Chapter 4 – Letting it all out.

The door opened , as I stood up. Walking to the door, i thanked the driver and stepped down. Before i could touch ground, i was grabbed and thrown over a shoulder..

"AAAH! LET ME GO! LET ME GO, I TELL YOU!" I screamed as i heard a laugh.

"NEVER! I SHALL NEVER GIVE IN! YOU ARE MINE FOR THE TAKING! MUAHAHA—ACKH—" Nnoitra chocked, probably on his own spit, and dropped me. He clutched his throat and wheezed. I roared with laughter, pointing at him.

"That's whatcha get for not listening to me!" i walked over to him and thumped his back until he eventually stopped .

"Remind me not to do that ever again" He groaned. I pulled him out of the ways, since we were still in front of the bus doors. The passengers shot us dirty glares and Nnoitra just laughed at them.

"ICHI-BERRY!" I looked around, to see tesla sprinting at me full speed. Panicking, i side stepped out of his way, resulting in him crashing into the bus stop with a load BANG!

"OW! What was that for?" he pouted and i stuck my tongue out childishly.

"Oh, i just didn't want to die today is all! Maybe tomorrow!" i grinned. Looking around, i noticed something. "Where's everybody else?" Before anyone could say anything, a hand clasped over my mouth, nose and eyes.

...a man from behind her approached and gagged her with a foul smelling cloth. Before she could drift into unconsiosness, Ichigo heard the begs and screams of her mother piercing the night, asking to spare the child, cold laughter and a gunshot that will forever echoe in Ichigo's mind...

I whimpered. Before anyone could comprehend anything, i grabbed the attackers head, back flipped so that i was standing behind him, twisted his arm behind his back and kneed him where the sun don't shine.

"if you want to keep your life, never do that again..." i whispered as threateningly as i possibly could.

"Ichi, calm down. Its me... Grimmjow... look? Im here! No one else..." He wrapped his arms around me, and i hugged him back. He was stiff. I must've hit him hard...

"Im sorry. Are you okay?" i mumbled.

"hey" he put his finger on my chin, lifting it up to look into my eyes. " Don't you worry about me. Are you okay?" He muttered sweet nothing into my ears, and eventually i unwrapped my self from him. If anybody that didn't go to this school saw me and him, they'd think we were an item. However, the whole school knows that that is just our relationship. Were always hugging, were always teasing. We even hold hands.

"Yep, i' m all good!"

"! Ichi, your BADASS!" Nnoitra drawled out loudly. I grinned and shrugged my shoulders innocently.

"What can i say? Im black belt in Karate after all..." He took a step back, raising his hands, palms facing me.

"remind me not to get you angry" he mumbled.

"Thats my girl!" Tesla ruffled my hair and i pouted .

"What's going on? You look like you've seen a ghost, JaguerJaques."

A voice from behind us sounded, quitly but loud enough. I turned and laughed freely.

"ULQUI-CHAAAAN!" I ran towards him and hugged him, while he shook his head and chuckled quitly. It seemed like i was the only one that could make Ulquirra laugh, let alone crack a smile. I asked him why that was, and he shrugged, telling me that i was different and i was the only one that made him happy. That made me feel so good inside.

"Oh, Grimmjow 's just shocked cus Ichi just totally kicked his ass!" Tesla said loudly, purposely attracting attention. Some people stared incredulously while some sniggered. A blush colored Grimmjow 's cheek, before he scoweled.

"Course not! I was just caught off gaurd. But i have to admit... you have a really good kick..."

I laughed at that.

"Ichigo!" Starrk called me and i waved. He ran over to me, grinning wolfishly, and picked me up. He twirled me around and i screamed and giggled.

"Put me down!" To be honest, i really enjoyed it when starrk picked me up like that.

Distinctively, i heard Grimmjow mutter, " Why doesn't she kick him?" And i chuckled. Starrk, Ulquirra, Nnoitra and tesla were like the best brothers ever. Grimmjow was different. I've accepted long ago that i liked Grimmjow. He doesn't like me back, that i was sure of. But even if he did (which he doesn't.) he's still going out with queen bee Rukia Kuchiki. All of a sudden, i was dropped softly onto the ground. I looked around, alarmed, before i relaxed. Oh, its okay. Starrk just fell asleep. Again. This happened all the time. It was completely normal. The bell rang, and we all went to class, Grimmjow and Nnoitra carrying a still sleeping starrk.

"Kurosaki saaaaaaan! Welcome!" i wince, before turning around and smiling at Urahara sensei.. Living with him for a long time, i had gotten used to his shenanigans. After all, he is my uncle...my very crazy uncle whom i adored

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A 13 year old Ichigo sat silently on a park bench, the wind whipping through her long orange hair. She gripped the necklace her mom gave he in her fist. This very day, Masaki Kurosaki died. This very minute was her last. Ichigo missed her. Her smiles, her laughs, her eyes, her everything. A part of her died with her mother. She missed the hugs, the talks... just everything. A sob racked through her body, soon followed by another before she was full out crying.

"CASA! Why did you have to leave me! Why couldn't you stay? I need you!" She screamed into the heavens. "WHY,WHY,WHY!" She screamed over and over again, not even caring about the fact that she was at the park at night all alone. A pair of strong arms ravelled around her waist and she stiffened.

"Shhhh, its me ... it's okay to cry... let it go" his familiar voice soothed her, and she tightened her hold on him, screaming into his chest.

"WHERE ARE YOU, CASA!" A part of Ichigo felt grateful for her uncle. He had always been there for her. In fact, he was like a second father to her. After his daughter, Ururu, had passed away, he moved to Karakura Town for a new life as a teacher.2 years later, her father had asked her is she wanted to move for a fresh start. Immediately, she asked if she could move to Karakura town. Her father agreed, but a turn of events changed everything...

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Today was... different. Urahara sensei didn't do anything out of the ordinary. Everyone in the class room noticed. He didn't take his lollipop out, nor did i hear the music playing. Was Tessai even here today?
"Okay, class! Homework..." i tuned him out, and let my thoughts cloud my brain. My mother... my beautiful mother died on this very day. I miss her so much... i thought about everything that we did together and a silent tear slipped from my eye. Ulquirra saw from the corner of his eye, and immediately moved to comfort me surreptitiously.

"Whats wrong?" he murmured softly. He knew i hated attention, so he didn't draw any. I let every single emotion i felt, all the depression, pain, sorrow, all of the feeling i tried so hard to mask, show in my eyes. When i looked at him with those very same eyes, his widened profusely. We stared at eachother, our gazes locked until a tear from my eye broke the spell. I looked back to the front of the class, clasping my hand with his, in an iron grip. The only thing keeping me from breaking down and crying was the reassuring hand in mine, and the familiar drone that was my uncle in the background, the soft murmurs coming from him soothing me.

"Alright, class. That'll be all. Off you go! Kurosaki-san, can you stay behind after class, please?" i looked up and nearly gasped. All of the joking had left his eyes. All that was left was a look that made him look beyond his age... wiser. Speechless, i nodded. The bell rand and everyone filed out, slowly. Eventually, after the door closed, all the duo could hear was the incisive tick of the clock. It seemed that time itself dragged on and on. All was quiet, both of them thinking on how to approach the inevitable. Finally, Urahara opted for spreading his arms wide open. Waiting. I closed my eyes, and unsteadily dragged my self to him. I wrapped my arms around his waist and he held me. Then, he whispered the four words that unlocked all the walls i had built to stop the pain. All the restraints were let go when he said:

"It's okay to cry..." i howled in sheer agony and sobbed loudly, clutching his shirt, letting out everything i kept in for so long.

"i W-WANT MY M-MOM BACK! SHE LEFT ME, AND S-SHE PROMISED S-SHE'D STAY! I-I-" Bile rose in my throat , blocking my sentence. Urahara rubbed my back comfortingly, whispering soothing word into my ears. He tightened his hold on me and i found my self feeling grateful to him once again. If he didn't hold me, i would've fallen apart. I needed him, and he was there for me. After i calmed down, i felt much better. All of this pent up emotion was very difficult to maintain. And very unhealthy. And now that i let itr all go, it felt like an enormous weight had lifted off my shoulders. After what felt like an eternity, i pulled back, wiping my eyes. I sniffed,

"Thank you, Oji-san"

"You know im always here for you. Whenever you need me, i'll be here.

"Your really helping me..." He gently lifted his hand, and wiped away the tear marks on my face. " Now off you go to your next lesson, sweetheart"

"Thanks again. I love you, Oji-san" he smiled at me, wrote me a not, ruffled my hair and ushered me out.