Distraction
New surroundings, new faces
People change and so do I
A life I never thought I could have
And now
that I have it I'm not sure.
The life I always wanted,
Seems like a let down,
Walking through those doors everyday
Doesn't make life seem worthwhile.
Meeting new people
And seeing old friends,
Is the only good think
That could come out of this situation.
I always thought I wanted this
But was it just a distraction,
To keep me away from the real world.
A place to escape from
When life became too rough.
I should be thankful for what I have
But is all of this struggling worth it
To become the person I need to be?
A person who cares about herself
And a person who cares about the people around her?
I'm disappointed in myself
For not caring about what I'm doing.
I'm disappointed for letting down my family
And not caring what they would think
Of what I am doing.
Would I be better as a writer
Or working at the nearest restaurant?
Do I
really want to be this?
Or is this just a distraction?
