Hey guys I'm so glad that you are liking this new FF of mine. I feel bad to say this but I won't be able to post for a while. I have the first 9 chapters written up but I don't know for sure how much I will be able to get on the computer because i'm on bedrest and I can't get up at all except to go to the bathroom and doctors. So I will try and upload on this old lap top my mom has whenever I can but I usually only get a few minutes at a time to check on stuff before I lose internet connection. I hope you guys understand and I'm sorry to do this to you. Please review I get so much joy from reading them they honestly brighten up my crappy days. Thanks and again sorry.
Love,
Adrienne
Chapter 4
"Joey, what did your mom say about jumping on her bed?" Mason asked the small blue eyed brown haired little boy as he continued to jump around singing his own version of "I'm in love with my guitar". Joey just looked at Mason and continued jumping trying to get his mother's attention. Jude groaned in her sleep. "Joey if you have any love for your poor mother you will jump on Mason and go eat pancakes till you can't walk." Jude murmured with her face buried within the pillow. Joey just giggled and plopped down on the bed next to her and wrapped his arms around her. Jude opened her eyes and sighed. She reached over to give him a hug back. He quickly kissed her on the cheek. "I love you mama." He said before racing from the room.
Mason looked down at his best friend and smiled. "That kid is going to be one major heartbreaker." He said on a laugh. Jude laughed with him as she sat up. She'd sat up to fast because a wave of dizziness overcame her and she swayed back and forth. Mason jumped forward and grabbed her by the arm to steady her. "Ok Jude, remember what the doctor told you. Deep breaths and close your eyes and count to ten and the dizziness should pass." Mason said obviously worried. "I know what the damn doctor said Mason." Jude snapped. Mason flinched hurt by her words. Tears filled Jude's eyes. "Oh god Mase I'm so sorry. I don't even know why I said that. I'm just a bitch." She said sadly. Dizziness passing her. Mason leaned over to hug her. "Your not a bitch Jude, your sick. I'd be pretty grumpy too." He said. Jude just wiped her tears. "No, you don't understand. I find myself getting mad over the stupidest things and they make no sense. I'm so afraid that one of these days I'm just going to freak out and say something hurtful to Joey, he already thinks I'm a bad mother." She said clearly upset.
Mason looked at her like she was crazy. "Are you kidding me Jude? That kid worships you. You know what he said to me the other day? I asked him what he wanted to be when he was older and he said a rockstar and I laughed and said oh yeah? Why do you want to be a rockstar? He told me it was because you used to be one and that he wanted to be just like you. So if you ever feel like you're a bad mother you just think about that ok? Joey loves you. He knows that you gave up your career to be a mother and he knows you love me so don't give me that crap about how he thinks you're a bad mother because your not, you're a great mother." Mason said as though he was talking to a disobedient child. Jude smiled. "What would I do without you Mase?" She asked. "You'd actually have to go out with straight men?" He asked jokingly. Jude laughed. "Very true Mason Very true."
Mason made his way down stairs to keep an eye on the tornado that was Joey while Jude took a shower and got dressed. On her way out of the bathroom she walked to her dresser and pulled out some clothes. She glanced up at a picture that was hanging on the wall above her dresser and sighed. It was a picture of her and Tommy a few weeks before her and Tommy had broken up. It was taken at Sadie and Kwest's wedding. They looked so happy and in love. Jude could feel the tears start to form in her eyes and the lump in the back of her throat. She took a deep breath and tried to stop the silent tears from falling to no avail. "How did we get here?" She asked herself.
Flashback
Jude was sitting in the doctor's office waiting for Dr. Miller to come back with her blood work. She'd been getting dizzy really easily lately and just wanted to make sure that she wasn't anemic or anything. It was her 6 month anniversary with Tommy and she wanted to hurry up and get home to him. He'd been planning on cooking her dinner. Jude smiled at the thought. He really was perfect for her. Sure they had their problems like any other couple but when it came down to it they were each other's home base, kept each other grounded. Jude's thoughts were interrupted by Dr. Miller coming into the room.
"Hi Jude, sorry it took so long we had a little surprise with the test results." He stated with a small smile as he glanced over her chart. Jude started to look nervous. "nothing bad I hope?" She questioned. Dr. Miller smiled. "Well I'm not sure, you tell me." He said with a smile. "Jude your pregnant." He said and watched as her face went from complete shock, to understanding, and then to glowing. "I'm pregnant?" She said with a smile on her face. "Yes, 10 weeks from my calculations." He said watching her smile even wider. This was what he'd gotten into this business for. To see looks like these on his patients faces. Jude placed a hand over her stomach and looked over at her doctor. "Wow I really wasn't expecting this." She said happily. What would Tommy think? How would he take it? They were going to be parents. She could hardly contain her excitement.
Jude sped home to tell her boyfriend of 6 months that they would be having a baby in a little less than 7 months. She'd made an appointment with Dr. Miller to come in 2 months to find out the sex of the baby and to make sure everything was going well with the pregnancy.
Jude pulled up in front of the house that her and Tommy shared and took a deep breath. "Here we go baby." She said holding a hand over her flat stomach.
She walked in the door and already saw Tommy coming towards here from the kitchen. "Hey girl, where you been?" he asked worriedly. She couldn't help but smile as She leaned up and kissed him hard on the lips. "I love you so much Tommy." She said smiling. Tommy just smiled at her. "What was that for? You haven't even had any of my pasta yet." He said cockily. Jude just smiled and hugged him. "Ok now your starting to worry me. Are you ok?" He asked with a small frown on his face. "I'm fine. I'm great." She replied with a smile. They walked back into the kitchen. "Dinner's done I just have to serve it up." Tommy said with a small smile on his face. "By the way I have some news." He said not looking at her. Jude started setting the table. "I have some news myself Mr. Quincy." Jude said excitement evident in her voice.
Tommy plated the dinner and then lighted the candles on the table. They sat down and started to eat. "This looks really great Tommy. Thank you for making dinner, your so sweet." Jude said with love in her eyes. Tommy smiled back at her. "Actually I hope you don't get too used to me being able to cook dinner Ms. Harrison." Tommy said with a funny look on his face. "I probably won't have time anymore for awhile." Jude looked at him funny and he saw confusion on her face. "Ok what are you talking about Quincy?" She asked. She was starting to get scared. She wanted to tell him about their baby but she had a bad feeling. "Oh nothing just the fact that I'm now a signed artist for elementz records"! He shouted happily. Jude jumped from her chair. "Oh my gosh baby that's great!" She said launching herself in his arms. "I'm so proud of you." Here she was thinking negative thoughts and it was something great. She felt like an idiot.
"I know I've been waiting for this forever. This is it Jude, this is the beginning of our new life, I can just feel it. I'm just disappointed that we won't see each other much." Tommy stated. Jude looked at him confused. "What do you mean Tommy?" She asked. They had to spend time together if they were going to raise a child together.
"Oh you know, I'm going to be working on my own album and stuff so I won't be able to help on yours anymore. We'll both be touring and stuff so we won't see much of each other." He said nonchalantly. Jude faced him with anger in her eyes. She could feel her heart fall from her chest. What was happening? "Well I don't want our relationship to be affected by the fact that your signed now Tommy." She said irritated. She'd been a signed artist when they were together why should anything change now that he was? He just sighed annoyed that Jude wasn't happy for him anymore. "Look Jude, our relationship won't be affected much, we just won't see each other for awhile but I'll call and you'll call. We can do it." He said. Jude looked away for a moment. This was it. She would tell him about the fact that she was quitting the music business for at least the next year and a half. "Actually Tommy that is part of what I wanted to talk to you about. I'm not going to be going on tour so I'll just come with you on yours, we can spend time together." Jude stated happily. It was the perfect solution. They'd be together, him, her and their baby.
Tommy looked at her with a look of horror on his face. "I don't think that is such a good idea Jude." "What do you mean your not going on a tour?" He questioned. "I mean that I'm not going on tour. Why isn't it a good idea for me to go with you? I thought you'd be happy." She questioned. She felt so unwanted. This was the man that loved her, this was her Tommy why was he acting this way? The hurt evident in her voice. "I just mean I love you but this is kind of my thing you know? This will be my first tour as a solo artist and I kind of want to be just that, solo." He said trying to be as kind as possible. Jude just stared at him in shock. Here she was thinking about their future and all Tommy was thinking about was Tommy, and Tommy's future.
She could see just by the way he had distanced himself that she had no place in his future. Fame had corrupted him in the short time that he'd had it all to himself. Jude looked at him with tears running down her face. There was no room for her or their baby in his life the way he was planning it. This was it. She never thought it would end but obviously she was wrong. She certainly never thought it would end like this. The sad part was she still loved him and knew she always would. "I see. Well you won't have to worry about me getting in the way of your "Solo Tour" Tommy." She stated sadly. Tommy leaned forward and wiped her tears. "I knew you'd see it my way Jude." He replied not catching on. "I do see it your way Tommy. I won't be here when you get back." She stated coldly as she walked from the room with a hand on her stomach. Tommy just stared after her. He didn't go after her and she didn't look back.
End Flashback
