Chapter 4
Let's Talk
I can only hope that everything will be fine and my feelings for Speedy will disappear. Oh, how I do not wish to feel this way.
In Speedy's Room
Speedy's POV
"I am sorry but I must leave now." I saw her fly away from me and not even look back. I can't believe she just left me sitting there in the dust. I kissed her and she pretty much let me but she didn't kiss me back. Man that alien goddess is something else; I mean she's sending me mixed signals here. She flirts with me, then she acts all weird, then she practically invites me to kiss her, and she all of a sudden runs off!
I forced myself up to close my open door, just so no one can see what I'm moping about. Well I'm not really moping I'm just confused. My fingers ran above the keypad to type in the four numbers 2837 and the door closed. Finally, I can think in peace. Not that there was any distraction, I just didn't want anyone talking to me yet.
As I was about to walk to my bed I realized something. Starfire's room is right to next to mine! That means I can hear her and whatever she's doing! I quickly but quietly went to the wall that separated us and put my ear to it…nothing. I'm positive she went to her room, I heard the door close after she left but why can't I hear anything? The wall's probably sound-proof, great. Oh well, I'll talk to her later when she's more calm.
I made my way to the bed and laid there thinking. No one and I mean no one has ever run out on me especially when we were in the middle of kissing! I know for a fact it wasn't anything I did, I always know what to do and what not to do around girls. They don't call me a player for no reason. I always get the girl and get her in bed with me.
I smiled as I thought of every girl that I've ever been with. A lot of them were 10's and 9's but Starfire makes all of them look like 1's. She's beautiful and if I get with her then that would be the greatest prize of all. I could feel my smile get bigger as I thought of her body. Man I can't wait until I do it with her! Uh oh, I better stop thinking about her if I don't want to get too excited. All of a sudden I heard a couple of knocks on my door; I'll kill then for interrupting my fantasy. I know I was supposed to stop thinking about her but I was alone, might as well take advantage and do what I want.
A few more knocks later and I decided to get up and actually answer it. The numbers 2837 were typed once again and the door opened revealing someone I didn't want to see.
"Hello Robin."
Robin's POV
"Speedy. Where's Starfire?"
"Not here. Why?"
"No reason. Do you know where I can find her?"
"Really? I just got here and you're asking me where you can find Starfire? I don't even know if I can walk through your city without getting lost."
This guy was really getting on my nerves. "Right. Thanks for nothing then." I left and heard the door close behind me.
Speedy was really getting on my nerves after that and his talk with me about Starfire, but I decided to act like nothing happened for his sake. But he may have a point, I've lived here with Starfire for nearly 3 years, and I should know where she should be. When I asked the other Titans, they just ignored me and decided to go back to their conversations. Cyborg, Beastboy, and Aqualad told me to look for her myself, maybe since they know that I like her and don't want to get out of their conversations with "the girl of their dreams". Unfortunately for Beastboy, he's letting Aqualad talk with Raven and won't do anything about it. If it were me, I wouldn't let Speedy be with Starfire especially since he can't be trusted (with girls of course). Others may think he's a good guy but when it comes to girls, I know he will do just about anything to get the girl into bed.
I shivered just thinking about him and another girl, especially if that girl was my alien. I know Starfire isn't a prize to be won, no person is, but she's mine and if I can't have her then no one can… Well that didn't turn out right, but I'm getting off topic. I need to find Starfire and talk to her. It took me a while to find Speedy, but of course I looked in every empty room (seeing where his room was) and when it came to the last room, it was next to Starfire's room and I'm not one to show my feelings but I felt a little but jealous and mad at him. What if she showed him the room and told him that was where he would stay? Or what if he just chose that room? On the day Starfire told us the Titans East would come over, we didn't really decide who would get which room but we did decide that they could just pick a room that they like (that wasn't already occupied) and stay there.
Wait a minute, where am I going? I look around me and see that my legs took me to the gym where I would usually let out my anger or train. Maybe working out for a while isn't such a bad idea…
In Starfire's Room
Starfire's POV
It has felt like hours have passed when in reality, only a half of the hour has gone by. During that time I was questioning myself whether I should do the talking with Speedy. Am I perhaps doing the overreacting? We may have kissed but that does not mean I must pursue the relationship with him, or must I?
Perhaps a talk with one of my female friends may help me… Raven? Bumblebee? If I ask either of them, the only thing on their minds will be occupied with are the people they have affection for. Friend Bumblebee has always had the crush on friend Cyborg and he has the same feelings for her. But with friend Raven, I am still unsure if she has the crush on friend Aqualad of friend Beastboy. I have always thought that one day, friends Raven and Beastboy would be together some day but Raven has (I believe) done the flirting with Aqualad. The only people I may ask for help are Mas and Menos and Robin. I cannot ask the Spanish twins since they only speak the language of Spanish, and I cannot ask Robin. He is the one I love, and if I tell him why I stopped kissing Speedy then he will surely know that I have the feelings for him. This is most difficult but I suppose I must be a woman and face Speedy, whether I am prepared or not.
As I got up from the position I have never left when I laid on my bed, I felt confident and proud of myself. I quickly typed my code and granted me access to leave the room. Every time a step of mine was placed on the floor, I became more and more confident, believing Speedy and I will become the friends again and hopefully forget this has happened. But as soon as I was going to do the knocking, I stayed still. I could not do this; I could not talk to him so soon. If I did not have feelings for him, then this would not have been a problem and if I told him why I did not continue the lip contact then surely he would have told Robin. After all, he is the reason why I stopped the lip contact.
Careful enough to not make a sound for Speedy to hear, I backed away from his door and started walking down the hall. I was unsure of where I would be heading, but at least I would not have to talk to Speedy for the while. Perhaps being with my other friends will do the cheering of the up for me. It was decided, I would not talk to Speedy, go to the common room (most likely where my other friends would be) and do the hanging out. Glorious! My feet were slowly gravitating off the floor and I found myself flying to my friends! Oh, how I wish they will join me in my travels throughout the city!
Robin's POV
I'd be lying if I didn't say that that workout didn't help me. I got more in shape and let out my frustrations…well not really frustrations, just…worries. And I wouldn't even consider then worries any more. I mean, it's not like Starfire and Speedy are going out or are doing anything…right? No, I'm right. Nothing to worry about, the only thing that needs worrying is my throat which is parched thanks to the workout I just had.
When I finally reached the common room, where most likely no one has moved from their spots yet, the double doors opened for me to enter and I heard a cheery, innocent, beautiful voice.
"Please friend Raven? All of our friends have agreed and you are the only one who has not given me their answer!"
"Yeah, c'mon Rae! I mean Raven!"
Raven gave a small but deathly stare at Beastboy after him calling her 'Rae' again. I have no idea why she hated that name but Beastboy would never stop apologizing for calling her that.
"Here let me think about it," Her eyes traveled to the ceiling for about two seconds meanwhile she was humming but mostly just the humming of 'Hmm.' And when she looked back at Starfire she said, "No thanks. I have to meditate and do anything else."
"Come on guys, she doesn't have to go if she doesn't. Are you sure you don't want to go Raven?" Aqualad was obviously trying to charm Raven into going, and apparently it was working." I never thought I would see the day when Raven looked nervous, but there's always a first time for everything.
I'm not sure if anyone else noticed, but I saw Raven blush the smallest bit. "Oh, uh…sure. I mean, fine."
"Glorious! Now we only need to ask our friends Speedy and-"As Starfire was looking around the room making eye contact with all of our friends, her eyes landed on me. "Robin!"
Soon everybody turned to set their gaze on me and it felt a little weird for some reason. "Hey guys. What are you talking about?" I decided to play cool and just walked over to our mini fridge and got out a water bottle that was inside. When I turned around to face them, the first person I saw was Raven and she rolled her eyes.
"You know what we're talking about Robin. I know you eased dropped and heard where we're going."
I was stunned by the fact that she knew what I was doing but truthfully, I didn't know where they were going. "Actually the only part I heard was Starfire asking you to come with them. And let me just say it didn't take a lot to convince you. But I don't know where you guys are going. Anyone care to tell me?"
I promise Robin, I'll kill you later.
Sorry Raven, but that's what you get for trying to embarrass me.
If you think that I was trying to embarrass you then you might not know me at all.
Sorry, I'm not in the mood right now.
Well least you could do is pay attention to Starfire. Just try to look less out of it when thinking about something.
I looked up slightly to see Starfire waving her hand in front of my face. "Robin, are you the okay?"
"Oh yeah. Sorry, what were you saying?"
"Were you out of orbit again?"
Everyone looked confused but it took me half a second to understand what she was trying to say. She's so cute when she tries to speak English. "She meant 'spaced out'. As in asking me if I spaced out again." The look of confusion left their faces and they understood what she was talking about.
"Yes, the spaced out. Well, I came up of the idea that we should all go out in the city!"
"Yeah dude! We could like go show everyone around! Well the people who don't live here anyway. So do ya' wanna come with us! It'll be really fuuunnnn." Beastboy said as he walked his way over to me and elbowed me repeatedly.
"Who's going?"
"So far, everyone but Speedy are going. Why?" Said Aqualad.
"No reason. And you didn't ask Speedy yet?"
Bumblebee got up from where she was sitting and said "I'll go ask him. Where's his room?"
Starfire was the first one to speak up, mainly because she was (besides me) the only one that knew where that jerk was staying. "His room is located next to mine friend Bumblebee. On the top floor and the final door on the right."
"Okay. Be right back." And with that she left the room and I caught a glimpse of Cyborg looking at the door. My guess is that he watched her walk away.
Starfire returned her gaze to me and asked the question I didn't want to answer yet.
"And you Robin? Would you like to come with us?"
On a regular note I would have accepted her invitation as soon as the question was asked but now that Speedy was here, I had to keep an eye on him. If he went with them, then I'd go with them too. I need to keep an eye on him anyway. But if he stayed, then I'd have to stay too. That way I can talk to him alone and without any distractions. So either way, I'd have to go wherever Speedy goes.
"Uh…let me think about it."
"Come on dude! What's there to think about? Either you go with your friends and have fun for once! Or you stay here with nothing to do...Unless you don't want someone to go with someone else of course. Hint hint, I'm talking about Sp-"
I gave him a glare, which unfortunately he couldn't see but I smiled a smallest bit when Raven smacked him upside the head and Cyborg punched him in his arm.
"Ow and OW! Why'd you two do that?"
"Man unless you want to get hit again then I suggest you shut up. Now."
"But what'd I do?! I was just telling the truth!"
"Beastboy. Shut. Up. Now." There goes another one of Raven's famous glares and threats.
"But I didn't even do anything!" Raven once again smacked him in the head but it looked like she put in more force.
"OW! Fine, I'll stop. Just please don't do that again."
"Fine, I won't. Not until another one of your stupid moments. The palm of my hand will see the back of your head in about five minutes. Max."
"Thanks Raven," His smile quickly faded when he realized what she just said. "Hey! Well, I guess that'll help. Sometimes I can't stop talking about things. Whether it's about normal things or about things that'll be about something that can make another person look bad or just something that I shouldn't say or-"
Raven once again smacked his head and Beastboy looked like he was going to say 'ow' again but stopped.
"Yeah, okay. Thanks I guess."
"Anytime."
Bumblebee reentered the room, thankfully before Starfire asked me again, and said "Alright guys, let's go."
"Is friend Speedy not coming with us?" Asked Starfire who looked disappointed but the slightest but relieved.
"Nah, he said he wasn't in the mood. Well let's go! Wait, are you coming Robin or not?"
Well now that Speedy's not going I guess I made up my mind. "No thanks. I have to go and do paperwork anyway. But you guys go and have fun."
"Yeah, because we weren't going to go without you. No, we decided that we would only go if you came." Said Raven while getting up from her seat. I once again tried to glare at someone but failed.
"You are certain you do not wish to come with us? It will be a glorious time! Please?" Her voice got soft when she said 'Please' and gave me a look that was sad yet hopeful. I hated to disappoint her but this would be the one time where I would have too. If only she understood…
"Sorry Star but no one else is going to do them so I'll have to. Maybe another time."
She nodded slowly and gave me a forced smile. "The okay. Well, let us go my friends! We are wasting time! I will see you later Robin." She gave me another smile and with that she walked out the door.
"Later dude!"
"Bye man. Have fun."
"Bye Robin." And with that Bumblebee and Aqualad left with Beastboy and Cyborg in front of them. I saw them walk out and when I turned around, I saw Raven standing a few feet in front of me.
"What?"
"You know what. We both know why you decided to stay."
"I have no idea what you're talking about." I did my best to try and look nonchalant but that of course didn't work on Raven.
"Oh don't play coy with me. I can read your mind remember?" She tapped the side of her head multiple times. That whole thing where she can see my thoughts whenever she wants gets really annoying.
"One: you have no right to do that. And two: mind your own business."
"One: I only do that when I know something's not right. And two: I know you'll do something stupid so I won't mind my own business."
"Well I won't do anything bad so you can go now."
Raven took a few more steps towards me with her arms crossed and said "I know you will and if you do anything to ruin this visit for Starfire then there will be consequences. Just a warning." She finally left the room and I stood there, speechless.
I waited a few minutes until I went to Speedy's room and have a 'little talk'. After the walk to the hallway Starfire and I share, I went to Speedy's temporary room and knocked.
The door opened to reveal Speedy's face and by the looks of it he wasn't happy about me being there. "What?"
I put a smile on my face (fake of course, I don't want to see as mush to mush as he doesn't want to see me) and said "Hey Speedy. Let's talk."
I'm so so so so sorry! I know I haven't updated in a couple of days but you must understand I had MAJOR writer's block and just finished it right now. I'm sorry and will try to update sooner. Please follow, fav, review and all that other good stuff. *whispers* I'm so sorry and I don't own anything.
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