Distraction

New surroundings, new faces

People change and so do I

A life I never thought I could have
And now that I have it I'm not sure.

The life I always wanted,

Seems like a let down,

Walking through those doors everyday

Doesn't make life seem worthwhile.

Meeting new people

And seeing old friends,

Is the only good think

That could come out of this situation.

I always thought I wanted this

But was it just a distraction,

To keep me away from the real world.

A place to escape from

When life became too rough.

I should be thankful for what I have

But is all of this struggling worth it

To become the person I need to be?

A person who cares about herself

And a person who cares about the people around her?

I'm disappointed in myself

For not caring about what I'm doing.

I'm disappointed for letting down my family

And not caring what they would think

Of what I am doing.

Would I be better as a writer

Or working at the nearest restaurant?
Do I really want to be this?
Or is this just a distraction?