Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, only 2 shirts, 3 posters, all 4 DVDs, and an Edward blanket

Chapter 4

The morning after my evening with Carlisle was when his questions began. Where I came from and how I got there, how old I was at the time of my transformation. I was terrified to give him my answers…but never the less I answered as truthfully as my paranoid mind would allow.

"Well I was born and raised in what is now Spain. I have been traveling across Europe with my older sister and we took a charter here to London. I was about thirteen winters when I was bitten by my husband." , I told him with a slight hesitation, what if he asked about my husband? Why had I not considered the possibility that he might want some elaboration on my past life? Stupid, stupid, stupid, I scolded myself.

"Your husband was one of our kind?", he asked me, shocked that I was married so young.

"No, he wasn't like us…he was a true monster.", the longer I spoke of him the more paranoid I became. He always swore to me that he would always find me, that I would always belong to him. Carlisle must have sensed my fear, for he immediately took me in his arm and told me I didn't have to speak about it anymore. I leaned into his touch. Although I would never admit it because of Karina, I still thought of Edward frequently. Carlisle reminded me so much of him, I felt terrible…using Carlisle and pretending it was Edward. Except this time, there's no annoying older sister to intrude and ruin everything, I thought to myself.

I told Carlisle that I would be fine without him for a few hours while he left to study. As I watched him walk away through the window of his room I saw children play in the street around him, all of them waving good-byes as the handsome doctor left. He smiled and waved back, leaving the children behind. The sight warmed my cold, unbeating heart. That's how it could be… me, a wife telling my husband I'll see him in the afternoon… watching our children and their friends play outside. It's a shame it'll never happen to me.

I saw that for the sake of his maids he kept food in the house and glanced outside the window again. The children were still at play. I couldn't hold back my smile as I saw a girl with golden curls running after a ball in the street. She reminds me of Catalina… how can that be?, I asked myself.

Catalina… Edward and Karina's first-born. My favorite and only niece. I loved that little girl. She and Edward Zachary were the only children I tolerated. I loved them and spoiled them both, being their only maternal aunt had its advantages. Seeing that little girl in the street and looking back at the kitchen, I decided I wanted to do something… to remind me of the old days when I was the second mother they went to when Karina said no.

I tried my best and finally ended my hard work with little fruit pies for each child. I made "Catalina's" special…and put honey and a rose bud on top. I grabbed the tray and went outside to bring the treats to the children. When they saw me walking towards them with the treats, they came running. I smiled and handed each child a pie until I had gotten to the little girl. She smiled the brightest when she saw me, and I smiled back. An older boy came up behind her, "Kathleen, thank the nice lady." Kathleen, I thought, Kathleen…Catalina… God, why do you torture me so? "Thank you Miss Princess" , she said. Princess? How could she possibly tell? "It was no trouble my darlings. You, Kathleen was it? Why did you call me that?", I asked, curious of what her answer might be. "Because you're beautiful, like the princesses in the book my Papa reads to me."

So simple her answer, and yet I was perplexed. I was a princess in her eyes because I was beautiful… if she saw Karina…if Karina saw her. I shuddered to think of what might happen. "Are you going to marry the doctor?", she asked me. I laughed, "No my dear, I'm just an old friend visiting him." "Well then could you find him a wife? He looks very unhappy." I stared at her as if she'd grown another head. Find Carlisle someone? How can I do that when I can't fix my sister, or even myself? It's madness… absolute madness.

"How about I promise you this instead, Love. I'll see to it that he's as happy as can be someday, and whoever she is, I promise you that she'll be wonderful." She stared at me for a moment and held out her tiny hand. "We have an accord then!", she exclaimed, smiling proudly. I smiled back and took her hand in mine.

I stepped back into Carlisle's house when the clouds got lighter. I would ask him to finish his schooling and come to the New World with me and Karina. I looked around for some parchment and a pen. I wrote Karina a letter explaining my situation and asking her if she wanted to come along. When all was said and done, I sealed the letter with a wax seal and sent the post boy to the docks. It would reach her in about a week. That should be long enough to leave. After that we could all put the brutality of our pasts behind us. We would be safe away from Europe. America was waiting.

A fresh start for us both, or so I thought.

A/N :Well this chapter was a little more fun. The real Twilight characters are coming in really soon. (YAY!)

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Love,

Dark Angel 1313

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