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She laid back the same way he was next to her, but she never let his hands go. After a couple of minutes, she heard him say something...

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"She shouldn't have been there." A defeated tone in his voice, told her this was sort of serious.

His statement got her attention " who? your sister?" she asked.

Eric never talked to her about the murder of his sister and if she wasn't mistaken he didn't talk about it with anyone who at work, or even his family. She was pretty sure the only person he talked to about this was his therapist

" Yeah, she didn't need to be there calleigh, she was there because of me" his voice started strong and went to a little over a whisper towards the end.

" Eric..." but he cut her off.

" Gloria broke her car window and took her purse, she called me freaking out because she thought it was someone trying to kill her, because of the case Horatio was involved with, the mala noche trying to kill him" he said.

Calleigh didn't know about this " What happened? " she asked, she felt like maybe he needed to get this off his chest.

" I told her not to worry, it was just some girl that had threatened all my ex-girlfriends and then thought she was my wife. " he chuckled a little and calleigh smiled.

" I told her I'd meet her at that place so i could give her purse back." he said biting his lip again. " I went to Gloria's house and talked to her, like you told me to that day. Pretty much told her to stay away or I'd arrest her . Then retrieved my sister's purse and left."

" Eric you didn't know they were going to be there." she said, she knew where he was going with this, from his first words she knew he felt responsible.

" I never told anyone this, but..." he got quiet, looked at the ceiling and closed his eyes again. Calleigh saw two tears fall down his face, she felt the urge to wipe them away, but decided against "but I feel so guilty for her death, Calleigh."

" Eric..." she said fighting the urge not to cry herself, she never thought he felt this way. "it wasn't your fault." her voice cracking a bit.

" Then why does it feel that way, Cal?" he said opening his eyes and looking at her. He didn't care if she saw him crying, because this was calleigh. The one person that he was always able to be himself with and not be judged. Except with the whole sharova thing, but he couldn't blame her, he would've probably done the same thing. Right now he hoped that she would be able to forgive him for getting involved, for not letting her know.

He didn't give her time to answer. " Everytime I think about her i can't help but feel guilty...because of my stupid decisions, my actions, she's dead now"

" What do you mean Eric?"

" Gloria, that's what I mean. " letting out a sarcastic laugh. "If I hadn't been stupid to get involved with someone like that, this never would've happened.

She wouldn't have broken her window and stolen her purse, then she fucking wouldn't have to meet me there, where they shot her. She would be at home or somewhere else, being watched by the officer that Horatio assigned to her" he was almost yelling now.

" Eric " she said a little above a whisper " Eric listen to me" she said turning her body to face him, placed both of her hands on his face so he would look at her.

" Please Eric don't do this to yourself, it wasn't your fault that she was shot, you did everything you could to help her. You didn't know Gloria was going to do something like that, You couldn't have possibly know she was going to break your sister window and steal her purse and the guy that shot Marisol would've probably found her, no matter where she was. They had a hit on her."

He looked down when she removed her hands from his face " Today, when Alex parents started blaming him for his sister death, it was like i was listening to them blame me for Mari's death. I saw my parents yelling at me and Horatio saying that I should have protected her." he shook his head, another tear falling down his eyes " If I'm not responsible Calleigh...then why do I feel so guilty?" he asked looking up at her.

He knew she probably didn't have the answer, but he needed someone to help him, someone to be there for him. He needed her to say something that would at least make a little bit of that guilty go away.

She was quietly looking at him, trying to think of how to put into words what she wanted to tell him. That's why he left the interrogation room, he felt guilty and saw the people he cared about blaminb him for the death of his sister, just like they were doing it to Alex. She didn't really know the answer, all she knew was that he wasn't guilty for his sister death, far from it.

" Probably because you feel bad that she died and you didn't, since you were there with her. But Eric...I know, and everyone knows you love your sister more then anything. I know and saw that you did everything you could to help her Eric. Don't blame yourself. We always want to find a explanation for why the people we love leave, but don't blame yourself for it, it only makes the pain worst. No one's blaming you, no one even thought about blaming you for it, so please stop blaming yourself, for something that was completely out of your hands"

" I miss her so much." he replied in a whisper that she was barely able to hear.

" I know you do, I know you do."

" I thought the pain would go away you know? after all these years. but I don't know, it doesn't. You just learn to deal with it I guess."

" I can't really say i know how you feel, i never lost any close family member, but I can only imagine. I wish i knew what to tell you right now, but i don't. I don't even think you can tell someone something to make them feel better when it comes to the death of someone they love."

He was quiet, his eyes red from tears, they were now focused on a picture of him and his sister, that was on top of a shelf. She wanted to tell him something that would hopefully make him feel better, make him understand that he had been an amazing brother, and that Marisol was lucky to have someone like him.

" Marisol loved you, and she knew that you love her more then anything. Everyone does. You did things for her that took a lot of courage Eric. You worked doubles just so you could pay her rent, pay her bills, buy her food, because you knew she wasn't able to work. You were worried about her when she got involved with Horatio when she was sick, because your wanted what was best for her. You occasionally bought her marijuana to alleviate her pain and nausea, even though you could've gone to jail if you got caught. But that never matter to you, because you knew it would make her feel better for at few minutes, and that's all it mattered to you, Eric"

shaking his head he looked at her and said " It's nothing compared to what she did for me."

She couldn't help the urge to wipe his tears away, so she ran her thumb under his eyes and wiped them. " I'm sure she's just as thankful, for everything you did for her." she added smiling.

He places one of his hands over one of hers that was resting on his face, and that was when he smiled at her. It was on of those quick sad/shy smiled but it was the first "real" smile he gave her since she got there.

He just nodded his head, trying to tell her that he understood what she was telling him. " Thank you, Calleigh." he said softly, then added " For everything."

" I'll always be here for you." she said. " no matter what.". She wanted him to understand that even though they weren't together, she'd always be there for him. When they first started their relationships, even before, that was one thing she worried about. If things didn't work out between them, would their friendship be ruined aswell?. He hurt her, big time. But she knew he was a good person, he was there for her when the everyone else disappeared. He was there for her, at the moments when she knew she was hurting him the most. Her relationship with Hagen, with Jake...

" I know." he said. " you always have." he said looking at her.

Things were starting to get a little personal, so she looked away from his gaze and grabbed her water bottle and took a sip of it, before they do something they'd both regret.

" You feeling better?" she asked.

He nodded " yeah, i guess talking about it helped. Still feeling a little responsible, but it'll take a while to process everything you told me. but I'm feeling better. Thank you."

"No problem, just try to remember, when you feel like this, that none of it was your fault. or just give me a call and I'll keep reminding you" she said with a smile.

He returned it and nodded.

" So anything else your feeling guilty about ?" she asked trying to make him laugh a little, and it worked.

He laughed. " Maybe, but I'll let you know about the rest later. I think I got emotional enough for today." He wanted to tell her how he felt guilty for their breakup. He hoped that when he'd tell her this, she'd reassure him that it wasn't his fault, just like she did a few minutes ago about Marisol. But he knew she wouldn't because this time it was mostly his fault. He wanted to get back with her, he really missed her. Missed having her there with him, he didn't realize that until now. Having her there with him, trying to make him feel better. But he would save this conversation for some other time. Because right now he was emotionally drained and he would probably just scare her away. He was about to ask her if she would like anything to eat, when her cellphone started to ring.

" Excuse me, Eric" she said, pointing towards the phone.