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Chapter four-

Tears-

Bella POV-

I ran out of the hospital with a hand clasp over my mouth, trying to stifle the sobs and screams that were somehow escaping from it. I hadn't even realized that I'd been crying until I saw some wary glances in the elevator. They hadn't been from nurses or doctors, though. When I met those later on down the hallway they simply ignored me, after all I was just another person crying in a hospital. Not exactly a rare occurrence.

I started running towards the parking lot, and then stopped, realizing that I had left Alice waiting outside of my mother's hospital room. I picked up my phone and dialed her number, only to be interrupted by her calling me.

"Hello?" It came out more as a sniffle, but I think she still understood the intention.

"I'll pick you up in the car. We'll talk about it later."

With that, she hung up. I sighed to myself. Alice always knew when to just shut up and let me think. Regardless of what other people thought, she didn't constantly talk and shop. She is probably the best friend anyone could ever have.

She pulled up in her shiny new car and waved me over. I settled in the passenger seat, and then leaned forward to rest my head on the glove compartment.

"Now?"

I shook my head. No, I didn't want to talk now. I doubted that I'd ever want to talk.

"Edward will be mad that I brought you back like this." She wasn't really talking to me, more mumbling to herself, but her words were still clear. I wasn't sure if I should laugh or cry. Cry because I felt guilty about this happening when I was with Alice, or laugh about her comment. Yes, Edward would probably be mad, but certainly not at her.

I shook my head and looked at her, attempting to smile.

She drove quickly down the streets, and I prayed she didn't hit ice. I hated driving in the winter, and now my parents accident had only added onto that fear. All too quickly I found myself in front of the apartment building, just kind of looking at it.

Alice came up behind me and scanned her card, opening the doors with both her and my bags in her hand. She led the way to Edwards apartment, and I followed her. When she got to the door she stood to the side and waited patiently for me to unlock it.

It was completely silent.

"I'll stop by later tonight and we can talk, okay?"

I nodded, and she left, going back to Jaspers apartment.

I peeked into Connors room, knowing that if they were here they'd both be in there. Sure enough, there was Edward with Connor on his chest, both of them asleep.

I smiled weakly and went into the bedroom, setting my bags down. Then I crawled in under the covers still in my clothes, crying silently until sleep claimed me, ending the pain.

Edwards POV-

I knew that something was wrong when Bella didn't come and wake me up when she got home. The sky was dark and the clock above Connors crib said that it was 9:43pm. Bella should have gotten home hours ago. I glanced down onto my chest where Connor was still sleeping, his little hand balled up into a fist that was tucked against his face. I set him into the crib and put a lightweight blanket over him. I'd learned that he didn't like to be hot when he was sleeping.

I walked towards the kitchen, where I had left my cell phone so that I could call Bella and ask where she was. I Normally wouldn't be the type to call the minute someone is late, but Bella had left in the early afternoon, and said she would only be gone a couple of hours at the most.

I caught a figure in the corner of my eye, lying on our bed, which startled me until I realized that it was Bella. Frowning, I walked towards her. She was curled up under the blankets, fast asleep. Her face was wet, like she'd been crying. I settled myself in down beside her, and wrapped my arm around her, trying to wake her up. She did so easily.

"Bella? What's wrong? What happened?" My questions bombarded her, as her eyes started to fill up with tears. My heart sank at the image. I hated it when Bella cried. IT felt like my heart was trying to rip itself out of my chest, from the tugging feeling I felt there.

"Oh, Edward, it was horrible. They'd only come here to break Jake out of jail. She doesn't think he did anything wrong. She wasn't even bothered by Charlie's death; she just said something about how they knew it could be a possibility. What am I supposed to do now? I'm the one responsible for her. I know it's wrong to just leave her there, but I don't know if I could go back…" She waved her hand aimlessly, trailing off. I hugged her closer to me, crushing my body against hers. Her body shook as she took in a large breath, which was followed by countless sobs as she cried out the days events.

I couldn't blame her. I was enraged, personally. I couldn't believe that Renee would say that to her own daughter. I'd thought parents were supposed to support you, but clearly that was not what Renee and Charlie had believed. I wondered if they had been told some lie a long time ago that gave them some reason to distance themselves from their only child. I mean, sure, parents wished for a boy or girl all the time, but they still loved them even if it turned out their child was born the opposite sex they'd been hoping for. It just seems like the excuse her parents had given her wasn't exactly valid.

I shook my head, cradling Bella against me as we spent a very, very long night just trying to get through this.

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Edward POV-

I'd thought that the morning would be better.

I was wrong.

The morning passed as the night did, with Bella's empty sobs and me holding her, my shirt soaked from her numerous tears. There had to be some point where you became so dehydrated you couldn't cry anymore, right? We should have reached that point hours ago. I had left once Bella had fallen asleep last night to call Emmett, asking him to pick up Connor in the morning. This way, Bella and I could be together without having to worry about what Connor was getting himself into. He had been ecstatic, of course. It had been a while since he had been with his favorite 'nephew', as he had taken to calling him.

"Bella?"

I was replied to by a snuffle.

"I'm going to make some toast, you need to eat something. Alright?" I brushed some hair off of her face that had stuck to it with the wetness of her tears.

"Okay. Can I shower first, though?" Her big brown eyes looked up at me, and I couldn't help myself as I leaned down to kiss her forehead.

"Of course, Bella. It will probably make you feel better. I'll start the toast when I hear you get out, okay?"

"Okay. Thank you." She sniffled once more, and then made her way to the bathroom, closing the door behind her.

I did what I'd said I would. I got dressed for the day and made the bed, picking up the house a bit until I heard her get out of the shower. It did surprise me, though, when I felt her long arms wrap around my waist. When I jumped in surprise I could feel her chuckle.

"You were right, of course. I do feel a lot better." Her cool lips pressed against the back of my neck, and I turned around to kiss her properly. The toaster popping up with our breakfast interrupted us.

Bella groaned, and I smiled at her reaction. It had started to become harder and harder to stop myself with Bella lately. It was nice to know that she felt the same way. At least along some lines, anyways. Some days I was sure that she would be the death of me, although that had yet to happen.

We ate our toast in silence, Bella deep in thought about something. I would assume it was about either her father, her mother, Jacob Black, or all of them. If she was, though, she had gotten surprisingly stronger since her shower, because her eyes never showed any trace of tears in them while we were eating.

"Bella?" I looked at her when I had finished my toast.

"Hmm?" She lifted her face up a bit, so that the sunlight hit it fully. Even though we had been living together for a couple of months there were still moments when she was so incredibly beautiful it literally took my breath away. I shook my head to clear it before I continued.

"Are you feeling better?" She nodded quickly, and then took both of our napkins and put them in the trash, going to the counter to wipe up the crumbs I'd left there. How was it that women found things like that so quickly? I swear, Bella could spot dirt away from across the apartment.

"I'm so incredibly glad." I pulled her towards me for yet another hug, letting our kiss linger for a few moments before pulling away.

"So am I." She smiled at me. A weak one, but I could tell that it wasn't forced.

"I want to talk to you about something."

"Alright. What is it?" She walked over to sit on the couch and I followed her, sitting down next to her. She leaned against the armrest and propped her feet up in my lap.

"What would you say about finding a house in town?"

It took her a minute to think, and process. "Why do you want to move out of the apartment?"

"I just want Connor to have room to run and play. The apartment complex doesn't really have a yard, much less one big enough to play with or put a swing set up in. Plus, let's admit it, this apartment isn't big enough for a growing little boy. Soon he's going to be running around and this place is going to feel claustrophobic."

"So we would be going with you?" Her voice wavered at the end. I motioned for her to come over and I held her close to me. I can't believe she thought I would move without her. That's exactly the thing she would do, and I should have seen it sooner.

"Of course, silly. If it was just me I would stay here. But I consider you and Connor a permanent part of my life, even if you've only been here for a few months. We've been through a lot together, Bella. I'm not just going to ditch you. Please promise me you'll never forget that."

She blushed, of course.

"I- I'm sorry. I just thought, well, I don't know what I was thinking. I know it isn't exactly fun all of the time to have a toddler in the house. But what will you do with your office? You work here, your office is here. You'll have to drive to work if we move." She reasoned. I couldn't figure out why she was protesting this. I'd thought that she'd be excited, much like Alice would be. I'd seen the way her apartment had been decorated, even though she'd just moved in. I would have thought she'd be jumping at the chance to have a clean canvas for her ingenious designs.

"We can have an office in our house, but I'm thinking about just working at the Law Firm all the time, now. Emmett still works here, and so do you. I understand if you don't want to now that you'll have to drive, but you'd have to drive for any job."

"Oh, no, I would still want to work here. Just, Edward, a house is expensive, are you sure about this?" She looked me in the eyes, and I could see her excitement growing.

"Of course, Bella. I actually have a place that I'd like to go look at tonight. Would you like to come with? I've already cleared it with Emmett." I looked at her hopefully, praying that she'd finally given in.

"Of course I would! I have to call Alice now." She immediately declared, suddenly serious. "She would probably kill me if she wasn't included."

I picked up my cell phone and called Emmett, to let him know she had agreed to going and visiting the house, while I heard Bella talking to Alice, her thoughts away from yesterdays events, which was the goal for talking about this now, all along.

I got my eyelid stabbed today. I wish i could find a statistic on how often that happens. It was bleeding like crazy, too! My friend is lucky i flinch easily..

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