Ch 4
As Gillian, Kat, and Ria reviewed the video Kat couldn't help but notice Tonya's discomfort. It somehow seemed like this was causing her a great deal of anxiety. She looked to Ria and Gillian, trying to see if they noticed it as well. Finally she couldn't help but speak up, "Gillian, I don't know if I'm getting this wrong, but she seems… uneasy. I know this case is about her best friend, but it seems like more than that."
Gillian slowed the tape for a second, seeing the slight contempt, and disgust on Tonya's face. She smiled, "Very good Kat. Ria can you run back the video. I want to see what she says there."
Ria ran the video back, looking slightly annoyed that she didn't catch the expression, "Here this is where it starts."
A moment later they hear Tonya's voice flow through the speakers, "It's really my boss I think you should be talking to. Ray is into some heavy stuff."
"What kind of stuff?" Ria asks on the video.
"Like illegal stuff. I can't really talk about it."
"If your boss is doing something illegal you need to tell the police about it," Ria stated, a look of concern on her face.
"I can't. I just can't. He's got too many people, in too many places. They would eventually find me."
Gillian piped up on the tape, "Tonya, we can't force you to do anything you don't want to, but I do believe that you should go to the police if you have any information that your boss is into anything illegal. They can protect you."
Tonya shook her head sadly, "Not from him."
Gillian gave her another comforting smile, "Ok, thanks for coming in Tonya. I really appreciate you taking your lunch for this. Would you wait here for another minute?"
Ria stopped the video, knowing that they already had what they needed. "So… we need to talk to the boss."
Gillian nodded, standing, "We do. Kat could you take Tonya back to work, and see if there is any way that you could get her boss back here."
Kat looked flashed a look of fear, "How am I supposed to do that?"
Gillian smiled, "You'll think of something."
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A little while later they decided to take a short break for lunch. Torres went into the break room, as she was getting an apple out of the refrigerator she heard Loker's voice from behind her.
"So how are things going on the Mitchell case?" He asked nonchalantly.
Ria eyed him suspiciously, "That's not what you wanted to ask me, is it. What happened to your radical honesty? Taking a break?"
Loker smirked, "Ok, if you want the truth. What are the odds of me getting a date with Kat?"
Ria was suddenly speechless. She opened her mouth to answer, and then shut it again. She wasn't surprised to hear him ask the question, but after Kat's explanation she didn't quite know how to answer. Loker picked up on her hesitation, and the sadness that flashed across her face, "What is it?"
"It's just… if you do ask her out, be careful ok? She's had a hard time, she deserves better than what she's gotten in the past. Don't hurt her." With those words Ria left, leaving Loker standing in the middle of the room looking completely baffled.
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Gillian went to Cal's office while they had their small break. She knocked on the door, hearing a come in, she opened the door and stepped inside. Cal was sitting behind his desk, in much the same manner as he had been when she came in earlier. He looked up from his files as she stepped closer to the desk. He could tell that something was wrong immediately. The happy, confident Gillian that he normally saw was replaced by someone that looked beaten down, on the verge of tears.
"What's wrong, Love?" Cal asked quickly shedding his glasses and walking to the other side of the desk.
Gillian couldn't even respond as she threw herself into Cal's open arms. She started crying and thought she would never be able to stop. Cal simply held her as her body wracked with sobs. He hadn't seen her like this since she lost Sophie. It was unnerving. Cal continued holding her and whispering softly to her until the tears subsided.
She finally looked up, seeing the look of concern on his face she knew she needed to explain, but she didn't know where to begin. She looked down to his pale blue shirt again, seeing that it was now stained with her mascara, "Sorry, I'll get you a new one."
"Don't worry about it." He stated simply, not vocalizing the question, but asking with his eyes.
"Kat just brought up some things when we were reviewing the tape of a witness. It hit home a little harder than I expected it would." She tried to smile, failing miserably.
"What did she say?" He asked gently, stroking her arm that was still shaking.
"She just told me about her life. She can't have children either."
He said nothing, but his eyes spoke volumes. He felt for her, knowing that this was a tough subject for her.
"Did I ever tell you why I can't have children?" She asked, looking into his eyes.
"I don't believe you have Love. All I ever knew was infertility issues."
She took a deep breath before starting, "It was my sophomore year in college. I had been seeing this guy, Dan, for a few weeks. He was cute, but I didn't feel like it was going anywhere. We hadn't done any more than kiss, but I could tell he wanted more. Finally one night when he took me out, I had to tell him that it was over. I couldn't lie to him anymore; it didn't feel right stringing him along. He seemed ok with it. He even asked if we could stay friends. I didn't see it as a problem, he was great to talk to."
"But, that night as I was walking back to my dorm he attacked me." She paused, looking into his eyes. He saw the hurt, shame, and fear in them. He didn't need her to continue to know that she had been raped. "A few weeks later I found out that I was pregnant. I was mortified. There was no way I could tell my parents. I had no one that I could lean on. One week later I started to have a shooting pain in my stomach. My roommate took me into the ER. She thought that it was my appendix." She gave a short laugh. "They rushed me into surgery. That's when they told me that I had lost the baby. When they were taking it, some of their instruments... damaged things. It wasn't worth it to file a lawsuit; the damage was already done by then." She stopped suddenly, not knowing what to say next, the tears free flowing again.
He didn't need her to say anything else. He took her back into his arms and held her close until the tears subsided once more. Cal looked into Gillian's eyes when she finally stopped crying. She smiled shyly, not knowing exactly what to say. She'd just told him something incredible, something she'd told very few people in her entire life. Alec had been the only other person to know.
Cal brushed a stray strand of hair behind her ear and gently stroked her jaw with his thumb. "You ok, Love?"
She sighed, "I don't really know."
He leaned in and placed a light kiss in her forehead, "Thank you for telling me."
"I had to tell someone. You were the only person I trusted."
He looked down for a second, thinking, then back up at her, "I'm happy to hear that. You know you can tell me anything right Love?"
Gillian just nodded and snuggled her head into his neck.
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AN- Tell me what you think. I know it's pretty sad, but I had to have Gill relate to Kat.
