Chapter 4

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JACOBS POV

Edward was approaching me with caution just like he should do.

"If you have any decency Jacob you'll leave Bella alone. You're getting her in trouble and she has to big of a heart to say no when it comes to helping someone out. She's not like us Jacob. She's what is good in this world. I didn't come to argue with you but I meant what I said. If you don't back off from her I will take matters into my own hands."

Standing there in front of me, making idle threats of what he is going to do as far as I'm concerned. Like I would be scared and back down from him. Phasing wasn't going to be an option if the leech didn't get the hell away from me.

"Well I don't care what you think. It's up to Bella if I'm around her or not. You need to leave or this is gonna get real ugly between us." I was ready for a fight and it's nothing new to me anymore. He has no idea of what I'm capable of doing when I have to.

"Fine if that is the way you want it Jacob. But remember that I warned you." I didn't understand why he was backing down and making it so easy for me. Maybe I gave the leech to much credit and he's really a pussy.

Trying to calm down after the walking corps finally left. Thinking about what I just did was probably not the smartest move that I could have made against them but it had to be done. I know I will have to face Solomon eventually. I didn't give a shit let him bring it on. I've already made up my mind no matter what I'm done with them and I won't run either.

Edward would not keep me away from Bella. I would never intentionally do anything to hurt her. Being with him was more dangerous than anything she could do. He makes it sound like I'm just some worthless piece of shit. I know some others who would agree with him but Bella makes me feel like I have a purpose and some self-worth still left in me.

I ran back to the reservation to find Bella. I needed to tell her I was sorry and I would keep her safe from Solomon no matter what. But what I found just enraged me even more. Paul was consoling Bella. Now wasn't the time for me to approach her. So I hung back and watched them. They were on the beach and he held her in his tight embrace.

"Bella you are wasting your time with Jacob. He's a lost cause and believe me I wanted to help him too. I did for a while. But until he decides he wants to help himself I'm done with it. Come on let's go look at your truck and see what we can do to fix it."

She still wanted to help me and thought she could save me. Although Paul was trying to make sure it doesn't happen.

They were walking hand and hand. I wanted to hurt Paul for the words he spit out about me basically being a piece of shit too. I guess being his brother meant nothing to him and all that bullshit I always hear about. How pack brothers now and for life. He didn't even realize I was here watching them as wrapped up in Bella as he was. Or maybe he does and he wanted me to know how he really felt about me.

Bella took her hand out of his as they were walking and I couldn't help myself but to smile at that.

"Maybe we should wait until Jacob gets back. He said he would fix my truck and I don't want you to go out of your way for me."

Pauls little cutie pie act was really getting on my nerves. I might not act all prim and proper but at least I know who I am. It made me sick to watch him in action with women. Paul was the most wonderful guy until he beds them and then he conveniently forgets their name. He was treating Bella the same way as all of the others; I am a good guy, I just want to be your friend and of course my favorite part of his act is when he is all shocked that they are falling for him.

"We're never sure when Jacob will show up again. Sometimes he is gone for days at a time. Are you sure you want to wait for when Jacob might show up to drive again?"

"I guess not. Thanks for helping me out Paul. I really appreciate it."

Not following to close to Bella and Paul I was surprised by Sam in the woods.

"You need to come to the Council Meeting. I told you what was going to happen if you missed another patrol or screwed up one more time. I'm done protecting you Jacob and there's nothing else I can do for you now." I fucked up and missed two patrols. Both times I was trying to protect Bella from what I got her into and now I've gotta go before them to explain myself.

"When is the meeting gonna be held and where?" He only gave me five minutes to get there.

Dad was coming out as I was walking in.

"I'm sorry Son this wasn't my choice and I no longer have any say in it."

He lowered his head and wouldn't look up at me. I kept pushing him for what he was talking about but Sam came to the door and said it was time. Since when do they conduct a meeting without Dad?

They all sat at a long table and asked I come stand before them. They read the long list of charges that had been brought against me; failure to take my responsibilities accordingly, not following direct orders of my Alpha numerous times, engaging in possible criminal activities, being a threat of exposing our secret to outsiders with my careless behavior, dividing the pack due to the rebellious way I have behaved, abusing my super natural strength and after that I stopped listening. But they didn't stop there. They have been listening to Sam and the others without even asking me my side of the story. Not that I could really tell them the truth but I always thought you were innocent until proven guilty.

When they asked for my response I couldn't hold it in anymore and my ragging emotions took over.

"I never wanted this life and I never asked to be here. Yes I am guilty of some of it and I would do it all the same way over again too. I had hopes and dreams of leaving here. Now there is no chance in hell of that happening. I wish I wasn't born this way and I wish I was never a part of this tribe or pack. So what do you have to say to that huh? What's your response?"

Maybe I wouldn't do it all the same way but I was pissed and hurt when I said it. I know I've fucked up and yeah I get it that I should be punished. But what about the rest of pack and the things I know they've done that have gone unpunished.

Harry got up from his chair slowly. "I think you should be carefully what you wish for Jacob."

They excused me and I didn't give a shit what happens anymore. I'm trying to make my life better and I was trying to do the right thing. Even then it only made things worse it seemed like. Maybe it was my destiny all along to stay here being miserable and have nothing.

My feeling were I've dug a huge hole in the ground and everybody I know was throwing dirt in on top of me all at the same time. I was suffocating slowly and I was fighting for every breath I took. I know it was my fault for the situation I was in. But when you make someone feel you have them trapped in the corner, it's human and my wolf instinct to fight your way out. The rest of the pack doesn't seem to understand this so maybe I'm just more fucked up then I thought I was.

Feeling beat down by the meeting and feeling remorse for what I had said to the Council I went to the garage where Bella was with Paul. She always has that way of making me feel better. I really didn't mean to say those things to them but since I started phasing I swear it has effected what comes out mouth before my brain has a chance to say, don't be stupid and say it. I would talk to Dad about the best way to make things right with the Council.

Watching Paul being all cute with her, telling her a joke and her giggling.

"Am I interrupting?"

"Yeah actually you are. What do you want? I'm surprised you found your way back so quick considering you're usually gone for about a week at a time." Bella didn't say anything she was following after Paul grabbing whatever he told her to.

Seeing how I was going to have to apologize to a lot of people today, I started with Bella.

"Hey Bella can I talk to you for a minute?"

Paul didn't want to leave her but Bella insisted. When he walked by her it didn't go unnoticed by me how he squeezed her hand and the way she smiled back at him.

"I need to tell you Bella how I'm so sorry for everything and I never meant for any of this to happen. I handled the situation and I don't think they will be bothering you anymore. I really want to just pretend like this didn't happen and start over with you."

"I can't do that Jacob. Billy has your tutor card and you will need to find someone else. I can't even believe you would think I can pretend like none of this happened. They gutted a dog in the front seat of my truck. Maybe everyone is right, you can't be true to anything and I'm fighting a losing battle with you."

"Not you too Bella. Everyone has abandoned me today. Stop listening to Paul. Hell you shouldn't be hanging out with him anyways. He is trying to turn you against me. He will fuck you and then forget you ever existed."

"That is your biggest problem Jacob. You blame someone else for what you do. Grow up and start taking responsibility for what you've done. As far as Paul is concerned, we're only friends. But if I want to fuck him I will and that's none of your business."

Paul came back in. "You need to leave Jacob, now."

Standing face to face with Paul.

"Why don't you and I step outside so we can handle our business?"

"Why step outside? After I kick your ass I'll have to come back in. I'm not like the others and I'm not going to back down from you Jacob so shut the fuck up or I'll kick your ass. I've wanted to kick your ass for a long time."

Someone was clearing their throat, it was Charlie. Charlie with Billy came in and I could tell by the look on their face this was going to be bad for me.

"Jacob Black you're under arrest for failure to comply with your probation conditions and destruction of private property. Please turn around and put your hands behind your back." I did as he asked. In some ways I was hoping this would put an end to some of my turned me into the cops. This was so not his style of handling shit. He hated the cops. I wasn't sure what game he was playing with me. But it doesn't matter I'll get out eventually and then I will settle the score with Solomon.

BELLAS POV

After Charlie arrested and took Jacob away I felt guilty about what I had said to him. Paul seemed to know.

"You can't take the blame for Jacob. He made his bed and now he's gotta lie in it. You said what you felt and you have nothing to be sorry for."

"I'll see you later Paul." He didn't stay put but followed after me.

Knocking on the door.

"It's open come in."

Being careful what I said in front of Paul because I don't think they really knew anything about what Jacob has been doing.

"What are you going to do about Jacob? Are you going to bail him out Billy?"

Billy had gone through so much with Jacob. He looks so tired and worn out.

"I can't Bella. I don't have enough money and I'm not sure it's a good idea. Charlie told me Jacob went in and completely destroyed a business for no reason what so ever. Jacob will have to appear in court on Monday morning and even if I bailed him out the judge is probably going to sentence him then. So he would only be out of jail for a couple of days."

It wasn't for no reason that Jacob had done it, he done it for me. I already figured it had something to do with Solomon and now I was sure.

"Billy can I borrow your truck? I'll bring it back as soon as I'm done and it won't be for very long."

Paul offered to take me where I needed to go but I didn't think he would want to go once he knew where I plan on going.

"I'm going to bail Jacob out of jail. So if you don't want to go I'll understand but I'm doing this." I couldn't stand by and let Jacob take the fall for protecting me. Maybe I could come up with something to get him out of trouble. Even if it was only for a couple of days, at least he'll get to say goodbye to everyone.

Paul's reaction was what I thought it was going to be, he didn't want anything to do with it. Jacob was messed up right now but I still have a heart.

Charlie wasn't happy I was here to bail out Jacob. But it was my money I had saved and I'm eighteen so really what choice does he have.

"Bella if Jacob doesn't appear on Monday in court you lose this money and I love him you know I do. But I think until the judge sees him, he should stay here. I was hoping he was going to straighten out but that may never happen."

In some ways I witnessed Charlie give up on him too. I threw the money down on the desk.

"I paid his bail so let him out now. This is between me and Jacob." I took full responsibility for Jacob for the next two days. He would appear in court or else I would make him wish he did.

After we argued again Charlie finally gave up and went to get the keys. He walked to the back and unlocked the cell door. Jacob got up off the cot and closed the door.

"Go home. I'm a lost cause remember. You didn't want anything to do with me a few hours ago."

Charlie shrugged his shoulders.

"Dad can you give me and Jacob a minute please?" I pulled a chair over by Jacobs cell because I had a feeling this was going to be a long conversation.

"Point taken but I'm not sorry for what I said to you Jacob because that's how I felt at the time. But I'm sorry you got into trouble because of me. I know the business you trashed had to be Solomon's place. If I'm wrong tell me and I will leave. I won't bother you again either. But if I'm right get up off your sorry ass and go see your Dad. Do you know how much stress you have put on him? Do you even care? You told me you wanted to make things right in your life so start by walking out of that jail cell and thinking about someone other than yourself."

He acted like he hadn't heard a word I had said. He was staring at the wall and he was seriously pissing me off. I made one more attempt to reach Jacob then I was going to walk out the door because I tried.

"You want to start over with me? Then let's start by being honest. I was scared to death by the thought of those guys coming after me and the things they are capable of doing. I was pissed how you blamed Paul for turning me against you when it's you who made me feel that way. It had nothing to do with him. I'm glad you think enough of me as your friend to go risk your own well being to protect me. You're a foolish boy to take them on and eventually they will hurt you or maybe even me. I was feeling the guilt of your getting arrested because of me. I think with all your stubbornness that you're in denial. Because you're a good person deep down that is trying to change for the better but you don't know how. If you don't want people to abandon you then start by showing that you actually give a shit."

He never said anything and I was sitting here trying to support him.

"Jacob now would be the time when you start talking."

"Why do you give a shit what happens to me? If you're expecting me to gravel at your feet and kiss your ass that you came down here to be my savior move on. Cause I don't need you either. You're safer if I'm here anyways."

"You know what I am fucking sick of your attitude. There are so many people in this world that have nothing good in their life and you have people who do care about you but you're pushing them away too. So fuck you Jacob. You want to be on your own so be it."

Walking like I was one pissed bitch out of the jail because I was. How ungrateful can one person be? I got in the truck and then I realized what he said; "Your safer if I'm here anyways."

I ran back into the jail past Charlie to Jacobs cell.

"They are waiting for me outside and I'm so scared Jacob of what they are going to do to me."

Charlie couldn't get the door opened up fast enough for Jacob to be free. When we got outside he was looking around for the bad guys.

"Where are they? Did they leave?"

Getting into the truck and wait on Jacob.

"They were never here. You can thank me later but right now I own you for the next couple of days until you go to court. Let's just say it will be a long very hard couple of days for you boy. If you even try anything funny with me, I'll have your bond revoked. Oh and by the way you ran out of that jail to save me; I think you kinda like me a little bit." I said the last part with a smile on my face but I wasn't getting any love back from Jacob right now though.

"Fuck you Bella. That's some cold shit making me think you were in danger to get me to leave. I don't want to be near you and you're wrong I don't' like you. I hate you so much right now."

He was probably right about that, it was a little cold. But what choice did he leave me? I drove along side of him and he was walking at a very fast pace.

"Great job Jacob. Now we're starting to communicate and we're staring to get somewhere. But you need to get in the truck so I can take it back and you can talk to your Dad."

He stopped walking so I pulled over. "I'm not going anywhere with you. I think I won't even go to court and just disappear."

I got out of the truck and it was time for a showdown with him. This was going to be one time Mr. Black wasn't going to bully me and win.

"Run and I'll chase you until I find you Jacob. Besides I think you're right. You don't like me, you love me. It all makes sense now. You were jealous of Paul being with me and came running to save your damsel in distress. When you hate someone those aren't normal reactions."

He took off walking and I followed behind him. Maybe I shouldn't have but I couldn't help myself.

"Jacob loves Bella. Jacob loves Bella."

Grabbing me hard "I swear Bella if you don't get away from me I'll…I'll….."

Standing up to Jacob because I knew if I didn't he would eventually treat me like he does everyone else.

"You'll what?"

He had his lips to mine and we were locked into an embrace with our tongues dancing in and out of each others mouths. We broke away from one another both with a shocked look on our face.

The drive to the reservation had no words exchanged between the two of us. I'll admit I thought Jacob was handsome and had a hot body. But I hadn't thought about him like that before. I was only saying those things because I was getting to him and pissing him off. That's the way I had to look at this as; just the heat of the moment. I can't let myself get all wrapped up in someone that might be going to prison in a few days.

Opening my purse to get my cellphone out and saw a missed call from Edward. Crap I forgot that we were supposed to go out on a date tonight. Not to mention the fact it was my idea too. Well he was going to be pissed when I told him I couldn't go. I took Jacob on as my responsibility and I would see it through with him. We'll be adjoined at the hip until Monday morning.

This was just one more reason I shouldn't have let the kiss happen between me and Jacob. Regardless of how much we have not been getting a long lately and I have been distancing myself from Edward. What I did with Jacob was still wrong.

Jacob was going to take Billy the keys and try to talk to him. I told him to make his peace with his Dad then he'll never have anything to be sorry for no matter what his outcome was.

I decided to get the yelling over with and call Edward. He had a few choice names for Jacob of course and how I'm being disrespectful to him. He said he knew what Jacob had done and went to jail. Then I was pissed.

"How could you know that Edward? What did Jacob do exactly?"

He was trying to cover up what he said by giving me a bunch of bullshit. Like I was too stupid to read between the lines and know what he was saying.

"This conversation is over and so is our relationship. Don't bother me anymore." I really thought Solomon had pressed charges against Jacob but now I'm not so sure that Edward didn't have something to do with it. I had ask Charlie a few questions when he got home.

Jacob came walking out of the house looking like he lost his best friend. I would say their talk didn't go so well. Sam and a few other boys were standing outside waiting for Jacob.

"You didn't think we were going to let you go to jail being one of us did you Jacob? You got what you wished for."

Then they all turned their backs to Jacob as he walked by. Paul was the last one to turn around but not before looking over at me first.

He handed me back the keys. "Billy said to use his truck and then have Charlie bring you to drop it off tomorrow." I noticed he didn't call him dad though.

Thinking Jacob and I had the same kind of day today, really shitty. I drove us to my house. Billy had already called Charlie. Jacob was only allowed back home if he decides to turn his life around. Charlie couldn't bear the thought of Jacob having nowhere to go so he was letting Jacob stay at our house at least until Monday.

Not pushing him right now for what happened between him and Billy I went in to fix us something to eat. Jacob asked if I wanted some help and we made idle chit chat while fixing dinner.

As he chopped the vegetables for a salad I could see his eyes filling up and the tears started to fall. I went over and took the knife from his hand and hugged him close to me. I have never had a great childhood. But neither Renee nor Charlie would say I couldn't come home no matter what I had done.

Jacob went to shower because I think he needed to be alone. I finished dinner and he sat down to eat with me.

"You want honesty from me?" Not being sure if I wanted it or not but I told him yes.

"I was pissed you seemed to be having so much fun with Paul. You're not that way with me and I know that's my own fault. I felt horrible when I saw the fear in your eyes Solomon put there and again I know that's my fault too. Out of rage I retaliated against them to protect you without really thinking through the shit storm that's bound to come from it. I drug mulled for them. At first it was delivering a package that I didn't know what it contained. When I found out they convinced me was okay and gave me other jobs to do but I was just getting into bed with them even more. I didn't even understand the reason I did it until I saw the fear in your eyes today. They put fear into me too. Not the same kind as you; they made me fear never having anyone in my life who would really love me. Or I would never belong to a real family like they made it seem. I've done a lot of things wrong and I lost my family today. If I had it all to do over again I would change things and make them right. But the one thing I wouldn't change is meeting you. I've never felt so connected to someone as I do you. You always seem to know when to kick my ass and when I need a hug. You're right I want to be a better person but I don't know how."

Jacob poured his heart out to me. Telling me everything that went on in Solomon's organization, some things I really didn't want to hear. It's no wonder they would do anything to keep him in. He is a loose cannon and liability if he quit them. He knew enough to make them all do life in prison and all of the people they sell to.

All the others thought Jacob was strung out on drugs. I couldn't understand why he couldn't tell them the truth. But I wondered if it would change how they felt about him if they knew?

Jacob and I definitely have a better understanding of one another. We had a few laughs tonight. Trying to lighten the mood a little after our talk was much needed for the both of us.

Jacob was laughing with me and having a good time then he froze.

"Go upstairs Bella and lock your bedroom door. Call Charlie and tell him there's an intruder then call Paul. He'll come for you and protect you."

Having no idea what he was talking about because I hadn't seen or heard anything "Jacob I can't call Charlie and tell him that. What in the hell are you talking about?"

Someone was trying to kick in the front door.

"Bella go."

I ran up the stairs and did as Jacob had told me to do. It has to be Solomon coming for me or Jacob maybe even both. Charlie told me he was coming. Paul said he would be here in five minutes so he had to be close by.

I heard things breaking and shattering downstairs. Then I heard Jacob screaming in pain. I went to my closet trying to find something to use as a weapon and found nothing.

Unlocking the door I ran to the hallway closet and the only thing I could find was a battery operated screw gun that Charlie had used to repair the roof with.

But when I started back down the hall I heard footsteps on the stairs. I tried to take calming breaths but it wasn't working. I was scared shitless. With each step he took he was taunting me.

"Oh Bella come out come out where ever you are. I've got something for you sugar. Jacob is a little busy right now and it's just me and you baby. I'm gonna show you what a real man is like."

Stepping into the bathroom where it was dark I waited for him to come down the hall. When he came into the bathroom I jabbed the screw gun into his cheek and pushed the button. I didn't stop until he fell to his knees screaming. I let go of the gun and ran. Not getting far from him until he grabbed my hair.

"You stupid bitch."

He rammed my face into the wall and I could feel blood running from my nose. He punched me in face with his fist a couple of time. Someone was pulling him off of me.

The next thing I knew I was being carried by Paul and I was a little woozy at first. He was putting me into his car.

"I'm taking you to the hospital Bella."

Sore didn't describe what I felt right now. I was sure my face resembles what happened.

"Where's Jacob and that guy?"

Paul took care of the guy but had no idea where Jacob was because he wasn't here when Paul got here. I am so grateful that Paul came or who knows what could have happened.

"We need to find Jacob. They will kill him if we don't. Jacob destroyed the business because they threatened me and he was trying to protect me. They are bad people he got involved with but he doesn't deserve any of this. He quit them and that's when they started threaten him with me. He did this for me and I'm going to look for him with or without you."

Paul asked a lot more questions but I told him I didn't know. Jacob would be pissed if he lives that I told what I have already but I am trying to save him.

Paul wanted to take me to the hospital first but I was fine compared to how Jacob is I'm sure.

"Then pull over and I'll walk. But I'm going to go look for Jacob."

We went to the bar hoping that was where they would take him. They would take him straight to Solomon and we have to find that place and fast.

Jacob was lying on the ground and no one was around. He wasn't moving and bleeding so much it was hard to tell where he was bleeding from. Paul examined Jacob.

"Shit the transformation started. He'll bleed to death if we don't do something." I kept asking him what in the hell he was talking about, what transformation?

Paul ignored me and dialed his cell phone.

"Sam I need you Jacob is hurt. I would say it's almost complete. You need to hurry and I'll try to slow his bleeding down."


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