Hey everyone! I'm still crazy overwhelmed at the support my story is getting and I'm glad you all are enjoying it. So, without further ado, please enjoy Chapter 4.
(As much as I would love it, I don't own glee. But if I did, there would've been a lot more Klaine.)
Sebastian stood with his hand out and a smile on his face after he introduced himself. Blaine stood there in shock but took Sebastian's hand anyway.
"Hi. It's nice to meet you. It's weird that Kurt has told you so much about me because I haven't heard anything about you."
Kurt looked away sheepishly; almost embarrassed that he hadn't brought up his boyfriend in the past two weeks.
"Yeah, I'm not surprised. We've only been official for a few weeks now and with the bullying that happens to Kurt here, it makes total sense for him to not bring up a boyfriend." Sebastian didn't seem upset that he had never been talked about in conversations.
"Oh…well, your secret is safe with me. I won't tell anyone."
"It's not that I'm ashamed of having him as a boyfriend. In fact, he's the best ever. And it has nothing to do with the bullying; I'm used to that. It all has to do with me not wanting Sebastian to get hurt. If anyone here finds out, they won't hesitate to find him as well." Kurt seemed so genuine in his statement that Blaine almost forgot to be jealous until he thought about part of the sentence that was just said. "In fact, he's the best ever." Sebastian was the best boyfriend ever. Blaine, at this point, would give up everything he owned for Kurt to say that about him.
"Well, it's nice to finally meet you. It's been great talking to you and I'm glad you're such good friends with Kurt. It kills me that I can't be closer to him but it makes me feel better knowing there's someone close by who understands what it's like to be gay."
"Well, Kurt's the best. I'd hate to see him alone." Blaine tried to keep his voice from shaking.
"Hey, we have reservations. We should get going." Sebastian grabbed Kurt's hand and started to pull him towards the door.
"Right. Let's go." He turned away from Blaine before turning back to him and asking, "Blaine, did you need to ask me something?"
Blaine thought as quick as he could for something to say. "Yeah, I was just wondering if….you knew…of…a good place to get coffee….?"
Kurt smiled at him. "Yeah! The Lima Bean is incredible. They have the best coffee and muffins in the world; or at least in Ohio. Do you need directions or a ride over there since your car is in the shop?"
"No, thanks though. I was wondering for my dad. He's tired of homemade coffee."
"I'm agreeing with Kurt. The Lima Bean is awesome." Sebastian smiled at him just like Kurt did but it didn't make his heart flutter like Kurt's had.
"Great. Thanks, I'll let my dad know." The longer Blaine stood there watching them, the harder it was to not break down and cry.
"Let me know what you think of it. I'll text you about the piano lessons later. Bye, Blaine!" Kurt walked out the door, hand in hand with Sebastian. Blaine couldn't breathe. It felt like someone put a pillow over his face because everything went dark too. He sat down and put his face in his knees as he let the tears flow. He has a boyfriend. He looked happier than I've ever seen him. He doesn't like me and what kills me even more, is he doesn't know how I feel about him. Maybe if he knew…maybe if I told him, he might feel the same. How can I jeopardize something that makes Kurt so happy even if it makes me feel like dying inside? Blaine started wiping away his tears when he got a text.
I'm here. –Mom
Blaine stopped by the bathroom to wipe his face before heading outside to meet his mom.
"It's not that I hate Rachel. She and I get along most of the time, actually. And she's been great at assisting me with getting ready for our NYADA auditions. I just don't like how much attention she gets. We get it; she can sing. And damn, she can sing well. But every week she gets a solo? Quinn has a great voice but she rarely ever gets a chance to sing. Sam has wonderful ideas but they get shut down. Puck is incredible but he chooses not to sing and Mr. Schue encourages that. Santana and Brittany both have great voices and their duets are always so great but they don't get them too often." Kurt had gone on a rampage at dinner with Sebastian after he talked about his solo and how it was great to see someone who didn't always get a chance to sing, blow a solo out of the water. "Mercedes is a diva and everyone knows that. But she has a right to be. It's because she has pipes. I'm just tired of Rachel and Finn having the spotlight every single competition."
"Okay, a few things. One; slow down and take a breath. Two; I get and understand everything but if you have a problem with it, then maybe you should talk to Mr. Schuester. Maybe he doesn't know that everyone has a problem with it. And three; Having solos all the time is extremely difficult. You and I both know how hard it is for me to be the lead of the Warblers. Rachel is probably stressed all the time and I think you only want to be in the spotlight."
"Why would you say that to me?" Kurt almost looked offended.
"I'm not telling you what you want to here, I'm telling you what you need to hear. I don't think you understand how hard it is to sing lead and Rachel does. It's extremely difficult having everyone depend on you because if anything goes wrong, you're usually the one to blame. I know that you can sing so beautifully. Your countertenor voice can sooth anything. But you want the spotlight; you don't want the responsibility. I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings but it's true."
"Maybe you're right. I want the chances to shine because they don't happen too often. But I just wish it wasn't just Rachel in the spotlight all the time."
"I get that. Talk to Mr. Schue and see if that does anything."
"You're the best, you know that?" Kurt smiled at him and moved closer to him in the booth and laid his head on his boyfriends shoulder smelling his cologne while secretly wondering what Blaine smelled like.
"Yeah, I know." Sebastian kissed his head before they went back to eating their dinner.
The next day in math, Blaine seemed a little upset but was giving his everything not to show it. He sat next to Kurt and noticed that he seemed a little tired.
"You okay?" Blaine asked.
"Yeah, I'm just tired. I didn't get home until late last night. Sebastian decided to take me to a late movie. It was fun but I was up so late doing homework. Which reminds me, I'm so sorry I didn't text you about the piano lesson."
"Don't worry about it. I assumed you were busy. Um…" Blaine asked the question carefully so as not to seem too eager. "You still wanted to come over today to learn, right? I'm only curious because if you can't then I can go help my dad at his office or work on my Beatles piece or something like that."
"Yeah, I can still come over." Thank God Blaine thought.
"Great. I can give you a ride to my house after school if you want. My car is out of the shop so I don't mind."
"I'll just follow you in my car so you don't have to go out of your way to take me home."
"Okay. Sounds like a plan. Now, do you understand this question at all?" Blaine tried to change to subject hastily so he could get his cheeks to stop blushing as they dove into their in class assignment.
Later that day in glee club something happened that no one saw coming. Santana and Rachel did a duet together. Rachel and Santana hated each other…well, not hated but they didn't particularly like each other. But was weirder about it was Santana not singing with Brittany, they were dating after all, and Rachel and Finn not singing together since they were also together. They sang Hard Day's Night and they did so well. Kurt was singing along while Sugar and Rory were dancing in their seats. Joe was bobbing his head to the beat as Brittany and Finn were smiling at their girlfriends. Blaine was smiling along with everyone else but he wasn't really paying attention. He was more focused on Kurt and being so close to their lesson. After the duet ended, everyone applauded and cheered for the girls that just finished singing.
"That was great!" Mr. Schue said with a big smile on his face.
"She may be a pain in the ass but I wanted to dominate Beatles week and the only way to do that was to sing with the dwarf." Santana had a proud look on her face. And though Rachel looked slightly offended, she wasn't surprised.
"We did do amazing! Though Santana, you were sharp on just a few notes but that's not surprising since you're singing with me and it's hard to keep up with my perfect pitch. If this were a competition, we would have it in the bag." No one was surprised on this little speech by Rachel since she normally gave an 'I am holier than though' speech every day in glee club.
The bell rang to signal the end of class and everyone started to get their things together while congratulating Rachel and Santana on their great job. Blaine was intentionally going slow so he could walk with Kurt to their cars but he was talking to Rachel right now about their NYADA auditions.
"Rach, we have plenty of time. Our applications aren't even in yet. We can't even audition until we get a letter anyway."
"Fine! But when you're not prepared and absolutely perfect on your audition and don't get into NYADA and end up living on the street, don't come crying to me."
She walked away to catch up with Finn who was waiting in the doorway. Kurt just rolled his eyes and giggled to himself. He looked up to see Blaine waiting for him.
Blaine just looked at him and smiled.
"Ready to go?"
Kurt smiled back. "Yeah, let's go!"
They walked into Blaine's house 20 minutes later after the drive. Kurt looked around Blaine's house and noticed how well off he was already. Their living room held the best furniture and the biggest TV. His kitchen was the size of a restaurants and Kurt was giddy at the thought of the food he could make in there.
"The piano room is upstairs." There's a separate room for the piano? Kurt thought.
"You can put your bag in my room if you want."
"Yeah, sure. Thanks."
Blaine led him upstairs and into his bedroom. If Kurt hadn't known that Blaine had just moved here, he never would have guessed. His room looked 'lived in'. His bed was nicely made by his giant window while his desk was just across from his bed with his laptop and some books on. He had a bookshelf full of different novels and had a guitar on a stand next to it. His closet door was open revealing a huge walk in closet with different colors inside. Last, he had a TV mounted on the wall just above his bookshelf. Kurt couldn't get over how huge it was. But it was very Blaine. He had posters from different Broadway shows all over the walls and he also had a stack of CD's from different artists and shows in a pile next to his desk. He had photos on the bulletin board above his desk of some people he didn't recognize. It must be some of his old friends.
"Wow! This is the best bedroom I've ever seen!" Kurt realized after he said it how weird it was for him to say.
Blaine laughed. "Thanks. I like to have my room be my sanctuary. I'd like to have it in a way where I don't feel like I ever need to leave it. If the fridge was in here, I would never leave."
"I didn't know you played guitar as well."
"Yeah. I actually prefer the piano though. I love the guitar and I've been playing it longer than the piano but I feel more at home when I'm sitting on the bench playing the keys." Blaine got lost in thought.
"So, where do we go?" Kurt didn't know what else to say.
"Oh, right. I almost forgot. Let's go." Blaine led the way down the hall to a different room that only held a piano. "Go ahead and have a seat."
Kurt sat down and looked at how shiny the keys were. This piano looked as though it was taken very good care of.
"Okay, the first note you need to know is the most important note since it's in the middle of the piano and used in pretty much every song in the entire world is Middle C." He showed Kurt where it was and had him play it. His form was wrong so he grabbed Kurt's hand and showed him the proper way to have his fingers. Blaine inhaled at the softness of his hands while Kurt got extremely confused at the pounding his heart started to make. Blaine decided to change the subject and to ask about something that was going to destroy him.
"So, how did you and Sebastian happen?"
Kurt gave him a confused look but answered the question anyway. "He was the first person I came out to. We were at Dalton and during Warblers practice, everyone was talking about their girlfriends and he could tell I was uncomfortable. He pulled me aside that day and asked me what was wrong. I don't know what it is about him but he always gets me to tell him what's on my mind. Anyway, I told him I was gay and my dad didn't even know yet. I hadn't even kissed anyone at the time. He told me he was gay too and he encouraged me to tell my dad. So I did. And my dad was not only okay with it, but he had told me he had known since I was 3. I got so excited and the first person I told was Sebastian. He became my best friend. We did everything together so when I found out I was transferring to McKinley, I got super depressed. He promised me we would keep in touch and we did. We talked all the time and after we both got our licenses, we would drive to meet up with each other. About 6 months ago, he told me he liked me and he wanted to go out with me. I thought it was weird since up until that moment, I had thought we were just best friends so I turned him down. He kept asking and asking and about a month ago, I agreed to go on a date with him. It was amazing. He took me to dinner at Breadstix and then we just sat on a park bench and talked for hours. He dropped me off at my house and he tried to kiss me goodnight but I stepped back a little. I had never kissed a boy before. I had only ever kissed a girl. That's a story for later, don't ask. I told him that I wasn't quite ready for that. He kept asking me to reconsider dating him and I decided that it would be easy since we already know each other so well. So, I said yes and we've been together since. I know it's not the best love story but it's special to me."
Blaine held on to every word and he knew he had a sad look on his face because Kurt looked at him and said, "What's wrong?"
"It's just that, you said your dad was okay with you being gay."
"Yeah. He's been supporting me since day one. Why? Wasn't yours?"
"Kind of. He wasn't completely surprised when I told him but he's not in love with the idea. My mom was and still is completely supportive of me. To be honest, it was my older brother, Cooper who had the biggest problem with it. I was a freshman when I came out and I got bullied a lot because of it. It became even worse after I joined the glee club at the school. Everyone at that school said you were gay if you were in glee club because you have to sing and dance and wear costumes. So me joining kind of confirmed their assumptions even if it wasn't true. Cooper was in glee club as well so people started calling him gay. He would get shoved in the hallways at school just because. I felt so guilty because I knew all of this was my fault. I was so stressed about it that my grades started slipping. It was the worst report card I've ever had. I had 'B's' on it and nothing else and that got me a grounding for a couple of weeks. After about a month, things started to get better. Cooper wasn't bullied as much but I still was. Cooper wasn't though and that's what mattered to me. Then there was a new boy that transferred to the school. His name was Tanner. He was gay and he and I became very close. About a month later, we were dating. Then things got really really bad. Cooper started getting bullied again for being the brother of a 'fag' and it got really hard for him. He would come home from school every day and he would stay in his room and not talk to anyone. There was one particular day I remember where Cooper yelled at me for being gay before he slammed his door shut. Then there was a dance. I asked Tanner to go with me and while we were waiting for our parents to pick us up, these 3 guys beat the living crap out of us... Cooper was one of them. He's away at college now and I've forgiven him and he's apologized more times than I can count. But he's always been the one that's had a hard time with me being gay. My dad is slowly more accepting of it but I don't think Cooper will ever be completely okay with it."
Kurt looked at him and it almost looked like he was about to cry.
"Blaine, I'm so sorry that happened to you."
"It's fine. I mean, I've had to deal with them for so long…so have you. It just makes us stronger." They just stared at each other before Blaine cleared his throat. "Anyway, I know I'm supposed to be teaching you but if it's okay with you, I'd like to practice my Beatles piece and get your intake."
"Sure. You've done so much for me, this is the least I can do. Do I need to move?"
"Nope. You're fine just where you are."
Blaine put his fingers on the keys and started playing.
When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted, there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Blaine stopped playing and looked at Kurt.
"So, what'd you think?"
Kurt really couldn't say anything. He was so mesmerized by the song and by Blaine he really didn't have any words.
"That was amazing. I just can't believe how fantastic that was."
Blaine smiled at him and blushed a little bit. When we moved his hands away from the piano, his hand brushed Kurt's arm and sent chills down Kurt's spine. Blaine slowly started getting closer to Kurt on the bench as he played the song and he didn't want to move. Kurt didn't know what was going on with his heart but he needed to leave.
"I better go." Kurt stood up shocking Blaine.
"But we've barely played." Blaine seemed very upset over the sudden change in Kurt.
"I just realized how much homework I have. I promise we'll do another time. I just can't right now." Kurt ran to get his bag from Blaine's room and out the front door before Blaine could even leave the piano room. Blaine felt upset that Kurt left but he was having a hard time breathing over the afternoon he just had. Kurt meanwhile couldn't stop shaking as he pulled out of Blaine's driveway.
I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I know it was super long but I intentionally made it that way because I won't be able to upload another chapter for a few days. It's the weekend here in China and the internet connection in my apartment is terrible so I need to wait until I can have access to my school computer. Please review. :) On the next chapter; Kurt spends a few days in solitude to think things over while Blaine tries to win Kurt over without being obvious about his feelings. However, someone knows about his feelings. Will they try to help him or stop him?
