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"Sure let's see what you got baby Scott!" Skillz said smiling and I was becoming overwhelmed again with the feeling of comfort. How were these people reacting so well? At first they're shocked then after I explain a little they're completely calm. It was amazing. I could see why these guys were so close they were all good people. I smirked stripping him of the ball and going in for a lay up making it easily.
"Oh 2 points for team Scott!" Mouth said happily sitting back down commentating the rest of the game.
I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
For the next hour we played basketball. It was so much fun just hanging out. Surprisingly there wasn't any tension at all. I didn't know these guys and they didn't know me very well, but we were getting along. Lucas's friends were hilarious. From what I could tell they'd all been really close forever. The way they made fun of each other and teased the other made me a little jealous again. I never had true friends like this, but I was glad Lucas and Nathan did. It sounds like those two have been through a lot together. I mean hating each other for 17 years and now they're best friends? That's crazy in my opinion. You can see in the way they both play basketball how passionate they are about the game. I could have sensed it last year that they were brothers. How weird is it I was in the gym with them watching them play as strangers now we're still strangers, but related and I'm playing with them!
"Scott brings the ball down the court he dishes it to the other Scott who drives in and at the last second fakes Fergie out and passes it to the wide open Baby Scott who catches it and BOOM 3 pointer! Team Scott still dominating the game!" Mouth exclaimed enthusiastically. I loved the way he was commentating I wished I could see him do that during a real game.
"Nice shot Allie you really are good!" Nathan said running up to me. I gave him a small smile.
"Thanks you're okay too I guess." I said knowing he would get offended that I didn't gush about how good he's been playing. I was right.
"I'm okay?" He said questioningly. I knew he was kidding, but he looked serious. I nodded.
"Have you not been paying any attention out here Allison?" He asked. My eyes narrowed. I hated when people called me Allison.
"All right Natie let's get one thing straight I absolutely hate being called Allison. First of all second of all I've been trying to keep up with Skillz who is pretty damn good so no I haven't been paying attention to your game. Why don't you go ahead and tell me again how good you are." I finished sarcastically rolling my eyes.
"Umm why don't we get another thing straight. No one and I mean no one calls me Natie, Allison." He said looking right through me. "First of all. Second of all your keeping up with Skillz just fine so don't worry about that and third of all we have 35 points and 15 of them are mine so what do you have to say, smartass?" He challenged. I was about to say something back when Skillz interrupted.
"You damn Scotts are so self centered!" He said. "Can we please get back to the game or are you two going to keep fighting about how good you are and what names you hate?" He asked. I looked around and saw everyone staring at me and Nathan. I don't know why, but I liked bickering with him. I wouldn't count this fighting or even arguing. We were doing what I see siblings in movies do all the time and I loved it. It was easy hanging out with everyone here. I could easily get used to this. I had to shake my head knowing that wouldn't happen and I shouldn't care, but I did.
"Actually we can just call it game I'm tired." Lucas said. He did look tired. I felt bad he probably wouldn't be so tired if he had slept in his bed. I had to admit I was getting pretty tired to.
"That's cool." The other guys agreed.
"So next it won't be Scotts against everyone else we're going to change it up a bit." Fergie said. I smiled a little. Nathan and Lucas were incredible. This year when they played Bear Creek it would be interesting. I wonder if it would be awkward since it would be a while until that game and tomorrow I was leaving.
"Allie you're better than decent." Junk said.
"Thanks I uh used to hang out with some guys who love basketball." I said not going into detail about those guys.
"Who are they did they play last year?" Lucas asked catching his breath. I sighed regretting even bringing them up.
"They didn't play in your game, but they are on varsity. Patrick Wilson and Jack Stewart." I said the names trying to hide my hatred.
"I don't recognize them." Lucas said.
"Hopefully we'll play them this year." Nathan said. God I hope so that way Nathan could kick their ass.
"That would be fun." I said.
"So Allie after Karen gets back tomorrow and tells you guys everything what are you going to do?" Mouth asked.
I''ll be coming home
Just to be alone
"Once I find out what happened back then I'll head back to Charlotte and hang out the rest of the summer, then go back to school in the fall." I said realizing how awful that sounded.
Cause I know you're not there
And I know that you don't care
"Can't you stay?" Skillz asked. I looked up and had to smile. These people were far too nice for me to be around. I wasn't blessed with this kind of good fortune to know anyone like this.
"I don't think so. We can't be out from the foster home for too long, it's against the rules. And I don't really know what I would do here if I stayed. Karen probably wants me to go after she tells the story and I understand that. I did just crash in without warning." I explained.
I can hardly wait to leave this place
"Even if you had called or wrote first it still would leave everyone with the same reaction." Fergie said.
"True it's not everday some random girl comes in and says she's a few peoples sisters." I tried to joke. The boys chuckled softly.
"If it would happen to anyone it would have something to do with Dan Scott." Mouth said.
"Yeah that's another reason why I'm thinking you're his daughter." Nate said.
"I guess tomorrow we'll find out." I said getting more nervous by the second.
The next day
"She's going to be here any second." Lucas said flipping through the channels on the tv never stopping on anything to see what's playing. I sat next to him with my arms crossed over my chest pretending that this was all going to be okay when I knew it wasn't. In about an hour I'm sure I'll be on my way back to Charlotte where I'll be completely alone. I knew it was stupid coming here, but me being a dumbass decided to come anyway. Nathan was sitting in the chair I sat the night before with his face in his hands. Neither boy was saying much and it wasn't calming my nerves at all.
No matter how hard I try
You're never satisfied
"Everything will be fine." The muffled response from Nathan came. I wasn't sure if he was trying to convince himself of that or if he was answering my thoughts again like he had earlier and like Lucas had.
"I'm answering your thoughts by the way." Came the next response just as muffled as the last, but I understood it perfectly. My eyes widened and turned to him. Lucas was zoned out still panickly going from channel to channel not even hearing Nathan.
This is not a home
I think I'm better of alone
"I'm sorry what?" I asked. It sounded like he could basically read my mind.
"I really don't know why but for some reason I'm intercepting your thoughts. They keep jumping in my head while I'm trying to think I can hear them almost perfectly when I concentrate." He said lifting his head from his hands. I continued to stare at him in disbelief. Automatically my mind went blank. I didn't know what the hell he was talking about, but if that was true he didn't need to be intruding on my thoughts and find things out he was never meant to know.
You always disappear
Even when you're here
"So what you're psychic you can read people's minds?" I asked.
"No I've never done that before but for whatever reason like earlier in the car when you were wanting the guys to like you I reassured you they would to ease your fears. And I was right they loved you." He finished. I still wasn't believing this. So whenever he wanted he could jump into my head and read my thoughts. Seriously, what the fuck?
"I know it's fucked up, but I can't help it. I'm trying to concentrate on something else because I can feel how nervous you are and that's not calming my nerves and I know it's not calming Lucas's either because he won't stop on a channel for more than half a second." He said once again answering my thoughts. This type of thing wasn't possible.
"Okay so you can read my mind Nathan. Whatever just stop reading it there's nothing in there worth knowing. Not to mention it's a complete invasion of privacy." I said glaring at him.
"I'm the one who feels like the freak when I'm trying to relax and all I hear is your voice." He said glaring back. That's weird.
'Concentrate on anything else Nathan Karen will be here soon calm down.' He thought and I immediately looked at him. There's no way I just heard that.
"Whoa." I whispered.
"Annoying isn't it?" He said rubbing his temples while his elbows rested on his thys. He knew I just heard him. What is going on?
"Umm that's impossible I can't read anyone's mind." I said.
"That's what my thought process was this morning when I first heard your thoughts in the car. I don't know what the hell this is, but it's like some sort of connection or something." He said tiredly. So while I'm waiting for my birth mom to get here I discover I have a super power I can read my almost brother's mind. That's ridiculous. He and I aren't connected by anything with our minds.
"Will you two stop thinking so loud I'm trying really hard to focus on what I'm doing here." An irritated Lucas said not taking his eyes from the screen. Nathan and I looked at him.
"Look guys we're all freaking out here because of the abnormal situation and we're stressed, but you both need to stop worrying about the fact you can read each other's mind's and start mentally preparing yourselves because I just heard the cab door close so in about 30 seconds she's walking through that door." He said setting the remote down leaving the tv on what a surprise ESPN again.
"You don't think it's a little bit strange?" I asked trying to slow my heartrate down. Not to mention I could practically hear both Nathan and Lucas's they were as nervous as I was. Lucas turned to look at me.
'I'm trying to think of other things I'll freak out over it after we get this figured out.' He thought and once again shock over came me. How is any of this happening?
"Luke." Nathan said quietly. I looked at him he heard it to.
"I don't know, but Nate you might be right I think it's some weird temporary connection that made this happen. I'm not usually prone to being a mind reader." He finished with an unreadable expression. This was all too much it really was. I didn't have anymore time to have an anxiety attack over this odd situation with Nathan and Lucas because Karen came walking through the door and my eyes were glued. Literally every thought went away all I could see was my real mom standing 10 feet away from me.
This is not my home
I think I'm better off alone
"Oh my god." She whispered when she saw me. I guess when she gave me up she really didn't think she'd see me again. Without noticing I stood up. For this occasion I was wearing a khacki skirt with a blue short sleeved shirt. I took a step forward slowly, cautiously so I could keep this image in my head forever.
"Hi." I said in the same tone as her. She had tears in her eyes as she came right in front of me. I was the same height as her.
"I'm sorry I'm still shocked you're here Allie." She said my name differently than Veronica said it. She said it softly, gently the way a mother should talk to their child.
"I'm sorry I didn't call." I whispered as my own eyes filled with tears. She nodded.
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home
"I guess I have a lot of explaining to do." She said trying to smile at her joke. Lucas and Nathan stood up as well.
"Mom." Lucas acknowledged. He was glad she was back, but couldn't understand how she could keep this big of a secret from him.
"Karen." Nathan said nodding. She smiled at them and sat down on the couch opposite of the one me and Lucas were sitting on.
"I don't even know where to begin." Karen said. The three of us sat down.
By the time you come home
I'm already stoned
"I'm sure you're wondering why I'm here." I said finally finding my voice. She nodded. There was lots of tension.
"My adoptive parents died and I've been living in an orphanage or foster home whichever you prefer to call it." I said and she looked sad.
"I'm so sorry they died I had met them only once before you were born and they seemed like good people." She said. I had to choke back a bitter laugh. Sure they seemed like good people. They were anything but. It was also nice to know she had only met them once. Jesus that was a sign of how she felt.
"Yeah. Richard was a lawyer and when they died his friends and partners at the firm immediately tried getting the will read, but aparantley they started looking for my birth parents and Saturday they came and gave me this." I took the folder off the coffee table and handed it to her. She started looking through it. Shock was still written on her face, but the rest of her posture was composed.
"This has everything, the papers everyone signed, all my information they did their research." She said. I was getting the impression she never wanted to be found by me.
"I never thought much about finding you so I was as shocked as you are when they gave me that. I couldn't help but be curious so I took the risk and came here." I explained. And she nodded again, but she looked at me and smiled. It wasn't forced it was a genuine smile. It gave me comfort and hope. I smiled back.
"I understand I would have done the same thing. You must be so confused right?" She asked. I nodded.
"I think I need to start and tell you who your father is. He doesn't know about you and I'm sorry for that I'm just so sorry for everything, but at the time I didn't have hardly any money and I was trying to open up the cafe and it was hard enough paying the mortgage and feeding Lucas I just couldn't handle it. I know that's not an excuse I'm so sorry Allie I want you to know that if I could do it again I wouldn't give you up." She finished and half way through that her tears spilled out and all of my anger went away. I hated watching people cry. I bit my lip preventing my own tears.
You turn off the tv
And you scream at me
"Who's my father?" I asked knowing it wouldn't change anything he doesn't know about me. She held her shaking hands together in her lap and she couldn't meet my eyes.
"I'm sorry because if I could do it over I wouldn't have slept with him, because he's not a good person. He's manipulative and mean and you deserve so much better than him." She sobbed out. I felt Lucas instinctively take my hand in his. She just admitted that she wish she never slept with him. She wishes I was never born.
I can hardly wait
Til you get of my case
'That's not true she wanted you.' Lucas thought sensing all my discomfort.
'He cheated on my mom.' Nathan thought. He knew their marriage wasn't perfect. And at first thought of Dan being Allie's father he couldn't get the fact he had a sister out of his head he didn't even think of how this would affect his mom. At the moment she was in rehab, but still she and Karen were friends.
'I'm sorry Nathan.' I thought and stole a glance at him.
"I don't ever have to meet him, I just want to know who he is." I said quietly looking at her crying. She wiped her eyes.
"Dan Scott." She said and I nodded. So I was a Scott.
"Mom I don't understand." Lucas said looking lost and confused.
"I'm sorry Lucas I know I should've told you." She tried to explain.
"Yeah you should have. Didn't you think that one day she might want to know her real parents?" He asked angrily.
No matter how hard I try
You're never satisfied
'Luke man it's okay. Let her explain.' Nathan told him through his thoughts.
'This is bullshit she should have told me.' He thought back. I squeezed his hand trying to calm him down. Was it even more strange I had only met him 2 days ago?
"I'm sorry." Karen said vulnerably. She continued.
"Let me explain Lucas you were only 2 in a half when she was born I couldn't tell you then you wouldn't understand and her parents didn't want her to ever interact with me. I was so happy to find people who wanted to raise her I didn't want to upset them." She said as more tears started to form in her eyes. So Richard and Veronica never wanted me to meet Karen or Dan. That wasn't surprising.
This is not a home
I think I'm better off alone
"You still could have told me anytime. How could you hide that from Dan for 9 months?" He asked. He was calmer.
"Dan and I almost never interacted with each other until you joined the basketball team last year so it wasn't hard and Keith was so supportive." She said sadly thinking about her lost best friend.
"So Keith knew you slept with Dan again?" Lucas asked. She nodded ashamed. I knew she was ashamed and embarrassed of me.
"Allie I know this sounds so horrible me saying it was a mistake sleeping with Dan, but throughout the whole pregnency I never wanted to give you up. I didn't regret having you I knew you would have a better life since I couldn't be a good mother for you." She finished quietly. She looked genuinley sorry and sad she gave me up.
You always disappear
Even when you're here
"I get it. From what the boys told me Dan isn't a good dad or person so I guess it's better I don't know him." I said not really feeling like talking.
"It is much better he'd probably try to control you if he ever met you then he'd make your life a living hell." Nathan said. I understood. I knew all about horrible dads.
"That's fine I was more interested in meeting you anyway." I said looking at Karen. She looked fragile. I wanted to be mad and scream why she couldn't give me a chance, but I didn't need to. She didn't have money and hatedmy father so it makes perfect sense.
This is not my home
I think I'm better off alone
"I still can't figure out when you and Dan would've..." Lucas trailed off not wanting those disturbing images in his head. Karen looked down again reliving the bad memory.
"Almost 16 years ago I went to New York trying to get a loan and when I got back to the hotel Dan was there at the bar having a drink. I was so surprised to see him and he was just as surprised to see me." She started and I could almost fill in all the blanks. They got drunk maybe some old feelings resurfaced and I was the result of their one night stand.
"I don't know what came over me, but I sat down. He said he was there trying to open another dealership in a bigger city and before I knew it a few hours passed and his room was on the same floor as mine and you know." She finished with regret in her eyes but there was also a little bit of emptiness. I wondered why she was empty. Why were any of us empty? Hell I stopped caring when I realized I'd be that way forever. I stopped thinking for a minute wondering if Luke or Nate heard what I was thinking just then. I couldn't get a read on either of them. God what is with us? For minutes at a time we can read each other's minds then it just goes away?
"He was married to Deb." Lucas said. It was a statement. He was still mad at his mom and he wanted her to admit to it.
"That's the only thing I really regret. I'm so sorry Nathan it was very unexpected and it hasn't come close to happening again. I wish I could blame it all on him and that's why I hate him so much now, but I hate myself because I knew how bad he is and I still did that. Not to mention Deb has become a good friend to me." She stopped. It was obvious she knew how big of a mistake she'd made. Even though she told me it was a mistake sleeping with him it seemed like she only thought that because he was married and because of what he did to her and Lucas. I was sorry for Lucas for having to go through that, but she said she didn't regret having me.
"Honestly hearing all of this I probably would have done the same thing." I said looking down. I didn't know that for sure, but I wanted to try to give her some comfort. I didn't want her to think I hated her.
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home
"I'm happy you came Allie." She said. That made me look up and meet her eyes. Hers were filled with compassion. I got the feeling with Lucas she was a great mom. If the timing had been different she would have been a great one to me as well.
"Thank you." I whispered. That was all anyone wanted to hear from their parents. She was happy to see me. That was all I needed to know. It was time for me to go.
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home
"Thanks for not throwing me out when you found out I was here." I said standing up. She did to.
"I handled things so badly before I can't apologize enough I wanted you to have a good life Allie you deserve it." She said sincerely. I nodded appreciatively. She couldn't have been more wrong about a good life for me, but at least she tried. Richard and Veronica made all their money on lying to people and being fake. They fooled Karen into thinking they wanted children and she believed them. Who wouldn't?
"I'll remember that." I said and picked up my backpack and put the folder back in it.
I'm better off alone
"You're leaving?" Nathan asked standing up with Lucas.
"It's time." I said turning to them. I tried again to get a read on either of them and I couldn't.
"I don't think I just forget about the fact I have a sister." Nathan whispered.
"I know, but my life is in Charlotte. I need to get back. I'm so glad I decided to come and met you both." I said honestly. My walls were crumbling right before me. I was standing with my brothers and my mom. It didn't matter that Dan wasn't there this was my family.
"Even though we just met I'll miss you." Lucas said smiling. It was nice feeling like I almost belonged somewhere.
"Same." I whispered. I usually didn't get emotional at all. I was refusing to cry. In the past two days I had almost cried a number of times, but I wouldn't. I was stronger than that. At least I convinced myself I was.
No matter how hard I try
You're never satisfied
"So is this it?" Nathan asked.
"No I'll see you during basketball season." I said trying to smile. At least I'd get to see them again.
"That won't be for a while." He said.
"That will only give you more time to truly miss me." I joked. The boys smiled.
Karen stood back watching the interaction between Allie and the boys. Her daughter was here and she was more beautiful than Karen could have ever hoped for. She knew when she gave birth to her 7 lb. 6 ounce little girl that she would never forgive herself for giving her up. To this day every August 13th all she could do was stay in bed all day and cry. Lucas would come in worried and ask what was wrong she would say she was sick and needed to stay in bed.
This is not a home
I think I'm better off alone
It was surreal and she felt that the second Allison Nicole Scott stepped out that door a huge part of her would be taken away all over again, just like the day the nurse took Allie out of her arms and handed her off to Veronica.
"I guess I'll see you later." I said approaching Lucas and I gave him a hug. It wasn't as quick as the one the first night I was here, but I couldn't stay in it for much longer. I backed up plastering a smile promising that I'd be okay. I walked to Nathan. I did the same thing with him. I tried to get close, but not too close. I started toward the door.
You always disappear
Even when you're here
"Thanks for the bed Luke." I said stopping and turning around briefly. He laughed.
"Anytime." He said.
"And Nathan I'll remember to never eat your cereal again." I joked he laughed. Karen looked again and smiled happily at the interaction. The three of them seemed so comfortable around each other. Allie had only been there since Saturday and she could tell Nathan and Lucas would miss her. They already had inside jokes and everything.
"Bye Miss Roe." I said not knowing how to say goodbye to her. She came towards me and slowly wrapped her arms around me. I was tense at first, but then melted into her hug. Her hair smelled like vanilla. That was the same scented shampoo I used. I smirked having to bite my lip before my mask came off all together. I couldn't let that happen. The numbness was resurfacing as always. I knew I was going to slip away again, but this time it wouldn't be as bad. I met my mom I was as fine as I'd ever be now.
This is not my home
I think I'm better off alone
"Call me mom." She whispered into my ear. I froze. I could call her mom. I couldn't handle all of this good I didn't know how to react. I pulled away from her with a small but real smile.
"Bye mom." I said almost inaudible, but she heard me. She was on the verge of crying again. I don't know how I was able to become so attached in such a short amount of time. I looked back at Lucas and Nathan standing side by side. Until I saw them again that was how I'd remember the Scott brothers. My brothers.
"Bye Allie." Lucas said I gave him a last smirk which he returned with one identical.
"Be safe Allison." Nathan said and looked at him and rolled my eyes.
"Don't worry Natie I'll be fine." I said and gave him a little smirk like Lucas it was returned to match mine. I'd miss seeing his eyes that were the same color as mine. Me and Lucas had the exact same skin color. I sort of felt like a perfect combination between them. I opened the door and waved as I shut it.
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a
I called a cab and within minutes it pulled up. I kept my back to the house knowing if I looked back somehow I wouldn't be able to leave. It felt good to be wanted. I loved that Nathan, Lucas and their friends actually asked if I could stay that feeling I got when they said that would stay in my memories forever. Unfortunately I wouldn't feel it again, or anything.
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home
I told the driver where to take me. I pulled out my iPod and turned it all the way up and only when we passed the 'You Are Leaving Tree Hill' sign did I let a single tear roll down my cheek.
TBC! Please review I have some major ideas for this so please stay with me! Thanks for reading. 'Home' by Three Days Grace. Until next time...
xoxoxo Marissa Davis
