Hey everyone thanks for reading this story but I still wish more people would read it :( but im gonna continue though! If you like my writing you can check out my other story that I just completed :D its called ''Friendzoned?'' Its honestly very sweet so have fun reading and please review so I'll have the drive to write a longer chapter next time ;) loveXx

Sam's pov

I wish I could make the right choice but its impossible. If I stay, Freddie and I will drift further apart and break up. I definitely don't want to lose him. But if I move out I'm leaving him all by himself and we might also break up. I have the feeling I'm holding on to something thats long gone. I understand that its something huge to get over but I don't think he needs me that much or loves for that matter. He used to say it everyday, multiple times. I smiled before he would say it when I went to sleep, in the morning when I go and sometimes when were watching tv. Its has been a month now.

''I love you too''

I know whats best thats why I'm getting my clothes out of our closet and into my bag. Carly told me to wait a little bit longer because it could get better, but it didn't. Its time to go. I heard a soft knocking on the door.

''Yes?''

The door opened revealing Freddie dressed as someone who doesn't go outside very often.

''What are you doing Sam?'' He asked, his voice rasped.

I took a breath and closed my bag. I had everything I needed, except Freddie.

''You know, I'm going to Carly's for a while''

''Why? You live here and its perfectly fine''

''I think you need some time alone, I'll come by soon.. promise''

When I didn't get an answer I just slung my bag over my shoulder and walked out of the room. I was sick of waiting.

''Youre making it reaal easy for yourself aren't you Sam?'' He said when he walked after me through the hall. I opened my mouth to say something but..

''No don't even say something, just have fun at Carly's'' He walked away from me and sat on the couch drinking his coffee.

''What happened to you?''

''My mother died'' He answered bitter.

I swallowed ''I know but why are you angry at me?''

''I'm not I'm just not happy! That could happened to me to you know!''

''Whats thats suppose to mean?'' I knew where he was getting at, just wanted to hear him say it.

''I have been there for you every single time Sam! When youre dad left, when your boyfriends broke up with you, when you had a hard time getting into college, when youre depressed and you can't even stay with me when I'm absolutely devastated about my mother's dead''

''Don't you dare turn on me like that! I tried being there for you, but you have been pushing me away since the very first day!''

''All you could do was cry! When I comfort someone I atleast try to be usefull''

Okay, I tried catching my breath because this was turning into a full blown shouting match.

''Freddie don't be such a bastard and think before you say something'' You could hear by my tone of voice that I was holding it all in.

''You know what I think, I think you should go back to the filthy place you came from Sam''

I started speaking softly again ''I think all you wanna do is fight with me now'' I walked untill I was in his face ''Because you don't have a mom anymore''

I was done I just couldn't keep mean Sam inside anymore. I turned around after that and didn't look at him. He just pushed the wrong buttons. So I'm really done I walked back and bend down to grab my bag. I figured I'll just go to Carly's now and straighten it all out.

That was untill I saw a coffee mug flying towards my face.