First Timer

Rating: T

"Wanna go to the bar with Uhura and Spock?"

"I can't…. gotta get stuff done for the mission…. Pike's helping." Kirk without even looking at his friend took off down the street back to Star Fleet. Maybe if ran people wouldn't notice.

"Hi Jim," Pike's smile made him feel so good, so safe. It was like something refreshing and comforting, like a security blanket during a rain storm.

"This is it," Pike nodded. He heard their new friend come out of the adjacent office, Kirk didn't know what to think.

"Hi, Chris.. So this is the cadet you were telling me about,"

"Yup, this is my best student, and he's also my God son, James Kirk."

"Hi, nice to meet you," Kirk nodded, he iked this guy already. No mention of George.

"First you gotta tell me how you saved this guys life from a Romulan…" the attention was genuine and Jim liked to brag about his rescues.

"Oh it was simple, once I killed the one guarding him," ike put his arm around him, squeezing his shoulder.

"OK… Jimmy, now tell me how it was like when Spock said you couldn't go get him," his stomach went cold like ice, and he wantd to puke all over.

"It… I… I…"

"Shhhhh, shhhh, easy Jimmy, you're OK…" right Pike was with him he wasn't with strangers…

'Or… did Pike's capture give you feelings of not being able to see your dad and losing someone else was just too much,"

"What you just said," he could deal, this wasn't a big deal, he'd had worse; Spock, nero, not having his dad with him. But his dad had given him Pike, and Pike was the best thing that ever happened to him.

"I know about the test, not need to explain," Jim raised an eyebrow.

"I think everyone does, sir." Pike gave him a glare. Right he couldn't push it, this was therapy.

"The falling dreams are common because of what happened, but I do not trust you to be alone right now…." Came the soft reply back.

"Oh my friends are…" well they had no idea what had gone on, and then again they had no clue he was here.

"Dr McCoy is great, and Commander Spock is…"

"Responsible for the separation anxiety you feel now, cadet…" Kirk nodded slowly, he looked away.

"You are conflicted?" he didn't want to do this anymore, bt he needed to get this out before he exploded.

"HE SHOULDN'T HAVE LEFT Captain Pike there." the sound that came out of him must have been so angst filled because Pike had his head in his lap, hoding him a slight headlock, rubbing his blond hair.

"Shhhhhhhhhhh, shhhhhhhhh, Jimmy I'm here, I'm here… That's it, that's a good boy, I'm right here, son." He never had anyone witness his special snuggle moments with Pike. They were reserved, they were private, they were his. He didn't feel well, he wanted to get knocked out til the bad stuff was all gone.

"Chris," he heard a breathy whisper above him.

'I think I can help this one…" Pike smiled wide, looking down at his broken sper star, his poor baby that all he wanted was to hug him tight and never let go.

"He is my own find and I made him, just be extra careful…"

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How Jim got to his quarters and was lying in bed, with Spock's watchful eye he had no idea. Uhura had brought over some food and tea, and Scotty had eaten already, but sat with the pair just to keep Jim company. He had the best friends/crew ever.

"I'm starving," he sat up and was handed a sandwich, his taste buds didn't care what it was.

"Jim," Spock was serious as ever, and scared too.

"Yes Commander,"

"Jim, we all know whats up? OK? Please do not feel ashamed to tell an of us anything," Uhura said gently, she looked at Spock and he nodded.

"Captain, I am so sorry, please…" was that a lump in Spock's throat? NO WAY! Jim motioned for him to sit down on the bed.

"Spock…"

"No…" his head was down and he was truly sorry. Jim would've comforted him but he was starving.

"We'll talk Spock. You didn't do it…" he was so hungry and tired he really didn't care what happened.

"OK, Captain." He was happy everyone was OK. Well as to be expected.