This chapter is a little bit shorter but I hope you enjoy it anyways because from here on things start to be more interesting (I hope!). Also, I am not a native speaker so I am very sorry about my typos and grammar mistakes, I have corrected the ones I could find. And thank you for reading! :)

Chapter 4 - As I begin to lose my grip

During the weeks he spent with Lily in London he developed a little bit more of a liking for muggles. He had manage to almost forget about the stupid and rising Dark Lord, his Slytherin friends and even about Potter and his friends. They went out almost everyday, he loved going to the park, going to see muggle shops, bars and libraries. It was actually somehow magic, but of course, it could have just be Lily's presence next to , a new academic year was beginning and such as always, they would have to part different ways after going off the Hogwarts Express, and that summer magic would be completely over.

Susan had just drop them into the station and they were going into Platform 9 and 3/4. For some reason Severus was very nervous.

"Oh, there is Mary. I am going to say hello. Will you wait for me around here so we can take a compartment together? I'll be right back."

And there it was. Going back to the normal live where Severus was just a socially awkward kid that only talked to some creepy guys interested in the Dark Arts besides Lily, who was a smart, pretty girl that everybody like. Everybody except his creepy friends of course.

When she came back smiling, they entered the train and chose an empty compartment. He looked through the window at the station and saw several familiar faces and had mixed feelings. On the one hand, he really wanted to go back to Hogwarts and spend hours on end in its magnificent library with Lily, on the other, there were so many people around that he did not feel like seeing again at all.

"I am really exited about going back and catching up with the girls and everything." Lily said smiling.

"Lils, you can go talk them if you want." he smiled back.

"Oh, no. Come on... this is our tradition, going together in the train. Even though you know I love gossiping with my girlfriends, I wouldn't break our traditions." she said very solemnly.


When they arrived at the station, the took their things and went down the train preparing to move in different directions. Severus felt someone right behind his back.

"I'm still not very fond of you spending your time with that little mudblood of yours, you know?"

"Hello to you too Avery, I had a wonderful vacation, thank you."

"What are you looking at scum?" Avery was looking over Severus' shoulder. He turned around and there was Lily.

"Oh come on Avery, let's just not begin the year hexing people, ok?" intervened Mulciber, "You should know better, when you are shagging some bird you need to talk to them from time to time."

"Yeah… he does not know because he is not getting much, are you Avery?" Snape said faking a laugh. He knew Lily was listening, but that was the best he could do to turn the conversation around to Avery's lack of experience with girls. Not that he had any himself.

He entered the carriages with his Slytherin companions and left Lily to find some of her fellow Gryffindor students. Definitely the house division had not been a very wise idea from part of the founders, it only served for creating stupid rivalries and hatred. While they move towards Hogwarts the conversation went towards what it was obviously going to go.

"So, have you been able to keep contact with someone from the inside Snape?"

"No... not really. I have had a weird summer." only that instead of weird it have been wonderful. "I lost contact with many people."

"You should not lose contact with some important people. This is going big, you know, and it is awesome that they want us with them. We will be able to be very powerful wizards." said Mulciber with glowing eyes.

Severus had been trying for a while not to get involved in the suggestions and offers that these guys would make him, but he could see how this has become the place he somehow had to be, and to be honest, he was also interested in the Dark Arts, and of course, there was the supposedly Slytherin cunning, hearing the word "powerful" definitely had an effect on the young man. They finally entered the Great Hall and sat on their tables. The smell of the place relaxed him and he looked at Lily looking for a knowing smile, but when their eyes met, Lily was serious and instead of smiling, she bit her lip and looked away.

Lily had this effect on him that whenever he felt like falling down a cliff she has there, to help him, to save him from falling, but Severus was starting to feel that he was beginning to lose grip.