Chapter 4 – False pretense
Warnings: Some sexual content in this chapter
Germany never came back last night. I waited up late into the night to see when he'd be coming back, but he never did. Prussia eventually told me to go to bed and wait for Germany in the morning. As usual, he wasn't even the least bit concerned for his brother's well-being.
I know Germany is strong, but I can't help but worry about him.
I didn't get any sleep that night; my mind was still reeling from last night's events. How one little letter changed everything in an instant. Things were never going to be the same between Prussia, Germany and me. I may have also permanently damaged their brotherly relationship by setting them against one another.
I let out another sigh as I rolled over on my bed to face the ceiling.
I still didn't know what I was going to say to Germany when I did see him. I didn't know if I should tell him the truth or apologize for writing the letter in the first place. Germany was so infuriated when he left I doubt he even wants to look at me. Would Germany kick me out of the Axis for this? I couldn't be certain. He would have every right to since he is pretty much our commander and all.
I don't know what I would do if that were to happen. Join the Allies like Romano says we should, I suppose. But it would break my heart to be pitted against Germany. I want Germany to succeed and be happy; I can't help him achieve that if I'm on the other side fighting against him.
I didn't know how I could possibly fix things between me and Germany. I had no idea what to say or what to do. I knew Germany never liked to talk about his feelings so getting him to talk to me about it would be nearly impossible. But I couldn't just leave things the way they were with everything as screwed up as it was now.
Especially my situation with Prussia.
I never knew the ex-nation was so lonely. It never occurred to me that the Prussian longingly desired for a relationship. He seemed perfectly content with being by himself most of the time. But I guess that shows how much I know. The longing in the Prussian's eyes was almost painful to look at. The man had been craving for any kind of love and affection and he wanted it from me.
I felt bad for Prussia. If I had known he'd been suffering by himself for so long I would have helped him out. I would have done everything I possibly could to help him find someone. Maybe introduced him to some pretty women or something. But now I see no way of doing any of that. The Prussian was so starved for love he jumped at the first opportunity presented to him, which unfortunately happened to be my letter.
And now he has been fooled into thinking I've been in love him this whole time. And Germany thinks so too.
But I can't keep up this charade with Prussia forever. Sooner or later the truth will come out and then what will happen?
I pulled up my sleeves to look at the dark bruises on my wrist from where Prussia grabbed me. I should count myself lucky he didn't shatter the bones considering how strong he is.
'Now you are going to accept this relationship one way or another, do I make myself clear?'
Prussia's words rang in my head as I remembered the threat laced in that sentence. I rubbed my wrist as I considered that telling Prussia the truth was not going to be so easy. The man was totally bipolar last night, going from uncontrollable joy to emotionless wrath and back in less than a minute. Prussia was undoubtedly hell bent on continuing this so-called relationship we began, whether I wanted to or not.
Even for a retired nation, Prussia is as dangerous as ever.
I jumped in my bed when I heard a knocking at my door. I was hesitant to answer since it could only be one of the three people that stayed here, two of which I did NOT want to see right now.
I eventually got up and timidly opened the door. It was Japan with Clove in his arms.
"Oh Japan, Buongiorno. What brings you here on this fine bella mattina?" I asked relieved to only see my friend at the door.
"Ohayōgozaimasu Itaria-san. Your cat was rorring around outside my door and making odd cat noises. It was starting to annoy me." Japan said almost apologetically.
"Le mie scuse, Japan. Clove does that a lot sometimes." I said sheepishly as I took the cat and held him to my chest. I then noticed that Clove had a nice looking collar around his neck with a shiny nametag attached to it.
"Japan did you get Clove a collar?"
"No Mr. Germany got it for him the other day. He told me it was a gift for you."
The guilt that washed over me was almost unbearable. Germany was always doing such nice things for me, would all of that change now because of the letter?
"Japan have you seen Germany at all this morning?" I asked fretfully.
"Yes he just got home a few minutes ago. He told me he was sick with the stomach fru so he has cancelled all training sessions for today."
That doesn't sound like Germany at all. I already knew that he wasn't sick with a bug; it didn't take a genius to figure out that he had been drinking all night and was probably just very hung-over.
But cancelling the training session for the troops two days in a row? His soldiers are going to become restless and edgy at this rate. Something we cannot afford at this stage in the war. Those soldiers need to stay active or they will become lazy and unfit for battle.
"Japan do you think we could train Germany's troops today? Since Germany is sick with the flu we could take over just until he gets better." I asked my friend.
"I don't know if that is a good idea Itaria-san. Those are Germany's troops and they onry follow his orders. Prus Germany might be angry with us if he found out we were ordering his troops around without his permission." Japan said in his usual robotic tone.
"What if we got Prussia to help us? They would follow him like they would Germany right?"
"I suppose so..."
"Molto buona! I'll go get Prussia and you get the troops to the training field pronto!" I said as I set Clove down on my bed as headed down the stairs with Japan.
"May I ask where this sudden enthusiasm for training came from Itaria-san?"
I am doing this for Germany; it's my fault he spent the whole night drinking and got himself sick. This is the least I can do for him.
"We can't allow Germany's troops to get used to these numerous days off. They will become slothful and uncoordinated if left to their own devices all day long." I said as we stood in the kitchen.
"That is a good point, Itaria-san. I will bring the troops here immediately." Japan said as he hurried out the door.
I took a deep breath to steady my nerves as I made my down to Germany's basement.
Prussia was fast asleep on his bed when I walked into his room. His bedroom and clean and organized, much like Germany's. One of the very few traits they actually shared. I walked up to the side of his bed and gently shook his shoulder.
"Prus...I mean Gilbert! Wake up; I need to speak with you per favore!" I said in a loud whisper.
Prussia rolled onto his side, opening his dreary eyes while scratching his package. He smiled when he saw it was me.
"Guten Morgen mein Italien. What brings you down here?" Prussia asked with a sleepy grin.
"I came to ask if..."
Before I could finish Prussia grabbed my arm and pulled me into bed underneath him. Prussia leaned down with his hands on both sides of my head and whispered against my lips.
"If you wanted to help me take care of my morning wood?" Prussia whispered seductively as he ground his hips into mine. It was then that I realized Prussia was completely naked underneath the sheets. His hard member insistently poked me in the gut, demanding attention.
I gave out a shrill yelp as I pushed my hands onto Prussia's shoulders to put some much needed distance between us.
"What! No, I came to ask if you would help me and Japan train Germany's troops for today. He's not feeling well and someone needs to command the troops." I said trying my best to push Prussia off of me, which was like trying to move a freight train on my part.
"Of course I can help you Ita-chan. But that doesn't mean we can't have a little fun first." Prussia said while kissing my neck.
"Please Prussia we need to-"
'SMACK!'
"I thought I told you to stop calling me zat!"
I was stunned. I had never been smacked across the face before in such anger, not even by Romano. I could feel the stinging sensation on my cheek as tears began to prickle my eyes.
"I'm sorry Feli. Here let me kiss it better." Prussia said as he grabbed my face and kissed the redness on my cheek where he had slapped it.
"But you should know better than to go against any of my requests Italien. See that you don't make that mistake again." Prussia said while looking directly into my eyes, the intimidation evident in his red irises.
"Mi dispiace Gilbert, but I'm just so used to calling you Prussia that's all." I said fearfully while Prussia looked down at me with cold indifference.
He smiled affectionately then before he responded.
"Like I said Ita-chan, don't make that mistake again." His smile was warm but his eyes spelled trouble should I cross him again.
"Si." I said compliantly, not wanting to quell the Prussian's wrath any further.
"Sehr gut. Now let's continue where we left off, shall we?"
Prussia attacked my mouth with vigor as he ran his hands all over body. I timidly kissed him back to prevent another outburst from the unreasonable man.
"Berühre mich. Hol mir einen runter." Prussia demanded between feverish kisses.
I did not want to touch Prussia in that way. I was never attracted to Prussia in this sense so I wasn't even the least bit turned on. But I knew to stop his actions now would have dire consequences.
You could close your eyes and pretend he's Germany.
It was a shameful and degrading thing to do but my mind couldn't stop itself. I pictured Germany on top of me, touching me with loving caresses. I imagined Germany kissing me with such fiery passion that I thought I was going to melt from the desire. I thought of Germany's strong hands running through my hair and up my shirt.
I thought of Germany's broad chest as I ran my hands down his body. I imagined it was Germany's member I was stroking. I imagined it was his grunts of approval I heard in my ear, begging me to keep going. I imagined his blue eyes full of want and desire. His face beaming with love and adoration. His deep voice saying he loved me.
"Gottverdammte" Prussia said with a groan as he came in my hand.
Prussia was breathing heavily on shaky arms as he leaned down to give a chaste kiss on the lips before getting up to go to his closet.
I discreetly wiped my hand on his bed sheets as I got up to fix the ruffles in my uniform. Prussia quickly got dressed and was soon standing in his military outfit. He smoothed down in hair in the mirror before turning to face me.
"Gute let's get going."
"Das Tempo und rechts halten!" I ordered the troops as they ran the obstacle course.
It felt good to be giving orders; it was like I was a nation all over again. My chest filled with pride as the troops made great progress today. I was glad I could show off my leadership skills to mein little Italy as well. To prove to him how awesome I really am.
I looked over to find Italy trying to teach Japan proper Western military etiquette. My heart raced as I watched Italy from where I stood. The young man was everything I could have ever hoped for in a lover. Yes it is true, he does try my patience at times but I can forgive Feli for his discrepancies because I love him.
I just wish he would stop constantly fretting over my brother; his thoughts should be solely on me.
West should not be moping around the house like a sorry sad sack. He should be out here training his own troops, not locked away in his room somewhere.
West is going to have to get used to the idea of Italy and I being together sooner or later. His little temper tantrums aren't going to change anything. He needs to get over himself and figure out that losing Italy to me is not the end of the world. There are plenty of other fishes in the sea.
But I shouldn't need to worry much about it too much. West is a tough kid and will pick himself back up and move on with his life in no time. I'm sure of it.
"Schneller! Ich habe dir nicht gesagt zu verlangsamen!" I yelled to the troops as their pace began to slacken.
I looked back over to see if Italy was watching my awesome display of leadership, but he was no longer there with Japan.
Where the hell did he go? I did not say he could leave yet!
I stomped over to the small Japanese man to demand answer.
"Vhere is Italy? Training is not yet over." I asked; agitation clear in my gruff voice.
"He said he had to go use the restroom and that he would be back in a moment." Japan said with his thick oriental accent.
"Vell why did he not ask me for permission first?
Japan stiffened at my harsh tone before he answered.
"I was not aware he needed to ask you for permission, Prussia-san."
"Vell now you are. Continue on wis your training zen."
Japan bowed slightly before excusing himself and returning to his own training.
That boy has got 2 minutes before I'm going in after him.
I watched the troops hustle through the obstacle course while I tried to wait patiently for Italy's return.
Yes things just seem to be getting worse and worse for Italy. Unfortunately for him it's only downhill from here.
Thanks again to those who have left a review, I love hearing what readers have to say.
Also if you find any mistranslations in the story, I apologize. I'm not fluent in Italian or German so all I have to work with is Google translate.
Until next time
mcpidy
Translations:
Italian:
bella mattina – beautiful morning
Le mie scuse – my apologies
Molto buona – very good
Pronto – quick
per favore – please
Mi dispiace – I'm sorry
German:
Sehr gut – very good
Berühre mich. Hol mir einen runter – Touch me. Jack me off.
Gottverdammte – goddamn
Gute – good
Das Tempo und rechts halten – Pick up the pace and stay to the right
Schneller! Ich habe dir nicht gesagt zu verlangsamen! – Faster! I did not tell you to slow down!
Japanese:
Ohayōgozaimasu – Good morning
