The week following Sherlock's confession had John confined to his room, barely leaving it to carry out the mundane tasks of the day such as eating or reading the paper. Sherlock was on edge, John's absence had such an affect on him that he couldn't rest or concentrate on being bored as there was no case to solve, he wasn't thinking properly which was the central power cell of Sherlock's whole existence. There was only one thing left to do, confront the person who had started all of this.
'if it weren't for you John wouldn't be just as depressed as he had been when I had just come back? You have completely reversed his progress with that little trust exercise last week you do know that don't you?'
'I was completely shocked by your revelation too Mr Holmes'
'your impressions have no significance to John's distressed state'
As if Sherlock had said nothing Ella went on
'but I wasn't shocked at the fact that you hadn't told John being that it is a major revelation, do you want to know why I was shocked?'
He gave her a cold stare with pursed lips that told her it was irrelevant whatever she was going to say from now on.
'I was shocked because of the action itself, why did you go to the graveyard to see John? It shows great care and kindness on your part that I have only ever heard John speak of'
'the person who stands before me now and the man who was in that first session, the defensive, aggressive and critical man on that first day is the man whom everyone else sees, but only John has ever mentioned to me those moments of the man at the graveyard, the caring and almost protective friend of a vulnerable war veteran'
'caring is not an advantage' but here he was simply quoting his brother and he knew it wasn't a belief he shared, the words were limp and weak and the glaze in his eyes told Ella he didn't agree with them either.
When he watched John that day he had been anxious and worried for John's safety as well as his sanity, He could never have foreseen the extent of the affect his death would have on John. Just then Sherlock realised he was still looking on at John from afar and not actually getting involved. That was why he didn't tell John straight away about the graveyard when he got back. He didn't want to disrupt John's adjustment to his return.
He was so busy with his own thought processes that he barely heard Ella questioning him
'your relationship with John, maybe you should not so much put a title on it because nothing to do with relationships can ever easily be labelled but maybe you should question it? Is it symbiotic,independent,dependant or something more involved?'
Typical, yet another person posing the question of whether he and John were…involved physically. Physical interactions never bothered Sherlock he just preferred to apply it to the study of atoms and atomic bonding, it was the exchange of emotions that irked him. It was his one obstacle to deducing people but it also seemed an absurd idea. It was simply the release of hormones from the brain causing people to act irrationally, where he would always remain rational and logical.
But wasn't he by definition boring dull and predictable in his habits. Maybe John had changed him and maybe he would let him continue to do so because it was change and change is what makes hypotheses theories.
