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Axel fidgeted with his cloak as Roxas paced around his room.

"You're telling me that Superior Xemnas forced you to rape Zexion as punishment?"

"Yes."

"And he told you that he did this?"

"Yes."

"That FUCKING SON OF A BITCH!" Roxas shouted. Axel was taken aback. He'd never heard Roxas yell.

"He thinks he can just do whatever the fuck he wants with our lives? We maybe Nobodies but we can still fucking feel pain! What the fuck is he trying to do? Zexion is fucking scarred for life, and you're not much better! God-damnit, could he do anything more fucking stupid?"

"Rox, keep your voice down…" Axel said quietly. Roxas looked at him, stupefied.

"Keep my voice down? Is that all you can say?"

"I didn't tell you the worst part…" Axel took a deep breath. Roxas could take the next part in so many different ways.

"Xemnas didn't take control of my body or anything. He just…he just let my innermost desires go. One of them was to make Zexion mine, and Xemnas just stripped away the inhibitions of doing it by force."

Roxas stared at him for a long time, emotion that shouldn't have been there roiling behind his eyes.

"So…you wanted to rape Zexion but were afraid to do it?"

"No. I wanted Zexion, desperately, but I knew he didn't want me. But I know that rape is one of the biggest crimes anyone can ever commit. Xemnas removed my inhibitions about that."

"And your blacking out? What did that mean?"

"I think that was myself, blocking out what I was about to do. Xemnas didn't put the effort into making me stay awake for it."

Silence reigned for a long time. Roxas sighed and put a hand on his hip.

"I think you'd better just stay away from Zexion for a while. He'll approach you when he's ready."

"Rox, you know he'll always be too terrified to approach me."

"I'm sure he knows that you wouldn't just rape him for no reason, Axel."

"…I hope you're right."


The next week was full of avoidances and silence. Zexion rarely left his room, and Axel stayed away from that area of the keep. Roxas flitted between both, checking on Zexion periodically and comforting Axel when needed. Axel knew that without Roxas he would have gone crazy with the pain of his actions.

Axel learned to do as Xemnas ordered him, to the letter. As much as he loathed the man and his missions, he dreaded what Xemnas would make him do next.

His biggest worry was that Xemnas would make him do it, just for fun. That was partly why he avoided Zexion; that and the man still wouldn't let Axel near him. The one time Axel had seen Zexion, the look of utter terror in those beautiful blue eyes had nearly killed him on the spot.

Roxas constantly told him that Zexion would get to the place where Axel would be able to talk to him. It would just take time.

Axel didn't know how much more "taking time" he could stand.


Zexion locked his door at night now. He'd always thought he'd never have to, but he'd been proven wrong. Sometimes Demyx slept over, if only for comfort. The musician was content to sleep in a bundle of blankets on the floor, since Zexion couldn't let anyone else be in his bed.

Truth be told, he missed Axel's presence. He had always watched the other Nobody from afar, thinking how wildly beautiful he was. Crimson hair flying every which way, jade eyes standing out from a strikingly handsome face, and the black coat accenting lovely pearly skin. Zexion had almost wished for Axel to show some romantic interest.

Well, he did, didn't he?

A bitter laugh bubbled up in Zexion's throat as he thought this. The thought had come unbidden, and Zexion felt the tears well up in his eyes for the thousandth time since that night. He buried his face in his pillow and sobbed.


Down the hall, Axel lay in bed. He stared up at his ceiling, thinking only of sapphire eyes and soft silvery-blue hair.

Lying there, he decided that he'd waited long enough.

Zexion had to know, and Axel would tell him the very next day.