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Chapter 4: I'm Only Human and There's Nothing You Can Say
After about 10 minutes of none stop tears, Rory was determined to regain her composure. "Breathe," she kept telling herself. As her breath slowly began to steady she reached into her purse for her cell phone. She flipped it open and turned it on. Ten messages. Rory was pretty sure that they were all from her grandparents, wondering where she had gone off to. She decided to ignore them for the moment. Finally back in complete control she dialled Logan's number.
"Logan," she said as soon as he picked up.
"Hey Ace, this is a nice surprise. I wasn't expecting to talk to you until tonight."
"I know…it's just," she paused needing once more to suppress her tears.
"You okay Ace? I'm beginning to worry about you," Logan responded with genuine concern in his voice.
Rory took a deep breath. "Yeah, I'm fine Logan. I, well…can I see you?"
"Of course. Did you want to get together tonight?"
Rory considered this before speaking. "I was thinking more like, as soon as possible. I mean I understand if you're busy. It's just I'd really like to talk to you in person you know. I miss you, and there's just so much going on. You're really the only one I can talk to…and I'm rambling, sorry."
"Don't be sorry, I understand… but I can't go right away. I have my last final and I don't have time to go to Hartford and back in time. How bout tonight?"
Rory tried to hide the disappointment in her voice. "Yeah, ok that sounds good."
"I'll be in Hartford at around seven. Take you out to dinner?"
"Okay Logan, that sounds good. I'll be at my grandparent's. I'll wait outside for you, I'm not to sure where my grandparents stand on you and me being together after the whole, grand theft boating incident."
"Maybe I should go in and apologize?"
Rory thought over what he just said. "Maybe we should give them a little more time first. I'll feel them out and see what their feelings on you are. Okay?"
"All right Ace, I'll see you later. Okay? Feel better."
"Bye Logan." She said half heartedly while closing her phone.
Rory shook her head, then looked into her rear view mirror. "Pull yourself together," she said aloud. "What are you doing? You can get through this! This isn't you, you're stronger than this." She took a deep breath, raised her head, buckled herself in and began to drive back to her grandparent's house. It would take some explaining, so she prepared herself on the way there.
Still not sure if she should knock, Rory stood on the Gilmore's step and took another deep breath before ringing the doorbell. Emily opened the door in a panic but as soon as she saw Rory, relief washed over her face and she let out a big breath.
"Rory, thank heavens you're alright," she said smiling at her. Turning away from Rory for a moment she yelled, "RICHARD I'VE FOUND HER!" Emily quickly turned back to Rory, realizing they were still standing in the entrance. She ushered Rory into the sitting room.
"Rory, you scared us to death. Where have you been?" Emily said just as Richard walked into the room.
"Nowhere really Grandma. I just needed to clear my head, so I went for a drive. I ended up at a little store and had some coffee."
"How come you weren't answering your phone?" Richard asked.
"I needed to cut myself off from everything, and everyone. I really didn't mean to worry you."
"That's alright m'dear. Please, next time just let us know where you are going."
"I promise. I don't think I'll be taking off like that anymore though. I feel much better, much better." She said it a second time in a very affective attempt to reassure herself.
The Gilmore's Pool house 7:15pm that night
Rory was in her room when she heard a knock at the door. She hurried to finish her hair and raced to the door. She flung it open and there was Logan.
"Hey Ace, I thought you were gonna meet me in the…" Rory didn't give him a chance to finish his sentence. Instead she grabbed him and crashed her lips against his. It took a minute for Logan's shock to wear off, but once it did he deepened the kiss further.
Rory grabbed onto Logan's shirt and began to pull him towards the couch. As much as he didn't want to, he pulled himself from her mouth. "I thought you wanted to talk," he said to her.
"Not anymore," she quickly responded before continuing to kiss him.
Once more he pulled away. "Rory wait, you sounded…weird on the phone. I want to know what was wrong."
Sighing she looked him in the eyes. "Logan, I'm fine. I've…dealt with it. I don't want to talk," she said. A smirk spread across her face. "Right now, all I want is you."
Logan raised an eyebrow at what she was implying, "You sure Ace? 'Cause we can talk."
Rory let out another sigh beginning to get annoyed "I told you, I don't want to talk. Enough talking. What I want is for you to be kissing me now."
Still a little worried about her, Logan decided to push his thoughts away. The two were now sitting across from each other on the couch. Rory pulled herself on top of him so she was straddling him. She pushed him down so he was now lying on his back.
"Are we done talking now?" she asked, leaning over him. He nodded and quickly pulled her towards him crashing their mouths together.
Logan woke up to the sound of small sobs coming from the woman lying next to him. He looked at her closely. She was asleep. He waited, hoping the sobs would dye down. Instead they continued and grew until she was near full out tears. He had a feeling that he know what was causing this - the stuff she told him she had dealt with.
In Rory's head
Rory was in a car driving towards Stars Hollow, finally hoping to reconcile with her mother. As she approached the center of town, she noticed that many of the members of the town were gathered in the town square. There were rows and rows of chairs, with people dressed in fancy clothing seated in them.
She got out of her car and began to walk over. No one seemed to notice her as she walked down the isle towards what looked like a groom. As she got closer she realised it was Luke. "Luke, what's going on?" she asked, her voice no louder than a whisper. The pianist began to play the wedding march. He ignored her, a grin on his face, his eyes concentrating on the woman coming down the isle.
Rory turned to look. It was none other than Lorelai. She began running towards her mom, panicked. "Mom," she said now standing next to her. Lorelai, completely oblivious to Rory continued on down the aisle. "MOM!" Rory yelled.
Nothing.
Her mother was getting married and she wasn't invited. Rory continued to yell her mother's name, louder and louder. Her vision became blurred and fog surrounded her. She strained her eyes trying to focus on Lorelai. The scene before her began to seem further and further away, until it had disappeared completely.
Back in the pool house
It broke his heart to watch her as her salty tears fell on his bare chest. She began to shake, he had had enough. He began to stroke her hair trying to wake her. She began to stir and with a start she was sitting upright, her heart beating quickly. She turned in all different directions taking in her surroundings. Her heart began to slow down as she saw Logan next to her.
"Ace, what's wrong? Talk to me, please." Every feature was etched with worry.
"I'm fi…" she began.
"Please Ace, none of this 'I'm fine' bullshit. You are not fine," Logan said cutting her off.
She put on a very fake smile, stood up. "Really Logan. I'm fine. Please stop asking me to talk about it. There's nothing to talk about."
"Ace, what happened to you? You called me yesterday at about this time and all you wanted to do was talk. Then you call me not too long after that and again you want to get together and talk. Now that I'm here for you to talk to, you refuse to talk to me."
"Nothing," she snapped. "Nothing happened to me, I just changed my mind I guess. People are allowed to do that you know. I told you, I'm fine. Now maybe you should go, I need to sleep and be up for breakfast with my grandparents."
"Rory, come on…"
"No Logan, please just leave."
"Rory…"
"Leave!"
Reluctantly he dressed himself, ready to leave. He went to kiss her goodbye but she turned away and he ended up kissing her cheek. He pulled away slightly and whispered "call me" into her ear, before walking to the door. He looked back at her once more, willing her with his eyes to open up. She turned away refusing to look at him. He took a deep breath, stepped outside and shut the door behind him, not knowing what else to do.
A/N: Thanks for reading I hope you liked it please review! Trory next chapter I promise.
