Hey guys, sorry its taken me so long to update, I've had my midyear VCE exams (ugh!)

I will have Jasper and Edward in the story soon I just want a bit more Alice/Bella time first, Ill also have Charlie in soon. Also note Bella's on school holidays at the moment.

Last thing; you guys know the drill, Everything belongs to Stephanie Meyer and what not.

And remember if you're sensitive to self-harm, anorexia, suicidal themes or you are homophobic then don't read. Remember to review :)

Alice's POV

I could not believe anyone could do something this horrible to my sweet innocent Bella. Ideas of how to kill Mike were running through my head, all of which involved cutting his balls off and then killing him slowly as he deserved. My thoughts were cut off when I wondered whether it had been partly Mike's fault that Bella had almost died.

"Is this part of the reason you tried to kill yourself?" I asked bluntly.

"Yes, it helped me realise how worthless I am" Bella whispered.

How could she possibly think she was worthless? Silly girl.

"Isabella Swan, you are not worthless, you are the most beautiful, caring, wonderful girl that ever existed or ever will exist." I spoke truthfully as I wiped a stray tear from her blushed cheeks.

Bella took me by surprise when she kissed me. I had no idea if she actually liked me or was just too vulnerable and drunk to be thinking clearly.

But I couldn't resist so I deepened the kiss and wrapped my hands in her soft luscious hair. I laid her body against the bed and straddled her waist.
It felt as though my cold body was on fire. I removed my hand from her hair and brought it down to her stomach and slid it under her T-shirt.

I could feel her hip bone sticking out under her skin and again worried about how much weight she has lost. I'd have to get my little human eating again.

My hand slid higher up to her breast.
I could feel her blood pulsing through her veins as the animal side of me started to take over.

Bella moaned which thankfully snapped me out of it, not allowing my animal instincts to take over and allow me to drain the blood from my love.

I jumped off the bed in one fast movements. I realised that I had been just as bad Jacob, I had taken advantage of Bella whilst she was vulnerable.

Bella started to cry and I could feel the guilt wash through me. I was about to apologise when she beat me to it.

"I'm so sorry for kissing you Alice; I should have known you could never like me like that. I'm impure, I'm unlovable!" Bella sobbed

How could she possibly think that. I didn't just like her, I loved her. Although I guess my family's leaving would leave her with trust issues. If spend the rest of my life trying to making it up to her.

"Bella why can't you understand that you're perfect-" I started to say but noticed her eyes rolling into the back of her head.

"Bella? Bella, are you alright?" I tapped my hand against her cheek, not really trying to slap her but trying wake her up.

I started to panic as her body slumped on to the bed. I grabbed her bandaged wrist and checked for pulse which seemed relatively normal. It must have been from all the alcohol and the fact that she was so tiny that she couldn't handle very much.

I moved her into the recovery position in case she decided to throw up. I pulled the blankets over and lay next to her on top of the blankets so she wouldn't get cold. I could resist wrapping my arms around her in a protective manner hoping it would help with the nightmares. I shut my eyes and waited till dawn.

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It was around 8am when I decided I would get up and make Bella some breakfast. Charlie was at work so I figured Bella could sleep as long as wanted.

I moved at inhuman pace to the kitchen and grabbed all the ingredients for bacon and eggs. it was good thing I learnt how to cook while Bella was dating Edward. Hopefully Bella would eat them without complaint. I was becoming really worried that she might have an eating disorder on top of all her other mental illnesses. This breakfast would be the test.

I heard Bella's heart beat change as she awoke. She stumbled around for a bit before I heard her clumsy steps come down the stairs.

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Bella's POV

I awoke to the smell of bacon and eggs and wondered who could be cooking it, Charlie should be at work. I got up and moved over to the window to check and only Alice's car was there. Why would Alice be cooking bacon and eggs?

Oh no... She must be making them for me. What was I going to do? I mostly just ate granola bars and drank plenty of water to keep me full. The Cullen's never mentioned how fat I was but I knew they were thinking it and with Alice back I couldn't afford to put any more weight on.

Speaking of Alice, how was I going to face her after last night? I kissed her and she rejected me. I was so embarrassed but I figured there was no point in hiding from a vampire. Hopefully she wouldn't bring it up. And she didn't

I made my way down the steps almost tripping twice. I saw Alice turn to face me with her usual gorgeous smile on her face.

"Good morning Bella. How did you sleep?" She asked in far too enthusiastic voice for the morning.

"I'm alright just a little tired; I hope that breakfast isn't for me." I said worried

"Of course they're for you! I'm not eating this horrid stuff. Eww!" Alice made fake disgusted face as she served the breakfast on to a plate and poured a glass of orange juice.

"Thanks but no thanks. I'm actually not very hungry" I lied

"You have to eat Bella." Alice said seriously

"No really Alice I'm not very hungry" I really didn't want to eat that disgusting fatty food. Couldn't Alice see how fat I already was?

"Come on Bella. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day!" She smiled although it looked forced.

"I said I didn't want any Alice." I replied, becoming inpatient.

Gosh why was she hounding me to eat breakfast so much?

"Bella eat it. Now" she glared at me.

"No! I don't want it okay?!" I almost yelled.

Alice slammed the plate in to the kitchen bench causing the plate to snap in two. She then re-adjusted her hair and gave slightly embarrassed smile.

"Bella sit down." She said in a very final tone.

I was afraid to refuse so I sat down and looked down at the table, suddenly finding a loose thread on the table cloth very interesting. Alice took a seat next to me.

Alice took a deep breath to calm herself.
"Bella why aren't you eating?" She asked

"I'm just not hungry okay? Why are you such a big deal over this?" I asked avoiding eye contact.

"Bella, don't you think I've noticed how underweight you are? I can see you bones bulging through under your skin. It isn't healthy and needs to stop." She said in an almost professional tone.

"What?! You think I'm anorexic?! I am not!" I said angry again

"It's very common for someone to have both depression and anorexia. I can help you get through it and if not we can take you to a doctor." She was talking to me like I was child.

"I don't need to go to the doctor!" I said through my teeth.

Charlie had already tried to take me to the doctor and through such a fit that he finally gave up.

Alice sighed. "Bella how much do you weigh?"

"I don't know I haven't checked in a while, like 60kg probably" I looked away. How could Alice possibly think I had anorexia?

Alice snorted and I would have laughed had it been a different situation.

"You do not way 60kg Bella, I can tell just by looking at you. While you might not be classed as anorexic yet, you are underweight enough to cause you to pass out randomly. Now, why don't we go upstairs and see how much you way?" Proposed Alice.

"No way!" I was shocked. I didn't want Alice to see how much I weighed.

"Bella we can do this the easy way of the hard way, your choice." Spoke Alice

I said nothing and crossed my arms over my chest.

"I'm not weighing myself." I replied irritated.

Alice sighed "Hard way it is then."

Alice moved over to me in a flash and picked me up bridal style so I couldn't struggle away. In another quick flash we were upstairs in the bathroom.

Alice put me down and searched for the scales. Maybe she didn't know where they were?

I guesses wrong as she pulled them from the cupboard and laid them in front of my feat.
I figured there was no point in going against Alice so I decided it would be best to just do as I was told.

I put both feet on the scales and waited anxiously as the number swung back and forth from my sudden weight.

The number finally stopped and I squinted to read the number. I heard Alice give a depressed sigh.

The numbers read 46kg. I couldn't possibly have lost 8kg's since they left. I was shocked.

I was confused because I still saw fat all over my body yet I weighed so little. But at the same time I was proud of what I had achieved.

I was one step closer to looking like them, the Cullen's.