Finn needed fresh air, he needed to clear his head, to think straight. His head hurt from sobbing, his eyes burned from the tears, his sleeves were wet with tears, and his heart ached from the loss. He stepped out of the base. The sun shone through the leaves, creating dancing shadows on the ground. In one of the beams of light was a pile of brown fabric, Finn slowly walked up to it. He picked up Poe's jacket. He sat by the base, leaning against the walls. He clutched the jacket and cried into the smooth fabric. His hand ran over, the stitches, which made him cry even harder. Why hadn't he tried harder to fix their relationship? He should've tried harder, Poe loved him. Finn knew he loved him back. He clutched the jacket, as more sobs racked his body. Just then he felt a light touch on his shoulder.

"Hey," Rey's soft voice spoke just above him, "breathe, just breathe." He sensed her sitting next to him, but didn't look up. He felt her arm around his shoulders, he looked at her, tears streaming down his face. He could see the tears in her eyes.

"I loved him," Finn croaked, "I loved him."

"I know you did," Rey spoke softly, "I know." Finn placed his head on Rey shoulder. She pulled him closer, and they sat there, sharing their grief.

Hours past, and Rey and Finn just sat outside. They sat until the sun went down, and the forest went dark. With the dark also came the cool air, and the sounds of creatures in the trees. So, Rey and Finn walked inside, closing the door behind them. The searched the corridors till they found the bunks where others were resting. They found two stacked bunks. Finn climbed up the ladder to the top bunk, as Rey settled into the bottom bunk. Finn laid down on the uncomfortable bunk, and stared at the ceiling.

"How the heck do you turn off these lights?" someone called out. There was a spark of laughter then the lights shut off. Laying in the dark room Finn silently let tears stream down his cheeks. He didn't know what to do. He clutch the jacket, pulled it close, and fell into a deep sleep.

By the morning word had gotten around to everyone, that Poe had died. Finn sat on the bunk, clutching the jacket to his chest. Rey brought him some food they had found, but he didn't eat. She came back and forth from guard duty, and helping fix the bases systems. She was worried for Finn, she'd realized that Finn hadn't ate the food she brought. He was drinking any water either, or talking. She worried that he was losing his will to live. She was walking back to the bunks when Leia pulled her aside.

"How's Finn doing?" She asked quietly.

"Not good," Rey replied, she felt her eyes watering, "he's not eating or drinking. He won't talk to anyone. He's just sitting, I'm afraid, afraid he's lost his will to live." She broke into tears, Leia held Rey closely, in what felt like a mother's embrace.

"You're under so much stress." Leia said quietly, "I'm surprised you've made it this far. Your strong Rey, and it's ok to break sometimes. If you want someone else to check on Finn periodically, I could find someone." Rey took a deep breath, and wiped away her tears.

"I can do it. Plus, I don't think Finn knows anyone else very well here. I can do it." Her tone was light, and Leia smiled at her. She gave her one more quick hug, before walking off. REy turned and headed towards the bunks. When she walked in she saw Finn still sitting on the bed. The food she brought untouched. She climbed the ladder to sit with Finn. When she sat next to him, he didn't move.

"Finn?" She spoke softly, as if speaking to a scared kid.

"Yeah?" Finn spoke even quieter.

"Finn," Rey continued, "You have to eat. You have to drink. You can't just give up. Poe would've wanted you to, keep living. He loved you Finn, he loved you so much. Yes, he wouldn't be upset at you being sad, but he'd be disappointed if you gave up." Finn turned to Rey, his eyes and cheeks wet from tears.

"How can I carry on?" He asked dryly, "I lost the one person I loved. How can I move on, I miss him so much, I want him back. To hold him, to be with him, to— to kiss him again. I want him back Rey, I want him back." Finn broke down wrapped her arms around him again. She pulled him close, and let him sob into her shoulder.

Days had past, and Finn was starting to feel a little better. He'd started helping out afters his talk with Rey, and found that the old base had used similar, but older, technology to that used on Starkiller Base. He'd immediately found jobs to do, and things he could fix. He took guard and look out duty like everyone else, He'd also helped search the base for non perishable food. HE was fitting in more and more with the Resistance. He had realized that Poe had been right to tell him he belonged here. That made the loss sting more.

Later that day Finn was out on guard duty, staring at the sky, when he saw a streak of light. He immediately recognized it as a ship coming out of hyperspace. He immediately rushed inside. He ran straight into the control room.

"General," He said, panting, "a ship just came out of hyperspace, right above the planet." General Organa, looked up, fear in her eyes.

"Show me." She said. Finn lead her to where he'd been standing guard. Many people had followed him outside. They all looked up at the sky, to see the ship descending. As it got closer, the shape became more defined. The X shaped wings came more into focus, and the long front of the ship sharpeded. The shape was impossible to not recognize. The X-Wing touched down in the clearing, and the hatch opened.

"Poe?" Leia asked, as a man stepped out of the X-Wing.

"POE!" Finn yelled, and ran to the X-Wing. Before Poe could even completely get off the ladder, Finn lifted him off. Poe wrapped his legs around Finn's waist to prevent himself from falling.

"You're, you're ok." Finn said, his voice shaking, tears in his eyes, "you're not dead!"

"Of course I'm not," Poe said, laughing lightly, then whispered "god I missed you." Poe grasped Finn's jacket, and kissed him. At first Finn was shocked by the tenderness of Poe's kiss. He soft lips against his rough one's. But his shock didn't last long. He let himself melt into Poe's kiss. There were cheers, and whistles from the group, as Finn and Poe kissed. Poe let his legs drop, as Finn's grip around him loosen, but their lips remained locked. When they finally did break apart, Poe's cheeks were red. Finn couldn't tell if he was embarrassed or tired. Poe smiled at Finn, and Finn smiled back. Rey came up and hugged both men. They all laughed in relief and exhaustion. Finn let his arm drop from Poe's waist. Without Finn's support Poe crumpled to the ground from exhaustion.

"Whoa!" Finn gasped, and immediately dropped next to him. Draping his arms around his shoulders, Finn lifted Poe up, letting him lean against him, wrapping his free arm around his waist. Rey grabbed Poe's other arm, draping it over her shoulders. Poe smiled again.

"When did you get a lovey dovey?" Poe said, weakly laughing. Finn just laughed, helping the the limping Poe through the crowd. People clapped as the went through the crowd. Finn and Rey helped Poe to the old med center and laid him on an old cot. Poe groaned in pain.

"How'd you get back?" Rey asked.

"Well," Poe said, "my ship never exploded. I mean like, part of one of the engines did, and that the explosion you guys heard, I'm guessing. But my comm cut out because it fell and I stomped on it, on accident of course. I was able to escape through hyperspace. But my engine was pretty badly broken. I had to stop at Bespin, where I had myship fixed. Then I hopped around space a little to make sure that the First Order hadn't followed me, before I returned back here." Poe gave a weak smile, the winced again. Finn didn't even realize he looked worried until Poe said something.

"Hey." he said, "don't worry, I'll be ok." He grasped Finn's hand. His hands were rough, but comforting. Finn smiled. He stood there holding Poe's hand, until he felt Poe's grip loosen. He looked down to see that Poe had passed out from exhaustion, but he still didn't leave his side.

Poe stood outside the base, looking up into the sky. Suddenly a star destroyer cut through the sky. Before he could do anything, a ball of electricity cut through sky. It struck the base, causing it to explode in flames, and send him flying back. Poe stood up and ran to the base.

"FINN!" he cried, "FINN! FINN!"

"FINN!" Poe yelled, as he sat up violently in the cot.

"What!" Finn snapped awake. He'd fallen asleep sitting on the floor nexts to Poe's cot. HE turned to see tears streaming down his face. Finn lifted himself onto the cot, and wrapped his arms around Poe.

"Hey," he whispered, "I'm right here, it was just a bad dream. I'm right here."

"But it felt so real—" Poe said weakly.

"It'll be ok." Finn replied, and held Poe tightly. He turned his head towards him, "It'll be ok." He kissed Poe gently, letting their lips melt together.

"Finn?" A female voice called, Finn let his lips break away from Poe's, and turned to see Rose, sitting up in her cot, staring at Finn and Poe. In her eyes a mix of anger and sadness. "What, what's going on here?" Finn could see her eyes welling up with tears.

"Rose," He started, tripping over his words, "uh-um, it's, uh, nothing's." The minute the words left Finn's lips, he wanted to take them back. He felt Poe squirm to get loose of Finn's embrace. Finn let his arms drop. Poe stood up, looked at Finn one more time, then looked at Rose, then looked back at Finn. He started to walk out the door, but Finn grabbed his arm,

"Poe," He started, "I— I didn't, I. Don't go." Poe just tugged his arm away, his eyes pleading for Finn to let him go, "Don't go. I didn't mean it like that, don't, please don't go." his voice wavered. Poe glanced back over at Rose, he realized he'd started to dislike her. Not hate her, but ever since she kissed Finn, Poe'd seen her as a competition. Remembering the pain he'd felt when he'd seen Rose kiss Finn, he looked back at Finn. Rose walked over and pressed her lips to Finn's. Poe yanked his arm away from Finn and walked off. Finn pushed Rose away.

"Finn?" Rose asked, voice wavering, "I thought… I… You… Us."

"Rose," Finn spoke slowly, minding his words, "there never was an us. I've loved Poe from the beginning, and he loves me."

"YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS!" Rose yelled, tears streaming down her cheeks, "You were raised by the First Order, who taught you to not give a damn about others, you don't know what love is! But I could show you. Poe can't…. Please, let me show me." She took Finn's hand, and looked into his eyes. For a moment Finn believed her, he believed she could show him real love. But then he remembered how he felt when Poe had kissed him, and he pulled his hand away from hers. "That's where you're wrong." Finn said coldly, "He can show me love, and I know what love is."

"Finn!" Rose called, "FINN!" but Finn didn't turn around.

Poe walked to control room. He was surprised to find it empty. He sat in one of the revolving chairs, and thought about Finn. He didn't know how to feel about Rose or Finn or anything. He'd thought Rose was out of Finn's mind, but he wasn't sure anymore. He stared up at the grey ceiling, and spun the chair. Pretty soon he was dizzy. He stood up to leave, but as he stood his legs immediately gave out. But his fall was stopped by someone.

"Whoa there pilot." Finn's voice whispered, "You ok?" His vision refocusing Poe looked up at Finn. His flawless dark skin, his dark eyes, and sharp jaw, he realized he'd love him no matter what.

"Look," Finn began, "back there with Rose, she doesn't mean anything to me. I love you and only you, I didn't mean to—"

"You so adorable." Poe whispered, as he kissed Finn. Their kiss quickly intensified. Poe pinned Finn against a wall, their lips still locked. Their kiss was interrupted by Leia.

"Excuse me, I'm trying to run a rebellion here." She said, sounding annoyed. "So, if you guys are done sharing air, we need people for guard duty."

"Yes General," Poe nodded, his cheeks bright red. Leia left the room, and Finn smiled at Poe.

"Come on." He said, "we should go."

"One minute." Poe said, he reached down the back of his shirt, and pulled up a chain. He lifted the chain over his head, and Finn relied it was a ring on a necklace, "This was my mothers ring, given to me to give to my chosen partner." Poe place the ring in Finn's open palm, kissing him again he whispered. "Keep it, it suits you."

The End

And that is the end folks. I know it doesn't seem like a long journey, but I started this fanfic back in January (yikes). This story has gone through so many edits (like all my friends have read over it and made suggestion) so it means so much to me that people read it. I just wanna say thank you! and I look forward to posting more stories, I already have a Stucky story going (yay). Stay tuned for more, till then, tata!