and soon I could hear his even breathing, which told me he was sleeping once again. Soon I was sleeping myself.

When I awoke, Edward wasn't with me. Looking at the clock, I saw that it was 4:00 in the morning. Why isn't he in bed? Then I heard the reason, Edward was in the bathroom puking. I jumped out of bed and went to the bathroom, opening the door to find Edward curled up in a ball huddled on the floor. "Edward, baby, are you okay?" I knelt down beside him stoking his hair.

"My stomach hurts. I thought the baby was hungry so I went out to hunt; now I'm just throwing up all the blood. I just don't feel good." He mumbled.

"When did you go hunting? You should have woken me up."

"I know, but you were so tired I didn't want to bother you. You said you were going to have a long day in the shop today so I wanted you to be well rested."

"Is there anything I can do to make you feel better?"

"I feel like I need to eat something. Like real food."

"I'll be right back." I said jumping up to go down to the kitchen to get him some crackers. I quickly grabbed a bag and ran back up the stairs.

"Pop, is something wrong?" Jas, very tiredly, asked as I passed his room.

"No bud, go back to bed. Daddy just doesn't feel very well."

"Oh, is he okay?"

"He'll be fine." I answered as I went back to my room. I found Edward curled up in bed shaking. "Ed, you okay? Are you cold?"

"Yeah," he nodded. I placed the crackers down beside him and curled up behind him holding him tight, hoping my body heat would warm him up. "I guess all the wonderful things that come with pregnancy are coming a little early this time." He stated as he munched on a cracker.

"I guess so. Just remember to keep me informed when you start feeling bad." Edward has a tendency to 'suffer in silence.'

"I will, now try to get some sleep babe." He sounded like he was well on his way to sleeping himself, but I was thinking about Jason and Stefan once again.

I laid there for about two hours and decided it was time to find Sam. I knew he would most likely be running patrol as he usually does early on Saturday mornings. I left a note for Edward letting him know where I would be and set off to find Sam. After a few minutes of searching I found him sitting by a little stream.

"Sam I need to speak with you." I said sitting next to him.

"You sound stressed Jake, what's up?"

"Stefan imprinted on Jason. He hasn't spoken with me yet."

"Has he pursued Jason?"

"Yes and quite aggressively. He's scared."

"Hmm…he hasn't spoken to me about this either."

"I don't really care if he's talked to you or not. He's broken tradition by not speaking with me. The last time a shifter broke tradition like that they started their own pack and never came back. I don't want him running off with my son."

"I can assure you he isn't planning on running off with Jason. I have a feeling he is simply revolting against me. About a month ago I talked to him about taking over the pack, that really he should have a couple years ago, but I didn't feel he was ready. That led into his other responsibilities and ever since then he has revolted against me. I didn't realize it was affecting anyone else or I would have put a stop to it sooner. I thought I would let him get it out of his system and then he would be ready to take over. I'll make sure he straightens his act up right away. In the mean time don't let him near Jason. I know it's important to you for him to be treated as you have tried to treat Edward. Stefan's temper is still strong."

"Thank you Sam, I'm relieved to hear it isn't anything more serious. If you need help I'm always here for you and I'm sure Paul would help as well."

"No thank you Jacob, he is my responsibility I will take care of him."

"Oh, on a lighter note, Edward is pregnant again." I smiled, well as much as I could in wolf form.

"Congratulations Jake! How is he doing? I know last time was pretty rough on him."

"He's throwing up and feeling pretty bad but I think he'll pull through. He's tough, he can handle it."

"You sound worried." Sam chuckled.

"I am, I can't help it. I feel so bad when I can't do anything to help him."

"I know what you mean. I felt the same way when Emily was pregnant." He sighed. "Speaking of Emily, I need to get back. She'll be waking up soon wondering where I am. Don't worry about Jason, I'll straighten Stefan out and he'll be over to talk to you soon."

"Thanks Sam, see ya later." With that we both went our separate ways and I was back in bed in no time.

"Where were you?" Edward asked as I slipped under the covers.

"I went to talk to Sam. He said Stefan is revolting against him and no one else, and that he'd have it taken care of shortly."

"Good, Jason hasn't slept at all. He keeps thinking about you fighting with Stefan."

"I'll go talk to him." I sighed getting out of bed.

"Shouldn't you get ready for work? You told Brady you would be in at 8, it's already 7:30."

"Crap, yeah I'll talk to him later." I went to the bathroom and changed for work. Owning my own shop was a dream come true. I had to go in today because I didn't finish inspecting the cars yesterday due to the pack meeting. "I'll be back around 6 and then we'll leave for your parents' house." I kissed Edward's head gently before walking out the door. Today is Saturday so Edward doesn't have to worry about getting the kids off to school. He can sleep in and get the rest he needs.

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