Sam p o v

Tuesday

A/N one section of this chapter may not be suitable for younger readers so just Skip over that...it will be marked with *** in the start and the end it's a very small part.. I do own small poem / rap at the end and the characters of Laura and her friends.…:{ sad face...

I watched as the night sky slowly faded into daylight soon enough I heard the rattling of the cuffs as the Guards came around at 6:15 to start waking us up.

7:20 am

Puckett!

I said make it shine!

Can I see my face? No Scrub harder!

I want this shining spic and span all of you

Scrub and mop till there's no more filth on these floors!

Get these dishes off these Tables Martinez

You have 55 minutes till school lets get a move on ladies!

No talking mouths shut I don't want to hear a word out of any of you

You kids thought you were so tough and can do anything now look where your at

Remember this next time your running around with your little Homies and Home girls

You call that clean !

Johnson Reach higher!

Don't be a pansy lets go Clark Get a move on

Puckett I said no talking or you trying to visit the shoe?

Close your damn mouth and scrub!

Was this chick crazy ? Why the heck would I want to go back to the shoe or as it's really called Special Handling Unit (SHU) where there's a even smaller cell with one bed no personals a camera watching your every move ..where you only get out once a day for a 5 min shower. Yea that's just where I wanted to be ...Crazy fool..I wanted to punch her smug face so bad my fingers ached for holding back but I had to maintain I had to be strong. She was taken pleasure in tormenting me these guards think it's cool to do this and test you to see if you have changed.

8:30

School was as boring inside as it is on the outs . I will never learn to see what people like Carly see in it.. it was just some grownup sprouting out how much more they knew then me .. well how much they thought they knew … chiz I knew more about certain things then they would ever know I smiled to myself as I went over all the things I knew more of in my head.

I bet this chick couldn't pick a lock in 13 seconds like I could.

I bet she could never rob someone and never be seen by their victim …

I bet she could never render a person unconscious in under 20 seconds

Stop Sam Stop doing this..

I could hear Carly's voice in my head as I fought with my inner self..she was my voice of reason.

You have to pay attention you have to get good grades

You need to get into collage

You need a decent Job

But Carls I'm gonna be a Rapper I's gonna make more more

By Rhyming then any of ya fools will ever make by sitting on some hard ass chairs in a

Dumb cold Stuffy room

Sam You'll never make money unless you learn to spell and talk proper

You have to change or you'll end in prison or dead I can't lose you..please Sam

You won't lose me Carls I promise

" Puckett pay attention or You'll be in the shoe again now answer number 6

I felt that anger rising again damn I needed out. With a sigh I got up and went to the chalk board I had no flipping clue what the answer was but I just made up some Chiz and was shocked it was right.

12:00pm

Lunch Time Yes! It's about frigging time I was starving! I scanned the cafeteria Francisca one of my girls who I have known on and off for 5 years throughout our stays in Juvie nodded to me so I sat by her. One lousy sandwich it's all they gave you it was Jank! I tell you. Deep breath I savored the beefy smell it was like heaven even if it wasn't what I would call a home cooked meal dang I missed them what I wouldn't kill for a spaghetti taco right now...I took a bite ...Splat...my sandwich was slammed from my hands. I stared in shock as it fell to the ground all the girls around me became silent. I looked up to see Laura Staring at me arms crossed grinning ..

Oink , Oink Pigett

What 'ch-ya gonna do you think your

So tough come on I dare ya to try to get me

Laura out weighs me by at least 180 pounds and she's built from hours of working out years of gang fighting she's been in one of Seattle's toughest girl gangs TCC since she was 12 she's what one would call manly broad shoulders short black hair with hard cold brown eyes her Japaneses accent makes it hard to understand at times but she says everything with such hate and malice it makes you tremble anyway she was certified loco .Was I crazy to step to her?

I pounced on her swinging hard her nose cracked as she fell back I was blazing , I was angry that. I couldn't even see straight she hit the table as I kept swinging the whole unit broke into a chorus of chants of "kill her" smash her face '' ! No one steals my food ...damn I was so hungry all I could think about was it was a long time to dinner as I punched her face and kicked her stomach ..she nailed me in my ribs the pain sailed through me but I refused to show it I kept swinging as the guards raced over.

They were shouting as they pulled us up. I was cuffed as I was thrown out of the room shoved down the hall. It was silent in the hallway as the guard kept yelling at me about what a piece of trash I was and how kids like me were pure evil and needed to be burned. I took it all in as I marched silently down the hall towards the Shoe but inside oh heck I was streaming.

Kids like you make me sick you ain't never gonna amount to anything

Your a disgrace to the human race just like that Slut of a Mother

They outta throw the book at you , your nothing but a joke trying to be tough

Your a thug a stupid punk ass little white trash pig just like your whole family

They outta burn the whole lot of ya getting rid of ya would do this city some good

More Clash less trash

Did ya hear me ? Answer me Trash...

I refused to acknowledge her ignorance so she shoved me hard into the wall. I wouldn't show her my pain as I heard my head smack against the wall. Which pissed her off more so she grabbed me so fast that I lost my balance as I tried to head butt her she grabbed my hair and slammed me into the wall slamming her knee into my stomach I groaned as my legs gave out and she slammed me into a room.

She's all your girls you have a hour before anyone does checks..

I hit the ground on my back hard as I looked up to see Laura with her crew there Sarah Hendricks , Jamie Robins, Delphinium Hanoverian , Satanical Murkin the sister of one of my ex boyfriends Frankie..I groaned again this was not going to be good...

Remember me Puckett?

Course you do ..Well I have a message from my brother

I braced myself I was defenseless with my hands and feet shackled all I could do was to control my breathing as she dealt me blow after blow hitting me in my face kicking me in my stomach arms legs head...I felt every blow ten times worse as her and her friends tackled me sitting on me hitting me scratching me yelling at me spitting on me holding me down while they tore my clothes off video taping it how the eff they got that in was beyond me...Then Laura and Satanical or as I refer to her Satan raped me grabbing my legs and shoving them as far part as they could while they shoved their fists inside of me over and over. I screamed and tried to kick them bite them anything but two held my head down as two held my arms , they took turns things were shoved inside of me that I couldn't see but didn't feel like flesh..I felt the pain tearing through me as they shoved a rusty nail inside of me and scrapped my arm with a Shank and twisted it slamming me down as they beat me. I didn't cry I didn't get sick even though I wanted to ...I just took it ...

What do you know Laura the little Wrench liked it...

I told ya she was a Lesbian...

Your Disgusting Puckett

She Spit on me as they got up. I felt violated I felt dirty and I felt scared...but most of all I was angry and very tired and sore.

I was left on the floor and I'm not sure how long I stayed there till I manged to get up and slowly crawl over to my clothes and dress myself which was not easy when your shackled.

No one saw me sneak back into my cell which was surprising..and made me even angrier they watched me like a hawk every other day but today when I needed to be seen? No one...

I felt alone again as I painfully slid onto my cot Laura glared up at me I couldn't I wouldn't let her see my fear..I growled at her low and menacing..she shock her head as if she couldn't care less as if she had no fear of me. It was new to me and it scared the chiz out of me...

Dark starless cold fronted skies

My world is so bleak I can't find the moonlight in

My cell 2nite Damn who's insane mind was working overtime

What were they thinking putting all these deranged psycho's in the same madhouse?

They use to call me the biggest and the baddest they wanna talk like my reign is over and now

Whispers fill the block TCC defeated me haha

They forget I knew you when

I know your secrets you wanna keep hidden

You never say it out loud you deny it but damn girl I know you were doing

Mr. Vern only 12 actin like Momma's little princess but she didn't know

Precious was getting down low on the corner block did she? Huh?

You wanna act like you got this power and fame on your own but ha

I know you slept your way to the top

Respect you don't earn it on your two feet like I do with my fists of rage

Your specialty is laying down ..

Woof ..Woof ...

In the dark of the night I clutch this shank and pray Lord get me throu this night

Let me live 2 see anotha' day let thy night be done without a bloody outrage

I'm lonely here longing for real company housed amongst killa's

What was it that lead me down this path?

If they only knew what I dream about doing to them

Aw Sukiyaki, I'll make em Sukiyaki

Yea I did it I went thurr

I'm the girl you were told back when u were 10 not too mess wit

Ya just couldn't hear your momma's warnings cause you were too busy Suckin and Creepin'

Didn't ya hear my name tossed around

That's A Puckett

Ya don't mess wit the biggest the baddest

Unless you want your face permanently rearranged

Don't count me out I'm only down for a moment

But I will rise again and when I do

You can bet it's on..

Like the Phoenix I will rise and like the scorpion I come hard

See I'm a Hata and I go for the veins like the constricts before me

If you had just left me alone I would of let it go but No

You had to mess wit me mess wit my friends you just popped the wrong nerve

Just remember I neva lose I only make my enemies wish they had never met me

So think carefully do you want to make the first move?

Do you wanna go there step wit me?

Night time will lift in a few hours and the fear and the pain will melt away I will be reveled

A new creature old habits die hard I ain't neva gonna be good I can't even try to lie and say I change

But in the cold of the night I wonder why do I do any of the things I do?

Is it just a part of the facade? Is it what I believe to be true?

How can I even know anymore?

Life is cold when your alone

Is that why you do what you do? Pray on those weaker then you?

In the face of my enemy I spit rage but in the silent night I look in your eyes and I recognize

Who do I see? What monster lies within?

Your eyes sparkle just a little bright cause you get it

Nationalities aside we put away the facades and we both see it as true

Who do I see? What do you see in my eyes? I see me, I see me in my enemies eyes

Truth may be what I deny but it hits me right in my mind as I lay still in the middle of the night

Depression fills my mind darkness fills my soul I wanna cry but I will never show my fears

These tears will never flow I use my mind and lyrics to release my flow..

Sunlight will be here I just need to hold on maintain what makes me , me and

I will rise again..

They held me down it wasn't my choice they took away

Something so special to me

Something that was suppose to be Mine and only mine to give away someday

They got me so sick I wanna vomit but they can't kill what's inside of me

They took away a choice, My voice but I will

I will..

I will rise again..