Chapter 4: Lost and Found
Ford woke me a few hours later "I made dinner, thought you might want some"
"Thanks" I rub the sleep from my eyes and Ford places the plate in my hands, I poke at it, its mushy, but it smells good, Ford places a spoon in my other hand "I blended it all up, so you can eat it easier"
I take a spoonful, I still don't know what I'm eating, Iv never had to eat human food so much before, but at least it tastes good, I finish it. Perhaps I should take it to the kitchen, you know be nice.
I get up carefully, holding the plate and spoon in one hand and feeling my way with the other, I make it too, almost scaring Ford and the twins, "Oh Bill, your finished, here give me that" Ford takes the plate from my hand "Can I have some water please?"
I hear Dipper choking "Calm down Pine tree don't die because of my manners!"
Ford sits me down at the table, passing me some water, the glass is cool against my hand, I sip it slowly "So what is there to do if you can't see, cause I'm super bored" I ask the room.
"Music?" Mabel says happily "I have some great tunes!"
"What you call music, I call annoying, I prefer the old stuff, Ford stuff is still to new for me"
"Um then nothing really" mumbles Dipper, I huff I'm going to be bored forever!
"I'm going for a walk, and I don't care if I can't see, this place is driving me nuts!" the glass tips, water drips down onto my clothes, but I ignore it, making my way out as fast as I can "Bill wait! You need to stay here!"
"Piss off Sixer!"
I hand grabs my arm "You are to stay!" his voice is firm but grumpy,
"Your not the boss of me!" I roughly pull my arm out of his grip, and make my way out the door, the grass was cool under my feet, I end up colliding with a tree, "Ow, stupid fucking tree!" I rub my head,
"BILL! Please! You gonna get yourself hurt! Your blind for goodness sake!"
I turn to his voice, suddenly angry and upset, all hold on my emotions is let go, "YOU DON'T THINK I KNOW THAT FORD! I CANT SEE! ITS NIGHT TIME CONSTANTLY! AND I'M POWERLESS TO FIX ANY OF IT! I'M FUCKING BLIND! FUCK YOU!"
I'm aware I'm crying, Ford takes my arms gently, as tears stream down my face, strangled sobs emitting from my mouth, and then hes hugging me. I go ridged at first, but his hug is strangely comforting, I end up crying into his shoulder, "Come back inside Bill, its getting dark"
I nod wiping my face, he leads me back inside
"I'm sorry" I blurt
"What?" his voice sounds surprised,
"I'm sorry, for everything, you know ruining your lives, trying to kill you, nearly ending the world, I'm sorry, and I mean it this time" my voice sincere, more tears spill down my face, I wipe them away,
"Thank you Bill, that means a lot" his voice is strained,
"Are you crying too? Your voice sounds funny?"
"Yes Bill, I am"
"Baby"
"You cried first, if anything your the baby" he says,
I chuckle, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I can't believe I just did that, stupid human emotions.
