Disclaimer that has been denied the last couple of chapters: Not Mine, Don't Sue, Love You.

When I started back up the stairs, I thought for a second that I thought I saw a flash of gold, the same color as Edward's eyes before they changed… I thought dreamily. Wait! What am I thinking! He was SO INCREDIBLY rude to me today! What was I thinking about his eyes?! My god. I'm losing it. But it might have been some dizziness too. I haven't eaten at all today. I did a little cheer at that that thought.

Ugh. I have the whole day ahead. Charlie's really unobservant, and unresponsive. I know that it's really painful for me to be here though, after Mom left. I look a lot like her, and its not like he's exactly subtle about the fact that he still like LOVES her. I looked outside the window, a grayish-bluish light was reflecting through the window. This is different… what is this? I wondered. I looked out the window and groaned. It was snow. Rain was bad enough, but snow was worse. Snow was just frozen rain that people could throw at you. Ugh.

I had never seen snow before though so I took a shower, brushed my teeth, and got dressed. I was really careful driving just because I knew that I would probably get into an accident if I wasn't, what with the ice and snow and my already accident prone self. I turned on my mix CD that my one friend in Phoenix made for me. John Mayer, No Such Thing was the first song. It was clear that she made it first on purpose.

"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve

I thought about my life in Phoenix. You would think I had leprosy in the middle ages the way that people treated me. I scoffed. I really was funny, considering that three guys have asked me out and one of them and even done it about 4 times. What was his name? Mike something. Whatever.

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

No shit Sherlock. Forks is my… salvation! Phoenix was horrible! My mom was SO reluctant to let me leave too. Hah. I really need to tell Karen about this. She'd never believe me though. What a friend…

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits and
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies

I was a "good girl" until I didn't eat, didn't turn in my homework, didn't go to class, didn't go to school. Not a tiny tragedy to my mom. Or a miniature disaster. She took it really hard.

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible(3x)
As long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait 'til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

I cant wait until the reunion when I come in and I'm a millionaire and they're all obese and on minimum wage. It'll show them.

Ugh. That song always makes me think that that though. I need to get over it. It won't happen. STOP BELLA!

Some more songs on the album played as I drove to school and as I missed Phoenix, well, Karen. Not Phoenix. I would check my self into rehab when I missed Phoenix. I sang along to Aside by The Weakerthans, I Believe You, But My Tommy GunDon't by Brand New, I Bet That You Look Good On The Dance Floor by Arctic Monkeys, True Affection by The Blow, and Smile by Lily Allen.

I was singing along to "Smile" in a british accent when I saw the Cullen's a couple of spaces away. I kept singing, but I saw Edward chuckle as if he was listening to me belt out my british bubblegum pop music. I laughed at the thought, it was ridiculous. He was half a dozen parking spaces away! What else would he be laughing at though?

When I got out of my truck, my eye caught on something glinting on my tire. I bent down to check it out and I saw chains strapped to my tires (a/n sorry! I don't know exactly how snow chains work/look so don't kill me if I don't describe it right!) That's so sweet of Charlie! He must have gotten up at 5 to do this and still get to work on time!

All of a sudden, I head a tire screech and see a dark blue van start spin out of control and head towards the back corner of my truck… and me. There's no way that I can move out of the way in time! My heart rate speeds up incredibly, but I manage to see Edward come out of nowhere and push me out of the way before the van has moved, but all of a sudden, my chest feels as if it's about to rip in half.

I heard a scream of agony. "Bella, Bella, what's wrong? What hurts?" Edward's silky voice seemed pained. I realized that the scream was from me. I tried, but I couldn't talk, just gasp. I heard Edward mutter "her heart rate" and ask me "Bella, does you chest hurt?" I managed a nod somehow.

People weren't even trying to get whoever was in the other car out. "When is the last time she ate?" I heard someone ask. "Bella, when did you last eat?"

"Why… Do… You… Care…?" came my strangled reply. I heard someone very sternly say "Give her room, now!" and then I felt myself being picked up.

"Bella, my name is Carlisle Cullen. I am a doctor and I need to know when you last ate. You may be having a heart attack due to starvation." I heard a new voice say. "What?! That's not possible!" A voice in the background said.

"Last… ARGGGG! Saturday…" I cried. "Don't… Charlie… No…" I felt a hand on mine. It was cold. I looked up through my tear stained eyes, and I realized that it was Edward's. "Bella, why haven't you eaten in five days?"

"Edward, she's not a position to answer that right now! You need to make a decision to change her though! Now! She doesn't have much time!" Carlisle's voice sounded strained. What are they talking about. Changing me? For what? "Edward, NOW!"

"Carlisle, she has her mom and dad. And a step-dad. Probably friends from Phoenix too! I can't change her! What if I lost control Carlisle?!"

"Life or death Edward! She would want you to do it. I'm sure of it!" Came Carlisle's voice. Life or death? That's not right? I want to live! "I want to live! What are you talking about! Don't make me die! No!" I saw Edward's pained look replaced by a mask a pure determination before I felt two sharp pricks in my neck and the fire began.

Songs That Bang.

Smile – Lily Allen

Aside – The Weakerthans

No Such Thing – John Mayer

I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't – Brand New

I Bet That You Look Good On The Dance Floor – Arctic Monkeys

True Affection – The Blow

A/N Really hope you guys liked it! Sorry about the total lack of updation. School + Volleyball + Play HECKTIC. But volleyball is over and the play ends tomorrow and school is settling down so I should have more time! Thanks for putting up with me, and I'm really sorry!