Naruto: My Life

Summary:

Naruto, an ANBU disguised as a genin to watched over the last survivor Uchiha. However, what Hokage really want is to let Naruto out from his dark shell and act like any normal teens always does since he completely hid in the shadow just like how pro assassins as. What happened to the boy that made him turned into this state? Is there anyone who can change his life for the better? How will they help him?

Genre:

Drama, Hurt / Comfort, Romance

Rate:

M for Safety

Warning:

Boys love, Yaoi, Some Yuri, Violent, Sex, Blood, eventually good Sasuke, bashing Sakura though also eventually good.

Pairing:

Kakashi X Naruto, KakaNaru and other.

I have a theory that as long as you have one good friend, one real friend, you can get through anything.

~ Dana Reinhardt, How to Build a House ~


Chapter 4: Different yet the Same

The next day after Iruka chat with Naruto in the class on the evening, everything back to normal.

Well, normal as it is.

Naruto sat on the same chair like yesterday and listed down the note while Iruka taught them the history of their late Hokages. Iruka was startled when the blond was listening the history Fourth Hokage – with spark shown on his blank eyes (Which only Iruka notice) – Admiration. Other than Naruto, only few of them who were actually concentrated on the lesson while other kids doing something unrelated with class.

Iruka still remembered the conversation he had with the Third this morning…


~ Flashback ~

"So," Hiruzen was reading the report from Iruka who had arrived 20 minutes ago, "you finally able to talk with Naruto huh?"

Hiruzen must say he was impressed with Iruka's ability in approaching Naruto without beaten into bloody pulp.

"Yes Hokage sama." The brunet Chunin said as he sat comfortably on the couch across Hokage. Two cups filled with tea was on the desk, "He doesn't even realize that he made a joke." Well, that certainly how Naruto was supposed to be, "but there are some of his answer that confused me."

Upon hearing that his ears perk up, eyes turned sharped as he looked up, "like what?"

"I've asked him about his likes, he was confused and I suspected that Naruto doesn't know what 'likes' is. After I elaborated the meaning, he said he like watching the sky. When I asked why, he said he felt peace." So, Danzo forced the boy to do something that made him restless, but did not educate him about the humanity and feeling. "One more thing, especially this one, he had no idea what parents is," Hiruzen grimaced. Poor boy had never got the chance to learn about life, "all he says was to protect this village and die for this village for he's a weapon for this village."

"What?" eyes widen in shock, Naruto said that?

"Yes, Hokage sama." Iruka's eyebrow knitted in worried. Among the kids he have in his class, Sasuke was the only kid he knew who has the worse past. Naruto… can be the second person after Sasuke. Speaking about his past…. "Hokage sama?"

"Yes, Iruka kun?"

Iruka hesitated to ask but taking a few deep breaths he did, "Could you tell me a little more about Naruto so I could understand him even a bit, please?"

Upon hearing the desperate yet innocence question, Hokage took pity on the man who had confused expression adored on his face. He sighed. Really, as much as he wanted to tell him about the boy's life, he can't. Well, it is ranked as S class secret. If Iruka know this through him the man would either reject the boy or maybe even ignore him for the rest of the months until he graduate.

That is if he can graduate.

But Iruka aren't that kind of man. He's a kind teacher and took good care of the kids…

Maybe… he can help him through by reveal it? He sighed, again. Seriously he's too old for this shit. He really needed to find his new successor then retire. No stress, no meeting, and especially, no paperwork… if that's ever happen he can live happily through the rest of his life… What a heaven…

But first – Argh! Screw these damn shit! Damn it all to hell! (No offend)

"… Alright," Iruka eyes lit up, he finally get to know Naruto! "But this is an S rank secret, meaning you cannot reveal this information to anyone no matter what without my permission." S Rank secret? But he nodded anyway.

He rested his pipe on his desk along with the report, casted a Privacy Jutsu in the office in case anyone eavesdropped, gazing outside through the window. His eyes turned glassy as he remembered the moments he had with Naruto before that incident happened.

"Naruto is actually a good boy, and always show his emotions to express his feelings. He was an enigma, a sunshine ball and would bounced from here to there, calling me jiji 'cause he hadn't know who I am yet. But that's okay, 'cause l like it." he smiled fondly at the memories, ah… good old days, "I would always took him to Ichiraku whenever I have my break. He often talked about wanted to be Hokage to make peoples recognize him, accept him and respect him. Those were his dream after all..."

Iruka listened in awed. He would have never thought that Naruto was that energetic and… jiji? Was he really that fond at the old man? And to hear that he was different and filled with emotions… then what happened to the Naruto now?

"Naruto was full of happiness – smile, grinned, and laugh… he always did. He was once a prankster – he sometime would paint the faces of Hokage's on monument with different kind of colors. It was kind of funny how no Chunin, Jounin or even ANBU can catch the little him, just, no one. He may look like an idiot, but he can be smart when he wanted to. People often underestimated him so there's no surprise if they were caught off guard. And his speed… you can say that his speed could rival Gai's."

Iruka smiled with mirth, he can imagine with Naruto ran off after pranked on someone causing people chase after him. What an adorable sight.

"But…" the temperature in the room suddenly dropped, Hokage's voice become low and sad, "an unfortunate incident happened 7 years ago. At night on his birthday he was kicked out from orphanage and was being abused in a lot of way by mob of villagers until inch of his life because of something he had yet known of what he did."

What!? Iruka went rigid, he was shocked to hear that this innocent boy nearly died at the hands of the villagers themselves. How could they!?

"They however broke one of my rule – they called him with that forbidden name around the boy. These actions had caused him turned hysteric." The brunet's hands gripped his pants tightly. He was infuriated at the villagers' action. This was the thanks Naruto gets as reward after helping the Fourth to keep the monster sealed inside him from rampaging!?

"However, they stopped as soon as I arrived and sent them all to interrogate by Ibiki." Ibiki, Iruka inwardly shuddered just by hearing that name. Peoples already know what kind of man is him and no one, safe for most of them, dare to oppose the man, "Then Naruto was sent to hospital and nursed by my chosen doctor since others has attempt on sabotage his healing process. But when I went to check on him…. he was gone."

He froze, eyes slowly met with Hokage's. He was… gone? "How?"

"He was kidnapped." Kidnapped? "He was kidnapped by none other than ROOT nin under Danzo's order."

"What!?" He was kidnapped by Danzo's damn ROOT Nin!?

"I know it's bad. We didn't know that he was kidnapped 'cause it happened at the same night. However, Naruto was found 2 years and a half later when he was in assassinate attempt me."

"Wha – What do you mean!?"

"You see, Naruto has been put into Danzo's program for 7 years. Imagine, what kind of life did he went through?"

ROOT, an organization required a lot of potential people (usually kids) and train them into strong ANBU Nin. However, their methods are cruel – a way for them to make them use to the gore scene. What worse, they were trained fully until they were boneless and in comatose state, torture them if they have to, gets rid of their emotions, until they fulfill the Head ROOT's taste.

When that finally happens, the Head Root would give them assignment telling them to complete without leaving any traces. If they fail, they die. If they success, he would sent them to complete other tasks. They would stay in their own given room when they have no given assignment. Each room was monitored by Danzo himself. Slowly, and eventually, he'd turn them into emotionless tool.

Wait.

If Naruto was put in Danzo's program…

Oh.

No wonder Naruto's state unstable! It was particular Danzo's fault!

"B-But I thought ROOT was disbanded several years ago!"

"It is. But he continued his program without my permission."

"Then why didn't you arrest him!?"

"'Cause Iruka kun, we don't have enough proof."

"But Naruto was found right, so you must have callded one of Yamanaka clan member to access his brain?"

"We did, unfortunately even they couldn't get into his mind. There's a complicated seal was put on his head – a seal that prevent any of them from reaching his mind. Danzo must have known that we were searching for the war hawk's false the whole time. All the information that related to that man – missions, conversation, and whereabouts of his ROOT base were completely sealed."

Iruka's shoulder slumped down, head hung down, eyes widen in shock. Naruto'd been through so much pain and totally broken.

"After we make him unconscious, we casted a sleeping jutsu on him for few days and called Jiraya from his traveling to check the boy. He told me that he cannot undo the jutsu but he can modify the seal a bit. He succeeds but only a slight. The only part that we managed to access was the jobs outside the village Naruto was given to complete – mostly about interrogation, kidnapping, and killing. None of Danzo's face shown on the images."

"What we're aware of was – compared with other ROOT Nin, every assignment he'd received was suicidal and the only one that doing in solo. They did not care if he were dead in mission or caught by enemy to interrogate. One slip would paralyze him and if any other mind invader intruded his head, his brain would either freeze or explode which automatically end Naruto's life and take the secret along with him."

Iruka shocked in horror, "So, you just let this man off the hook?"

"I'm sorry but even if we did catch Danzo we don't have any solid proof that he is guilty. As much as I hate it, it's true. He ordered his underling to do their dirty jobs for him. Unless he was caught in action he cannot be touch."

That didn't make the brunet Chunin feel okay, at all.

"Therefore, we can only put Naruto in ANBU and work for me so he can be supervised by me by the name of Kitsune."

Iruka nodded slowly, Anbu… that's a good solution. Identity hidden… face hidden…hidden in the shadow–

Wait.

Come again?

What was The Third saying again?

Then click, "NARUTO WAS AN ANBU!?" Hokage was grateful for the deceased Second Hokage for teaching him how to use Privacy Jutsu, or else someone would have heard the outburst and barged in and demand some answer.

Kitsune… where did he hear that name before…. wait! That's a guy with fox mask and most deadly ANBU!

Kitsune – a shadow plan ANBU. He is very skillful, untouchable, unseen if he wanted to, and one of the most excellent ninja in Konoha. Rumor says that he is powerful, more than Kakashi no Sharingan and Itachi Uchiha.

However, no one knows who he is for he always wore his mask to keep his identity from being discovered, no one know what he look like, not even the elder, the council with the exception of Danzo, and the rest of the ANBU who also once in a while working with him. He would not obey others other than The Third as he only works for Hokage, his loyalty laid on the old man.

"KITSUNE!? As if… the legendary ANBU Kitsune!?" Hokage nodded his head, though he was surprised that Kitsune was so famous until the news spread like wildfire around Konoha. Even in his unstable state, that boy still has his element surprise.

"Wow. You mean that Kitsune was Naruto all along?" Iruka awed, you can practically saw the stars on his eyes. He didn't know that Naruto was actually Kitsune. And meeting him is an honor for him. Which mean he was the first that know who Kitsune is. He squealed in delight. Man he was lucky to know about the ANBU's real identity! But then… "If Naruto is an ANBU then why–"

"He was sent to Academy and out from ANBU upon my request." Seeing the man confused he explained, "he had been through much – lonely, loveless, shunned, hated, don't you think he should at least lived a new environment?" well, not a complete truth but nearly enough. The rest is up to Iruka on handling the boy.

Iruka wanted to protest but halted. Naruto have been through much with worse past, worse than Sasuke's. And he suspected Hokage keep something more from him... He was sure that The Third still have yet telling him the boy's whole story just by seeing the wise man's tense shoulder, but that's for later. If Hokage didn't want to tell him, that mean he'll just have to wait for Naruto willingly to give in.

The sun raise up hanging on the sky, and it's time for Iruka's new class to begin. He sighed as he gazed up the sky…

"I guess so."

~ End of Flashback ~


He sighed, the class was finally over, and his pupil has gone back to their home.

He was now in the office grading the homework that has been submitted earlier. His concentration, however, was not on his work. He still can't believe that Naruto was actually ANBU, and the legendary Kitsune no less! But then… to go through that kind of life… His movement slowed before eased to a stop.

4: 36 PM.

Time shows on his watch.

He was the only one that stayed in the office. The evening ray light travelled from his left through the window, shone over the room as the unsolid shadow casted at the side. Ceiling fan spin in average pace above him. Other than the tick tock sound from the clock, silent was the only company he have.

He sighed, now he knew a part of Naruto's life. Then what's next? It's not that he can just find the boy then tell him everything is gonna be okay and he'll back to his usual self in one go. That will take a lot of time to recover from that trauma, maybe years… or even decade, maybe forever! Head fall on the table with a soft thump, not caring the papers scattered on his desk.

Damn… all of this was just too much for him to bear.

He groaned, "What am I supposed to do with him?" he was lucky that no one was here to hear his whining. Though he was talking to himself so what's the deal?

He locked the door after everything was finished. He put the keys into his pocket before he set off to his apartment. He halted stiffly before he was completely passing the class he usually taught. He frowned. Then slowly, tip toe on approaching the frame door. He peeked, with eyes visible looking inside the class. Out of all usual things he has seen, this, is not one of them.

Inside the class, there's two occupants; Naruto, as usual sitting on the back with book on his hand, two others at the side of his table. The other one, standing at Naruto's left, with broody face, head duck butt style and blue white outfit, surprisingly it was Sasuke, the ice prince raven was the one that approached the blond first.

That's new.

Both boys had never speak with each other, so why now? More importantly, why would Sasuke stayed behind till evening? Was he here just to talk with the blond? Shifted his body to a comfortable position, he hid behind the sliding door, masking his chakra to minor so none of them would notice that he was eavesdropping. He doubted that. Knowing Naruto he must have sensed Iruka's presence since he was an ANBU and all, though Iruka knew that Naruto would not reveal his position just like that.

Now, let's hear what they're talking about.


~ Early ~

The class was over, the kids starting to leave the room. Iruka packed his thing and also bid them goodbye. Though before he left his eyes gazed on a certain blond whose sat at the very back and watched the sky.

Iruka didn't realize that Sasuke was watching every move he made until he left the room.

12: 49 PM.

The room was emptied except the raven and the blond. Sketching sounds echoed in the room. Naruto was writing something on his book. Sasuke was reading his notebook. Both sat near the window and never bother to greet others.

Sasuke had chooses to stay behind because of a reason. No, he was not curious about the blond. No, he did not wanted to talk with other. No, he was not because he wanted to be friend with the blond– Maybe a little… Okay, fine. He admitted. He was curios, wanted to talk with other, and wanted to be friend with the blond.

Well, of course he is! Not only did this new boy come out of nowhere and entered the Academy in less than 6 months, all about the boy was mysterious. However, he did know that this blond is something else. He didn't know what it is but he did. It's like Naruto was a magnet and pulling Sasuke toward him. Usually when something like this happened, he just brushed it off and thought of it as his silly imagination.

But… Naruto was different... and... enigma...

Argh! Why was everything became so damn difficult!

People's always see him calm and broody type but he was actually a hot – tempered and childish. Not that he would tell this to anyone. He rather sleeps under six feet than face the humiliation. But, what they didn't know won't hurt them, right? Right, 'cause he is an Uchiha, and an Uchiha does not these odd behaviour.

Then again, this is not what he was here for. He was not here to argue about himself or his Uchiha pride. He glanced over his shoulder, found that the blond had stopped writing and instead he was reading. Eyes narrowed to see the title of the book, no use, too far. Damn! How he wished he has his bloodline limit activate now so he can zoom in the view– what the hell was he reading? … The Wonder of The Words?

What's that supposed to mean? Don't tell me this guy's a bookworm! He knew that guy was not a dead–last! Dead–last, well, not completely. He was just the same as Shikimaru if not in the same level. Only answer when he needed and show some skill when he have to. Is that the reason why Naruto did just to avoid being surrounded by his fan girls? Damn… he was such a smartass… he too would have done the same if it wasn't for his, again, Uchaha pride.

Eyes stared ahead, move elegantly as if he wasn't checking out the blond (not that kind of checking out). He looked down and read his own note. It's about the Hokages' history. The First Hokage, Senju Harashima. He was the founder of Konoha before blablablablabla yeah I get it. Second Hokage, Senju Tobirama. He was the brother to the First blablablablabla, I know I know. Third Hokage, Sarutobi Hiruzen. He was guided under the First and lalalalalala, whatever. The Fourth, Namikaze Minato. He was called as Yellow Flash because of his speed in moving from one point to other.

The Fourth… Naruto's face lit up if not a little when he was listening about this guy. I wonder why…

20 minutes…

30 minutes…

50 minutes…

1 hour…

1 hour and a half…

2 hours…

The clock tick tock, time passing by, neither of them moved from their spot…

2 hours and a half…

Still not moving, only the sound of flipping page from Naruto. Sasuke had long stopped reading his note and looked at the wall instead…

2 hours and 48 minutes…

2 hours and 56 minutes…

Sasuke glared at the wall with all his might, daring the wall for blocking his sight. Yeah, take that!

2 hours, 58 minutes and 47 seconds…

Sweat pouring from the raven's forehead, but the window from his side was opened, so how come does he felt hot? There's no way that the heat can sweat him this much…

2 hours, 59 minutes and 34 seconds…

He gulped inaudibly, should he do it? …

2 hours, 59 minutes and 46 seconds…

Maybe he should just leave?…

2 hours, 59 minutes and 52 seconds…

No! He was an Uchiha and an Uchiha cannot back down from their words! Okay, he'll do it!…

2 hours, 59 minutes and 56 seconds…

Nah... Maybe he shouldn't do it...

2 hours, 59 minutes and 58 seconds…

Damn it all to hell, just do it already! …

3 hours– Right! Fine! He will!

He rose up from his seat stiffly, taking a few deep breathe to calm his nerve. He looked at the clock above the blackboard, 4: 08 PM. He then turned around numbly, eyes fell on the blond boy who was so absorb on reading his book.

He walked to toward the blond boy, eyes still on him. After what seems like eternity when all he did was approaching the boy in 20 steps in less than a minute. When he got there he stood beside the blond boy, hands in the pockets. He had surreptitious look at what the blond read – Poem. Eyebrow shot upward on his porcelain face, so he liked to read poem, eh?

"Is there anything I can help, Uchiha san?"

The dead voice startled the said boy as he looked at the owner's. Oh wow… his eyes was so blue and once content happiness but gone turned to dull… realized that he was talked by Naruto, he replied.

"Nothing, just want to know why did you stay behind?" Okay, that was kind of lame. He hit his head mentally. Couldn't he use another acceptable excuse!?

Naruto just stared at him for about 5 seconds (It felt like 5 decades to Sasuke), before the blond turned his head and resumed his doing. At first Sasuke thought Naruto didn't want to talk before he was replied with monotone voice, "Nothing, It is my routine."

Routine? What kind of routine is that? The other would go back to their home and telling their parents about something at the Academy. So why did he say 'routine'?

"What do you mean routine? Kids usually return home after school. Don't your parents worried about you for not going home earlier?"

Flipping movement halted, eyes still on the page. Sasuke suddenly felt nervous and wanting to take his words back. It seems that the word of parents was a taboo to the blond. Wait, he blinked. Why did he fidget anyway? He was an Uchiha damn it!

Sapphire eyes slowly looked at the raven boy. Sasuke had to repress his flinch from showing visibly when he looked into his eyes. His eyes… look so dead. He sighed in relief inwardly when the blond turned away. Sure he is an Uchiha, doesn't mean he didn't scared.

"If you meant two peoples with the titles of mother and father as parents, no I did not have any of them."

Sasuke froze. His body went rigid. Dark orb eyes widen in shock with his mouth slight apart as he stared at the blond. He didn't have any parents? You mean he's actually an orphan?

"Since when?" seeing the blond's confused stare, he added more, "I mean, since when did you become orphan? What happen to your parents?"

Naruto stared ahead, Sasuke wait patiently, surprising that he was the first to ask the blond a lot of questions.

"I do not know what happened to my parents, I was an orphan from the day I was born."

"… then where do you live? How did you live your life?" this guy… his life…

"I live at East District," Really... was a lot worse than his...

"I only live to protect this village and die for this village, for I am a weapon for this village."

The ray light shone through the window illuminating over class, enhanced the beauty of the scene. Through the opened window the breeze ruffled both' hair, yet none of them talk.

To protect this village and die for this village, for I am a weapon for this village… to protect this village and die for this village, for I am a weapon for this village… to protect this village and die for this village, for I am a weapon for this village…

Those words shouldn't have left from the blond's mouth. That was hardly human at all! No one should thought themselves as weapon as if they were some kind of mindless robot or something like that!

... Did Itachi thought himself as one too when he was still an ANBU?

No, don't think about that man. He was the person that he'd vowed to kill when he get stronger.

Head shook furiously, glanced at the blond who had started reading his poem. His confused thought were pushed aside at the moment when he looked over the poem Naruto was reading.

Sorrow;

A pain you never forget.

Sorrow;

Life's true regret.

Sorrow;

An endless demon who will never quit.

Sorrow;

The rock in the path.

Sorrow;

My life's lonely tale.

That was kind of … deep… and … full of… meaning…. "Can I borrow that?" he asked bluntly before he could stop himself and regret immediately, "I mean, after… err– after you finish that book that is, and if you don't want to that's okay I'll just–"

"Request accepted."

"–get off and – what?"

"Your request accepted." Naruto repeat. "In fact I had finished one of these books. Therefore, you may have it." he said as he snapped shut the book then gave it to Sasuke who kept staring at him dubiously .

"… Right." Sasuke glanced back from Naruto then the book. He hesitated moved his hand and accept the offered book before whispered shyly, looking everywhere but the intent blue eyes, "Thanks."

Naruto nodded, before took another poem book; The Words in Pearls, flipped the first page and read. Leaving Sasuke stood aside. In his mind, he was debating on whether to stay with him or go home. But… he has no one to greet him in home so… he pulled the chair beside him and sit down, flipping the first page and read. Both sat comfortably without saying anything.

No conversation needed, for they enjoyed each other's presence and peaceful moment.


Iruka was surprised that Sasuke took the offered book. He was more surprised when Sasuke sat beside Naruto and read together.

He straightened his back and pounder their conversations, both kids stayed late… Sasuke's curiosity… routine, was Naruto's answer… parents issue… orphan… both boys has the same in common. They two are orphans; dead/no parents – Loneliness.

It seems that Sasuke had finally found someone who has the same pain as his… if he ever knew what Naruto's that is. But, close enough.

He sighed inaudibly, then chuckled soundlessly. Hands on the hips with head titled to his side. An eyebrow rise in amused as he smiled cheekily. This is getting interesting…

To Be Continued…


Sorry for the waiting! I hope this chapter is enough to satisfied you for now! Oh, and sorry for the OOCness in this chapter but since this is my story, anything can happen. About Naruto's past... that was only small part just to make the story a little bit more understanding.

Anyway, thanks for the reviews for the previous chapter! I really love it! Keep it up cause you know I like it!

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